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Hello Ladies and Gentlemen, I am here to tell you a story, a story about myself. One, that may hopefully be of help to those who read it.

 

Suicide, Porn

 

Already as a kid, I had a very addictive personality. Certain events in my childhood made me want to seek escape in my thoughts. At home, I would sit for days on end on the home pc playing games. When I was in 4th grade school, I watched my first porn movie. I became hooked right away. It increased my sex-drive dramatically. From that day on I was masturbating for three times a day.

That went on till the age of 16. At that time, I felt like I was in a coma. Life felt meaningless to me. That’s when I decided I had enough and tried to take my own life. Fortunately I didn’t succeed. When I was 17, I started taking Ritalin. At the beginning, there was a remarkable change. I was hyper attentive. School became a breeze and fun for the first time in my life. However, that also proved my first experience with a drug addiction. After that I started taking more everyday which increased the side effects greatly. Eight months later I tried to commit suicide again. This time however my family got to know about it.


When I was a little older I started watching bondage porn. At that time I had a very stupid idea. I wanted to watch some real rape videos. So, I went on the Deep Web to look for some. I watched three videos, which had a tremendous negative impact on me.


What I did that day was indeed the worst mistake of my life. It was a very bad thing.

 

 

Drugs

 

When I was 18 years old I had my first experiences with legal highs, which I ordered myself over the Internet. At the time, Mephedrone was still legal and that was one of my first experiences with designer drugs. Unfortunately, this already turned out to be the worst choice for me. Mephedrone, just like Crystal Meth, makes you extremely horny. If you combine those drugs with sex or masturbation then you have the most fiendish combination ever. A study showed that 97% of Crystal addicts relapse because of the sexual factor. It’s the same for Mephedrone. 

Please do yourself a favour and avoid those two drugs at all cost. 

I was addicted to Mephedrone for 6 long years. Masturbating on it for hours at a time, seeking escape in my sexual fantasies. Most of these fantasies included intercourse with prostitutes. I found that there was something really alluring about the possibility to just get sex for money. However the real deal was never as good as the fantasy. Though I never had sex on Mephedrone and I am happy I didn’t.
 
My desire to fulfill my fantasies went so far that I started selling drugs. I sold mdma for about 3 months. That didn’t make me enough money though. I nearly made no profit at all, so I thought of selling coke instead. However, this proved a moral dilemma for me. I don’t like the Mexican Drug since they kill so many innocent people out of greed. I knew that those guys controlled the majority of the coke trade. So selling coke meant supporting those guys. I was fighting with myself. A part of me was telling me that if I were to do this I would lose myself. I would not be the same person again. Just when I was actually about to go through with it, I got unexpected help. The previous three months I had been considering completely abstaining from drug use forever. I knew I had a big problem and that in time it would only land me in trouble. Just when I was about to get professional help, I got help from the higher levels. I realized that I was never going to be happy by satisfying the cravings of my ego. I knew that I had to transcend my ego. After that I halted my drug use and have not touched any more since. That is all thanks to meditation. Meditation is in my opinion the absolute best method to prevent or resolve any drug or other addiction. 
 

What I am sure of at least is that scare tactics don’t work. When I was in third grade the police held a conference for us where they told us a lot of lies about drug effects to scare us off. I still remember like it was yesterday. 
That time I asked them ‘Why do people take drugs if they only make you lose brain cells?’ They didn’t answer my question back then.  

So if you happen to be a parent reading this, then be sure to inform your kids about the effects of drugs truthfully and share my story with them. 

However, even that may not prove foolproof. Someone who is feeling suicidal won’t hesitate in most cases to take drugs. The absolute foolproof way to solve this is to teach them Self-Love.

When I say Self-Love I don’t mean the narcissist kind where we are the victim of our delusions of grandeur and insecurity. Really loving ourselves mean that we accept ourselves as we are without criticizing ourselves. It’s like we ourselves become one of our best friends. Naturally, we wouldn’t want one of our dear friends to destroy his health with drugs. We would want to see him achieve his full potential without beating him down, just pointing his faults out for him so he may be able to correct them.

Moreover, Self-Love is in my opinion the best preventive measure against demonic possession as true Self-Love massively increases our innate amount of Light. Light is made of joy and love. Demons can’t abide Light.

 

 

Demonic Possession

In this part I am going to tell you about my (ongoing) demonic possession, my experiences with it and the valuable lessons I learned from it. When I started meditating all I ever did was to focus on opening my eye. The reason for doing that however was very wrong. I thought that by opening my third eye and being able to see people aura’s I could determine girl’s thoughts and feelings, using it to my advantage when hitting on them. What followed is that when my third eye really started to open up, my desire for power attracted a demon. 

During the night I would wake up scared and feel something evil in my room even though I couldn’t see anything. The first few times I made it flee out of my room by imagining myself shooting golden light at it. However, later in a drunken stupor I invited the demon to possess me with the thought being: ’I want to be evil’ though what I had in mind was that I wanted to be a thug as thugs get all the girls. At the time I wasn’t aware yet what dire consequences that would have later on. 

From then on I started practicing different meditation systems, looking for ever more powerful ones. I now realize that was probably the demon beckoning me forward, hungry for power. That went on till I found Kunlun which left me finally satisfied. Kunlun produced massive amounts of energy for me. However, the energy generated was only always Yin in nature. I used this regularly for 3 years and started noticing strange things. Wherever I went, people would start sneezing and would let things fall or they would fall asleep after some time. I realized that I was attacking people around me with Yin Energy even though I didn’t want to. I now realize that all that energy cultivation made the demon exponentially stronger. As Sifu Jenny told me ‘who has entity issues should not do any type of Qigong or energetic practice. That is because people who are possessed by an entity or entities are normally dominated by it. The entity will channel your practice and results. The benefits will not be going to you but to it.’

Also, because of this the demon became so strong that the healers I contacted before Sifu Jenny were not only unable to remove it, but couldn’t even see it. Moreover, ‘every failed removal will strengthen the entity’ is what Sifu told me. I experienced three failed removals so I can vouch for that. A way to determine if the person you have contacted will be able to help you is to see how you feel. With Sifu Jenny I just get this feeling that I can put my complete trust in her, there is a sense of absolute security. (I say that as someone who has a deep mistrust of human beings)
There is just this knowingness that she can do it. It’s very subtle though and a demon will do whatever it can to spread doubts when you encounter the right person.

