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  3. Posted

    Maybe all human beings are, like the universe, shaped as "an egg with energy that turns inwards in it self", in a neverending cyclic movement. What if, this point of stillness in meditation is the very middle of this "egg", and our experience of stillness can be resembled to what you`d find in the middle of a tornado? Balance...

    When we are not in this blissed middle stillpoint, our impression will be influenced by the angle to whatever we focus on at the moment. CON means "with", "CEPT" means ;"take,get, go, receive", is a process outside what I earlier described as "the quiet place"

    And furthermore, the angle matters, the meridians govern emotions too...

    So I gather it is not enough to sit on the ass in bliss...there are so many concepts rooted in the body system that need to be adressed/blockages that needs release/muscular balance improved etcetc. Medical qigong is said to be a tool for this. I sure hope so.

    I am still a little confused about the "who am I" questioning in deep meditation. Seems not necessary to ask, when you actually finally know. Better to practise dilligently until you carry the ultimate sense of self into the daily life. Or Use it as a point of reference, when your mind fights with polarities and paradoxes to decide who you are in relation to other aspects of life.

    As to who was first, yin, yang or "it".....

    Who said it was "a first" In contast to "last"? You people believe a "BANG" was the beginning?. Like in math "the point", "the line", "the square" and "volume" (or what you call it in english?) Recall the egg. No beginning, no end.

     

    I liked the one about black being a privative to white (when it comes to light).

    But what about black holes and dark matter? Don`t scientists detect any form of waves coming from them?

    Are they just "taking" contra "giving"? In that case their blackness cannot be a privative??

    :blink:

    :huh:

  14. Posted · Edited by rain

    thank you Yen Hui

    for your enlightening instructive description. I follow every word and its beauty fills me with awe and strong emotions.

    I chose some 15 years ago, due to natural circumstances, to start a slow descent from my intellect down into the body.

    I love to play. My mind likes to play. But I seemed to be "giljotined", shut off from the neck and down.... Thinking span 360 degrees at lightening speed, but my body ached. I took a look at our society by studying my internalized preconceptions.

    Today I support not knowing, working gradually and disciplined, being irrational, not competing, having nothing to show for, being honest, allowing rage, thinking assosiatvely, going by intuition, letting the hard mad laughter out after the unbearable sorrow, keeping in contact with my child within. For the sake of balance. I have chosen to do bodywork without the "translate this physical sensation into something mental". I work intensively with understanding and cultivating balance when I move in qigong and take my 180 and 360 degree turns in tkd. I watch my fear, and try not to let it stop me from moving. I try to stay in the centre withan empty mind in "combat"/play and rely on experience to kick in literally.

     

    I choose to be child-like, more like an idiot, because I belive that is what I am..

    I want to share my litterature-list with you some day, and tell you about education.

    but right now I try to keep it simple.

  15. Posted · Edited by rain

    I still meditate with eyes closed. Sitting with spine erect, not to comfortably, either in a simple version of lotus position or on my heels with knees bent. lFocus on the breath. Inhale nose, exhale mouth. Registration of tension. Enter tension. Stay as relaxed as possibly in tension. Breathe. Tension is tension. Tension is not you. Breathe through it. Breathe and think "I am not my body". Feel the body. Breathe. Repeat.

    Feel the body, feel the tension, Tension may be feelings...enter them, breathe through feelings. Don`t judge. Let i t go. I am not my feelings. Breathe.

    Mindchatter. I hear it, then I see it. I resist sharpening my lense. I dont listen to closely. I breathe. And let it pass. I am not my thoughts....breathe (thats a hard one)..

    I am thinking. I am not thinking. Thoughts are not me. Breathe and repeat.

    (Who, what am I??)

    I dont remember. I dont care. I breathe. I forget and let go. Know nothing. Breathe.

     

     

    It took me several months of daily practise before I was "rewarded" with the quiet, space that seems surrounded by a soft light that feels almost like a field of "knowing. When my consciousness moves towards it, it responds immediately and adequatly to any question. But I am beyond concepts.

    It is comforting and I can also feel a great sense of humour.

    I dont know how long it lasts. I always remove my wristwatch. Energy gained is life gained. So I dont bother much with time-measure.

    it may be a alfa-beta-theta-mind-trick

    but I am sure it does good.

  16. Posted

    Someone told me today that even with long practice in meditation, you don't really stop the constant mind chatter, you merely step back and observe it happening. I had always thought the object was to shut it down. Anyone want to give me their experiences in the matter?

     

    I can detect the chattering. It is like scenes being played out in my imagination, following thoughts. Like waves after a "plop" of a stone in water.

    When it is to much chatter it seems to drain energy. But I try to regard it as something positive. I see the thoughts as "dream-like" and creative potential. (for instance;When you make a sculpture, and you choose to keep, you also choose to disregard and throw away matter.) This is what happens around the thinking process. Of course on a bad day I can clearly see the resemblance to schizofrenia.. :rolleyes: .

     

    For me being in deep meditation beyond concepts, in the quietness, relaxes and refreshes the nerves. And to be able to recall this state gives comfort when "I am being helplessly beaten by the waves of samsara".

    Unfortunately now I am able to detect the difference between being reactive and being in balance... <_< and as a consequence the sadness and joy, and the need to forgive, accept and let go is growing stronger.

     

    The state beyond concepts works for me a bit similar to chi/prana, like a subtler form of nutrition.

  18. Posted · Edited by rain

    quare fremerunt gentes et populi meditati sunt inania....

     

    how fragile we are....................

     

    I am out of here.......................

  19. Posted · Edited by rain

    I don't care about Taoism or whatever you call it. Fact of the matter is unless you find something practical you can learn from you are just wasting your time. This is in response to people rubbishing 'astral dynamics'. I see you all posting on this tao bum forum and what gets to me is that some of you are so arrogant yet you know less than nothing. That is to say, you are wrong, wrong, wrong.

     

    Some of you are an embarrasment to the human race and to think this place has spiritual connotations of all things. I've been reading through this forum and it's obvious to me that it's full of fanboys who share a point of interest but aren't actually serious about anything to do with it. Some of you will pretend you are getting somewhere with your training when in reality you have deluded yourselves completely.

     

    Then there's the matter of people like John Chang who want nothing to do with Taoism yet this place pretty much sums up their entire internet presence, a forum called 'Tao bums'. If he ever needed a reason to keep away from this medium he wouldn't need to look any further than this place I assure you.

     

    It's obvious this message will fall on deaf ears but hopefully any newcomers will get a glimpse of it before it gets deleted. The universe doesn't care who discovers its secrets and for any of you to anchor yourselves in this kind of harbor in the hopes of finding something meaningful is so close-minded that it's absolutely maddening to watch. This place is stagnant.

     

    /rant

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