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Sure, I will share. For many years now, especially after I started with energy works, the feeling that fabrics of reality is not so consistent as it seams to be, is getting stronger by day. For example, I'm aware somehow of these doors that you can open practically anywhere. In thin air. In colors on my carpet. In smoke. Sound... And that always got my attention. Best to put it, whole reality to me is like one huge waving. So naturally it happened for me to just be seduced by those feelings, and on couple of those times I've been able to concentrate on that feeling, and the weirdest things occurred then. Suddenly, all sounds became buzzing, I blurred my sight, and after that I skipped an hour or so. Maybe more. And there was no alien guy near me, but I did saw a little butterfly....

Time as non-linear concept is always been interesting to me. All that you guys wrote till now made me think about it again. On not one occasion, I managed to bend time and slip through what seams to me like crack, and skip certain moments.... To be more exact I think that time was bending around me... And always been asking myself, what is that I've been doing to make that happen. So it would be very helpful to have little alien pall to explain some things along the way.

Now, this makes me laugh for some reason right now... Thing is: For some time now, say year or two, I've started to be aware of these entities around me. And noticed one thing, it seams like they really try to piss me off. I'm talking here about little mishaps around the kitchen mostly or certain stuff falling around the house, just before I was going to use them 'n' such. So this made me think, not to give them satisfaction and now they are quite funny to me. Seems quite logical, that if they are really munching on my energy that.... Anyways, I'm beginning to think that maybe I could learn something from them, since I've already learned how to be more calm, and not jump like gorilla every time my rice falls across the kitchen with no apparent reason. I could use them. Besides, it seams that this works like this: The more I give them positive energy, the more of the same I have... Although I'm concerned that they don't eat something I'm not willing to give. So I'm interested in others experience on this subject.

Thank you.

This happened last week: My wife was sleeping in the other room while I was meditating in the living room, and one thought came to me. Since I was already felt charged in yang energy so much, why not cool myself down by sending her excess energy that I have. She was very tired from work and so cold, heaving problems to stay warm, so that idea seems logical to me at the moment. I continued to meditate sending waves of energy to her in the other room, and after half hour, I was in balance, the floating filling in me subsided and I felt more in myself. So next thing is that she awakened and was awake right from the start, which is new to her, because she is always dizzy after napping. The things seamed good for an hour or so, but then she began to feel nervous with no reason, and hard to calm down. Only after two seances of breathing and me trying to gather her energy from chest in the abdomen, and glass of pineapple juice she calmed down. She said later while we laughed at it, that she is not used to be that warm. Could it be that was to much for her? Or I supposed to tell her so that there would be no surprises? She is so intuitive with energy, but I guess that nobody likes surprises like that. In that case it is honest mistake. Is it safe for her to be that hot? It seams to me I'm most of the time warm like that?

Yes, we have all Chia's books, and every seminar DVD to this date, I think. All of that is a large volume of information and knowledge in which we getting pretty good. Chia is the reason I started practicing way back in the first place. My wife often experience heart orgasms, as well as whole body ones and we are working on the other organs. It's interesting how energy can show you just by itself what to do....

And after every hiccough, it seams like we become two times in more control of ourselves. So in a sense it is a good thing. We are learning more and more every day. She learns to digest energy and becomes very good at it, because she is so intuitive. I will look more into sending energy to specific organs. That sounds like something we should know. Thank you.

Exactly like that. Maybe a better term to call it would be learning how to live alongside and derive answers where you can. It's like a challenge for me in some way. Or rather experiment as you say. I don't want to drive them away, because that would be sisyphean to do. Among other things, I could sense them everywhere, just like casual birds along the road, they are just there. No point in changing that. What could be learned from that presence is what interest me the most. It's just like a decor in my sight. Also not something worth obsessing about. Another thing on the road, that you can learn from. Anything else seams so arrogant.

Well we are doing that. More of it every day, this caught us off guard.

I don't see it as a matter of believing.... I have no use for that.