One fateful day I came across Sifu Jenny Lamb’s website (http://www.easterninternalarts.com/). After reading her website carefully and reading her description of signs and symptoms of an entity possession I instantly realized that this was happening to me. After contacting her and sending her a couple of pictures of me, I scheduled an online consultation with her on October 2012. During the consultation, she told me that I definitely had an entity issue. She told me the entity had been with me for about three years or so, but didn’t tell me that it was a demon, though it was obvious to me, until she successfully removed them. Then she told me the entity issue was a demon issue. She said she did not specify before, because she didn’t want to scare me. Demon issues are much worse than normal entity issues. They come in a group and cause more harm, not only to the possessed but to people around him as well.

After many failures of entity removal, I finally scheduled a 10 day entity removal treatment with Sifu Jenny in September 2013. It was a whole day long working process from early morning to the time I went to bed around 10:00pm, every day. With her hard work, she successfully removed my demonic entities. My body finally felt lighter on the ninth day. She said I should feel lighter as soon as all the entities were gone, which was on the fifth day. But because my physical damage was so severe my mental response was very slow. But I was certainly much happier. I even made my country meal for her and her husband for gratitude on the last night before I left. Before I left, she gave me instructions to strengthen my body. She instructed me to do both physical and mental recovery for a minimum three months to a year (as long as it takes), depending on my progress for the improvement of my health.

I returned home safely. However I didn’t follow her aftercare advice at all. 

The year I went to see Sifu Jenny, I wasn’t taking any drugs at all. However, my sexual desire only got stronger. I decided that if I would not get back to normal again I would start taking drugs again. With being normal I mean living anchored in the world like before. It’s hard to explain. Actually, when I started meditating I concentrated so long on my third eye that it upset my whole energy system. I  now see etheral and astral energy at all times and can’t turn it off. It feels like I am caught in-between the mortal and the spirit world. My frustration of being unable to live a normal life and change myself made me dive head-long into drugs again. It was at the height of my sexual pleasure when I got possessed again.

I think the reason why I got possessed again is so that I would make my parents suffer with my early death and/or to be able to play the victim, both reasons sound ludicrous but I think it’s actually the truth…

Obviously, my psyche was already broken before I got possessed. All my life I blamed my problems on someone or something. I wasn’t even aware of this. Sifu Jenny made me realize this when I saw her, though very subtly so. She probably knew but didn’t tell me directly knowing that I would need to discover it myself. So, before my possession I blamed my problems on my family. During my possession I blamed the demon for my suffering. Thinking along the lines of ‘if only I was entity free’ everything would change. Then as it had to be, when I came back from Colorado, not even one month after my treatment, I was back to taking drugs and masturbating again. I was still beating myself up for what I had done a few years ago on the Deep Web. 

I wanted to see myself suffer for what I had done. I sought my own death. I thought that I could redeem myself with my suffering and/or death, however I now realize how very foolish this was. What my thought did was attract more demons that not only attacked me, but also my whole family. I brought a plague upon my family and now I am trying my best to try to remedy the problem.

What I have been going through is because of ignorance. I want to ask you to please try not to blame anyone or anything else for your own problems like I did. Blaming another, which takes the form of anger, will only make you blind to the truth. Only the truth can set you free. Even if someone has done atrocious things to us that would per human definition warrant our hate, in the end it will only lead to our own demise. Only forgiveness can pave the way for healing.

 

Meditation (Please note: This section is highly subjective.)

 

I started meditating when I was 20 or 21 years old. What I discovered back then blew my mind. I found out that all drugs do is show us what we are able to achieve by meditating. However, while the effect of drugs gets weaker and weaker over time, the blissful effect from meditation only ever increases. However, back then I still had no clue why this was so. Now however I know and I am able to share the insights I have made so far. First what we all seek is our Higher Self. The Higher Self is our original identity. It is what is commonly known as Buddha Nature (Buddhism) or the Holy Spirit (Christianity). It is called Spirituality because it is meant to lead us back to our origin, which is the spirit. However, to do that, we need to stop feeding our ego and be willing to transcend it. (Which means to stop identifying with it)

The moment we are able to stay in our Higher Self at all times is when we have reached what is commonly called enlightenment. The two main characteristics of our Higher Self are unconditional love and pure joy. For the people who have tried mdma : mdma seemingly puts us in our Higher Self, the feeling connected to people, the unconditional love and the euphoria are all characteristics of our Higher Self. However, be assured that the real deal is much more rewarding and that without any of the side effects. Moreover, taking drugs hems our spiritual evolution is what I have found. Every time we take drugs we are giving some of our power away.

However when meditating we must be very careful what we seek for. Seeking for blissful effects or power will only lead us to possession. Seeking the truth about us or love and life/health however is the right way forward. 

In the following part I am going to share with you the meditation techniques that I found most effective in my endeavor to reach enlightenment without posing any risk to the user. Even if you are already possessed the following techniques will not worsen it. 

1. Chanting “Namo Amituofo”. Amitabha Buddha made a vow before he died that ‘Whoever calls him to mind again and again, he will rescue from the cycle of birth and death’. He certainly kept it. One’s Karma determines one’s potential for enlightenment. This technique enables us to tap into Amitabha Buddha’s Karma. That means that with this EVERYONE is able to reach enlightenment in one lifetime. 

I found out that you can do the same by only thinking of him without the chanting. Well, for me at least it works, but I got a dream from him by chanting. It may only be possible after the dream or not. You have to test that. The chanting method surfaced after Buddha was long dead so I assume that it works without speaking. So if you feel that chanting isn’t for you or that it’s against your religious beliefs then give this a try. Just think of Buddha (made of pure shining gold) as if he were your best friend. It’s important that you feel trust or otherwise it won’t work as well. The good thing about this is that you can do it at all times, while sitting in school, while writing an essay etc…

Also, this is the best possible protection against entity possession as it increases Light. With this technique Buddha will become your teacher. I think Buddha taught my Higher Self, Vipassana in my dream. However even if our Higher Self knows the technique it’s important for us to understand on an intellectual level. This brings me to the next point.

