Experiences with letting go of control ?– Trusting the divine flow

[Kati]

Lately, something strange but beautiful has been unfolding in me.

 

I’m currently in a phase of life where I’m looking for work. I started this process rather late because I had some psychological issues for a long time. And now, as I walk this uncertain path, I find myself doing Qigong as part of my spiritual practice – and it has quietly opened my heart.

 

Through this, I’ve begun to feel a growing trust in God, in the Dao, in the deeper current behind life. A few days ago, I was still very anxious – "What if I don’t find a job?" – but then this gentle thought came to me: God protects me, no matter what.

 

And suddenly, I felt this deep shift: I want to let go of my plans – the idea that I need to have this job, or that I have to secure my future. What truly matters is not what I think I should do, but what the Divine wants for me. I don’t want to chase control anymore. I want to listen. I want to trust.i got so calm that i could hear my heartbeat. That is a good sign of calmness for me

 

It feels strange to think this way. I’m not used to it. Part of me wonders: Am I becoming passive? Irresponsible? Or is this the beginning of true surrender?

 

Sometimes I feel like I just want to sit, meditate, and be at peace. The earthly world seems so unstable – everything is constantly changing, dying, passing. Without God, without the Dao, everything feels chaotic. But if I hand it all over, if I stop clinging to goals and outcomes, there’s a quietness that arises. And in that stillness, I feel... safe.

 

Has anyone here experienced something similar – this strange letting go, this dissolving of personal plans in favor of divine guidance? How do you navigate this shift in daily life?

 

Edited Wednesday at 08:25 PM by Kati

[Cobie]

22 minutes ago, Kati said:

… But if I hand it all over, … I feel... safe.

 

That’s my approach to life, that’s my faith. I am all for “trusting the divine flow”. 
 

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Has anyone here experienced something similar – this strange letting go, this dissolving of personal plans in favor of divine guidance?

 

My whole life I have felt like that. 

 

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How do you navigate this shift in daily life?

In my experience it’s sometimes necessary to tell some type of intrusive people to f**k off. 
 

 

Edited Wednesday at 08:44 PM by Cobie

[Kati]

That sounds awesome that your whole life feels like that Cobie but also a bit scary to me.

 

I think need sometimes people who have similiar experiences and Tell me that i am fine. I dont have many people who bother me negatively. Not anymore 

 

I just meditated a little while ago, and something quiet but clear came through:
Source is my purpose.

When I rest in that awareness, so much stillness and peace arise.
But it takes mindfulness not to lose myself again in worldly goals — career, health, success, becoming someone. All these things only seem to have meaning for me when I feel deeply connected to Source. Without that, it all feels hollow.

My teacher once said something that I now understand more and more:

“Everything in life is ultimately a reflection of your relationship with the Divine.”

I feel that.
Even each thought we think is, in a way, a subtle proclamation — a declaration of how close or distant we feel from God, from Dao, from Source.

It’s strange to watch my mind form goals or worries — and to realize: all of it is just movement on the surface. Underneath, there is something still, silent, whole. And the more I trust that, the more I feel that this is what matters. This is the real path.

 

[BigSkyDiamond]

i remember about 30 years ago taking a class on "prosperity based on spiritual principles."  My financial life was well, in the toilet.  Unemployed, out of the work force, unstable and unhealthy romantic relationship, ongoing health problems, court appearnces and legal battle with ex over money and custody.   The class was very practice-based so there was interesting homework which I faithfully carried out, more out of desperation than anything else.  Sort of an "i'll try anything" mindset.   

 

Some of the homework assignments made a big impression on me (and still do, to this day).   Every time i wrote a check for anything (this was before online banking, when people actually wrote paper checks to make payments) in the comment field write "God is my Source of supply."  I did this for years.  After a while i shortened it to "God is my Source."  Carry a $100 bill in wallet at all times (yes, a real one).  It is impossible to feel "poor" while seeing a $100 bill every time opening wallet.  All financial debt is related to forgiveness.  Make a list of all people in my life needing forgiveness, and do it.  Include self on list.  Repeat as needed.

 

I found it surprisingly effective.

