hagar

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  1. This is my first post in TTB for some time and the first time I must fundamentally disagree with all previous posters. No disrespect. Up front, martial arts may possibly change 'karma' by protecting others, but beyond that pure martial practice is quite shallow. In my personal experience, 2 separate aims are emphasized in Daoist practices; - Cultivating Life - Cultivating Essence If you cultivate essence (basic nature of mind) you transcend the entire notion of karma or anything that is contingent and subject to time and space. Here Karma is seen as irrelevant for the only true self, which you allready are. So why bother changing it. However, when cultivating life, particularly through Nei Dan, you actually speed up karma. This means that you should be quite prepared and detached when cultivating Nei Dan practices, because they open the subtle channels and alot of energy that allready is conditioned, is given more energy, and will manifest itself. In my experience, I got "more bad karma" by cultivating Nei Dan; meaning things that were set in motion speeded up much more rapidly. So if you want to transcend karma thorugh practice, you cannot do so without not wanting it Either, you see the futile nature of changing the changing Or, you realize that stopping what has allready been set in motion by focusing energy there is also futile However, that insight is very liberating indeed. In both cases you´re allready "fucked". But then again, aren´t we all... h
  2. chaga and nightmares

    Thank you. Will take that into consideration. Chaga do have B-vitamins in them, so that may play a role. It´s nothing to be found on the webs, but melanin is (as I understand it) a component that is necessary for producing melatonin, which will make your dreams more vivid taken in excess... Interesting what you said about jinn/spirit. Makes sense from a Daoist perspective h
  3. chaga and nightmares

    Hi folks Long time since I´ve been here. I have a question for you wise people: During the last week I have been drinking Chaga tea, and for a couple of nights I have also been plagued with intense nightmares. I rarely have them, and wonder if there is causation and not only correlation. The reason I think there may be a link is that they were particularly vivid, and particularly dark. I have not found anything online that would support this claim. However, I know that mushroom-based effects may, if one "overdose" have a degree of dream induction through it´s high melatonin content. So; if there is a melanin - nightmare link, may I be overdosing on it? h
  4. Neidan on the rise in the west?

    Nei Dan will probably become diluted if it becomes "trendy", just like various yogas. In my experience, the greatest challenge is authentic transmission. The true texts, and lineages are difficult, if not impossible to discern as there are no way of knowing what is genuine and alive practices from mere techniques. If you find a good teacher, hold on to it like you´ve found the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. My Nei Dan teacher changes his teachings continuously, and there are no emphasis on traditional practices. In fact, although the quality of his teachings have continued to evolve and become very direct and effective, people seem not to catch on. In fact, the better the teaching, the more confronting, and less popular it gets. To my own experience, Nei Dan is a process of slowly confronting the false energies in my system. The closer I come to the core pollution, the less I want to practice, and the more scary it becomes. Thus, good Neidan practice is like pulling out a wisdom tooth yourself. It´s really uncomfortable, and not for everyone. Be wary of false teachers. h
  5. Virtue is there in the evil man as well... Virtue is nothing to attain. Virtue is the opposite of gaining anything. It is the opposite of morality. The daoist sage who decided to visit his hermit friend, only to realize that he changed his mine only steps from his friend´s door, he has virtue. h
  6. Energy and Light

    It seems that starlight refers to the essential, core aspect of our presence. So if that is the astral, then yes
  7. My take on your issue is this: get really comitted to practice, either your daily meditation or qigong or both. This is the essential. Focusing on abstaining, and concluding it doesn´t work and deciding that sex is ok is not that interesting. It just reveals that you are oriented on that particular aspect of your body and life. It probably reveals something deeper if you abstain. Are you willing to find out? That´s much more comitting. I found that that abstaining just pointed me to my intimacy issues; not with anyone else, but with myself. If you want to face these issues: go ahead and abstain. In real practice you tap into something that is infinately more subtle and more powerful than any arousal. Then that fades. Actually, my impression is that people who do retention are primarily oriented towards the same through sexual abstincence; some exhilirating experience or feeling of power, Lack of ability to commit to practice and also retention is about fear of intimacy. All external objects of desire are interesting as a diversion. Sorry for the rant. h
  8. My teacher do not speak about retention at all. He had courses on it a decade ago, but stopped. Now he has moved on. I am unsure if he actually sees retention as supporting practice or not. He never speaks about it. My understanding is that when you truly "log on" the practice and benefits are self-motivating, so that jing-issues fades in importance. Its just too dense and conditioned to be of any interest in comparison. My own experience is that when properly aligned with the transmission, the issue of retention is really irrelevant. It´s not that it does not support practice to be abstinate, but the entire emphasis on sexual energy is not what is practices nor encouraged. The essential water (Jing) is not the sexual energy, but jing chi is supported by a sexual hygiene.
  9. Allthough I follow your initial description, there is a danger of making pre-natal Jing analogous to a mechanistic model of energy transference. This is only a metaphor, even if you read the original Nei Dan texts, like "Understanding Reality". It has taken me a couple of decades to get the message from my teacher embedded; Pre-natal energy is not a reservoir, but our original cosmic energy; and it is also something we access, not replenish. We are not reservoirs, but conductors. If we do not invite in the original cosmic energy; the light and information, we may abstain in any form for decades with no real results. The cosmic energy is also the energy that we were originally created with and by: It fused with matter and life was created. This energy is all-pervasive, yet it is also like a signal, a code. This access is almost like letting this energy find you, or letting the true, original light return. It is spirit, essence. When Chan Po Tuan says Nei Dan is both cultivating essence and life, he refers to both the simultaneous cultivating of the energy of life and essence. However, essence and life is also a meeting; pre-natal refers to what was there before birth, before physically manifesting. It is not an energy of the same substance as post-natal, and not of the same energy-paradigm. It is fundamentally of a different nature. However, when accessing cosmic light, the prenatal energy benefits us, gives us life. It may not be filled up in the same manner as a reservoir. When consistent and dedicated practice is done for a long time, the body might possibly return to an almost "true" yang state. This is, however, not the same as replenishing the pre-natal energy. The pre-natal source that infuses us with life when born is not of the body at all. It is part of a different realm all together. h
  10. Energy and Light

