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I've come to accept that humans are not inherently moral. We are driven first by hunger and security, then lust. As we age we receive training that instills moral character. This training has been developed by saintly thinkers. I wonder if we aren't manufactured by a much older society, that already found a way to overcome the death and need for bodies, and programed our species to easily learn. I certainly know there is something else out there, and as a child, had voices that guided and inspired me. I've also witnessed that spirits can speak through me, and control my body. Ultimately I think all is Chaos, with the gods bringing order.

Well yes, they are actual experiences, that we carry with us.

Yes I think it's the variety of species, and ideas. I feel like these dreams are on different planes, with some different laws about time and matter. I feel like in those places, things are accelerated and more intense for those who visit them

Idk, it felt very real. I know that the mind can imagine whole scenarios on its own, and I suppose that when we sleep our true inner self interacts with our history, and knowledge, and ideas, but sometimes it seems to be coming from an external source.

Thats a thought. I never considered drawing a distinction between my state and the state of others. I used to be filled with compassion but now I don't feel it. I treat all people with the same respect.

Yes I can still function without thinking. I've noticed that there are many layers to consciousness, and a variety of thoughts. I still occasionally get some, but I don't actively use my mind and inner voice. Often I hear other voices say things. I have very vivid, realistic dreams. The other day I dreamed I was part of a group of people who committed themselves to advancing life on Earth. At the end of my dream, a voice said "there is nowhere as exciting as this planet"

I wouldn't say decorations, but certainly entertainment.

I am but one man, with limited resources in a land where each has the free will to choose and to do. I have no higher calling than to let existence run it's course.

I've gotten to the point where I hardly think at all. I've tamed my mind, and my desire. I sit in the quiet of no thought. The Buddha was most wise to identify desire as a root of the human condition. It seems that we simply can't get enough of satisfying our cravings. I feel it, and it makes me suffer, because I realize that this is really all we are; desire is all life is. All we have is satisfying our wants. It makes me sad, how transient life is! Just to live and want and do, and then die! Even in the afterlife, should there be one, the cycle continues.

I don't think this is a good example of will, that is more an example of lack of will.

Do what thou wilt doesn't mean do as you like, it means do that which is in your will to do. I think deeper than that it refers to a rite magicians take when they declare their will to the universe

I think about dying a lot. I then think, all I can control to any degree is my life right here. If there is an afterlife, I cannot predict what it will be like. If death leads to nothingness, then it doesn't matter.

The fall of Adam and Eve came when they ate from the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Prior to that, it would seem they were just living and doing in an almost deterministic sort of way. Contemplating and cataloging what is good and evil seems to be the origin of the birth of consciousness and choice, decision making, and law. So, did the elders that wrote this story believe ignorance is bliss?

I had distanced myself from prayer or using divine names, or words like God. Sort of revered them. Then when I finally did call on God, I got an anseer.

Yes, my experience with God has shown me that God is terrifying, and powerful, and mysterious. God is a powerful word, and when you use it, you should expect to be heard, so don't use it lightly.