2 hours ago, Mark Foote said:

If you made that up, can you tell me what sherry you are drinking these days, please (I quite like it)?

I would say he drank   ....

The Cask of Amontillado

8 minutes ago, surrogate corpse said:

on second thought, having "the flowers of evil" visible on my shelf probably isn't helping my "not actually malevolent" case...

30 minutes ago, Maddie said:

 

you make her sounds like Morticia Adams lol 

Ooooo   ... hot !

Second only to  sexy , vaguely B&D  suggestive , hot, retro,  dominant, Art Deco, Upper class  English, Martian ,  'devil woman  '      ;

3 minutes ago, Maddie said:

 

did you get your "cootie shot" so you don't catch it? lol 

I had to look up what that meant .  So I dont really get it ....   catch 'it'  ? 

I think the concern was being abducted ' to up the back of the farm '   ????  or if I borrowed their car ... they might want a 'favor' in return  - that one was actually suggested  .... they didnt want , I did offer though , I took our tractor and pipe layer over there when they wanted to put a new water trough in at the front cow paddock .

Actually  one of them - Gordon , did try to embarrass me publicly once ;  I was cooking for their choir  at the community kitchen  and had an apron on. He was with others including Marty who I knew  (also gay ) . They where having a meeting , and as I passed 'Gordy' says " Nice dress ... do you have a song for us ?"  The others smirked , not Marty , he knows me too well , he had an  " Noooooo ! " look on his face .

So I lifted up my apron and did a little dance   and sang

" Gordy strap[s his hands and knees

into apparatus such as these ;

whips, corsets and bows ,

little boys clothes ,

goodness knows !  "

Marty stood up and "Okay, thats enough now. '' and directed me back to the kitchen .

6 minutes ago, surrogate corpse said:

i'm waiting for the bus right now in fact 👁️

?

I would have thought you traveled in a malevolent hearse  ? 

2 minutes ago, Maddie said:

 

The right likes to say we groom kids and such, things like that. 

yeah ..... ya gotta watch out for gay people too :

The farm across the river got bought by a couple of  gay guys . I went over, introduced myself and made friends .  A week later I  had to get to work and had car in for repair so I was hitch hiking and one of them picked me up on the way home  .  He asked me why I was hitchhiking, about my car, how long I would be without it etc .  Then   he turned off into their place , drove up the back to a new looking large utility they used on the farm  and "You can use this  until your car is back ."

But in the retelling of this story to some people I knew    .......    especially the part where he  didnt drive me home but turned into his driveway and drove up the back of his property .... I was asked  "  Whaaaat ?   Where you freaked out  ? " 

" Huh ?" 

" Well, they are obviously gay  ! "   another   " I would not have borrowed their car ! " 

And this is in a supposed alternative / liberal  area  !

Ya never know until you peel back that thin 'proper' veneer !  

malevolence - male violence

psychotherapist  -  psycho the rapist

whats going on ? 

8 minutes ago, liminal_luke said:

The time is coming, mark my words, when being trans will be depressingly normal.  Enjoy your freaky malevolence while you can.

Correction ;   '  Freaky trans  male violence  ' .

6 minutes ago, Maddie said:

 

Sounds like a kinky super hero 

Oh ... you !   ... Now I am imagining their superhero outfit .

33 minutes ago, Maddie said:

 

The weird thing is, is that you are not the first person to tell me this. I'm like "hey I'm nice" lol 

Well... I thought that too ... until NOW  !

No more looking at Maddie selfies for me !  I need all the soul I got ! 

(At least now I know why you put all them selfies up  !   .... Its probably one of those weird immortality Taoist practices !  )

So I thought .....  I ignored most protests at work about my 'true discipline '  but the baggy high waist pants thing ..... they hammered me on it !  One day everyone *  wore their pants very high  and paraded past me one by one  .

* even the  women on my crew , then my boss , then his mate ,  then people in Unit ... even Hugo Weaving  ( the bastard ! )  .   Keanu Reeves didnt ... but  he did managed to fracture his 'space ghost' expression with a  suppressed smirk .... I saw that buddy  ! 

 ^  people in N.Y. seemed to have it worked it out .

1 hour ago, Maddie said:

 

I like being asexual 🙂

I still dont know !  .....   A sexual what  ????? 

2 hours ago, blue eyed snake said:

 

Deep in  your heart you're the sweetest little kitten

 

 

Yes ... but on here he is  ....

2 hours ago, blue eyed snake said:

 

she's still young, lets forgive her

Thats what I want to know .  How young ?   She looks very young , especially in that last picture . I was hesitant to ask but now remember this is Q & A

Hey Maddie , how old are you ?

2 hours ago, Maddie said:

 

Well aren't you Mr observant? LOL 🤣. The reason that's on my table is because that's a stack of books I'm going to bring to the half Price bookstore to trade in. Although it was really helpful at the very beginning of my exploration into Buddhism.

You also left your glass pipe out on the table .

3 hours ago, Apech said:

Brother Luke trolls the thread.

No he is not trolling .... I    am leaving this thread  !   

6 hours ago, surrogate corpse said:

my main aim here is to make room for the odd, the vast, the beguiling, the wily, the freak 

 

7 hours ago, blue eyed snake said:

 

Oh, i do not feel excluded Luke, on the contrary. I've met many a man with the same sort of relation ( for want of a better word,) with their genitalia.

