goonis38

Hi there,

Just a thought but moving is very stressful and a lot of work... But it is also rewarding... You could just be resting your mind...

Wasn't it you and me that talked about this before, and you where saying you where in the park checking out a frog like forever? Rather it was or not. I think as long as it isn't causing you to many problems. I think day dreaming is good... But I am a day dreamer also. But when it's time to get things done I do... So just depends on the amount of this you are talking about...

You feel a lose of control over your situation right now, you will settle in. And San Antonio is awesome...

Take care Mel

"One of the reason why we seek enlightment, Martial Arts, Qigong and else."

 

If that stuff is going to happen, then I might suggest learning some more, um, "practical" things?

 

Not that qi-gong ain't practical, I guess if you become a healer then you're (relatively) safe.

Hey Kate,

You know you are like the tenth person to mention being a healer to me... I'm wondering now... There are so many avenues to go down on healing...

I love helping people. I have been told I have a healing touch. I always have a smile for most....lol

Thanks Kate something for me to think on... If you don't mind me asking, did you go down this path? And if so which road did you take? If you don't wan t to say I understand...

Take care, lots of love Mel

there's a new Red Dawn coming out.

 

Just thought I'd drop that in there lol.

Really I didn't know that, But they are never as good as the first... It is kinda sad that way.

It's like you just can't make another "Road House" another good one... God bless Patrick Swayze's soul sounded like a good man...

Hi there,

Great to meet you... You will find some great people here...Melanie

Hey there,

I know this... There are all different types of God given gifts. Everyone that has one is not a fortune teller. Some have other gifts...

We can't just lump everything up into one pill and make it work... People that have gifts tend to hide them and feel different and weird, and that people are going to make fun of them. Call them crazy, or just plain weird. This has been going on since the witch burnings.

'PEOPLE HATE WHAT THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND" and thats a fact, we on this forum understand this. We are all a little different than the so called normal people...

I decides a long time ago, I don't want to be normal, they can keep there normal and be happy with there heads stuck in that sand... I myself, I'm going to look, and learn, and try and understand what I am to understand...

And you don't have to push these things, they just come naturally. What is unnatural is holding your self back for 20 years like I did. Because I thought I was weird or different and some how I was wrong for that...

At almost 40, I have learned to love myself... And life is an adventure, you never know whats down the next rabbit hole as the original poster of this thread was talking about "Alice and Wonderland" Great movie and true lesson for a lot of us...

Take care all Melanie

Hi there,

That would be like the movie "Red Dawn" remember that old movie... It will be the only time I will be glad to live in the middle of nowhere in West Texas.

And I will be glad I was raised shooting guns, and know how to set up a camp site, go fishing. catch grass hoppers for bait...

And if it gets any worse than that. Well we might as well just start praying that all suffering wont last long...

But lets just hope these things don't happen...

Take care Melanie

Hahahaha!

 

Yeah next year we should celebrate!

Promises Promises Scotty... Where we all going to met in San Antonio with our friend that just moved there.... I'm holding you to your word. scotty...

And You guy's are just after my unicorn...

Mel

Hey there,

No!

You guy's are to much fun... I didn't even notice today is 11/11/10... Not as good as 11:11 11/11/11 Wow... We will need to party just for fun...

Melanie

OK, get ready for the Meta-Synch. This is direct preparation for the kundalini raising 11:11 11-11-11 Maha-Event next year of which Melanie Von Goonis38 is the Kundalini Queen.

 

You have been notified. Have your Light Saber sharpened to a keen edge. Do not be caught unprepared.

 

*over and out*

 

 

Bums de Tao Central Command

Hey there,

I just saw this...lol I thats right next year we have a big one coming... I'll be ready... Am you say...

Hey I'll make sure and show up with my unicorn... Mel

Hi there,

That was beautifully said. I love all native people to what ever land we live on and always try and show respect... It is amazing to talk to them, and they have cool and wonderful things to tell us if we listen, if we only take the time...

My Grandma was from the wagon days 1905 here in West Texas and she could just pick something that looked like a weed and boil it and make medicine, her own eye drops a so forth. Never went to the doctor, and lived a long time. She loved to show this x on her leg where a snake bit her and they had to suck the poison out... If we would only listen to these people, we are loosing so much...

As far as dreaming... That is a deeper a subject than most people know... I know very little on it. But we dream walk all the time in our sleep, it's just remembering it. We can even met up in our dreams, to cool... Life is an amazing place...

