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Imagine a magical hat some where on a table. You can pull anything you wish from this hat. Only at night. As soon as you reach day, the hat and the conjured items dissapear. It happens all the time so that you want to live at night and sleep at day, but then the hat only appears at day and no longer at night. Thats how fking frustrating the creative power of our dreams are. I noticed that during the day my creativity is limited by 1. my memory to recall my creative thoughts, images, sounds I imagined during the creative process 2. having to interupt the creative process all the time because it takes forever to translate the creativity into reality. In dreams everything manifests instantenously. It takes forever to compose a music, poem, painting, idea, book, whatever, in the waking hours, plus you tend to fail or give up while so caught up in the process of translating. The translating process in dreams becomes instant. You think about a story and it appears in your mind, the movie plays out in 3d and the background music is perfect all the time. Sometimes I'm so frustrated about not being able to get lucid, I want to stop sleeping untill I can acces the creativity I have in my dreamworld while still remaining consciouss. Funny thing is, when I get sleepy, I loose consciousness. I actually stopped have faith that it is possible to lucid dream all the time. All the lucid dreaming teachers and so called authorities on the subject cannot even lucid dream themselves. It seems that all the succesful lucid dreamers have shifted into the 5th dimension. There's no one on earh that can teach me this, but me?. Unless you tell me otherwise! I tried allot of things, but never drugs. I really don't care for lucid dreaming though. I only care for the creativity I have during sleep! I've never been able to acces it while awake Is a musician, actor or comedian, scriptwriter destined to use drugs? Like Charlie Sheen said, Yes I'm on drugs, but I'm still a winner. Then again, you do have those 100 year old people who finally became enlightened but their brains disintegrated so much that they coulden't teach others how to do it anymore. I compose music in the waking world just as a hobby and I suck at it. The music fragments I've recalled and translated onto the keyboard are my best musical compositions even though they're like 3 seconds of length each, plus I did not recall it precisely. I can put some examples on youtube if you request it. Sometimes I feel I have great ideas and while trying to translate a part of these musical thoughts, it just floats away and its forgotten. Today I've had a lucid dream where I started improvising on the keyboard and recorded it to prove how good of a pianist I am to a projection of mine. This music was so incredible, I could retire a musician right now if I were able to acces such creaitivity I have in dreams all the time or atleast able to become lucid for just 40 minutes a night and remember what music I played or ideas I created. With all my intense effort for years, I've reached two weak lucid dreams of 10 seconds each a week. By the time I manifest a piano, organ the dream has already fades away. In my dreams I don't have to play piano well to improvise great. I just trance into my music consciousness like I always do and start translating. In the real world it takes 1 hour of intense focus and translating just for a small part. In the dream, I can press record and just play the piano without thinking about pressing the right key. The musical creativity is so strong, I composed 3 minutes for a piano piece instantaneously and played the recorded music. It was better then anything I heared from chopin. When I let the recorded music play, I actually remanifested what the music sounded like and made it perfect, just by thinking about it without even touching the keyboard! I became a real music god! When I woke up, I tried to recall something, but I've forgotten everything! My memory is real bad when I'm awake aswell. I've recalled allot of dream music fragments, never cared to record them since it was 6 notes at most. I did try to reconstruct from what I had recalled, but it took too long and I never been able to create music of quality similar to the dream music I just made up in few seconds. Besides, reconstructing from 6 notes? I might aswell start at 0 notes. So the dream music is real! Its not beyond the regular physical audio. Just waiting for another lucid dream to arrive is no longer acceptable. I will have to seriously train this in a structred way and be more persistent in trying out many practices. As you can see, I can just stop my hobby and focus on becoming lucid in dreams and train dream recall. There is no more point in composing music while awake when in my dreams I do it 18374774738281991199283847 times faster and compose 2848575748829291903948488585748839292 times better music. No words can describe the creative power I have in my dreams. Ofcourse I probably woulden't arive there if I never created music while awake aswell, but still... Now that I have discovered this, doesn't that make dreaming one of the most important events of the day? I can't just be content with the creativity I have in the waking world when there is such power within me that I'm not yet able to acces. One dream is equal to 3 years of intense work. In the waking world I can process information at the speed of a donkey, in my dreams I process information faster then the speed of light. The focus has shifted toward the way of internal strength for me today. Perhaps it would be unwise to even waste such creative powers on music... Thats how freakin powerful it is! Either that, or I give music oo much importance to even mention it... Well, thats me! WHY ON EARTH IS THERE NO ONE WHO USES DREAM CREATIVITY AS THERE MAIN SOURCE FOR IDEAS?!? Or are they just not telling anyone about it? Fcking egotistical bastards, you know I love ya'll right? Tell me how to do it! xD If everyone could freely use their dreams to do what they wished, and later recall exactly what they did, we would have atleast 5 milion Johannes Bach's walking around on this planet. How many are there currently? 0... Still good composers alive, but I imagine them to be 50 times better if they did acces their dream creativity. I must either arrogantly conclude that my lucid dream self is the reincarnation of a musical god. Either that or the whole world needs to fcking wake up to way of internal power! If I could just recall one complete musical piece of my lucid dreams I could proove this, damnit. If a musical failure like me can do that, how many creative technological inventions would be created in one day if all scientists had acces to their ineternal creative powers? Whats going on here? Am I the only one who have experience this internal creative power?