[Lairg]

34 minutes ago, BigSkyDiamond said:

Make a list of all people in my life needing forgiveness, and do it.  Include self on list.

 

Quite right.  Holding judgement against people has a direct effect on relationships generally and reduces beneficial flows including financial.

 

It is much better to see what needs to be out-grown and to support the out-growing.  

[Kati]

1 hour ago, BigSkyDiamond said:

i remember about 30 years ago taking a class on "prosperity based on spiritual principles."  My financial life was well, in the toilet.  Unemployed, out of the work force, unstable and unhealthy romantic relationship, ongoing health problems, court appearnces and legal battle with ex over money and custody.   The class was very practice-based so there was interesting homework which I faithfully carried out, more out of desperation than anything else.  Sort of an "i'll try anything" mindset.   

 

Some of the homework assignments made a big impression on me (and still do, to this day).   Every time i wrote a check for anything (this was before online banking, when people actually wrote paper checks to make payments) in the comment field write "God is my Source of supply."  I did this for years.  After a while i shortened it to "God is my Source."  Carry a $100 bill in wallet at all times (yes, a real one).  It is impossible to feel "poor" while seeing a $100 bill every time opening wallet.  All financial debt is related to forgiveness.  Make a list of all people in my life needing forgiveness, and do it.  Include self on list.  Repeat as needed.

 

I found it surprisingly effective.

wow amazing story, thank you for sharing!

[Nungali]

2 hours ago, Kati said:

Lately, something strange but beautiful has been unfolding in me.

 

I’m currently in a phase of life where I’m looking for work. I started this process rather late because I had some psychological issues for a long time. And now, as I walk this uncertain path, I find myself doing Qigong as part of my spiritual practice – and it has quietly opened my heart.

 

Through this, I’ve begun to feel a growing trust in God, in the Dao, in the deeper current behind life. A few days ago, I was still very anxious – "What if I don’t find a job?" – but then this gentle thought came to me: God protects me, no matter what.

 

And suddenly, I felt this deep shift: I want to let go of my plans – the idea that I need to have this job, or that I have to secure my future. What truly matters is not what I think I should do, but what the Divine wants for me. I don’t want to chase control anymore. I want to listen. I want to trust.i got so calm that i could hear my heartbeat. That is a good sign of calmness for me

 

It feels strange to think this way. I’m not used to it. Part of me wonders: Am I becoming passive? Irresponsible? Or is this the beginning of true surrender?

 

Sometimes I feel like I just want to sit, meditate, and be at peace. The earthly world seems so unstable – everything is constantly changing, dying, passing. Without God, without the Dao, everything feels chaotic. But if I hand it all over, if I stop clinging to goals and outcomes, there’s a quietness that arises. And in that stillness, I feel... safe.

 

Has anyone here experienced something similar – this strange letting go, this dissolving of personal plans in favor of divine guidance? How do you navigate this shift in daily life?

 

 

 

Here is the thing ; letting go and being led ....   how did I know I was actually doing that ? Its tricky . 

 

'Today I shall not 'decide' to do anything , I shall let go of control and be 'led by the divine'  .   Today is Saturday ( well, it was then  when this happened )  , I am supposed to go to training , do I go ?  Wait !  That's thinking about things and  getting near a decision ... don't do that . 

 

I am wandering around , going near the car  ..... am I being led towards the car by spirit or am I fighting being led elsewhere and subtly wanting to get to the car to go to training  ?   

 

- let me know if you ever figure it out . 

 

Oh dear ... and so on, and on , and you can go nuts .  So , I thought , obviously 'the Gods'  need some type of medium through which to be able to manifest direction .  I suppose I could ask and do a quick 'divination'   at significant points of the day ?   Nah ,   that seems to much like the 'coin toss ' experiment .     Very difficult .    Anyway here is what ended up happening . 

 

It seems the divine wanted me to wander around aimlessly for a while     But I 'ended up' in town waiting to do training  . Thing is now one turned up ... now it gets interesting ;  there was a camper van parked  in the parking area of our training park and a rather strange looking , thin guy was sitting there on its back step  .  I had rung up a training mate and was hassling him on the phone  (under divine direction    )     for not turning up   ( he had a hang over ) .  This camper 'guy' was listening and laughed  and I made a comment to him, and with the answer I realized he was actually a she .  I had a few words and then the strange stuff started . 

