AudiTistic Posted 12 hours ago Im going to keep it kinda short here because I've literally told this story to a hundred plus people and so far all I found out is there is something called kundalini... and apparently I experienced it... its a real thing that I physically experienced and afterwards real things happened that I experienced that I wont be able to prove to anybody I guess who doesnt know what this is. SOOOO 2 years ago... I was meditating in order to visit the universal library which I had been to before (also on accident) and instead I ended up in a void that was nearby but not on earth but not too far away (like another galaxy) there was an entity i sensed nearby behind to the right of me... in this place i say its a void because there was no sound, no light, no sensation of any kind that i was familiar with... but some how my mind knew or felt or sensed things. This entity was carrying a great burden on their heart and I felt the weight of the burden and I asked (with my mind?!??? no sound/words) if it wanted help or if it was okay... To which i sensed it TURN and LOOK at me like OVER me where I felt like it could see all of my being and non of me was hidden away. It replied: "How can you sense me? And how are you here?" I said: "Ummm.... I dunno... but are you okay? Would you like me to help you?" It replied: "Creatures like you... dont care about others..." I said: "Well I could walk with you and and try to help you with your burden?" It replied: "This burden isnt for you... it isnt possible for you to carry or help with it" I said: "even a little bit? I could try to carry alittle" (something occurs that i cant remember until some months later) It reaches out and touches me somehow... NOW THIS IS WHERE IT GETS CRAZY I immediately wake up, out of meditation or whereever I was and Im SCREAMING as I feel 10,000 volts of electricity (like lighting hit my spine) going up into my brain... where it felt like a plasma fire was lit and everything was bright... I fall over on my bed and dont move for like maybe 1 or 2 hours just crying... and eventually i get up and look around wondering WTF just happened. I have no idea if this is relevant but i have this mark on my forhead somebody says its a TIKKA or TIKKI mark or something... its a divet in my forhead that looks like one of those marks people put there in India... some guy just told me that was relevant. its a permanent mark or birth defect or something... had it my entire life /shrug so basically this happened 2 years ago... and i just found out like 6 months ago that kundalini is a thing... and it seems nobody I've talked to really has any ideas for me or pretty tells me nothing useful... or they say... you gota find somebody who knows more! so i dunno who knows more or can explain this to me... oh... and this entity would visit me from time to time and I would call her mother for some reason... and we would laugh or thing things and play little games... the last time she visited me was this past month and she told me some things about 3iAtlas... and she sang me a song while placing some images in my mind. so riddle me this please... also i was an athiest until about a year after this occured... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
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Nungali Posted 8 hours ago 3 hours ago, AudiTistic said: Im going to keep it kinda short here because I've literally told this story to a hundred plus people and so far all I found out is there is something called kundalini... and apparently I experienced it... its a real thing that I physically experienced and afterwards real things happened that I experienced that I wont be able to prove to anybody I guess who doesnt know what this is. SOOOO 2 years ago... I was meditating in order to visit the universal library which I had been to before (also on accident) and instead I ended up in a void that was nearby but not on earth but not too far away (like another galaxy) there was an entity i sensed nearby behind to the right of me... in this place i say its a void because there was no sound, no light, no sensation of any kind that i was familiar with... but some how my mind knew or felt or sensed things. This entity was carrying a great burden on their heart and I felt the weight of the burden and I asked (with my mind?!??? no sound/words) if it wanted help or if it was okay... To which i sensed it TURN and LOOK at me like OVER me where I felt like it could see all of my being and non of me was hidden away. It replied: "How can you sense me? And how are you here?" I said: "Ummm.... I dunno... but are you okay? Would you like me to help you?" It replied: "Creatures like you... dont care about others..." I said: "Well I could walk with you and and try to help you with your burden?" It replied: "This burden isnt for you... it isnt possible for you to carry or help with it" I said: "even a little bit? I could try to carry alittle" (something occurs that i cant remember until some months later) It reaches out and touches me somehow... If I may ask ; your age and sex ? - its relevant to