That is an awesome thread... Thanks Melanie

My favorite place to go there is Lone Star Cafe, which overlooks the riverwalk. Great margaritas and chili burgers. I miss it!

Oh I love The River Walk!! me and my daughter went there for summer vacation... You are going to love that town. The buildings are beautiful... Melanie

Hi my friend...

So you are in Texas, me to... Maybe we will run into each other and not even know it. I have went to Las Vegas an ran into someone from our town of 500 so weirder things have happened.

You are a good person, I'm so glad you got away from that situation. No one should be treated the way you where. I read some of your story's, I'm sorry...

You can have a fresh start on things, this is good, and maybe great... Lot's of beautiful girls in Texas...lol

Take Care Mel

Its a very popular subject these days in various spiritual circles.

 

And yes, for me and the people who's circles I move in and out of, We do seem to be 'Awakening' more and more.

I see a fairly consistent growth rate that equals a slow progression of Wisdom and happiness and a willingness to act more communally.

 

I have various thoughts on the subject, probably none of which are verifiable... So here goes...

1. We are growing because we are doing the work. Nearly everyone I know meditates, does ritual, ecstatic dance, practices Shamanism, or chi gong, or goes to transpersonal therapy of some kind, or at least reads self help books...

 

2. Our Community's seem to be getting larger all the time, and what used to be several different circles of people for me, now has kind of blended together.

I often wonder if as the world gets darker, it also gets lighter, sort of like a yin-yang thing. If that is the case how

Hi there,

That is so true we are all seeming to blend together, which is a good thing in my mind... To many people thinking they where different and looked at things not the same. But in the end we where all saying the same thing just in a different way. Or as someone said to me on here one time. We are saying the same thing, just looking at it through a different pair of glasses... I liked that one...

No I don't like the ides of growing at someone expense... I would never take from another to gain something for myself, not knowingly anyway...

 

 

do we get out of this mess? I do not want to get happier only as someone else gets more F#%*! up

 

3. There is so much info available these days. Even the most rubbish television conveys multiple sets of world Views and peoples brains are being paradigm stretched. Its getting very post modern out there... [in terms of idea flexibility] and I am amazed how many youngsters seem aware of the various possible world views one can have and they seem to treat them as all valid, with various strengths and weaknesses.

Agreed there a lot of trash on TV, don't really watch it. I have better things to do like the laundry... And I'm not loling... I do love to watch a good movie, usually an indie film every once in awhile. If I can find one worth anything

Yes our young people don't know what to do,

do they... I used to make mud pies and be happy, play in the mud all day... And us my imagination... This is going away for our youth.

 

4. We live in the west. we have the privileged of being able to start waking up. That does come at the expense of others, and some day its likely we will have to pay for that.

 

5. Considering the growing darkness factor makes me less Inclined to think Its the earth thats going through some cosmic wakeup phase, or some super duper astrological alignment, but just that circumstances are ripe for many people to start waking up. Ignorance is strong here in the west as well...

I'm just really not sure myself what is causing it or why... But it is happening just the same...

True on the growing darkness factor... Sad...

 

 

6. I often think people have always had spontaneous 'awakenings' like suddenly seeing Aura's but In the past belief systems were a lot stronger [or less challenged] and there was not nearly as much Info on these subjects available to support someone coming out... So we just did not hear about it.

That is funny it is like coming out of the closet... If you live in the Midwest Bible belt like I do. You might as well just burn yourself at the stake as well as admit having any kind of understand of anything on these subjects...

To me I believe God is all loving and kind he made me and you and everyone of us just the way we are. it is our chose rather we grow more or don't. I could go stick my head in the sand with the rest of my community. But I don't think this will be happening anytime soon..lol

Hey thanks for the reply, Lots of love friend Melanie

Thats all I can think of now!

 

I guess really I am just glad people [some] are waking up.

 

Seth.

"Ear worms" are pop music and people's voices you may "hear " in your ears when trying to still your mind. Chanting can help you slide into that calm state of "thoughtlessness" and being present. At some point the chanting can be let go of too.

 

 

Hi there,

Ok this happens to me. I know just what you are talking about. This is what is getting in the way of my meditation... I will be right in the middle of it, and like you say voice or thoughts that you know are not coming from your mind will break your thoughtlessness... Thank you... I will start chanting more, they sure don't want us to do this.

