Margo Posted 18 hours ago (edited) Dear forum members, I´m need urgent help. My name is Margo, male 46. Something happened my kundalini. My story short, what happened: have practiced chakra meditaton with Om Swami since 2018. I reached to the Hearth chakra. This year I performed in ashram Nav Durga Tantra Sadhana and after that I did 40 days Ucchista Ganapati Sadhana. I felt very good, very good pure golden energy in me. Evening and night before 22.03 I slipped into immoral (porn) videos. 25.03. bad videos again. This destroyed my golden energy. Night before 09.04 I had terrible dream - I black hair beautiful girl died (commited suicide or fell down from cliff). I told to her to go to the edge of that cliff so her death was my fault. Probably Devi in me died. 11.04. My mind went crazy - when I saw another person I felt I am he. I like indiviudual person didnt excist anymore. I also saw that golden honey like energy that was in deep my second chakra was removed from me. All the sexuality was removed from me. 12.04. I felt better in the mind, I was again like individual person Margo. Some days ago started new problems: when I go to bed and try to sleep very intense colourful uncontrollable images start in my head. These images make sleeping impossible. I have to use strong sleeping pill to be able sleep. In the head there is strange "alien" energy, head is constantly heavy, daytime absence, memory and attention impairment,. Never before I had these problems. Sexuality still absolutely zero. Apparently something happened to the kundalini energy. Is there anyone who could help me? Thank you! Edited 7 hours ago by Margo It was hard to read before Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Apech Posted 13 hours ago Welcome I hope someone can help you with this. 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cobie Posted 10 hours ago (edited) Hi Margo, welcome to the forum. Do not use sleeping pils; do more exercise. No more porn; do voluntary work. What goes on in your mind is just an illusion, do not feed it by giving it attention. Leave all spiritual ambitions behind for a while; let daily living be enough in itself. Learn to appreciate the mundane. Focus on grounding. Eat healthy, go for walks in nature. Edited 10 hours ago by Cobie 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Margo Posted 7 hours ago thank you very much Cobie, I haven't been able to fall asleep without sleeping pills because the images in my mind are super active, super intense, super colorful. 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Apech Posted 4 hours ago 2 hours ago, Margo said: thank you very much Cobie, I haven't been able to fall asleep without sleeping pills because the images in my mind are super active, super intense, super colorful. Try tapering off the sleeping pill dosage instead of stopping completely. Also you could try herbal sleep remedies like valerian. I think these energetic experiences take a while to balance out. If you are going to do sadhanas and so you need to learn how to normalize or ‘re- cover’ from the naked energy experience. You can easily get locked into an altered way of perceiving without knowing how to switch it off. I would suggest going for long walks in the countryside if you can and eat well normal balanced food. 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cobie Posted 57 minutes ago (edited) 6 hours ago, Margo said: thank you very much Cobie, I haven't been able to fall asleep without sleeping pills because the images in my mind are super active, super intense, super colorful. You’re welcome. Yes I understand, it’s intense. Always easier said than done. I hope Apech’s answer above will be helpful for you. Edited 56 minutes ago by Cobie Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
