Apologies for the late reply. It's taken me a quite a lot of research these past couple of days just to confirm the things both of you talked about. And I want to say thanks to both of you for giving me better direction. At first, my ego got in the way, because i didn't understand how something that i felt was responsible for helping me cure myself over the course of 2 years, could be seen in such light. And i still believe there are lots of benefits to it that are both known about and also not understood yet. But both the research and your responses have convinced me to be very cautious and a lot more mindful of how i do everything in regards to my practice, energy, and medicine consumption.
I am no longer going to use cannabis while healing or meditating. I am going to pause all healing until i can further understand the subject and probably heal my chakras, meridians through meditation first.
I also didn't mention in my previous post of something specific i did. I tried to learn how to do telekinesis. About a month ago, the exact same day, i watched the john chang video. i used some of the concepts i had heard on the video, in order to make the telekinesis work. Although, it didn't work i realized i had learned how to send energy to my hands, because i can make them feel "electric" whenever i want. However, it wasn't until 4 weeks later that i realized i can send energy out of my hand and into someone else. Today, i put the pieces together, and i think that is what led me to be able to do this.
Earl Gray, to respond about it being easy. For the past 2 years, i had mentioned that my body was completely destroyed due to bodybuilding, pulling my lower back after deadlifting, and somehow messing up my left lateral nerve. I didn't go to the doctor. I don't believe i know anyone who would've done what i did was to commit to healing myself somehow and doing it through the means i did. Which was trying to stay conscious of holding my left side of my body up all day while awake. This meant focusing on every single muscle, at times all together, and at times 1 by 1 when i first began recovering. This then evolved to epiphanies of muslce movements, relationships between muscle groups, theories of how the body works back and front, and breathing techniques. I would say that i had a feeling this was all going to lead to somewhere because what i had experienced was not normal. And so here we are.
Therefore i theorize that the only reason it's been easy and coming so quickly, is because it wasn't for 2 years of doing all these things.
That being said, this thread has humbled me in understanding that things happen for a reason. And with great power comes great responsibility. And i am excited to go down a more structured and knowledge based direction, even if that means not developing as quickly as i know i can.
A few things i would like to report:
- I believe you were right Zork, when you mentioned leakage. I felt energy constantly radiating through my hand and leaving anytime i touched someone, including myself. Leakage is definitely the right word. So what i did was to try to retract the energy from my hand and placed it back into the lower dantien (there's probably a lot i haven't mentioned, my story is a bit complicated. But i did practice mopai level one meditation and do believe i filled the dantien because i had this rock thing in my lower abdomen at some point). So i believed i was able to close my hand from leakage through a breathing technique. Qi isn't coming out anymore, and only happens after using my hands a lot such as typing.. So i'm constantly closing it. The more i do it, the longer the it stays shut.
- this brings me to my next point I also found out this weekend, that i think i can absorb energy into my hand. Whether from the air itself or touching someone. Scary idea. but i'll leave this for my questions below.
- i read eveything you guys mentioned 5 times. And based on that, i began feeling the energy running through my body. In retrospect, i guess last year when i told peopel i can move my muscle groups. i actually think i can move chi or energy. (keep in mind this is before i knew anything about chi, john chang, anything) So now, that i understand things more i believe i was actually only shifting energies around my body. so i would fix one thing, and then the other hting that i had previously fixed goes back to messed up. My theory is that i learned how to control energy, before i even built any energy storage. Maybe the only extra real energy i could store is when i exercised.
- I meditated today at the park. and after coming back and doing further research, i realized i do have some blockages in my chakras, based on the idea that i can feel energy flow through my body including my spine. And i felt some "blockages" during flow. However, i did open a couple i realized about. So i am going to focus on opening these up during meditation.
- it looks like i will be practicing Flying Phoenix Qigong for the next several months and am excited to finally begin.
Questions:
- should i do anything specific about my hands based on everything i mentioned above?
- what is this absorption my hands can do?
- Idk if any of you heal. But when healing myself, the technique i use in order to heal an area, without screwing up another area now, is to focus on sending the energy from the lower dantien. Please let me know if this is right. I would like to at least be able to heal myself if not others.
- If you guys know the reverse breathing technique or mopai breathing techinique. is that the same method of how you open the other chakras? I can do this same technique from hips to my head.
- As far as the telekinesis, did i fuck up in doing this? Assuming you learn correctly, are there dangers with learning this type of "Magic". I'm scared to even go down that path, because i think i can learn these things very quickly. That's why the first time i even attempted the telekinesis i stopped that same day. I think there's a lot of bias as far as what's safe or not safe. Like healing i would assume is in the same realm. So i just want to know your opinions.
If you want me to clarify anything above or if you have any questions, please feel to ask.