2) Vipassana, which means to see things as they really are or letting go is the technique Gotama Buddha taught to his disciples. It’s an amazingly simple and effective technique once you get the hang of it. The technique is all about letting go of negative emotions and attachments, which make up the ego. For more information please read ‘Letting Go: The pathway of surrender’ by David R. Hawkins. This is by far the best-written and simplest explanation of the technique I have ever come across.

3) Virtues. I am sure you have heard that living a virtuous life is important, but were you also told why? 

First, being absolutely sincere with yourself, being able to look at your faults openly is important so you can use Vipassana to let go of them. Recognizing your faults and errors is the first step towards rectifying them. Moreover, being honest with yourself and your friends will open your Throat chakra and your Heart. The Throat Chakra is the chakra responsible for change while the Heart is the one for Love. What happens when you start being absolutely honest is that first you will feel more loving and secondly you will be able to change yourself for the better much more rapidly. Sincerity is the single most powerful spiritual amplifier.

Secondly, helping others without expecting anything in return will strengthen your Higher Self. That’s the conclusion I have come to. (Just starting to get into it.) This means that every time you help someone your ego will weaken and you will be one step closer to enlightenment. Gandhi said ‘the best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others’. There is God in every selfless act.

Thirdly, it’s important to be humble. I am probably not the best person to tell you about this, but will anyways try to do my best. In most religions when people talk about being humble, they think of absolute humility, which means that they show meekness while praying and hoping that God will just change them for the better like casting a spell. Unfortunately that doesn’t work. What we actually need is radical humility. Radical humility is about accepting that we have faults and errors and be willing to surrender them to God. Or if that doesn’t work, to be willing to do everything in our power to change ourselves. ‘We must be the change we want the world to see’; Gandhi.

 

Conclusion

 

At this point I want to remark that my psyche is broken, my personality has become so warped through the use of drugs and my possession that it has become the most difficult task to understand myself. However, no matter how many drugs you take or how many more layers we put on our ego, our Higher Self remains unchanged. I only got to experience my Higher Self a handful of times by now and that was already enough to put me off an addiction that seemed impossible to solve. Feeling whole and complete again after not having felt like this for 20 years or maybe never, well that is truly wonderful! So if you feel that it is impossible for you to change, that you are too evil to change, be assured that EVERYONE can change as long as they will it. So please don’t give up, I definitely won’t. 

If you are a person considering suicide then please by all means don’t do it!
There is true happiness/meaning in life you will be able to discover by meditating and helping people. If you really try it I assure you that not soon after you will be laughing at your previous problems and wondering how you could ever consider killing yourself and you will be laughing out of joy that you didn’t do it, just like I am doing right now 

Finally, I want to try myself at a definition of Karma. Karma is a very misunderstood term for most people. That is very understandable as it is very hard to explain. However, I will try to do my best explaining it.
Karma means the law of cause and effect. It means that every effect has a cause. The causes of these effects however are not only because of actions, but also thoughts. Yes, you heard me right. Thoughts have real power! We tend to manifest what we hold in mind. If we think ourselves evil then that is what we will get to experience. 

However, rest assured that even if we have evil thoughts, actions score much higher on the Karma scale than thoughts. This means that with one virtuous action you will be able to cancel out a hundred evil thoughts. 

‘There is always someone who loses out’ is a good example of Karma. This is a commonly held belief, one that isn’t true however. In every situation we can find a solution that benefits everyone involved. We only need to manifest the will to find it. When we start thinking of solutions that benefit everyone, good things are going to happen to our lives because God starts to support us. That’s why I have taken the habit of asking myself in every situation now: ‘Does this benefit everyone involved, myself included, or does it only benefit myself?’

 

A comment from Sifu Jenny Lamb:

It is good to see that he is willing to take a step to redeem himself. It is never too later for repentance and redemption. 

From his story there are a lot of lessens to learn for all of us. From years of helping people with entity issues I learned the most common causes are:

1. Longing for power.
2. Karmic debts or entangled karma.
3. Misguided by wrong information.
4. Loneliness and longing for company by any means.
5. Fantasy of connection with spiritual world.
6. Living in a haunted house or a negative environment.
7. Surrounded by Yin energy too long.
8. Inadequate self-evaluation.
9. Disrespectful or offended unseen living beings.
10. Being at the wrong place and wrong time while one is vulnerable.

Most of all, it is the outcome of improper thinking and action. 

His story demonstrates that proper early childhood education is vital for a person to become a decent human being. Being parents, to bring a life into the world without a commitment to take care of them is irresponsible for the world, for the child and for themselves. Cause and effect is the natural law we all bound by. Desiring a peaceful and healthy environment, we all have to take our responsibility to benefit the world according to our position and the best of our capabilities. 

We all make mistakes in life, but willingness to change has to come from within. No external help alone will work if one does not want to make an effort. Be sincere, earnest, honest, and willing to do anything to make a change when one wishes to be helped. Without commitment, one will only walk half way and leave things unfinished. Without being honest, one may be unable to accomplish one’s goal.

When this young man first contacted me he never stated any of his ongoing drug issues, nor his sado-masochism and improper sexual behavior addictions etc. Then again, all these major facts have everything to do with how he became possessed in the first place. Those important things you have to tell the person you rely on for helping you. Let them acknowledge your condition entirely. On the contrary, by responding to my requested information on, “the details of your health conditions with history”, he simple said, he had skin problems, ADD, experience fatigue all the time and shortness of breath when climbing stairs. If I knew his full story as I do today, I would require one month minimum energy healing treatment, not just 10 days. He needed a longer treatment beyond just entity removal. For addictions, three month’s treatment is more adequate for allowing a physical transformation to sustain a stable health condition and to walk away from addictions for life. Maybe I didn’t ask the right questions. Certainly, I will change that in my future work. But in any case, one should tell everything to your knowledge that may cause your issue and all the symptoms you have experienced. It is for your own benefit if you want to be helped. Being truthful and honest is the best policy.

With years of conducting my healing work, I learned so much about people with issues, their individualities, habits, conceptual means, insecurity, confusion with truth and sugar coating, fear and indecision, choosing to be a denier, so easy to make a wrong choice, and for some, even sabotaging oneself whenever progress is made. What I see from this is a display of karmic phenomena both individually and collectively. I recognized that to acknowledge and respect Karma is the path to prevent self-degeneration and to promote self-correcting. To teach Karma through healing is the purpose of my work and what I am called out for.  