*excuse me, I ment to post this on general discussions* It seems that our whole system in this world is designed like a mousewheel. The good guys are naïve and are kept busy by running in the mousewheel, but they have no freedom to actually run for them selves, into freedom, or for others, by aiding the people to evolve. I once owned a two mice that ran on the mousewheel allot. They fought often over who could run on it. Today I had a dream of these mice and woke up dropping a tear. In the dream the mice where running on the wheel and getting out to see if they arrived somewhere else all the time. Never did they give up. I saw this and became real angry and tried to break the cage to set them free, but the cage woulden't break and it hurt my hand. I screamed to the mice to tell them to get out of the cage, expecting them to hear me, but they did not hear me somehow, being so occupied in the illusion that they were going somewhere else by running in that wheel. It is hard to even point out to naïve people how they're enslaved. Their decision space is so small, we cannot easily increase it. I can not even increase my own decision space, I´m more on the naïve side myself. If the depression causes mania and the mania causes depression, I'm the depressed guy. It seems that depressed people and maniacs hate eachother, yet they need eachother to form a balance. Even though it seems like a horrible thing to say, the majority of the people are worthless units of controllable intent. Only by enslaving many can you create value for yourself. Thus, you have to rule out allot of competition. And so the slave managed prison was created to use the power of the slaves to lock up potential competition for these maniacs who rule all of the world. We can try our whole lives to help people evolve and you will receive nothing in return. In fact, you will be punished for it indirectly. Think out of the box will bring along a life full of hardship, where you'll have to make allot of difficult decisions. In this whole journey, I wonder no longer why so many people have become the bad guy, as in maniacs. I wonder where all the maniacs actually are! I think most of them are in prison, a matter of bad luck. This system has been designed by the maniacs like a game similar to that of gambling with social aspects. Considering how low the average wisdom of the people are and how naïve the average person is, we need allot more maniacs running free out there to balance things out! This game has become unfair. The maniacs with most freedom are in minority, thus they gain allot of power on their own and they have more reasons to walk that road. All the maniacs or bad guys are few and they're supressing the naïve and good guys all for them selves! Have you ever seen a depressed person in one room with a maniac? Its hilarious. Have you ever seen 5 depressed people in a room with 1 maniac? The maniac goes frenzy and seems to be on the verge of exploding. Too much power in one body. In nature, another maniac would come along and take some of the belongings of this almighty maniac. This natural competition would rule out all the irresponsible maniacs and leave the wise maniacs in charge. In our society, our nature has been emprisoned. The criminals are being put in jails, by the enslaved police. Yes, enslaved police! This is enslavement with self managing capabilities. The police work to pay their own bills and they function as an anti-virus program to rule out all the potential competition for minority maniacs and lock them up in jail. That leaves only few maniacs who proffit from the lack of maniacs running around in this world. The emprisoned are the key to liberation of all the people. With all maniacs having equal competition and all depressed sad faces having a personal opressor, the worlds balance would be restored. There would be no more depressed people and no more maniacs. With a constant wheeding out of "bad guys" there is no balance in the archetypal population of this human civilization. Too many good people is not balanced. To few bad at the same time makes for even more disharmony. Now tell me, why and when did we actually start calling the maniacs "bad guys" and the depressed people "good guys"? They both have their part in nature. Currently, maniacs are few, thus they thrive and we are jealous of them. No need to be, because there is actually allot of maniacs in prison that can restore the balance. Who put them there? The good guys did. They are indirectly contributing to their own enslavement. Who's going to release them? "Not me! I'm the good guy!" everyone says. If only they knew... What most people see as good, is only bad. What most people see as bad, is only good. This is ment literally and still applies to our modern world.

Indeed, its just a metaphor. No need to actually do it. Just a tool to visualize how bad people are good aswell and good are bad aswell.

