Kati

wow amazing story, thank you for sharing!

That sounds awesome that your whole life feels like that Cobie but also a bit scary to me. I think need sometimes people who have similiar experiences and Tell me that i am fine. I dont have many people who bother me negatively. Not anymore I just meditated a little while ago, and something quiet but clear came through: Source is my purpose. When I rest in that awareness, so much stillness and peace arise. But it takes mindfulness not to lose myself again in worldly goals — career, health, success, becoming someone. All these things only seem to have meaning for me when I feel deeply connected to Source. Without that, it all feels hollow. My teacher once said something that I now understand more and more: “Everything in life is ultimately a reflection of your relationship with the Divine.” I feel that. Even each thought we think is, in a way, a subtle proclamation — a declaration of how close or distant we feel from God, from Dao, from Source. It’s strange to watch my mind form goals or worries — and to realize: all of it is just movement on the surface. Underneath, there is something still, silent, whole. And the more I trust that, the more I feel that this is what matters. This is the real path.

Lately, something strange but beautiful has been unfolding in me. I’m currently in a phase of life where I’m looking for work. I started this process rather late because I had some psychological issues for a long time. And now, as I walk this uncertain path, I find myself doing Qigong as part of my spiritual practice – and it has quietly opened my heart. Through this, I’ve begun to feel a growing trust in God, in the Dao, in the deeper current behind life. A few days ago, I was still very anxious – "What if I don’t find a job?" – but then this gentle thought came to me: God protects me, no matter what. And suddenly, I felt this deep shift: I want to let go of my plans – the idea that I need to have this job, or that I have to secure my future. What truly matters is not what I think I should do, but what the Divine wants for me. I don’t want to chase control anymore. I want to listen. I want to trust.i got so calm that i could hear my heartbeat. That is a good sign of calmness for me It feels strange to think this way. I’m not used to it. Part of me wonders: Am I becoming passive? Irresponsible? Or is this the beginning of true surrender? Sometimes I feel like I just want to sit, meditate, and be at peace. The earthly world seems so unstable – everything is constantly changing, dying, passing. Without God, without the Dao, everything feels chaotic. But if I hand it all over, if I stop clinging to goals and outcomes, there’s a quietness that arises. And in that stillness, I feel... safe. Has anyone here experienced something similar – this strange letting go, this dissolving of personal plans in favor of divine guidance? How do you navigate this shift in daily life?

Sorry i wanted to post this somewhere else and i have no clue how to delete this here. I feel like i am an old grandma who is using a phone for the first time

Thank you Cobie, what practices are you into? and what goals do you have witht those? if you mind sharing

"Emptiness dissolves our sense of self and our feeling of being bounded and separated from others. Once dissolved, this compassion flows freely." – Yes, that perfectly describes what I experience when practicing Qigong. Out of stillness, compassion arises naturally—without the need to change anything. There’s also this unconditional love and a deep trust in the goodness of the source. It’s almost impossible to put into words. For me, Qigong is a powerful way to connect with compassion and to witness how it continues to grow within me, effortlessly. According to my teacher, Chunyi Lin, a significant moment of transformation occurs when you begin to feel sadness for the suffering of the world. He says this is a sign that your heart is opening. "Emptiness dissolves our sense of self and our feeling of being bounded and separated from others. Once dissolved, this compassion flows freely." For me, it feels as though this teaching is deeply connected to the Dao. The Dao is boundless — the space in which everything arises, unfolds, and returns. The more we open ourselves to the teaching, the more we also open to the innate intelligence, compassion, love, and limitless potential of the Dao. From one angle, it seems paradoxical to speak of the Dao as “empty,” because it is so profoundly alive, powerful, and healing. In Qigong, for example, I can feel the presence of Qi — and with it, a tangible connection to the Dao itself. It's as if the Dao is the source that gives rise to Qi, and perhaps also to the healing energy that flows through and beyond us. There is something deeply fascinating about this process of "emptying." In Daoist and Buddhist traditions alike, emptiness doesn't mean a void or nothingness in the Western sense. Rather, it points to the letting go of false identifications — especially the attachment to a fixed, separate self. This kind of emptiness is actually fullness: a return to the natural state, to spontaneity, to alignment with the Dao. And when we become empty in that sense — when we release what we are not — we return to what we truly are. From this space, compassion arises not as a practice or a goal, but as a natural expression of our original nature, which both Daoism and Mahayana Buddhism point to as inherently whole, interconnected, and awake. So yes, in this light, compassion is not something we need to acquire. It is an aspect of our true being, revealed when we relax into the vastness of the Dao — or, in Buddhist terms, when ignorance dissolves and the illusion of separation falls away.

hey tim i struggled to with technology , maybe we struggled with the same things that would be funny. hope you find here what you need

yes that is really helpful. for me personally spring forest qigong was the game changer. I felt also that my heart was closed for a long time. The more i did qigong, the more i felt, something changes within me. then i had some healing sessions with the founder of spirng forest qigong. in the first session i felt nothing. but then boom - i just felt my heart opening and for some weeks i was walking in joy. i felt very close to everyone around me. after some time that feeling of an open heart got away. but because of diligent qigong practice it came back recently. and i am really grateful for it. it changed my life for the best.

Hey I hope you find here what you need, i joined some time ago, but try to be more active now. You can heal from trauma. i healed from longterm depression with qigong. i wish you a lot of sucess

Hi everyone, I'm Kati – based in Germany – and happy to have found this forum full of people who seem to be just the right mix of wise, weird, and wonderfully devoted. 🙃 I'm drawn to Daoist approaches to healing and inner transformation, especially where they touch karma, spirit, body, and everyday life. My own practice is mostly shaped by Qigong (Spring Forest Qigong), which I’ve been exploring in a more intuitive and energetic way over the past year or so. Recently, I’ve become more curious about what’s really going on under the hood of these methods: Is there Neidan in SFQ? How deeply does it relate to classical Daoist alchemy, Zuo Chan, or Shengong? Where’s the line between simplified healing systems and full-on inner cultivation? I’ve had meaningful energetic experiences in Qigong — including heart opening, subtle shifts in inner dialogue, and meditative states that feel both nourishing and revealing — but I sometimes miss the deeper contextual roots or philosophical clarity behind it all. That’s what led me here. I’m hoping to connect with others who have gone deeper into the classical teachings, and maybe also bridge the gap between modern Qigong systems and ancient Daoist traditions. Oh — and I’ll probably post some nerdy questions soon about karma, Kung Fu, and why Chunyi Lin seems to have skipped Tai Chi 😅 Looking forward to learning from you all. Warm regards Kati