Endless desire

[Cadcam]

Thanks for the advice.  I learned to have no thoughts because my mind was under attack, and so i withdrew my mind- buried it in my head, and sat still while the voices and their device went on and on, until finally they went away. 

 

The downside of this is that I can't think or understand complex ideas, so it would be difficult for me to learn a method and apply it.

 

I'm feeling better now, gotten accustomed to the boredom. 

[Tommy]

On 2/7/2026 at 12:32 PM, Cadcam said:

I'm feeling better now, gotten accustomed to the boredom. 

Glad you are feeling better. Boredom is only a lack of interest. When doing anything, if there is no interest in the doing then it becomes boring. Don't know how one would change that.

[Cadcam]

Yeah, my brain is broken. It feels dead-end and I can't grab on to ideas or objects of interest.  I don't choose to be bored, I just am not drawn to anything.  I have also considered all my options and why I would do something and I can't see a reason. 

 

I guess you could say I'm depressed 

[Tommy]

On 2/9/2026 at 7:21 AM, Cadcam said:

Yeah, my brain is broken. It feels dead-end and I can't grab on to ideas or objects of interest.  I don't choose to be bored, I just am not drawn to anything.  I have also considered all my options and why I would do something and I can't see a reason. 

 

I guess you could say I'm depressed 

I wish to not believe your brain is broken. Depression is a bad place to be. As in anything, it all begins with intent. Some might call it will. Only you are in control of you. So, if you want to have interest or anything else, you have to want it. Have the intent to do something about it. I certainly hope you get yourself out of this rut. Depression does not get better with time. It takes an incredible amount of effort to lift oneself by the bootstraps out of depression. I wish you the best.