an explanation . Also what's behind your user name ? Some of this resonates with some experience I had as a child . Except mine was in nature and did not have the 'kundalini thing ' going on ... and not in some 'void realm ' . For me ( and it could also possibly be for you ) it relates to individuation and 'connecting to spirit' through ' Genius Loci ' * or some might call it spirit or angel guardian .... or familiar spirit / guide / helper . Its not unknown even in the modern western world ; Blavatski had her 'King John' and Jung had his ' Philamon' . * https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Genius_loci IMO Genius Loci may not necessarily need a 'loci' but may come through a different connection , however with indigenous people that are more connected to land and environment .... particularly local environment of birth ... the loci connection is very strong . I was 'touched somehow' as well ; a beam of light came out of the image and struck me between and a bit above the eyes . 3 hours ago, AudiTistic said: NOW THIS IS WHERE IT GETS CRAZY I immediately wake up, out of meditation or whereever I was and Im SCREAMING as I feel 10,000 volts of electricity (like lighting hit my spine) going up into my brain... where it felt like a plasma fire was lit and everything was bright... I fall over on my bed and dont move for like maybe 1 or 2 hours just crying... and eventually i get up and look around wondering WTF just happened. This is a crucial point for me ; was that just that experience then and did it settle down later , or do you still have those or uncomfortable , disconcerting , paralysis / crying , etc ..... or was that just after it ? This is important as if it was just then after it happened , now you can settle down to a rich and rewarding experience . 3 hours ago, AudiTistic said: I have no idea if this is relevant but i have this mark on my forhead somebody says its a TIKKA or TIKKI mark or something... its a divet in my forhead that looks like one of those marks people put there in India... some guy just told me that was relevant. its a permanent mark or birth defect or something... had it my entire life /shrug It could be, but I dont know what the relevance would be . It could be an indication that ' you have done some work in past incarnation to get to this stage now where you can have this experience .... or just weird shit ... like I got a flat spot over my 'third eye ' with an up turned Moon crescent shape under it , the Moon shape ( sort of like a fat or fluid deposit , seems to get larger and the feature more prominent during a full Moon) .... now I would think I am just being a 'tripper' but it was others that bought this to my attention , I had not noticed that . Also, if it means anything , I have a lot of Cancerian energy in my chart , including the tropical Sun right at the beginning of Cancer and I have a water ( element for Cancer ) hexagram birthmark on my chest . Also my experience was by the water , my 'being' came out of the water ( also I have a strong and well aspected Neptune in my chart ) . Get your natal horoscope done , relevant things should link in to your experience if valid . 3 hours ago, AudiTistic said: so basically this happened 2 years ago... and i just found out like 6 months ago that kundalini is a thing... and it seems nobody I've talked to really has any ideas for me or pretty tells me nothing useful... or they say... you gota find somebody who knows more! But why ? I would agree if those signs / symptoms persisted , but if they didnt , why worry ... other benefits will surface from a valid experience ( see below ) . In any case , if you want to find out more about kundalini , look it up and research and read . If it still a problem, outline it and some others here with more experience in it than I have might be able to help . 3 hours ago, AudiTistic said: so i dunno who knows more or can explain this to me... oh... and this entity would visit me from time to time and I would call her mother for some reason... and we would laugh or thing things and play little games... the last time she visited me was this past month and she told me some things about 3iAtlas... and she sang me a song while placing some images in my mind. These are some of the below benefits I referred to . Now, with further explanation it seems this entity is female . So was mine . Also look into ' anima / animus ' and the Zoroastrian concept of 'Daena ' . If this relationship develops in a balanced way you will have great benefit .... I have from mine , all of my life . 3 hours ago, AudiTistic said: so riddle me this please... also i was an athiest until about a year after this occured... atheism is no protection against the 'unfolding of the psyche' . - '' she sang me a little song '' : Was it in English ? 