Have you ever had a dream where you were in your own bed and it seemed so real, yet you discovered it was fake. Then things became scary because you did not fully accept the fakeness as it was equally real as the real world you've come to know. Some call it an oobe experience, since the dream is in your own bedroom. Others call it a lucid dream where you're on the edge of becoming lucid. The scary uncertainty of reality is what lies in between all realms, the gateway. it is the void and source of these worlds, the potential. You can create your reality by accesing these uncertainties, use the gateway as a portal to travel where you wish. You accept that your location is fake, you open the gate of uncertainty, expect to walk in where you want to and you'll arive there. Sounds metaphysical, but its not. In lucid dreams you can use doors to function as portals. What seems like metaphysical now, is real physics of the dream realm. This uncertainty is not that though. The. Uncertainty of reality is accesable in all realities. Dreaming or awake. The thing is, in dreams it is very hard to accept that everything is fake and when you do, you wake up and forget how you did it and what the fake world was like. When you have enough lucid dreams, you realize that lucid dreams can be as real as your waking reality. Then you try to accept that your waking reality is fake, to acces the gateway of uncertainty. This is even more difficult. Your ego can make up 100 years worth of ideas and thoughts that proove that e erything is real. Once you do wake up to the fake nature of reality, it feels enlightening. You become everything and nothing at the same time. You can be a pencil and you can be a chair, yet stuck in my body I was on the verge of waking up. Afraid to let go of my body. I remember the experience like it happened yesterday.

Very good topic! I actually read about this on research done for Out Of Body Experiences. Subject would sit in a chair with sci-fi glasses with 3d vision of video footage of the camera behind them. They saw their own backs. This self would get poked in the video footage they saw and they felt nothing. Then the camera would get poked and at the same time their body in the chair aswell. This gave them the experienced of being out of their own body. Taking of the glasses felt like waking back into your body. Sense of location and bodily awareness has got allot to do with waking up and falling asleep indeed!

Me aswell. To reach the top of the hill, just to see whats on the other side. Extreme curiosity can trap you in your mind sometimes. Don't dwell too much on the thought though. Try to live it in the present moment. Imagining a possible future, recalling a possible past, they're both the same part of your creative imagination. Recalling a memory is an act of imagination and imagining a future is also an act of imagination. You can be happy imagining you reach a goal you have, but contemplate the journey you are walking even more. The journey is the experience which is most important. It is real, always with you. It is your path and you're always walking on it. Some people just walk one path and only see the destination, not knowing how many path's lead to the same destination with less effort! Pick your path wisely. The path is your experience of reaching the goal. The path will determine what experience you'll have. Sometimes you can stop trying to reach the goal and switch your path. Going from a path with lots of sharp objects to a path that feels soft, kind and without resistance under your feet. Like grass. One time this guy looked in the mirror and saw an ugly man. He let himself go and no longer cared. Then as his cup was empty, he sought a new road to walk upon once more. This time he would choose a happy road. The creation of the road is in observing it to reality. You fill your cup of knowing with positive things untill its filled, so that there is no more room for negative knowings. He saw himself for the first time in a long time in the mirror and started talking to him self. Growing his ego like a newborn child would. He was very nice to the mirror and the mirror reflected this back! It was amazing how strong the vibe became in the moment. He would never forget how awesome the guy in the mirror was. Till today, he is still managing the friendship with this reflection of himself. Never did they disagree on anything! They were always there for eachother, best friends for life! The reflect or image you have of yourself is the road you walk upon. On a rainy day you can see it on your path. Change yourself and your reflection changes, change your reflection and you change yourself aswell. Some people believe that everything is a reflection of yourself.

You mean you are depressed? The first thing is to become angry. Block anger enough and you will depress. Get angry real bad and see why you're angry. Your body is trying to tell you something. If that is not depression but a goal, I advice to connect other things to that goal that are related with it. For example, make a circle around "leave this world" and put it in the middle. Then connect other circles around it, like "go to moon with rocket", "become a lucid dreamer", "move into the 4th dimension". Then again, connect circles around thise circles aswell, goals around goals. "to moon with rocket"-((study science, become fit) "move into the fourth dimension"(meditate on oobe, investigate nature of reality) You have to break down your one desire or lifes purpose into smaller goals/steps. Its good that you have one desire alone, that is masterful. Now you can break it down and you will have complimentary parts all the time.