To bad...lol We are going to... Take care Melanie

 

 

Hi Everyone,

I have been aware of something changing all around us for sometime now. I think a lot of you may have noticed it also... I don't get this from a book, or the internet. There have been many thought's on this of some people...

But this is my own observation through my own experiences... Please share yours if you have had or felt anything in the last few years or so. I would say, and in the last year it really has stepped up a notch or two...

My idea of "The Awakening" is that a lot of people are coming to enlightenment at this time... That could be in different ways depending upon the person and his or her self...

In my case, I will tell you... When I was a little girl I could see auras, and hear a person that was close to me that I knew well. Talk to me, and then I answered back without saying a word. Scared me to death... So I pushed all this back for along time now. I am 40 this year. And in this last year I am "Awakening" rather I like it or not...

Now at first this was very alarming to say the least. I went running to Church, asking everyone I thought might know what in the heck was happening, you think oh no I'm crazy... And in the end I found there was nothing wrong with me. And that most people don't know what you are talking about... Especially in my area. I live in the midwest Texas area. They do not believe in anything such as this. And if you where to speak of it. You would be called a witch... Sad...

So back to the point, So I think this is going on all over the world. Why, or how, or what. I have no idea. Maybe some of you could add some ideas on that.

Are you Awakening also, and for something we are, this I know... But what, or better yet why?

So in the last year my growth has been things like. I have gained since of smell, and touch, and hearing, of spiritual activity around me. Can't see a thing. Like a blind man with a stick...

I can tell the difference between spirits by there smell for the most part... And through my trying to understand I have went to different web pages and read and talked. A lot of the ones that are all about being physic I don't care for, they seem to be to into there selfs and there gifts. Instead of why, and what, and giving credit to there maker...

I think this web site has it right more than most, in my opinion. You give the Thanks to the creator and look for guidance through that. Not your self. I think this is very important. I don't think it matters what religion we are, we have a God he is the same God no matter what we name him. As long as we give the thanks and credit for all we are and have to him. This is what is important in my mind. To many people saying I did it. (We do nothing alone)...

So from this site... I have learned a lot for a short time, and have a long way to go I know, and meet a great deal of beautiful people. Thank you...

I have learned to meditate, Chant, Center myself which I needed to do so badly. Clear my shackras some I didn't even know I had...lol We may not all agree, all the time, and that is good. This is what makes for a good discussion... Yes?

Ok, talked your ear off now... What do you think?

Take care all Melanie

Yes I do, namely Spring Forest Qigong "back to the Universe" and "Heart sutra Chant" but I have other titles coming in the mail.

 

I also like to chant myself when meditating, it's a great way to repel "ear worms" and I happen to work in the music.

Just the other day I was chanting "oooommmm, mwaaaaah" while driving. For five hours

 

Thanks for the recommendation, I'll check it out.

Yes I do, namely Spring Forest Qigong "back to the Universe" and "Heart sutra Chant" but I have other titles coming in the mail.

I also like to chant myself when meditating, it's a great way to repel "ear worms" and I happen to work in the music.

Just the other day I was chanting "oooommmm, mwaaaaah" while driving. For five hours

Thanks for the recommendation, I'll check it out.

Hi there,

My name Is Melanie or goonis I was wondering if you wouldn't mind answering a question or two... I was reading this and I have been listening to music also while in meditating, and then I try in with out. Also have chanted my belief system...

They are all good ways it seems. I was just asking myself yesterday if the music was getting in the way of my concentration, what do you think? Could that happen?

Also King Kabalabhati or anyone who wants to jump in what are "ear warms" something I may need to know... I did notice there seemed to be something in the way of my meditation reaching to the level it had been, then I started chanting my God's name and it seemed to release something... Is this the same?

Thank you for your reply in advance... Melanie

Thank you for sharing that.

 

I am 21 years old and was attending a state university through an Army ROTC scholarship. I envisioned myself commissioning as a 2nd LT in a combat arms branch, etc etc.

 

After much time spent in solitude, reflection, contemplation, I have decided to break free from all of that. I am suspending my studies in school and disenrolling from Army ROTC.

 

I plan on enlisting in the Marine Corps as soon as my lease is up.

Hey there,

I'm an Army brat, Dad 25 year special forces, brother 25 year special forces... I am proud of you and the path you have chosen, it isn't for everyone. But you sound like you know what you want and that is great. You will do well...