I hope his sorrowful story can be an awakening call for all of us. For those who are willing to help him to achieve his goal to redeem himself by helping others in preventing them to follow his steps, please take your action to share his story to all your communities and reach as many people as possible. May his good intentions and virtuous actions bring positive energy to the world and brighten his future as well.   

Namo Amituofo!

 

 

 

Little update: In 2016 I found annother opportunity to not only to remove the entity, but to completely change myself. I was aware the opportunity was hiding at the place I went to, but I didn't go through with it, even though I had put in so much effort before. In 2017 I returned to that place and was nearly able to do it, the opportunity was still there, however I couldn't because I was afraid to be vulnerable. The same year, even before I had been hearing voices, many more than before. Due to the voices, I started writing things. The first time I wrote something I could hear my teacher's voice saying it's a very bad thing. At the time I thought I was being surveilled by the police and normal people could sit in on it. I thought someone was sending my writings around to harm me, but that wasn't the case. It was just due to me not stopping writing. My teacher told me in 2017 that the voices were my imagination, but I didn't believe him because it felt so real, because of what I experienced. Also, I am convinced that these voices belonged to real people and were characteristic of their innate thoughts. At the time there were quite a few people supporting me, whom I am eternally grateful to. I promised at that time that I would give it all back by loving everyone on the planet unconditionally some day. There were a lot of people who wanted to prevent the bad effect I was experiencing with my writings. Unfortunately, what shouldn't have happened, happened anyway : my entity issue got worse. SInce then, the 15th january 2018 I have experienced IMMENSE suffering, it's just unbelievable. I was suffering so much that in 2018 I made the decision to kill myself. Also, I felt like the opportunity to remove the entity had been lost forever.  Fortunately, my plans were thwarded by my family. I then made the decision to do it later, however I had already began to question it. I was hesitant to do it in the first place because of all the experiences I have had since 2015. Also, I had gotten more used to my new suffering. At the same time I made the decision to take drugs again because I thought it may keep me from killing myself which would still be a better alternative. The following year, 2019, I consumed quite a lot of drugs. That went on till just before Christmas 2019. At that time I got some Crystal which didn't quite agree with me, it upset my whole system. While I was on it I felt threatened and then the Light came and showed me that I was doing all this, that I was creating trouble for myself in order to get attention from my family. (I could see at that moment the child within myself. )Then it downed on me that the connection that I felt had been lost when my entity issue got worse had never been lost, only obscured and that I possess the power to get out. I was still doubtful though. Then I read Lao Fan's four lessons and became confident that I can remove the entity by (myself), even if the previous opportunity has indeed been lost. What I need to do is to correct my faults and learn humility, then God will help me remove it, guide the way to remove it.

 

I will update this thread once I have been able to remove it, if someone reads this. Later I want to write a book, a more complete story which incorporates clarity and wisdom.

 

(I am indeed the greatest fool in the world to miss the opportunity two times and the third opportunity if the second has indeed been lost, is much harder to grasp. The second was harder to grasp than the first already and the third even more so, however the heavens have told me that I can do it so it should be possible. I really hope that I will be able to do it so that in future I can use my life as an example to raise awareness on what should be done and what can be achieved with spiritual practice.)

 

Final note on collective Karma : I experienced a strong counter-force that was working against myself, against life. I always thought this was due to the entity being so powerful. After re-reading Shifu Jenn's commentary in bold I realized that this counter-force is probably due to collective Karma. Collective Karma says 'he needs to be punished' because of what I did. (on the Deep Web) I believe this has played a major part, unfortunately Karma is hard to understand so I am not sure. It's mentioned in Lao Fan's four lessons once one's past transgressions have been redeemed one will have a dream. So this is what I am aiming. I believe once this has happened the opportunity to remove the entity will present itself. 
 

Lastly, I ask that you please don’t share the story for now. I am doubtful as to the extent it could be of help at this point. It should have been written without expecting anything in return which unfortunately was not possible for me at this time and ultimately, it depends on my own actions, that will decide my fate.

 

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Namo Amitoufo,Namo Amitoufo,Namo Amitoufo.

To you Josama and your brave Sifu Jenny.

Thankyou for your honest story,how sobering.

Humbly juls

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i enjoyed reading. thanks for sharing.

what i just wanna add is you should consider the demon thing as a belief system. so no you cant be possessed. you can have poor mindset based on fear though. that will make you believe you are not yourself.

so i offer you to try a method. which is not based on duality, as in you think there is evil and good. the evil you of the past and the good you of now (which you struggle to maintain)

so i suggest you try be neither for a moment. just sit down and try to be, just that, without judging it good or bad. i guarantee you will experience all kinds of things surfacing and it will not be easy (do as long as you can do it at a time), maybe some things will look like in the exorcist movies :)  but that is the stuck energy budging, so it can manifest internally to you or even externally, like in the movies :)

observe your demon opponent when doing it, see how he does it, maybe even get a laugh or two, as you realize what he's doing really has no effect on you, except a little bully push here and there and some noise.

its more like that kid's saying "sticks and stones may break my bones, but names will never hurt me", so eventually you will see that the demon is using names to hurt you. so it can be painful, that is what they do. like bullies picking on kids. but someday the kid outgrows the bully and the bullies life becomes miserable, or something like that. there is complete reversal ^_^

so try it if you haven't yet. you will see how good it is for getting a better insight.

best of luck to you

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i enjoyed reading. thanks for sharing.

 

what i just wanna add is you should consider the demon thing as a belief system. so no you cant be possessed. you can have poor mindset based on fear though. that will make you believe you are not yourself.

 

so i offer you to try a method. which is not based on duality, as in you think there is evil and good. the evil you of the past and the good you of now (which you struggle to maintain)

 

so i suggest you try be neither for a moment. just sit down and try to be, just that, without judging it good or bad. i guarantee you will experience all kinds of things surfacing and it will not be easy (do as long as you can do it at a time), maybe some things will look like in the exorcist movies :)  but that is the stuck energy budging, so it can manifest internally to you or even externally, like in the movies :)

 

observe your demon opponent when doing it, see how he does it, maybe even get a laugh or two, as you realize what he's doing really has no effect on you, except a little bully push here and there and some noise.