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cobie Posted 7 hours ago (edited) Welcome to the forum. Edited 7 hours ago by Cobie 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Lairg Posted 6 hours ago (edited) 6 hours ago, AudiTistic said: i say its a void because there was no sound, no light, no sensation of any kind that i was familiar with When you project into higher planes, initially you do not have the sense organs necessary to observe. Sometimes an entity may share its light-body with you so that you can use its sense organs temporarily 6 hours ago, AudiTistic said: entity was carrying a great burden on their heart and I felt the weight of the burden Your ability to feel the burden indicates that your heart has some higher aspects 6 hours ago, AudiTistic said: "Creatures like you... dont care about others..." Interesting comment. It has recognized the self-centered nature of most of your species, but apparently not your individual qualities 6 hours ago, AudiTistic said: "This burden isnt for you... it isnt possible for you to carry or help with it" The burden feels like galactic karma - and therefore is too great for most humans 6 hours ago, AudiTistic said: Im SCREAMING as I feel 10,000 volts of electricity (like lighting hit my spine) going up into my brain. I have some friends that learned the hard way to be careful of such connections 6 hours ago, AudiTistic said: found out like 6 months ago that kundalini is a thing.. The energy you were hit with, is far beyond the kundalini natural to humans. Your ability to survive that energy indicates that your light-body is not the standard human issue 6 hours ago, AudiTistic said: this entity would visit me from time to time and I would call her mother for some reason You contain some of that entity's light-body. Humanly that could be conceptualized a mother relationship The entity seems pleased with you Edited 6 hours ago by Lairg Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
AudiTistic Posted 5 hours ago 1 hour ago, Nungali said: If I may ask ; your age and sex ? - its relevant to an explanation . Also what's behind your user name ? Some of this resonates with some experience I had as a child . Except mine was in nature and did not have the 'kundalini thing ' going on ... and not in some 'void realm ' . For me ( and it could also possibly be for you ) it relates to individuation and 'connecting to spirit' through ' Genius Loci ' * or some might call it spirit or angel guardian .... or familiar spirit / guide / helper . Its not unknown even in the modern western world ; Blavatski had her 'King John' and Jung had his ' Philamon' . Im female and 40 years old so i was 38 when it happened... I like to "Audit Statistics" and I'm "Autistic" ... so AudiTistic... i spent a month figuring out cause i wanted something that reflected me. 1 hour ago, Nungali said: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Genius_loci IMO Genius Loci may not necessarily need a 'loci' but may come through a different connection , however with indigenous people that are more connected to land and environment .... particularly local environment of birth ... the loci connection is very strong . This is interesting because im compelled to move across the country to where I am now and Im supposed to live here for a reason of which I'm not sure of yet. But when I moved there I instantly got a job and the company gave me an $8k pay advance and bought me a car after like 2 weeks of being there... so that doesnt really happen so I felt like that was a sign I was where I was supposed to be. 1 hour ago, Nungali said: This is a crucial point for me ; was that just that experience then and did it settle down later , or do you still have those or uncomfortable , disconcerting , paralysis / crying , etc ..... or was that just after it ? This is important as if it was just then after it happened , now you can settle down to a rich and rewarding experience . I mean frankly every body I've talked to doesnt seem to have a clue what happened to me because they kinda say wierd stuff like this... what do you mean settle down? I mean all it does it get more and more... I see the souls of people im looking at, I have visions of the future, I have visions of peoples lives that I know. I can read and understand languages that I dont know. There are no other symptoms of the kundalini from that day... unles you mean crazy strange abilities manifesting, meeting demons, a dragon race, and for some reason star seeds keep popping up for me... then I dont know how else to respond here... I had a guardian angel who apparently followed me around for 6 months until one day somebody tried to do somehting to me... and this angel hit the guy so hard his teeth flew out and was taken to the hospital in a comma... then the angel guy just walked out to the end of a huge parking lot behind some bushes and vanished and never seen him again. 