I was going to join up when I was a young girl, my brother laughed and said "no not for you Melanie" He was right...

Thank God that he mad people like your self and my family to defend what is right, as we can...

May everything run smoothly for you, if it is meant to be, Take care... Melanie

I was a history major, and we learned in school that before the advent of modern artificial lighting that people had what was called "first" and "second" sleep. Before artificial lighting people had the general tendancy to go to bed earlier, then to wake up either around of after midnight, then be up an hour or so, and then go back to bed for what was called second sleep. Then once modern lighting was invented this trend faded away.

Hey there,

Really that is cool, But I am in trouble I go to bed at 9:00 PM and I sleep until 6:00 AM everyday. Unless something is going on that I'm worried about... I have to get my beauty sleep...lol

If less sleep makes us live longer I'm in trouble... I will die young, but be pretty. Just hope that isn't true... Mel

Hi there,

That is true, I know sometimes. I will do something wrong that I have done before. And then later feel bad, and ask for forgiveness. And I will say to myself can't keep doing the same thing over and over and expect forgiveness. So I just try and do better each day...

It is hard not to be to hard on your self, but at the same times. It is good to give yourself a good kick in the butt to straighten yourself out every once in a while...

I tend to be kinder to others, than I am myself and more forgiving. And it is just as bad not to forgive your self than it is to not forgive others. Sometimes I think we receive Gods forgiveness way before we do our selfs, depending on the person I guess... But at last all we can do is the best we can...

Take care... Mel

Hi there,

I am a 39 year old straight lady. Been married 13 years and have had other longterm boyfriends. It's funny it always seems long term. I never get a sexy one night stand...lol

I have had girlfriend that liked me like that without me knowing, this is upsetting. I would rather know, and I wouldn't care. But I don't guess we would of been having sleep overs, and changing our cloths in front of one another. of course this was years ago now...

I know one thing my brother was in the special forces for 25 years, and a snipper... And he has no children, and never been married and he is 51. I don't care if he or anyone else is gay. I love him just the same. And he is still a tuff guy to me. I just wish more people wouldn't be afraid to talk about it. This was a good idea for a thread.

Lots of love... Melanie

hello Mokona,

 

No... I have always though of the higher self as being the awareness of your (eternal) spirit, as opposed to the awareness (conditioned reflex) of your conscious mind...

 

that said, I have seen my spirit body while in the spirit world... I was looking at my spirit body from outside my spirit body... and I was amazed by it... it looked like me, but unlike my physical body, it was perfect flawless and radiant... but note that the spirit body that I saw in the spirit world, is the same spirit body that occupies my physical body...

 

so the only "higher self" that I know, is the awareness of my normal spirit body, as opposed to the conditioned reflexes of my mind.

 

Metta,

Hi there,

I was told by a friend, that is gone now... That when he would go on an OBE. That he would look at his self in the mirror and it was amazing. This is as you say. You look kind of like yourself, but more beautiful. He also told me, if I got the chance to look at my hands and feet. Do you know what he meant?

I was also told there is a beautiful city built. And that there are people that look just like us, and higher beings, also. I have only got to go twice on my own and talk to two regular people, and i have to say they did just look like anyone you would see on the street.

But there was someone there talking to a man I could not see. And the man I could see said to the other, I couldn't see. "Where did you get this one?" And it was said kinda funny.... I have to add. I have had a presence of something in my home for over a year now.

I can smell it, and it has a smell of nothing I have ever smelled before. Not bad, not good. Just different... I have talked to it through pendulum work, which I don't mess with anymore. Long story. And he told me he is a fallen Angel, and that they take many brides, but only one queen. And I have been being watched ever since...

Any ideas on any of this, I would sure appreciate it. There is more to the story. But i would feel better on a pm if you don't mind. If you do, anything you have to say would be greatly appreciated...

I want to add. I brought attention to myself through a Ouija board a couple of years ago, when this all started. And I pray, and read my Bible. I seem to be drawn to this type of communication. Rather I wanted it or not. Because I got ride of that board, and all things, that have to do with that type of thing along time ago. And my body would go to the astral plain on it's own. I would wake up just vibrating, and watching myself from above, this is one of the reasons. I came looking to this site for some understanding...

So anyways, If you might have some ideas for me... Thank you, and you can PM if you don't mind... Melanie