    Came late to this topic, but wanted just to share something I found in an old notebook that I used on retreats with my teacher. When opening one random page, something I had forgotten emerged on the page. It was written as a transcribation of what my teacher wanted to convey about the essential teaching of his Nei Dan practice. It just hit me in the stomach. It came alive as I read the words: "When we become cosmic light we reflect starlight Pysical body fades, slight feeling of gathering, pearl of light = Center Inner structure like star Embody cosmic energy and information Realization = true nature of physical presence" Later, I read this more general remark noted down: "Qigong is going back to the root of life The creator is what heals the branches" Just wanted to share this. Maybe not relevant... h
  11. loving and loss

    I feel you, and understand what you mean. I had to take my cat to the vet 3 days ago, and put him to rest. He had gotten a terminal illness, and his health was rapidly declining. I was there when he got his injection. It broke my heart. Innocent. Seeing the light in his eyes slowly going out. He trusted me. Going up the stairs to take him with me I broke out in tears. A little loving spark in the universe. One moment there, then he fades out, and is forever gone. h
  12. Listened to the Tim Ferriss podcast yesterday, and came across an interview with Wim Hof; who through yogic breathing and cold exposure has been scientifically measured to regulate his body temperature at will and manipulate his immune system. All this by simple pranayama/tummo-ish breathing and cold exposure. What is even better is that he has climbed Everest in shorts and ran a marathon in the Namib desert without any water and holds some pretty gnarly records in ice bathing. Pretty cool dude too, and overcame some tough hardships. Anyways, pretty inspiring and made me all happy to see that this is finally hitting the scientific mainstream and could potentially disrupt both the pharmaceutical industry and more importantly the biomedical paradigm of reductionism and decartianism that we have been suffering under throught the Dark ages after the Enlightenment. Check out the Vice doc: http://www.vice.com/en_uk/video/iceman
  13. This a slight thread hijack, but just a comment on the role and impact of how metaphors and models of the energetic system in the body affects people´s interpretations of their experiences, and how they motivate themselves or sabotage their progress; The sexual energy, (part of the jing) is often referred to as "fuel" for the system. However, It took me a long time to realize that this is not the case. The sexual energy is more like an expression that the true water or Jing can take in it´s manifest form. Seeking to work with sexual energy is like trying to work with gasoline after it has gone through the combustion process in the cylinder of the engine. Better to look at how to get more gas, and what to do with it before you turn the engine on. A lot of stuff can still steer you off course, and not even get you out of the parking lot. In reality, the detrimental effects of sexual indulgence happens long before the issue of semen and retention actually comes up. It happens when you put the foot on the gas pedal...on the wrong road, or without knowing where you are going. Your intentions, longings, cravings, and thoughts... If you know the actual destination of your car, (you) and use your fuel wisely through navigating past all detours, and knowing where you are going, this is true cultivation. Which means that tuning the system (car) into the right road (home), and using the most direct and safest route (map) is about not focusing on all the backroads that look interesting, but know that you already have a short amount of gas and time to use. It´s ongoing work to drive home. If you want to truly transform and cultivate Jing, and also Chi and Shen, place more emphasis on being aware of what you are longing for and why. If this is really taken to it´s ultimate consequence, a lot of issues around sexual retention will dissolve. If you are making retention an obstacle, it will become one. If not, it really is just one of a large mosaic of practices and energies in the body that needs to be balanced and kept wakeful awareness on. The metaphor is actually pretty bad, I don´t know if this really helps anyone... h
  14. Preventing Jing Loss

    The left side does put slightly more pressure on the heart, yet it prevents nocturnal emissions more efficiently according to my teacher. I did not however get the whole explanation why. It works though. h
  15. Preventing Jing Loss

    Why at all do you want to cultivate just Jing? Sleep on your left side as much as possible. h