 

its more like that kid's saying "sticks and stones may break my bones, but names will never hurt me", so eventually you will see that the demon is using names to hurt you. so it can be painful, that is what they do. like bullies picking on kids. but someday the kid outgrows the bully and the bullies life becomes miserable, or something like that. there is complete reversal ^_^

 

so try it if you haven't yet. you will see how good it is for getting a better insight.

 

best of luck to you

 

I understand your viewpoint and I thank you, what you say does show great understanding even if you don't believe in demons. In these last few months I have learned a lot because of it. One of them is that you can use a possession to learn about yourself. (that is is you don't go nuts and I very nearly did, still a danger now, though it has gotten much better)

 

The demon shows me what I least want to see. That's a good thing if you can use it. A demon can't create what isn't there which means it shows you what is a part of your dark side. Still, a possession makes spiritual progress very hard if not impossible and demons they do attack the people around them though chanting makes this much better. Also, it's due to chanting that I can see them. Otherwise, I couldn't, not yet at least. Actually usually if you are possessed you won't realize at all. It's when you start using methods that weaken the entity that you start getting fearful, in my case at least.

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Thanks for sharing, really heavy story, glad you came out alive and wiser.

 

Ibogaine is no. 1 for breaking addictions. Micro-dose over a week or so for true life change.

 

I have never done drugs, and even though I have easy access to Ibogaine as I live in South Africa, I will never use it. Ibogaine can be transcendent and really give one incredible glimpses of heightened consciousness, but I have a belief that there's no free lunch.

 

I won't break my spiritual 'virginity' with LSD or Ibogaine, but I would rather struggle through Taoist Neidan for years to achieve lasting, deeper results taken to its conclusion.

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Thanks for sharing, really heavy story, glad you came out alive and wiser.

 

Ibogaine is no. 1 for breaking addictions. Micro-dose over a week or so for true life change.

 

I have never done drugs, and even though I have easy access to Ibogaine as I live in South Africa, I will never use it. Ibogaine can be transcendent and really give one incredible glimpses of heightened consciousness, but I have a belief that there's no free lunch.

 

I won't break my spiritual 'virginity' with LSD or Ibogaine, but I would rather struggle through Taoist Neidan for years to achieve lasting, deeper results taken to its conclusion.

 

There is no need to take drugs, really! I recommend that you try chanting 'namo amituofo, I have tried a lot of practices (Tummo, inner and outer dissolving, Kunlun, and Vipassana) Out of all those I tried chanting is by far the most powerful. Not in terms of energy generated, but in terms of spiritual progress. Moeeover, you can combine it with an energy practice without problems.

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Great story!
 
The problem, as you likely know, is that you still haven't resolved your root issue...but only the symptoms.  Hence, the root never goes away...and the symptoms keep resprouting.


The demons were a symptom of feeling guilty about your addictions, which were a symptom of:

Already as a kid, I had a very addictive personality. Certain events in my childhood made me want to seek escape in my thoughts.

You need to surgically deprogram whatever subconscious belief manifested in the old events that caused you so much traumatic pain you sought addictions as a diversionary coping mechanism. 

 

TBH, you don't really need any fancy spiritual rattles & drums...just some good, hard-nosed psychology and therapeutic bodywork (IMO).

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Great story!

 

The problem, as you likely know, is that you still haven't resolved your root issue...but only the symptoms.  Hence, the root never goes away...and the symptoms keep resprouting.

 

The demons were a symptom of feeling guilty about your addictions, which were a symptom of:

You need to surgically deprogram whatever subconscious belief manifested in the old events that caused you so much traumatic pain you sought addictions as a diversionary coping mechanism. 

 

TBH, you don't really need any fancy spiritual rattles & drums...just some good, hard-nosed psychology and therapeutic bodywork (IMO).

 

Yes, you are right. Actually, after my second suicide attempt, my mother sent me to a psycchiatrist, however I never told him anything. I wasn't ready yet to talk about it at the time. However, when I realized some time ago that I need someone to talk about it so that I can finally work through it, I asked my mom to make an appointment for me. Which is tomorrow I think... :)

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Josama, thanks for the story. 

 

Man, it was heart-breaking to read.. You've had a tough ride.

 

You've got some heart I must say, and it also seems like you've gotten a lot of wisdom. That makes me very happy :).

 

I was moved by the story because I have had problems myself too. I suffered from social phobia for ten years, and then came an unexpected kundalini awakening. I've been in the black depths of life too, although not as serious as you have.

 

Now I'm doing much better. I am on the right path and am building my dream-life step by step. I no longer am constricted by social phobia and my qigong practice is grounding and harmonizing the kundalini experience.

 

I wanted to reach out with some advice, for what it's worth:

 

Regarding your story, I wouldn't want to do a single edit. It's great as it is. You speak from the heart and it's clear to see. It's going to connect with some people.

 

Secondly, if you suffer from possession try and look up Robert Bruce who is an astral travel expert, and also an expert in removing entities and the like. I think his site is called astralbob or something like that. I haven't had that problem myself; I've only seen negative entities (astral critters) and they aren't dangerous. But I can imagine the extreme irritation and fear you must be experiencing.

 

Thirdly, upon reading your story I wondered to myself if you perchance still deeply regret watching that child pornography and beat yourself up over it?

 

Don't get me wrong - child pornography is horrible, and yes, we shouldn't support it by watching it. You did make a mistake. But here's the thing:

We all make a lot of mistakes in life. I know I made a ton. There are people I hurt, even when I was subtly conscious of it. There are opportunities I didn't take, even though I knew I had to.

 

And I used to spend years beating myself up over it. Until I realized that there's always a reason for why we do the things that we do - even though we are subtly aware that we're doing the wrong thing. Something inside us - our intuition, our curiosity, our fear - depending on the actual situation - compels us sometimes to do the things we deep down know are wrong.

 

And then we regret it. And through our regret we - at some point - learn not to do it again.

 

There's always a reason for why we did something. And it's important to recognize and understand that. You did what you at that point were capable of doing, and you need to forgive yourself for that. It probably couldn't have been any other way. We sometimes are the person that we are - with the flaws that we have. It's important to understand that, and to embrace ourselves for the human beings we at the end of the day still are.

 

I don't beat myself up over lost opportunities or errors anymore. Instead, I understand my wrongful actions - and by understanding them from the inside out I am able to change them if I should be in a similar situation in the future again.

 

From that point of view, there's nothing to really regret. We did what we were capable of doing at that point. And we gained wisdom from it.