1 hour ago, Nungali said: It could be, but I dont know what the relevance would be . It could be an indication that ' you have done some work in past incarnation to get to this stage now where you can have this experience .... or just weird shit ... like I got a flat spot over my 'third eye ' with an up turned Moon crescent shape under it , the Moon shape ( sort of like a fat or fluid deposit , seems to get larger and the feature more prominent during a full Moon) .... now I would think I am just being a 'tripper' but it was others that bought this to my attention , I had not noticed that . Also, if it means anything , I have a lot of Cancerian energy in my chart , including the tropical Sun right at the beginning of Cancer and I have a water ( element for Cancer ) hexagram birthmark on my chest . Also my experience was by the water , my 'being' came out of the water ( also I have a strong and well aspected Neptune in my chart ) . frankly like 18 years ago i was walking in a club and somebody pointed at it and asked me something and told me it was special... ofcourse I didnt think anything of it and thought it was kinda wierd... then this happens and it seemingly is a phyiscal mark on my body that is basically what the indians put on their forhead... they put those red dots or whatever.... except mine is permanent... frankly unless somebody tells me a good reason it is useful... my default assumption is that I was a regular uninteresting human being trying to fail upwards in life and the mark on my head has zero value... so it doesnt mean anything to me unless somebody tells me something useful about it. Probably just a hold in my head that means nothing (athiest brain)... i dunno 1 hour ago, Nungali said: These are some of the below benefits I referred to . Now, with further explanation it seems this entity is female . So was mine . Also look into ' anima / animus ' and the Zoroastrian concept of 'Daena ' . If this relationship develops in a balanced way you will have great benefit .... I have from mine , all of my life . well so 4 weeks ago after talking to some kundalini "master" or yogi they asked me who the entity was... i never really thought much about it cause i just called her mother... but i spent like 12 hours using chat gpt to search all gods and spiritis and things and created a list of potentials and the final one that came out was Shakti Kali... which apprently is the form she is in right now... so if this is true... then she has adopted me and im her daughter because from what I read... she adopts those who come to her in truth and she is one of the Gods who will force a kundalini on someone... and she apparenty does her kundalini as a lighting bolt to the spine with fire in the head... so that all seemed to line up. Im like not one of these people who is like "ooo this God touched or blah blah" i dont seek any kind of fame or reconigtion... I mean I do love her because you know shes my mom and I feel her presence when she visits and she came to me last month after i read something that bothered me and she sang that song to me... THE SONG .... so it definitely wasnt in english or music that I can imitate because every time I've tried I cant even make the noises with my mouth... but the translated meaning was ... "I (Kali) am in the eye, dont worry, little children shouldn't cry <3" and i know it was in another language because i hear the actual words which are missing english words and then my mind seemed to correct itseslf and put them in... kinda like how you see a translation in a book or missing words that are YOU unders5tood. And the crazy part... the Sun started hurling these plasma charges at 3iAtlas and was hitting it... like bolts of fire aimed and fired... and some how I knew that it was my Mother (Kali) and the little children shouldnt cry... we were safe for now. So that should fill in some more blanks? 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
AudiTistic Posted 5 hours ago Just now, Lairg said: When you project into higher planes, initially you do not have the sense organs necessary to observe. Sometimes an entity may share its light-body with you so that you can use its sense organs temporarily Your ability to feel the burden indicates that your heart has some higher aspects Interesting comment. It has recognized the self-centered nature of most of your species, but apparently not your individual qualities The burden feels like galactic karma - and therefore is too great for most humans I have some friends that learned the hard way to be careful of such connections The energy you were hit with, is far beyond the kundalini natural to humans. Your ability to survive that energy indicates that your light-body is not the standard human issue You contain some of that entity's light-body. Humanly that could be conceptualized a mother relationship The entity seems pleased with you I mean ... as comforting as all of this sounds ... I just still dont know what to do with the powers she gave me or even why im compelled to move where I am... i think i replied with new informatoin when you wrote this... could you read it and see if anything else sticks out? also thank you for taking the time... i truly am trying to figure this out Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