I'm not offended, I'm joking, man. I can see why you have such opinion, and to some degree I think exactly like you. And there is truth in what you are saying. You see, there was a time, and still sometimes is hard for me to shield myself from other people negative emotions, so last thing I would wanna do is to do the same thing to my wife. This energy transfer is the first time I tried something like that, and that's not because I was trying to get rid myself of hot energy (believe me, that's not the case, I love floaty felling when I'm charged), but rather to help her recover from exhaustion, little sleep and cold after busy day at work. The reason for me doing so could not be purer than that. And nothing but love was inside me at that moment. With that said, I know now what went wrong and it's kinda funny thinking of it....

That is the right question, cat.... I don't know, somehow it seams to me more like I'm existing in just one specter of reality, sharing it with other beings, than projecting my energy in the way to be able to move things. Maybe also that I'm so clumsy that everything falls around me. So those beings I called entities, maybe I'm wrong, don't know. The One thing I do know, I don't want them to be parasites. Then again that is such a human concept, and has no sense to me. You are right in regard that answer is in my hand, the thing is that just awareness of them by it self is taught me to guide myself in that manner so not to be a victim.

I think so too, cat, because everything is pointing at that. And that was her words. She is not used to that level of energy, so it was like unknown state to deal with. Anyways we both laughed at that mishap, and continuing to learn of ourselves.... And, Scotty, man, I really didn't know that I'm so "sick and full of illnesses", good thing I have you to make me realize that.... Thank you.

Why are you saying that?

Wow, this is one of the best things I've read recently! Thank you everybody for this wisdom.

I'm practicing retention and microcosmic orbit for quite some time.... Actually, when I think about it, for 8 years now. There was ups and downs, but the main thing is that progress is made after each one. In the beginning even when masturbating, I've never ejaculated, but use the build up energy to circulate through my orbit. While this was seamed like good thing to do, I always felt that something is missing. Spiritually, that only made huge step up, but I was not satisfied yet. 'Till recently I stopped with that, and now not only I have mind blowing full body orgasms with my wife, but also that same orgasms continue to last through rest of my day, and night and on and on.... My perception of world around me has gone through some changes, it seams to me that everything is inside of me, and I'm in everything.... Like I have new eyes, and that they are inside, or all around.... Amazing! But there is still something I should do, because often, when I'm alone, and wife's working, I feel strong sexual urge, and she is not there to "assist me". So in these moments porn sounds like something very tempting.... And don't get me wrong, I know how to drove back that build up energy so it would not bother me, that's not an issue. And I completely enjoy that experience which by itself can lead me to some fine body orgasms. But it seams like 'I just want sex....' And I love porn! Simple as that. Or is it? I don't know.... And I'm not superficial person, nor there is to it some hidden meaning.... So my question is, do any of you guys experience similar stuff? How you deal with that, or what do you think I should do?

Wow, electric chi magnet, you talk like you know me. I haven't yet experienced 'lightning' effect you're talking about, but all that other stuff is exactly what's happening to me! Then again my MCO is this strong I would say for almost 2 years now. My marriage is where it really blossomed. Now it's like roller coaster, every day seams like a year of experience to me. Sometimes when I'm walking it's like that same field of energy is pulling me toward where I wanna go. For example, not so long ago, I was walking to meet my wife. All the way it's been like I was more pulled then I was walking. But feeling was nice, somehow secure, comforting, I don't know. Also the strangest thing happened to me the other day.... I skipped an hour or so. Where it gone, I don't know, but one moment I was watching a clock (not on purpose) and thinking about how I don't want to wait another hour or so (again I was waiting my wife), stopped looking it, and instead started to look in fabric of my pants (Did I mentioned to you that sometimes I have a feeling like some doors to another world is where colors touch....). Next thing I know is she's knocking on the door. Then I started to convince myself on various ways how that could happen'.... It's funny you mentioned other people touching me, and me feeling their energy, 'couse that's happening to me as far as my memory goes, even before I knew what energy is. In school it was a problem for me because I saw people as colors. Many years later I found out for a term 'aura'. I still feel that, only stronger now, much stronger. Now I feel them inside me. 'Can't say for the house, but my room has always had strange vibes. As a kid I was terrified to go inside, then just as you said, some kind of a green shield (strong green, you might say) propelled from my body and I felt safe. But that was all by itself. Like natural defensive mechanism. From that day, whenever I went that same green shield was covering just me. And there was couple of bad places that just didn't feel right. People also. It happened on couple of occasions that while I slept in my room strange weight pressed my legs, just like some cat or other animal is walking on me, but that did not last long, because it would soon perish as it appeared. And markern, you made me realize some things, so thank you for that. Your knowledge is very useful.