 

Perhaps you already know this. I just wanted to share in case it makes a difference.

 

Other than that, I would like to thank you for your insightful piece. I gained a lot from it.

 

You've come a long way, and with your mindset I am sure you will go even further :).

 

PS: Final note: Michael Winn's qigong system is excellent of ridding oneself of negative thought-patterns, once you get to the fusion practices.. just a tip in case you want to widen your spiritual practice at some point :)

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Sounds like you had a rough road. Congrats on coming out of it wiser and more enlightened....many people don't.....atleast on this lifetime.

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Final PS: I got help from a cognitive psychologist. Took a year before I got a breakthrough, but man, it was worth it..

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I understand your viewpoint and I thank you, what you say does show great understanding even if you don't believe in demons. In these last few months I have learned a lot because of it. One of them is that you can use a possession to learn about yourself. (that is is you don't go nuts and I very nearly did, still a danger now, though it has gotten much better)

 

The demon shows me what I least want to see. That's a good thing if you can use it. A demon can't create what isn't there which means it shows you what is a part of your dark side. Still, a possession makes spiritual progress very hard if not impossible and demons they do attack the people around them though chanting makes this much better. Also, it's due to chanting that I can see them. Otherwise, I couldn't, not yet at least. Actually usually if you are possessed you won't realize at all. It's when you start using methods that weaken the entity that you start getting fearful, in my case at least.

 

entities yes, but not demons. demon is a christian definition. it can be anything. people engage in demonic practices everyday, like killing animals and eating their flesh. drinking wine that represents the symbolism of blood (religion) and many other things. but calling people demons is probably not the best thing as they dont even grasp what theyre doing. state religion perverts the whole thing.

 

so yeah. an entity is an entity. there are all types of it. but they are not necesary evil. they are evil because you perceive them as such. from their standpoint they aren't, unless they are programmed in a certain way to make themselve perceive that way. its a programmed energy manifestation that repeats itself. can be conscious or unconscious. entities can be created by other people to bother you, even unconsciously. so practically people are creating those things eveyday, unknowingly most of the time. with their mind, and energizing with emotion.

 

then there are spirits, discarnates and other astral beings. there are the so-called archons, humanity manipulators. they work to supress human spiritual progress. so those are more intelligent. amazing how much stuff there is. practically its another world just outside the physical world.

 

so those things show up to me up to this day. they try to scare, intimidate and just mess around, usually they try to trick you in your sleep state, since normally a humans energy field is strong when awake, so they cant penetrate to you deeper being that way. through unconscious sleep, they can. a lot of things weaken the energy field, like drugs, alcohol or just plain thinking that doesnt resonate with your higher self.

 

so what i gonna say to you is, you might think its really bad position you are in, since you are bothered by them, but know that you are actually in a lot better position than most of the world, as countless people are "possessed" just like you but not have a single clue that they are, and chances of them realizing themselves is pretty slim. why do you think there is so much unconsciousness in the world ?

 

so us that know are enduring a hardship, getting used to it, but in the meantime we are breaking through the barriers that have existed who knows for how long. so because of that humanity might actually break free of itself, the hidden agenda is coming through eventually. there will be interesting times. so stay strong and never give up !

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I'm not at all qualified to discuss the subject with you, but simply as one person to another...why do you accept this demon as possessing you? That seems at least to me to be 90% of the problem right there. A passive approach to your life, by just accepting what happens to you. Why not just kick it out and don't accept it back in, and pray for protection for yourself and others? Maybe I'm being dumb here...I see that you have tried things to get rid of it, so you're not entirely to blame for your problems.

 

Regardless, thanks for sharing such personal aspects of our path, and best of luck.

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@Lth : I know that what people generally understand under the term of demons doesn't exist. There is no entity out there that can take complete control of you. What I call demons are entities that are malicious in nature. In the end however it's only a name, doesn't really matter what name you give them. Though I must admit that it's probably better not to use the term 'demon' as it generates a lot of fear and that is exactly what they want.

 

@Aetherous I wish I could just kick it out, I don't have that power, unfortunately. As to the reason, I will find out in time, but you are right that the reason is very important.

 

 

@Perceiver : I don't want to change anything about the story, I just want to beautify it. Like I said I will turn this in  a Youtube video, I wrote it with that in mind. Furthermore, the story isn't finished yet, not till the demon leaves and I have dealt with my emotional issues.

Also, you asked if I still beat myself up over it. When I wrote the story down I was actually feeling happy just by knowing that this will be able to help some people. However, when I read over it, there was a lot of sadness and anger that came up. I actually was suppressing all these feelings along very strongly, but they are starting to surface again now... 

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I also had a demonic posession yesterday. You know what I did? I put reins on the demon, and then the demon was posessed by me. and I flew it, oh I flew it good! flew it, right into the trashcan, oops! and then I flushed it. Hell I didn't even know my trashcan could flush! but it can... It was installed with flush capability by angelic beings. Flushed it real good, right to angelic processing facility where the demon will be dispersed into angelic pixie dust... Good thing for demons ey?

 

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@Lth : I know that what people generally understand under the term of demons doesn't exist. There is no entity out there that can take complete control of you. What I call demons are entities that are malicious in nature. In the end however it's only a name, doesn't really matter what name you give them. Though I must admit that it's probably better not to use the term 'demon' as it generates a lot of fear and that is exactly what they want.

 

@Aetherous I wish I could just kick it out, I don't have that power, unfortunately. As to the reason, I will find out in time, but you are right that the reason is very important.

 

 

@Perceiver : I don't want to change anything about the story, I just want to beautify it. Like I said I will turn this in  a Youtube video, I wrote it with that in mind. Furthermore, the story isn't finished yet, not till the demon leaves and I have dealt with my emotional issues.

Also, you asked if I still beat myself up over it. When I wrote the story down I was actually feeling happy just by knowing that this will be able to help some people. However, when I read over it, there was a lot of sadness and anger that came up. I actually was suppressing all these feelings along very strongly, but they are starting to surface again now... 

 

from how you write it seems you are enforcing your problem by identifying yourself to the demon. dont give too much importance to it if you dont wanna manifest it.

 

you would be amazed how far belief systems can influence oneself. it is possible to unknowingly have a certain belief that is attracting the world around you.