 

Nothing about this woman 'attracted ' me to her , physically .   She was a bit 'nervy' and unsettled but seemed friendly . She said she had driven  to this town from  not too far away  to go to the markets here and  had slept in the van overnight . 

 

I took one look at her and  " No you haven't ! "   She seemed shocked  but then admitted I was right .   I added " You are on the run aren't you ?"    She was .   I asked if she was able to go back home and she looked down and shook her head .   So I offered , :" Well, it looks like training won't happen ,  hop in my car , I will drive up to town and we will get some breakfast and coffee ." ... and I had no idea why I said that  but that's what we did .  During breakfast , we didn't talk , she seemed to go inward and introverted .   I told her  ( told, that surprised me )  we would go back to the camper van and she would drive it following me back to my place .  And she did . 

 

Back there the story came out , yep, domestic abuse . She owned a house  down the coast but had been in years long abusive relationship with some biker dude , she said it came to a climax a couple of days ago where she spent over 12 hours hiding under the house while he stalked the surrounds with a shotgun , then she managed to escape and drove up the coast . I wondered why. after that, she would go off with a stranger , what if I was a murderer  - she said she didn't care if that happened !  Wow , turned out she was real mess !   I had to 'diffuse' a lot of stuff , she had bad  subversive stuff going on with herself . We started to work though it .

 

She was a mess , as you would be :  just driving around in my car with me she would scrunch down onto the floor if we were about to pass anyone . Anyway there was a lot of talk, counselling and turns out she was a good responsible  ' housemate ' , she lived in her van , did a lot of gardening  which I appreciated  and then one evening comes back from the shower block ( I live on a community )  saying she just met a funny little man there , and described him .  " Ohhhh, that's Ben, he's harmless , a bit  funny and a recluse , but he's ok." 

" But he invited me to dinner ! "   She seemed surprised that   she accepted .  I said again he was harmless and she should go, if she wanted to .

 

Anyway , they ended up  ' in a relationship ' , she tells this small thin ineffectual man  about her issues  and  they drive off down the coast , little skinny guy fronts the crazy biker and somehow scares him off !   She gets her house back and a few months later  I am at their wedding reception  and she  is pointing over at me and saying  " This all started 10 months ago , when  I met a strange man   at the  park in town . " 

 

So ... anything could happen  .... but it might not relate directly to you .  ( Although I did get a good gardener for a while . ) 

[Nungali]

So , that is 'an incident ' ... what when it is your whole life ? 

 

A bigger mystery for me is I THOUGHT I WAS RUNNING the show ... but was I ? 

 

In latter life I started to see the image that was being formed ( and was SUPPOSED TO BE  being formed  - one knows that it is supposed to be as the picture gets clearer - you can see what it is .   Its a long complex story that I will not go into , but it is like ; 

 

little kid sees a fire engine and loves it ... so what , many many kids do that .  Then he gets a choice of a toy for his birthday , he chooses  a toy fire engine  .   He doesn't seem  as nervous around fire as others kids but acts reasonably . he even puts out a dangerous fire at a young age .  He grows up has a variety of jobs but isn't really happy ... eventually , through a ' series of coincidences' he ends up as a fireman .  he enjoys it, he starts having a better life .  He discovers his grandfather and two of his uncles were firemen .

 

How much  of that was  his  choice - how much was his destiny ? 

 

One example I could give  out of the whole complex tapestry of them in my life : 

 

I treasure my little place and environment , I have been here 40 years  and its a rare gift . But  we got involved in complex court battles and it looked like we were going to loose it . Oh no !  The rental situation here was impossible and over expensive ... I started to get worried and stress out ... what they hell am I going to do ?  Then I  pulled myself together ... what the hell are you doing that for ?   My whole life I have never had to worry , the Gods have 'always delivered '   (  I didn't realize that for the first half of my life !  )  , stop being stupid !   Just let them do their thing . 

