Cadcam

I can't speak from a practicing Buddhist perspective, but from my experience I've been cut off from feeling attachments to friends and family. I am isolated in myself now. It's peaceful, and boring. Feeling attachment and exchange of soul is invigorating. It's like a fuel, and I don't think the fuel is illusionary but the perceived understanding might be.

The original God may still be here, or he's off in another universe.

1. God creates all of reality. 2. A species on earth evolves either genetically or scientifically to transcend death and physical limitations. 3. The new God creates new life and reshaped the planet, possibly multiple times, having control over life and death, perhaps even all physical laws. 4. This God species preserves all life after death to gather a world of infinite personality and experience.

I've concluded that God as we understand it has probably evolved from the earth. Being that this world and the universes are billions of years old, it's not inconceivable that a formerly mortal species evolved in physicality or science to become immortal, and have power over the physical realm. Probably this species created life as we know it, and it's worlds are infinite, with each of us being an immortal inhabitant of the many planes of existence.

My opinion is that there are humans, or other species that call this world home, but they are removed from our sight, like they exist in a different way physically. They take possession of people for various reasons, probably to use us as experiments, possibly to harvest our souls for other reasons, perhaps to take them into their world?

From what I have witnessed, the gods or demons or whatever aren't too exceptionally malicious but it wouldn't surprise me if they could do anything they desire. Imagine what it would be like to be an immortal being with all power over this level of reality. Might be boring.

That's what I'm saying. I think that words and their meaning have subconscious power, and steer us in the direction of that meaning. So when the spirits took hold of me as a youth and had me say Satan be my god, I subconsciously became a Satanist, and my behavior followed along with that definition. Think about it: how many times can you say you've said or done something without conscious knowledge of where that choice came from? That could be the interaction of a spirit. In my adult life, I've seen this is true, and in reflection I realize that it happened as a child. I think there's a lot we don't know about the spiritual world. We think we have free will and make every choice, but of that I am not so sure.

Ever since I was young, I've been a rebellious, and lawless person. This has changed, but as I reflected on my past, I had memories of different things. For instance, I remember when I was about 8 or 9 years old, standing in the middle of my bedroom and calling out "Satan be my god" around that same time I stopped going to church, totally refusing it. This drive my parents nuts. I remember walking to school, and this spirit was giving me lessons on chaos and order, and I, not being happy with how things went, decided to cause chaos (not the right decision). I used to harness this idea of chaos, as I would interact with others. It gave me a spiritual strength. Eventually I found myself manipulating energy with my mind. It was a form of magic. This all came back to bite me in the ass.

Suppose, as many do, that God and the devil are real. These beings and their kin interact with humans to guide and mold identity and actions. Do you suppose they would rather that one was aware of this interaction, or oblivious to it?

Though it is a nice idea, and I'm sure God appreciates our love, I don't believe that God must love each of us individually as is often suggested by Christianity. God gave us free will to choose to love, and loving everyone unconditionally leads to problems. No, people have to earn love. God too, has the free will to choose who to love, and can you imagine, with the billions of people born throughout history, and all their virtues, deeds, and talents; how hard it would be to attract God's attention and earn God's love?

All we have is life. We have a limited variety of ways to live in life, and we also limit our behavior. What makes life worth living? Are you living to fulfill obligations to family? Are you satisfied? Would you want your life to carry over into the next one? Do you think the environment and laws are the same as here? Do you think the next life will go on forever? If one believes in a God, the idea is that that God is immortal. Do you think that God limits itself? After existing for eternity, do you think God is bored? If there is a God, is it the Creator? If so, how do you think the world is upheld? How do you think the afterlife is upheld? Is it someone's job to take care of these worlds, and the souls that are in it?