Sometimes people complain about stress, I wonder why. Stress is the tail of your Life. Passiveness is your biggest enemy. Destructiveness is the enemy of your biggest enemy(in the western sense). Constructiveness is your biggest friend. Is stress really a problem? Is stress not part of life or this continious maturation process that we call life? The flower grows towards the sun, because darkness is stress. More darkness equals more growth. Even with the sun, growth never ends. The flower always becomes more and more beautiful untill it is time to walk to road of death. Usually people just accept the stresses in their lifes as something they can do nothing about and they decide to do nothing about it, giving up on life. People who decide to "be content" with death. To focus on remaining passive and not deciding to do anything with the stress is the road of nothingness and death. This means you're not content within life. You regress, drain of energy, become out of touch with your emotions/intuitions, feel the need for allot of sleep. If you choose the path of death, remaining passive, I respect that. Literally nothingness came out of that for me personally. My life seemed to regress, drained, low on energy, out of touch with my emotions/intuition, etc. You become a sloth and want to sleep all the time. I guess it is a road you can walk if you choose so. There is not problem with this. It is just a preperation for letting go of life. Is it really usefull for the flower to decide to stop growing right before it even created the space for allowing the apple to arise? There are very old people on this earth who are still more alive then you and me. We have to respect death and not desire it. This desire for death will take contentment away from you. We did not become alive to desire death, we are simply alive. There is no need to overthink the purpose of life other then to live. React to stress in best ways you can. Strive for perfection, but do it with determination yet flexibility, with persistance yet adatability. When you have a stress, it is okay to decide in constructive ways to solve the problem. It is ok to feel anger and not go into denial of the existance of stress. God gave you anger. Not to denie it or use it for evil, but to guide you on your way to the heavens of your life. Anger does not have to equal destruction when you hold your friend(constructiveness) closer then the enemy(destructiveness) of your biggest enemy(passiveness). React constructively to stress, grow, that is the Way of life. A rock is not alive, because it has no free will to decide to solve a problem. When they are stressed, they just sit there. When you hit a rock, it does not turn its back on you and stop you from destroying him. A rock does not even have a problem! Are you a rock? You're not death, you're life itself. You are the creation of the dead, the manifestation of the nothingness. Denying this means certain death. Death itself can become another reason to live and life itself another reason to die. Why choose that hell? Lots of words add up to exhaustion. Better to hold on to the center. There is time to be alive and time to be dead, no need to rush things. Will the path of contentment over stress drain your chi? How does a Dog&Tail relationship, as in destructive and impulsive reaction to stress, affect your chi?

Thanks, I'll have to atleast do that I guess. Both you and suninmyeyes are recommending it. Any recommendation for a beginner like me? Where I should start or how I should learn?

There are some wise people who hate politics but do not neglect its importance in our world. You cannot neglect/denie that which is all around you, yet people are too distracted with the so called "politics" from tv. That is not politics. That is a gameshow that is more parallel to a footbal/soccer game. How certain are you that a desire for death is the freedom of your soul? And what is exactly wrong with your enslavement? Is it actually correct to even call it an enslavement? I feel free to decide wether to live or not to live. I choose to live at this very moment.

I'm sorry but I don't undersand what you mean. You mean I should not make a religion out of it? I don't even know what that thing is I should make a religion of. How am I going to make that religion in the first place?

Its not like I'm thinking too much though. On these forums I have to be all intellectual since we can only type words. So here on these forums I do nothing but communicate on a intellectual level, even when talking about the emotional aspects of our lifes. I'm not sure how meditation can help me achieve a goal which require activities that are complex and not desired by me. I tried meditation, it feels great, relaxing, calms the mind from too much thought. We need meditation from time to time. I'm not sure what it will do for motivation though. After meditating I do seem to be able focus longer on things I don't want to do. I can apply more conscious effort to keep focusing on these things. Is that what you mean?

Hehe, I think I did not gave the right words. I ment more like I was confused more then when I first began. I understand things better now, so the questions change. Deeper understanding gives birth to more questions.

You bastard ...wait, do you mean we have to confuse our minds first in order to prepare the soil to plant a new desire? That sounds plausible. This little desire seed could grow into a full tree by feeding it the awareness, by using the tool of focus, trough our little conscious effort. Perhaps a matter of applying the necessary leverage here and there.