 

just like women who feel their boobs are an important part of their being female ( which was one of the reasons I have been so insecure about who am I btw. I've regarded those boobs as unwanted as first, because they got in the way playing, later they got in the way of feeling myself as suddenly the whole world was adamantly treating me as girl. And now they get in the way, quite literally when i look down. I never had any emotional relationship with em, the only reason I would like to not have em is they get in the way, useless pieces of flesh) so thats the same sort of reason I am not happy with the weight I gained, the wrinkles that appeared and I won't anybody touch a knife to my body.

 

But regarding the question whether a dick is a distinct marker of masculinity, i do agree. For almost all males it is.

and i guess this person agrees too.

 

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Now I cant help wondering what the bit of cloth is hiding  ?

7 hours ago, blue eyed snake said:

 

well....try to climb a tree, puddlejump, crouch through mud, catch toads dressed like this, while staying clean to top it off. As nice girls keep their clothing and shoes clean and neat. I just never aspired to be a nice girl I guess.

 

I preferred wellies, pants and  a sweater or shirt, 

at the end of the street nature began and I could play there all I wanted, as long as was at home in time for dinner everything was fine.

 

 

 

 

Oh my goodness !   If I had been a girl and got dressed like that  ... I could see why I  would have wanted pants .  I would have even wanted ' normal girl clothes .   

My pants discomfort actually came at a later stage .   probably from all those tight  stiff levi jeans .   I probably would be more 'comfortable'  in a different era ;

98 cents for a pair of pants  !   

20 hours ago, liminal_luke said:

 

Is it?  Seems to me that almost everyone from a very young age can reliably sort people into male and female groupings at sight.

 

...

Little Olive ( 5 ) ;   "  Are you a boy or a girl ?"

Me :  " What do you think ?"

Olive; "  .......<  thinks> ..........   a boy !   ....< thinks more >  ......   why do boys have snakes between their legs ? "

Me;  " Ah ,  that , my little Olive ..... is a question you need to ask your mother . "

8 hours ago, Maddie said:

 

Yeah but I'm an unapologetic attention whore 

Fair question, fair answer . 

10 hours ago, liminal_luke said:

 

People give up promising dance careers and become accountants in order to win the approval of their parents.  Nobody transitions to win the approval of their parents.

Mine where horrified when I said I wanted to become a 'window dresser'   ( I saw a guy doing it, he made a life size 'diorama '  in a shop window , I was impressed at his style, creativity  and  harmonious use of shapes and color  ) .... parents where worried that I might have 'suspect tendencies'  and made me go to 'career  guidance '  .... over 50 years later , I  design all aspects  and build my own ' rainforest wetroom '   (wash house )  .  people are amazed  " You did that ! "   -   river rock tile floor , Imported multi shade greens  subway tile with a silver , moonstone and  mother-of-pearl accent strip ,   stone basins ,  retro fittings and switches in bake-a-light  etc etc .

That was probably  just one of my potential careers they steered me away from ... then went on asking and  complaining to me about what I was going to do in life as a career  !    ... no, not that , Oh no certainly not that !      No not that either .   Why dont you do something with yourself !    .

11 hours ago, blue eyed snake said:

I've seen that more yes.

 

at last the way you look fits with how you feel and that's reason for joy and pictures.

 

like the happiness I felt as a preschooler having told my mom that I did not want dresses anymore. After a slight hesitation she told me "yes, that's okay for me"

 

I was so happy  

But WHY ?????? I never got this   ( the pants for boys dresses for girls thing ) .

Dresses or kilts or similar ... or at least a pants with codpiece suits the male anatomy ,  pants do not !   Pants suit more the female anatomy .   I even remember it being weird , when fitted for a junior school uniform being asked if I 'dressed to the left or right ', I had no idea what that meant . Later when I understood I thought ' Why should I do either ' ?    Why do I need that seam up there in the way at all ?  It can get quiet uncomfortable .

13 minutes ago, blue eyed snake said:

i thought you're the guy trying to balance 

 

these are dead, not happily sleeping after consuming to much apples or something  

Sorry , bad joke ;

No matter how well you look after your cows ..... 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dorrigo,_New_South_Wales#History

9 hours ago, S:C said:

Thanks, that’s probably the most helpful answer. 
 

I‘m also not sure what is kabbalistic ‘tradition’ and what is nungalis interpretation here…

 

In the hermetic tradition I see it as (mainly ) two fold ; the descent and rising through the spheres ( see the two previous links I made on that ) and the benefits one gets from  the perception of relationships between things as learnt in the 'table of correspondences * - which is a list of the details of the basic  concepts  and how they relate to and interact with each other .

 

 

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@Nungali (always knew you were very fond of neptune… but to put him on the top? Wouldn’t he get trouble with jupiter and don’t forget the sun…)

 

Obscure . Is this a quote ? It seems a response to something , without that original 'something' I cant be sure what it is referring to  .... it might be referring to my personal system I developed  ,  but that does not have Neptune at the top

 

Whats this Neptune at the top business ?   I also doubt the gender is 'he' ;  Neptune is feminine  (on the tree not as a Greek God )   I dont know what 'in trouble with Jupiter '  means  ( Jupiter is 'Jove'  or Zeus , the  'Boss God ' ? )   and the term 'forget ' relating to the Sun ???? .  I suppose that means the writer thought the Sun should be 'on top' - dont know why , the Sun is usually attributed to the center  ( solar system , in the body - heart , and on Tree of Life . )