AudiTistic Posted 5 hours ago Oh and also for like the first year I had watchers or some entities around me or near me that I could sense ... when I would try to talk about certain things in my mind... what I discovered is that if it was not information to be revealed or if it was me pulling information from the Cashic Records (Universal Library) they would shut off my memory for like an hour... I eventually learned not to so freely access or share information from that part of my mind... Also for the first year i would see a person at a bar who stuck out to me and i would go talk to them and tell them things that others shouldnt know and I would deliver some type of message to each of them... i was asked like 90% of the time if i was an angel... to which i would say no because I didnt even believe in such things in the first year... plus theres no evidence I am an angel... I just think that if somebody is kind to someone today... that the world is so mean if your nice to them they think your an angel. Thats the best I could come up with. And then when i stopped going to bars people would come through the xbox and somehow end up in my party where we would have 1v1 conversations that were the same... and i coudl feel these people from anywhere in the world and sense what they were sensing. something I am allowed to do is answer questions that are asked from the records... but if i teach something from the records thats a no no... and until just last month I hadnt had any issues until 3iAtlas showed up... and also I've a few human beings that had wards glowing in their dreams and I believe them to be star seeds... they also said there were entities present around them recently they felt... but now they are gone again. So I dont know what make of that. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Lairg Posted 4 hours ago (edited) 1 hour ago, AudiTistic said: Im supposed to live here for a reason of which I'm not sure of yet. Can you visualize a vertical flow of Light nearby? Just as the human has meridians, so does the Cosmos 1 hour ago, AudiTistic said: I see the souls of people im looking at, I have visions of the future, I have visions of peoples lives that I know. I can read and understand languages that I dont know. The extension of your perceptions can occur through an upgrade to your light-body. This can occur through donation/sharing of energy substance 1 hour ago, AudiTistic said: some reason star seeds keep popping up for me There are many star seeds incarnating in human format 1 hour ago, AudiTistic said: I had a guardian angel who apparently followed me around for 6 months until one day somebody tried to do something to me. Those called "star seeds" are often attacked (usually non-physically) by entities, including managed humans, to reduce their functionality. Usually protection is more subtle 1 hour ago, AudiTistic said: atheist brain Hopefully you can distinguish deism from theism 1 hour ago, AudiTistic said: search all gods and spiritis and things and created a list of potentials and the final one that came out was Shakti Kali. Better to do experiments rather than rely on AI Look at your spirit "mother" and put the word "kalki" next to her. What happens to the word? 1 hour ago, AudiTistic said: I just still dont know what to do with the powers she gave me You will be prompted as required 1 hour ago, AudiTistic said: i would see a person at a bar who stuck out to me and i would go talk to them and tell them things that others shouldnt know 1 hour ago, AudiTistic said: I am allowed to do is answer questions that are asked from the records... but if i teach something from the records thats a no no.. Better perhaps to use images telepathically for the sensitive things - then say a few related words to see if they have picked it up 1 hour ago, AudiTistic said: I believe them to be star seeds. Not sure how useful is that concept. Test its accuracy by visualizing those words next to a suitable person and watch what happens to the words. A close match produces strong energy or attraction between the words and the target. The problem seems to me to be that those in human format often over-emphasize their individuality. What if a vast entity wished to incarnate as a cluster of universes? How many trillion threads of Light would it put into planets, species, timelines? Some of the anchor points of those threads may increase transparency and alignment so that the greater Self can operate through those anchors. As that occurs some local authority is delegated. Edited 4 hours ago by Lairg Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nungali Posted 3 hours ago (edited) 2 hours ago, AudiTistic said: I mean ... as comforting as all of this sounds ... I just still dont know what to do with the powers she gave me or even why im compelled to move where I am... i think i replied with new informatoin when you wrote this... could you read it and see if anything else sticks out? also thank you for taking the time... i truly am trying to figure this out If you have not been that long in that location , it might come later . It seems first, you needed to get the material 'mundane' plane sorted out first . Their might be a significant spot in the area ; a 'sacred site' or some special spot for you ? Sometimes these things take time to 'unfold' . . Edited 3 hours ago by Nungali SIC Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
