Cadcam

I had distanced myself from prayer or using divine names, or words like God. Sort of revered them. Then when I finally did call on God, I got an anseer.

Yes, my experience with God has shown me that God is terrifying, and powerful, and mysterious. God is a powerful word, and when you use it, you should expect to be heard, so don't use it lightly.

You're the one who is wrong. Chaos Magick can be anything.

It's a matter of channeling chaos and applying it with your mental/etherealic body, guided by your physical gestures. First you need a base of established order to observe, then you disturb that order with your mind, spirit and body. On an advanced level, to reach the HGA, you need to have reached a point of awareness spiritually, and have the right tools. For myself, all of this happened naturally, coincidentally, so I don't know if it's something you can academically pursue. There's so little written of accounts that you can't really say.

Reason to believe that the world is a hologram that is projected outside of my body. When I go out to smoke, I run into the same neighbor at least once a day. I also am outside when a city bus is passing by. What are the odds that I choose to smoke as he chooses to go out, or that a bus with a windows of a minute would be passing by? I mean really, which makes more sense: this infinitely enormous reality with its unfathomable amount of space and planets just coincidentally existing, or all of it is fabricated for one person?

I think that i, at least, am in an android/robot body, and that the universe with all its infinite space is within this body, and that we are in a place of co-creation to experience, choose, and grow into thinking, feeling entities.

They found human DNA in a 2 billion year old Martian meteorite. When you think that humans are at least that old, and how far we've come in just a few thousand years, you start to imagine all the scientific possibilities. I think that the pre exists ting race has moved into some safer, immortal method of existing, and are here with us, and probably live through us. It wouldn't surprise me if there are ancients leading our culture. From what I've seen, I think there is so much more going on.

I don't think all my thoughts come from me. I think we are trained by some other entities to think and are left to choose how to respond to our thoughts. Call them our guardian angel, or God, training us to know and take actions, and based on our reactions, we lead ourselves into good and bad karma. As the prayer goes: "lead us not into temptation ".