I love how you have so much experience than me, so I could learn from you! I think that I was always aware that these thoughts and energies are not mine, but nevertheless they still bugged me. Now, when I think about it, reason for that could be that I was raised as a child to overly pay attention to "what other people might say"... So I'm guessing that it doesn't matter me being aware that those thoughts are not mine, as long as I subconsciously excepted 'em as mine. You helped me a little here.... My body has to learn to distinguish those kind of energies and thoughts. 'Don't like to be depressed... In rear occasions when I tried to influence others by that ('don't like to do that...), and help 'em, somehow it backfired at me, because they felt uncomfortable being so 'naked' in front of me. You could see right away, that is not good idea. And besides, I don't have knowledge for that... So it's better for them to sort it themselves. You also said: And I think that's exactly what I'm gonna do, because they could never be turned of. For now stillness is helping me allot. And I'm gonna try all of the stuff you said, it's so nice to talk to you. I love your knowledge! As for your questions electric chi magnet, really I don't remember when is the last time I had night emissions... But years has passed. I never had them that much anyways.... 'Think that macrobiotic diet sorted out most of the toxins from my body.... As for how I train, there is not clearly defined scheme, but rather my own level of energy saying me I should do something. In the beginning main thing for me was to raise my sexual energy and then store it in my dan tien. I loved to do that, and sometimes I was doing that for 8 hours straight, then MCO. But I don't feel like doing that anymore, because it seams like energy in my body has changed somehow. I'm much more happy with it now. My MCO flow is very very strong now. It definitely kicks up automatically most of the time. Rest of the time it's enough just to think on subtle flow I feel and it moves more faster. It's like I'm constantly in the state of orgasm and it gets stronger and more subtle/refined every day. It's same when I have sex, on early days, I use my muscles to control myself, but now, I'm doing it just by thinking of it, not even that. It's more like my body started its own thing.... On the count of what I'm experiencing right now... Well, I'm noticing different layers of reality, and can easily shift from one to another. Not always on purpose.... 'Don't know how to describe it better, but it seams that I 'feel' other people and surroundings more that to 'see' them.... 'Cannot control that. At least yet. 'Not sure even want to.... Sometimes it feels like I'm making love with everything and everyone.... It's so intoxicating.... For couple of days already I'm doing just breathing and getting hold of my emotions. Nothing sexual.

In my experience drugs are only artificial tool to take you where you could take yourself if you listen carefully. I remember that I always been tempted and had a feeling that there is "some other world" in the place where colors touch, where sound touch smoke.... And oh brother, drugs took me there, but express! I was not ready, because I wasn't experienced trip to there, but instead been pushed through stitches of 'reality' and ended up in the place that nearly killed me. With drugs, you go there alone.... Taking one step at a time fills you with light and love.... And how can you be alone then.... Now I'm wiser, and I'm not stupid kind anymore, I don't want short cuts, I want to learn....

Well, it goes easier as time passes... It seams that my body learns some things totally separated from my mind. At least on the first glance. The real, real progress I made with my wife, so it's not strange that before that was years and years of trial & error. Here where I live it's very hard (almost impossible) to nurture those kind of energies.... And I began with practices when I was a raging teenager, so it was twice as hard to get a grip of my "desires". It's true this, you know: drewhempel: I know that for a fact Thank you for your recommendations sykkelpump, it's of great help. sykkelpump said: I realized that from the first start, you know. Man would think that most of people here are above bragging or playing games, or acting as a superior to you, because they achieved anything on their spiritual path... But no, sadly no... A lot of energy is wasted on wrong things....

You must be proud of yourself right now.

Ouh, then I guess you put me right in my place.... Sad man.... Really sad.... And such a shame....

I fail to see what are you trying to do here....

drewhempel: Funny guy, aren't you?