Cadcam

I don't think this is a good example of will, that is more an example of lack of will.

The fall of Adam and Eve came when they ate from the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Prior to that, it would seem they were just living and doing in an almost deterministic sort of way. Contemplating and cataloging what is good and evil seems to be the origin of the birth of consciousness and choice, decision making, and law. So, did the elders that wrote this story believe ignorance is bliss?

Do what thou wilt doesn't mean do as you like, it means do that which is in your will to do. I think deeper than that it refers to a rite magicians take when they declare their will to the universe

All we have is life. We have a limited variety of ways to live in life, and we also limit our behavior. What makes life worth living? Are you living to fulfill obligations to family? Are you satisfied? Would you want your life to carry over into the next one? Do you think the environment and laws are the same as here? Do you think the next life will go on forever? If one believes in a God, the idea is that that God is immortal. Do you think that God limits itself? After existing for eternity, do you think God is bored? If there is a God, is it the Creator? If so, how do you think the world is upheld? How do you think the afterlife is upheld? Is it someone's job to take care of these worlds, and the souls that are in it?

I think about dying a lot. I then think, all I can control to any degree is my life right here. If there is an afterlife, I cannot predict what it will be like. If death leads to nothingness, then it doesn't matter.

I had distanced myself from prayer or using divine names, or words like God. Sort of revered them. Then when I finally did call on God, I got an anseer.

Yes, my experience with God has shown me that God is terrifying, and powerful, and mysterious. God is a powerful word, and when you use it, you should expect to be heard, so don't use it lightly.

You're the one who is wrong. Chaos Magick can be anything.

It's a matter of channeling chaos and applying it with your mental/etherealic body, guided by your physical gestures. First you need a base of established order to observe, then you disturb that order with your mind, spirit and body. On an advanced level, to reach the HGA, you need to have reached a point of awareness spiritually, and have the right tools. For myself, all of this happened naturally, coincidentally, so I don't know if it's something you can academically pursue. There's so little written of accounts that you can't really say.

Reason to believe that the world is a hologram that is projected outside of my body. When I go out to smoke, I run into the same neighbor at least once a day. I also am outside when a city bus is passing by. What are the odds that I choose to smoke as he chooses to go out, or that a bus with a windows of a minute would be passing by? I mean really, which makes more sense: this infinitely enormous reality with its unfathomable amount of space and planets just coincidentally existing, or all of it is fabricated for one person?

I think that i, at least, am in an android/robot body, and that the universe with all its infinite space is within this body, and that we are in a place of co-creation to experience, choose, and grow into thinking, feeling entities.

They found human DNA in a 2 billion year old Martian meteorite. When you think that humans are at least that old, and how far we've come in just a few thousand years, you start to imagine all the scientific possibilities. I think that the pre exists ting race has moved into some safer, immortal method of existing, and are here with us, and probably live through us. It wouldn't surprise me if there are ancients leading our culture. From what I've seen, I think there is so much more going on.

I don't think all my thoughts come from me. I think we are trained by some other entities to think and are left to choose how to respond to our thoughts. Call them our guardian angel, or God, training us to know and take actions, and based on our reactions, we lead ourselves into good and bad karma. As the prayer goes: "lead us not into temptation ".

Ever since I was young, I've been a rebellious, and lawless person. This has changed, but as I reflected on my past, I had memories of different things. For instance, I remember when I was about 8 or 9 years old, standing in the middle of my bedroom and calling out "Satan be my god" around that same time I stopped going to church, totally refusing it. This drive my parents nuts. I remember walking to school, and this spirit was giving me lessons on chaos and order, and I, not being happy with how things went, decided to cause chaos (not the right decision). I used to harness this idea of chaos, as I would interact with others. It gave me a spiritual strength. Eventually I found myself manipulating energy with my mind. It was a form of magic. This all came back to bite me in the ass.

Well... I've been watching my dreams closely, and they aren't pretty. Some are experiences of not getting what I want, some are violent, never are there moments of joy or happiness. Lately I've noticed that I feel things as if I were awake, and I realize that I'm fully at the mercy of whomever has my soul. To make matters worse, I hear a voice whisper that I am going to hell on a daily basis, and I'm at a loss on how I could change that fate. If my dreams are any indication, hell could be quite bad for me.