Goldleaf

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  1. good sleep journal

    Thanks ilumairen Will buy some eye drops shortly, too.
  2. Buddha was referring to the external world as illusion to inspire those interested to seek the reality within them.
  3. good sleep journal

    Usually 1-2 hours per night. Lighting is on the ceiling behind and above me, I am lying down. I am using it this way now, and my eyes are bloodshot andsore, even though I had a great day which felt both tiring and invigorating. It feels like I am being attacked by an irritant in the room, since, I have used this computer in other areas and never feel this way.
  4. Perhaps its when you feel most lost that you will realy find what you are after. You sound pretty self-aware. I know you don't want info overload, but maybe a book like Cosmic Ordering or The Secret could help you find the answer to what you are after, since you seem to know how to ask the question. Good luck!
  5. good sleep journal

    Thanks mate! Just want to quickly share an important breakthrough. I managed to go beyond my mind for a brief period during chi kung yesterday, and had a powerful chi flow!! I felt warm and energetic and engaging, i.e, it opened my heart. Then, when I came home after long day, I immediately noticed some irritation on my eyes and nose. I used the computer in the room, and felt a not-nice liquidy feeling in my kidneys, which I wouldn't normally get from PC use. So, at least I am getting somewhere to figure this out. So here's the strange thing, when i first moved here, for the first month, I slept amazing. Had no eye or nose irritation. Felt energetic and even had girls flirting with me openly! So, what has changed?? I vacuum, clean sheets regularly, etc. That is some serious irritation. When I woke up this morning my eyes were totally bloodshot. So my next question is, are there any enlightened daobums out there, with second sight, who can help me identify the source of this irritation? Please pm me if you think you can have a go. I'll even pay you if it works. (and I honor my agreeements I am a gentleman). In the meantime, if you are suffering an issue like me, try doing your chi kung in the morning, have a nice chi flow, and then at least you can still have an enjoyable and productive day, and the chi kung will in the long term will improve your sensitivity and overall health. Thanks gl
  6. What do you sleep on?

    Reminds me of Karl Pilkington, in my eyes one of the funniest man alive
  7. Hi there, Am I mistaken or did there used to be sub-forum for daily practice? Rather than post occassional threads about my sleep issues, I am keen to make a regular entries, like daily practice, both for posterity and for the hope that other enlightened daobums might pick up something in what I have written, that I haven't! Cheers GL
  8. Emergency situation, seeking advice (content may be triggering)

    You could also try Shaolin Chi Kung and Kung Fu. It is taught by Grandmaster Wong Kiew Kit. I did a couple of courses there, after I had abused Marijuana, ecstacy in the past, had some strong, cleansing chi flows, and although it wasn't a magic bullet (nothing is), it helped me appreciate it the simple beauty of life without drugs, and have a clear-thinking, positive mind. (I even managed to still my mind!). Courses are expensive, I paid about 1500$ Australian but you can get a full refund if you don't experience benefits. (N.b I do not work for or receive any monetary benefit for promoting, just sharing what I thought might help you the most). I've met a guy who also had a heavy pot-smoking past, now he enters into free-sparring tournaments using only his Tai Ji and wins them!! Good luck on your journey. And remember, it is you that controls your brain, not the weed lololol
  9. Freedom or Bulls***

    Freedom to choose. This is the advantage Neo had over Agent Smith in the final Matrix film. Smith had only purpose (to take over and multiply himself), whereas Neo had choice. If you don't choose the solution, you're part of the problem.
  10. Wonderful post, thanks for everything :0
  11. Rideforever, thanks but to be honest, since doing all the blood tests, sleep study, allergy test, visit naturopath... I have come to believe the major issue is environmental. That doesn't mean I want to dismiss internal aspects. If I was healthier, doing yoga, could stop overthinking at will, was getting the reported benefits from my daily chi kung, and not as sensitive to chemicals as I probably am...then I have no doubt this would help. But the fact that I have had amazing sleeps just after moving to a new house and new mattress (literally amazing, I had girls stare at me as they walked past), what else can I believe but it is the environment? Maybe I just need to air my mattress every two or three days. I will try that and update. gl
  12. Everything, that is the funniest thing I have ever read. I was laughing so hard my stomach hurt. Thanks
  13. Thanks kind daobums. \Can't open a window, it drops to freezing temps at night. I've seen a doctor, done a sleep study, I don't have sleep apnea. Done blood tests, I don't have any diseases or allergies as far I know. Slept a little better last night, don't feel as frantic. I had dreams. If I could just understand, why some times I have good sleep and sometimes horrid (like when I wrote my first post), I could have some control over it. I even lost my job thanks to unreliable sleep lol. And how the f*ck does it change so easily, its so volatile. Anyway, perhaps a part of me secretely hoped that someone here would have some near-psychic insight into my problems and/or have some relevant experience with it, and I apologise to all you Dao Bums for approaching it this way. I have at least made progress since a decade ago when this first happened, and I am determined to keep posting any new insights I have for posterity. gl
  14. Yes it could be, but honestly, after sleeping so amazingly well in this current place I thought I had made it. Even with my doubts at first about sleep I still slept well. I don't mean to bother this forum. I am just really tired and appreciate a bit of extra help. I am so tired I cannot relax lol.
  15. Hi daobums, Again I implore your help. I was sleeping well, but then something happened in the room, I started getting severe reactions - dry, bloodshot eyes, nightmares, wet dreams, even though in the rest of my daily life I try to live it with my health in mind. So I took the mattress out and didn't get those reactions. Unfortunately, without the mattress I sleep even worse since I am unsupported. I am beginnning to feel hopeless. How can I figure out what it is I am reacting to, and then, how can I deal with it? (Do I need to wear industrial gas masks while sleeping lol). I am sick of watching my life go by while I struggle with unrestful sleep every day, walking around like a zombie. I have tried many things: visit doctor, blood test, using air-cleaning pot plants, etc. I feel I am simply running out of things to try, and/or don't have the resources to try them. Why do we not have the friggin technology in almost the year 2020 to allow our fellow man to sleep well? On average 3.5 million people a year die as a direct result of indoor air pollution, according to the WHO. We should feel refreshed after spending time indoors, not fuken cancerous and sick. I swear I would make a business creating healthy, proper, inexpensive breathing masks for people to live and sleep, its a joke that we don';t have clean air and it makes me angry. If anyone is interested in helping me with getting this business started, I will drive it all the way, I will help heal our fellow man I just need your backing. Air quality indoor and outdoor is only getting worse in the future. Every human being should have access to clean air, clean water, and clean food. No compromise. Its time for a change. Regards GL