 

But one needs to create a medium for manifestation , so I randomly looked at a site on line to see if there any houses  for rent .  I saw one that immediately caught my eye , and it was  near local  , that was weird as many  many people had been looking for rentals and none were supposed to be about .   A friend of mine was considering the same issue and we decided to move together  as house mates .   We went and had a sneak look at the place , it was great !  I peaked through a window ;" Thats my room ! " . I won't go on about  how good it was, in many aspects . 

 

We rang up, were told  many people had rung and there was a huge list . They happened to be at the house unexpectedly and I asked if  we could   come over and see them . We hit it so good the woman said " I don't even want  to sign a lease , it seems so crass  and official, I would like our arrangement to be based on  trust and understanding  . My woman friend loved that but I could see the owners male partner cringing and sensing danger , so I offered , " Yes, let's work on trust from both sides , but just as a little official annoyance , give me the lease and I'll sign it . 

 

Very happy there .  But something unusual still hung in the air .   When I left the house I would either drive to town, or the other way to see people I knew . Not just drive past the house .  One day I rode my motorcycle*  from town to a friends PAST the house and it hit me , MY GOD !  This is the house I rode past on the first day I ever came to this area  ! I distinctly remember the view from the road as one passed , the garden and fields and spectacular view and I said to myself ' Wow! Look at that amazing house and view , I would love to live in a place like that , even if it was for a few months , for the experience . ' 

 

And here I was doing exactly that .   Things started to improve in the court case  so I started going back to home , a cabin down in the valley . Now I had a cabin down in the valley near the river , and a lodge up the mountain  (it had been a  lodge offering accommodation previously ) 

 

* same with the motor cycle - I saw one as a youth " Thats the one I want ! "   I could never get it of course . And then it became impossible as, as they do, keep changing models every year and 'modernizing ' ... decades later , I get an inheritance , an  Indian company had bought out the English motorcycle manufacturers  and kept making them in India  and had put out a 'retro model ' of the exact one decades back I always dreamed about , so I got one . 

 

That's just two examples ... and crazy that it is things like a motorcycle  ( its been other things too  that I wont detail ) , but a lot more of course ; life direction, relationships ,   job ,  etc /

 

Some days , I just stand there and look wondering up to the sky   " Thanks 'Big Mum ' for looking after me !  "

 

 

Edited Wednesday at 11:14 PM by Nungali

[心神 ~]

1 hour ago, BigSkyDiamond said:

"God is my Source of supply."

 

My favorite affirmations courtesy of Florence Scovel Shinn:

 

There are no obstacles in divine mind, and there is nothing to obstruct my good. Endless good now comes to me in endless ways.

 

I am in perfect harmony with the working of the law. I stand aside and let infinite intelligence make my way easy and successful.

 

I do not limit God by seeing limitation in myself. With God and myself, all things are possible.

 

Nourished by the spirit within, my body is tireless, timeless, birthless, and deathless. I am harmonious, happy, radiant.

 

I am at peace with myself and the whole world. I love everyone and everyone loves me. I forgive everyone and everyone forgives me.

 

Apparent enemies become my friends, golden links in the chain of my good. There is nothing to oppose my good.

 

In loving the law of non-resistance, I have great peace and nothing can offend me.

 

Goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I shall dwell in the house of abundance forever.

 

God's plan for me is perfect and permanent. I am fully equipped for the divine plan of my life.

 

I let go of everything not divinely designed for me, and the perfect plan of my life now comes to pass.

 

Everything that is by divine right mine, I receive in the perfect way at the perfect time.

 

I always know what to do and quickly follow my intuitive leads.

 

I wait patiently, trusting in the Lord, who forever gives me the desires of my heart.

 

I prepare for the fulfillment of my heart's desire, and show that I believe God's promise will be kept.

 

I spend money under divine inspiration wisely and fearlessly, knowing God is my endless and immediate source.

 

There is no loss in divine mind. Every apparent loss will be restored to me, or I will receive its equivalent.

 

There is no debt in divine mind, therefore, no one owes me anything and I owe no one anything. All obligations are wiped out under grace in a miraculous way.

 

I do not resist any situation. I put it in the hands of infinite love and wisdom. The divine idea now comes to pass.