 

there is so much things to learn

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@Aetherous I wish I could just kick it out, I don't have that power, unfortunately. As to the reason, I will find out in time, but you are right that the reason is very important.

 

May your wish come true, then.

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@Aetherous I wish I could just kick it out, I don't have that power, unfortunately. As to the reason, I will find out in time, but you are right that the reason is very important.

A demon haunting you is only your Shadow Self trying to get your attention to heal and reintegrate itself.  You can outrun your Shadow Self no easier than your actual shadow...  It can only be un-misunderstood and reabsorbed (loved & reaccepted).

 

You were likely abused before (by others and yourself), feeling completely powerless like a baby being raped.  And now like a grown adult being stalked by a demon, again powerless to defend yourself.  Painfully POWERLESS...

 

Yet, we all have access to our own innate power...you have simply subconsciously suppressed it, possibly because you may have abused it before and fear abusing it again now?  Which means that you also have the key to release it and learn to wield power wisely.

 

Again:

"We must discover the cause of our own ignorance." - Bruce Lee

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Haha, I LOVE Bruce Lee. That's the first time I have seen that second picture, thank you Gendao, that really put a smile on my face :D

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I was going to recommend iboga, but you beat me to it.

 

Josama- your story is very similar to mine on many levels. In my case I blamed it on bad genes, bad decisions and misfortune.

 

But, it's not about me- it's about you.  Please read up on iboga (and for that matter; ayahuasca and kambo).  I believe with the proper set, setting and guidance, they could help you immensely with your addictions. I want to emphasize these medicines are not something you should take alone or take lightly. It may very may well be the greatest commitment of your life.  Iboga has no agenda, and it will not lie to you. It will most definitely kick your ass and wake you up to the reality of your situation and your life so you can finally start to see clearly.

 

Your post confirmed my suspicions that Sifu Jenny is a very cleverly disguised con-artist. What you left out is that she charges 12,000$ for those 10-day treatments, which was obviously not effective for you.  That wouldn't be too bad in and of itself, if it were not for the fact that she re-inforces the -idea- (as she did in your case) that you even have a demon/entity in the first place. She effectively casts a spell on you in order to hook you and reel you in. In my opinion, that is completely fucked up.  I don't care how accomplished/holy she and other people may claim she is, and I am not afraid of speaking my truth, and that's what I believe.

 

I didn't read the thread yet, so this has probably already been mentioned, but you seem thoroughly convinced that your misfortune was caused by your so-called demonic possession. Regardless of whether or not you are possessed, your mind-construction; your idea of this has a very powerful impact on you. It's a very convenient way of playing the victim card, and you in that game, you always come out the losing end.

 

 

 

Thanks for sharing, really heavy story, glad you came out alive and wiser.

 

Ibogaine is no. 1 for breaking addictions. Micro-dose over a week or so for true life change.

 

I have never done drugs, and even though I have easy access to Ibogaine as I live in South Africa, I will never use it. Ibogaine can be transcendent and really give one incredible glimpses of heightened consciousness, but I have a belief that there's no free lunch.

 

I won't break my spiritual 'virginity' with LSD or Ibogaine, but I would rather struggle through Taoist Neidan for years to achieve lasting, deeper results taken to its conclusion.

 

Thanks for sharing, really heavy story, glad you came out alive and wiser.

 

Ibogaine is no. 1 for breaking addictions. Micro-dose over a week or so for true life change.

 

I have never done drugs, and even though I have easy access to Ibogaine as I live in South Africa, I will never use it. Ibogaine can be transcendent and really give one incredible glimpses of heightened consciousness, but I have a belief that there's no free lunch.

 

I won't break my spiritual 'virginity' with LSD or Ibogaine, but I would rather struggle through Taoist Neidan for years to achieve lasting, deeper results taken to its conclusion.

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I was going to recommend iboga, but you beat me to it.

 

Josama- your story is very similar to mine on many levels. In my case I blamed it on bad genes, bad decisions and misfortune.

 

But, it's not about me- it's about you. Please read up on iboga (and for that matter; ayahuasca and kambo). I believe with the proper set, setting and guidance, they could help you immensely with your addictions. I want to emphasize these medicines are not something you should take alone or take lightly. It may very may well be the greatest commitment of your life. Iboga has no agenda, and it will not lie to you. It will most definitely kick your ass and wake you up to the reality of your situation and your life so you can finally start to see clearly.

 

Your post confirmed my suspicions that Sifu Jenny is a very cleverly disguised con-artist. What you left out is that she charges 12,000$ for those 10-day treatments, which was obviously not effective for you. That wouldn't be too bad in and of itself, if it were not for the fact that she re-inforces the -idea- (as she did in your case) that you even have a demon/entity in the first place. She effectively casts a spell on you in order to hook you and reel you in. In my opinion, that is completely fucked up. I don't care how accomplished/holy she and other people may claim she is, and I am not afraid of speaking my truth, and that's what I believe.

 

I didn't read the thread yet, so this has probably already been mentioned, but you seem thoroughly convinced that your misfortune was caused by your so-called demonic possession. Regardless of whether or not you are possessed, your mind-construction; your idea of this has a very powerful impact on you. It's a very convenient way of playing the victim card, and you in that game, you always come out the losing end.

Carbonbreath, I have tried enough drugs and I don't need them. You may think that they could prove helpful in one's spiritual progress. That is true, BUT they are risky and there are better ways. There is a reason why people like Michael Lomax who actually have gone that way tell you so. Chanting 'Namo Amituofo' opens the guru chakra, as a result, you start experiencing actual spiritual progress and that without any risk.

 

As for Sifu Jenny, yes it's true that her prices are expensive, but have you actually met her in person and got a feeling for her?

At first I wasn't to sure about her what to think. I mean when I talked with Max, his energy was so bright, so alluring. With her I didn't feel anything. It wasn't till after I got to meet her and after that I realized : she is a real master. Like one of those old hermits, who just seem like your average person walking around. I don't know if it's due to her hiding her energy or if she was always like this, but her knowledge is VAST.