I think this might very well be the best answer to my question. It provides more structure and at the same time creates a desire. Not doing anything else before the list is done will require very little conscious effort. So I will just get angry after applying this little conscious effort for a while. This anger will give me energy to get trough the tasks I don't want to get trough. Then the reward will reinforce this habbit of getting trough the list. This list is a limit that creates frustration that motivates me to do the thing I don't want to do. When I don't abide by these frustrating rules I can severely punish my self and label my self as failure and get totally disgusted by my self or just withhold from eating or slap my self. This will create fear that enforces my motivation to do the tasks I don't want to do. So thanks, Manitou. I will have to use this method until I find a better solution to this motivation problem. I wont orture my self too much on this, though. Unless I need to... I think the fear and anger from not receiving the reward will be sufficient and most effective. I recall that punishment works less effective then desire for reward after a certain task is done. Like training a dog trough reward. I can enslave my self more easily trough rewards aswell. If anyone has any idea on how to create a change at the being level, I'm still open for that aswell. To evolve my consciousness to a point where I can create my own desires instead of only using the desires I have at my disposal. To honestly, positively, directly, desire to do a certain task that I previously did not desire. That would be so much better. Else I'll just have to do with this one.

If I breath in, I desire to breath out and out desire to breath in. I'm familiar with this rythm and vibration of life. What I'm talking about is actually changing the balance point. I want to fluctuate around a certain task. If I don't practice enough music, I desire to and I automaticly do. If I practice too much, I automatically let go and do something else. I can easily focus on something if I am motivated to do so for hours in a row. Sometimes this deep focus puts me in trance states that bring about even more progress. If I'm not motivated at all, not even a little,, I can hardly focus for 3 minutes. So it requires allot of conscious effort and it still doesn't work. Without my subconscious backing me up, it is useless to even try. That much I've experienced. If there is absolutely not even a single desire to do something, I either transcend desire and nondesire or I just create desire. Else I'm only walking in circles and going nowhere. For example, I can easily take out the trash because I don't want the house to stink. Sometimes I don't want to stink my self to stink, so this overrides that one and I don't take it out if someone else will. I cannot easily increase my desire for the house not to stink or take out the trash. No idea how. Even worse, How on earth to create a desire that is not even there and make it strong? Taking out the trash is an easy task that can even be done against your will with little conscious effort. A difficult task will require more conscious effort then I can give it when I have no desire to do this task. Sometimes I desire the goal but not the task itself, steps to reach the goal. So how do you suggest I transcend desire? Even when I feel like I experience god and nothingness or source of, I can still not succeed at a task that I have no desire to do. I have, however, not yet tried to use this god bliss to make positive desires or believes about the task I'm not willing to do. Anyone ever tried that?

Meditate on my desires, see what desire in relation to the goal is blocking my progress and deprogram it or let it go, then plant the new desire alone and focus on it for a few days to make it a reality. Think thats a good idea that has a chance of succeeding?

I do NOT desire the thing I want to do. Yet, I have decided to do it anyway. If I cannot succeed, I fail. I know thinking about it too long doesn't help, but I wish to deal with this once and for all. I know I can do it, cause I have desired it before. I don't want to do it anymore. Honestly. Its not that I'm confused about it. I don't want to do it. Instead of positive programming, negative deprogramming sounds like a plausible idea though. Thanks. I will consider it.

No I meant I actually am going backwards in my understanding. I'm more confused now then when I began. I am further away from getting it. I can't seem to find the answer in the previous so I try to go deeper to the problem. Well, the stress topic is not for my self. Just some random idea to deal with passiveness. This motivation thing hasn't always been a problem though. I can't seem to accomplish anything if I cannot create my own desires. When I no longer fear thigs, I even loose that motivation of fear.

Thanks, I'll look into that.

5 little steps? it seems like I'm moving backwards on each step.

Hell no! Besides... I'm stuck here. No idea how to reach non-ego on will

Thank you for speaking of the diffrence of truth and lie. Dao ke Dao Fei Chang Dao Do they really have a diffrence? It seems that even the laws of physics, the longest remaining truth's, change... The Constant Truth fit for Travel is not The Constant Truth. It is just a truth/lie, both at the same time, depending on your perception.

i think I finally realized the flaw in the ego. I was thinking about the knowledge of external & internal. Knowing what we do control and do not. You got me thinking of that age old story of the guy being stuck in traffic. Haven't we all heared that before? Why is he really complaining? It seems that he identifies with the traffic, the ego become in that moment so huge that the traffic is included. He is the traffic and the traffic is him. He should be able to control it, but the traffic doesn't behave the way it should behave! Why, because the traffic is internal and the rest is external. When you are internal and the rest external, you feel like you should have 100% control over all internal. He had a "self" and ego. Usually people say the solution is to shrink your ego into your body and give up your decision space. In reality, we do control the traffic to some degree. Only if you have no ego, give up on the dual nature of external/internal, you can realize exactly how many decisions you can make and which one are most efficient. For example, it requires a huge amount of intent to controll the traffic because there is so little uncertainty over the traffic. I wonder now of the nature of intent and how it works to effect reality.

Oh, so they mirror their environment you mean? Or do you mean they both have no past or future?