 

There is nothing to fear, for there is no power to harm. God cannot fail, so I cannot fail. Nothing can defeat God, so nothing can defeat me.

 

I cast every burden on Christ within and I go free.

 

As I have asked, I must receive. Amen.

[Vajra Fist]

I think the best things that happened in my life were down to chance or accident. Finding a career, moving abroad, meeting my wife, even IVF for our son.

 

But I don't think I ever had a passive attitude toward these things. I worked hard to get a job, I was looking for a long-term partner. 

 

So while success or failure depend on fate, divine provenance or luck - however you want to see it. You still have to care about it, and strive forward in pursuit of your goals.

[Nungali]

9 minutes ago, Vajra Fist said:

I think the best things that happened in my life were down to chance or accident. Finding a career, moving abroad, meeting my wife, even IVF for our son.

 

But I don't think I ever had a passive attitude toward these things. I worked hard to get a job, I was looking for a long-term partner. 

 

So while success or failure depend on fate, divine provenance or luck - however you want to see it. You still have to care about it, and strive forward in pursuit of your goals.

 

Yes !  One needs to forge a pathway whereby  'divine grace' may descend and manifest .    

[Nungali]

33 minutes ago, 心神 ~ said:

 

My favorite affirmations courtesy of Florence Scovel Shinn:

 

There are no obstacles in divine mind, and there is nothing to obstruct my good. Endless good now comes to me in endless ways.

 

I am in perfect harmony with the working of the law. I stand aside and let infinite intelligence make my way easy and successful.

 

I do not limit God by seeing limitation in myself. With God and myself, all things are possible.

 

Nourished by the spirit within, my body is tireless, timeless, birthless, and deathless. I am harmonious, happy, radiant.

 

I am at peace with myself and the whole world. I love everyone and everyone loves me. I forgive everyone and everyone forgives me.

 

Apparent enemies become my friends, golden links in the chain of my good. There is nothing to oppose my good.

 

In loving the law of non-resistance, I have great peace and nothing can offend me.

 

Goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I shall dwell in the house of abundance forever.

 

God's plan for me is perfect and permanent. I am fully equipped for the divine plan of my life.

 

I let go of everything not divinely designed for me, and the perfect plan of my life now comes to pass.

 

Everything that is by divine right mine, I receive in the perfect way at the perfect time.

 

I always know what to do and quickly follow my intuitive leads.

 

I wait patiently, trusting in the Lord, who forever gives me the desires of my heart.

 

I prepare for the fulfillment of my heart's desire, and show that I believe God's promise will be kept.

 

I spend money under divine inspiration wisely and fearlessly, knowing God is my endless and immediate source.

 

There is no loss in divine mind. Every apparent loss will be restored to me, or I will receive its equivalent.

 

There is no debt in divine mind, therefore, no one owes me anything and I owe no one anything. All obligations are wiped out under grace in a miraculous way.

 

I do not resist any situation. I put it in the hands of infinite love and wisdom. The divine idea now comes to pass.

 

There is nothing to fear, for there is no power to harm. God cannot fail, so I cannot fail. Nothing can defeat God, so nothing can defeat me.

 

I cast every burden on Christ within and I go free.

 

As I have asked, I must receive. Amen.

 

Mine was  a bit shorter 

 

From my teacher  *     " Just ask 'Big Mum'  for whatever you need , she will look after you . "  

 

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( It worked for them for 40,000 years     ) 

 

 

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Edited Wednesday at 11:34 PM by Nungali

[心神 ~]

22 minutes ago, Nungali said:

 

Mine was  a bit shorter 

 

From my teacher  *     " Just ask 'Big Mum'  for whatever you need , she will look after you . "  

 

* 

 

( It worked for them for 40,000 years     ) 

 

 

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Yes, I completely agree. I turn to my Mother in Heaven (and Father) for all things – all worries, all thanks. They are the (my, though I do believe our) source.

 

[Nungali]

I will add though ;

 

this doesn't mean any person or every person can just  all of a sudden  "  Give me this " .... that teaching was specific to me  and considered my whole  previous life and my destiny , my teacher took that into account .    Some are not that  fortunate  and seem to have to work through other things . 

 

More cause for thanks