 

She never said that my misfortune was because of my possession. Au contraire, she told me that the possession was the fault of my own actions which is absolutely true. It's just hard for me to not concentrate on the entity as I feel it all the time, it's like you have a nasty pimple that doesn't want to go away^^

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Your post confirmed my suspicions that Sifu Jenny is a very cleverly disguised con-artist. What you left out is that she charges 12,000$ for those 10-day treatments, which was obviously not effective for you.  That wouldn't be too bad in and of itself, if it were not for the fact that she re-inforces the -idea- (as she did in your case) that you even have a demon/entity in the first place. She effectively casts a spell on you in order to hook you and reel you in. In my opinion, that is completely fucked up.  I don't care how accomplished/holy she and other people may claim she is, and I am not afraid of speaking my truth, and that's what I believe.

 

Not that I'm capable of truly knowing beyond a shadow of a doubt that demons are there or not, and whether someone can help with them or not...but from my level of perception, I agree with you completely regarding Jenny Lamb's behavior.

 

If I had the ability to dispel demons from people's lives, I wouldn't charge them that much, if anything at all. It's a service to humanity if you have that ability, not a lucrative business. Why not charge a fair amount instead of a fucking ridiculous amount? An average person earns lets say $40,000 in a year for actual hard work (not for playing the role of master over others)...only really well off people are making $12,000 in 10 days! If she kept that up for an entire year she'd be pulling in $432,000! The excuse that people need to pay in order to demonstrate giving something of value for achieving a result, is a complete cop out, especially when the treatment doesn't work! The excuse that the treatment did work, but then demons came back because of one reason or another, is hogwash. And blaming it on the patient, rather than taking responsibility and completing the exorcism pro-bono, is more bologna.

 

She has failed in what she agreed to do in a business arrangement...shirking her duty to Josama. So now, in my view, she owes him. If she even has these abilities, which is now doubtful.

 

Also...I was taken aback at her response to his private emails, posted publicly on Facebook, before he personally came out publicly with his story...

 

"I know that you are trying to get help from me, otherwise you would not contact me by sending me one email after another, but you did not demonstrate enough your repentance fully and truthfully, that can convince me that I should care to help you again. If my help in the past was not successful, you would not want to contact me again for any more of the same type of help. Certainly I did successfully help you with your demon issues with my hard work. But why on earth that you want to bring them back to your life and team up with demons again? Is your suffering for years not enough and you want more? Or you still have a desire longing for power over others or to show off yourself. Now, you got what you are asking for. No one can stop you to fulfill your desire. Be aware, everyone has to live with the consequences of their actions and take responsibility for it."

 

Is this really a way to talk to someone who paid you many thousands of dollars, who seeks your help in what seems to be a demonic possession? I think not. I viewed this as public humiliation, rather than any form of help for him. Gotta humiliate the people who threaten your business model, because others might then see that your work isn't even effective?

 

This whole thing could be easily resolved if she demonstrated virtue: actually help the people who need it, for as long as they need it, do it quietly, respectfully, and don't rip them off. Not that I'm perfect or capable of knowing/judging her as a person...but lets use some common sense here, and call this behavior what it is = unacceptable.

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Not that I'm capable of truly knowing beyond a shadow of a doubt that demons are there or not, and whether someone can help with them or not...but from my level of perception, I agree with you completely regarding Jenny Lamb's behavior.

 

If I had the ability to dispel demons from people's lives, I wouldn't charge them that much, if anything at all. It's a service to humanity if you have that ability, not a lucrative business. Why not charge a fair amount instead of a fucking ridiculous amount? An average person earns lets say $40,000 in a year for actual hard work (not for playing the role of master over others)...only really well off people are making $12,000 in 10 days! If she kept that up for an entire year she'd be pulling in $432,000! The excuse that people need to pay in order to demonstrate giving something of value for achieving a result, is a complete cop out, especially when the treatment doesn't work! The excuse that the treatment did work, but then demons came back because of one reason or another, is hogwash. And blaming it on the patient, rather than taking responsibility and completing the exorcism pro-bono, is more bologna.

 

She has failed in what she agreed to do in a business arrangement...shirking her duty to Josama. So now, in my view, she owes him. If she even has these abilities, which is now doubtful.

 

Also...I was taken aback at her response to his private emails, posted publicly on Facebook, before he personally came out publicly with his story...

 

 

Is this really a way to talk to someone who paid you many thousands of dollars, who seeks your help in what seems to be a demonic possession? I think not. I viewed this as public humiliation, rather than any form of help for him. Gotta humiliate the people who threaten your business model, because others might then see that your work isn't even effective?

 

This whole thing could be easily resolved if she demonstrated virtue: actually help the people who need it, for as long as they need it, do it quietly, respectfully, and don't rip them off. Not that I'm perfect or capable of knowing/judging her as a person...but lets use some common sense here, and call this behavior what it is = unacceptable.

Aetherous : If you were her, getting so much money out of it and that a patient who had paid you already before would come back to you, being prepared to pay her again would you really tell that client off? Also, if you were only interested in money would really post something like this on facebook that may just provoke a reaction like this? The reason why she actually reacted as she did is because my failed removal made her sad, I hadn't written her any mail for like 2 years. She probably thought that everything was fine. She only wanted to give me a wake-up call, if you read her first mail, you will realize that she only wants my best...

 

Also, she asked me for permission to post them.

 

Carbonbreath and Aetherous : I know you guys are only trying to help me. I sincerely thank you for that and I certainly had hate for it seem that I was attacking you two in my previous two posts. It's just that Sifu Jenny, she is not at fault here. She convinced my to post my story as a mirror for others so that it may help others and at the same time lift my Karma by doing so. Her advice was the most useful I could get. That she would come under attack after helping me, my honor would not allow.

 

If I were to blame her it would mean that I would be insanely STUPID. The choices I have made may not have been smart, but at least I can contend myself with the thought that not all hope is lost with me.

 

Kindly,

 

Jos

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Josama, there's some truth in what Carbonbreath and Aetherous are saying.

 

12,000 dollars for ten days is an exorbitant price. The people whom I believe to be spiritually advanced are generally not that money-driven, especially not when dealing with unfortunate normal-income people like you.

 

I would feel bad if I got a young decent guy with problems to pay me a thousand dollars per day for help - wouldn't you?

 

Also, you're defending her to the point where it seems like she is infallible? I find that strange. I don't believe that we should ever blindly worship other people and completely deny the possibility that they could have self-interested motives. Not all people are perfect, and some teachers in the spiritual world are money-driven, egoic and well, lots of other things. Some skepticism is always warranted.

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