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"This is not my locker ...."

Development of Free Will Doing things that are difficult and that you resent is one way to develop free will. For instance cleaning down the kitchen. Think about doing it .... can't be bothered right ? But do it anyway, that is free will. Your ability to choose to do things that are difficult, that are not drifting going with the habitual flow. That is free will. It is very difficult to develop. Probably you will have forgotten already my suggestion from the first paragraph. Begin with small things, like cleaning the toilet. Or making your bed perfectly every day. Start with many small tasks, that you choose consciously and then you do. Each one must be at least a little difficult. Not things you would have done anyway. If you pump up the music and sing your way through the task that doesn't work, it's like not being there. It just doesn't work. To develop free will one must pay the price of being present aware and feeling the difficulty of it, it is only that that will tear open free will. The feeling of the resistance and being present through it. Start small, do regularly, pay the price. Free will is rare, and the price is high. Start small, chopping carrots carefully, being present. Another variation is when people make you angry, don't be angry. Refuse, breathe be calm. Choose something that is difficult. This creates free will, in a sea of people who run on rails.

What is the glaring truth ? And why would there be disappointment ?

Is there free will ? .... for whom ? People are different many act like robots, others act like individuals. Some people actively try to use free will, others are demoralized and live in their heads. You have 80 years or so to live. Will you live grow in that time, grow in your faculties, grow in your courage, or will you degenerate and die whilst still alive ?

The horse feel blessed when someone remembers their true nature and are grateful.

Yes all is possible. The spirit that is within always returns to the Source on physical death, the question is, will it dissolve in the great ocean of the Source or will it remain intact in that ocean. What will be poured into a new form ? Will it be a new mixture of material from the ocean, or will it be a complete being (soul). The spirit is within but is it fusing into a whole being ? Only if it does so will it remain intact on its voyage beyond the body. Otherwise it will dissolve because it never fused. Either way nothing is lost. For most humans and creatures (as it appears) there is no fusion and no real knowledge of the spirit. Nothing really happens to the spirit within the body. On death nothing happened to it, nobody remembered it, nobody nourished it, nobody wished to be it, nobody remembered it, and it did not fuse. When you walk through your days when is it you remember your spirit ? Never ? So how can it fuse. The state of Self-Remembering means that you always remember (are in inner contact with) your spirit. Always. Before you eyes open already you remember your spirit. You love your spirit and essence. You do not breathe without feeling it always always always. That requires some work to do. What happens when the body dies is not the problem. What happens when people wake up in the morning is the problem. Normally as soon as they wake up they completely lose touch with their spirit and swim in a bunch of thoughts feelings and externalities for the entire day and once in a blue moon they wonder why. What chance do they have ? That is why the disciplines of sitting meditation, every day in a particular place in a particular way, every day, every day, every day, every day, again and again and again, is very efficient. So it's not a question of whether you will be immortal, but whether you actually care about your spirit. It is good to sit in meditation in front of a mirror, every morning and night for half an hour. Every day for several months. For awakening 2.5 hrs is a good number to practice. So when you see yourself in the mirror can you feel ... the meaning ?

I put a copper mesh Farday cage around my wireless router to reduce the dosage, and also one around the AC Adapter of my laptop, both improved things. However we live in a world of unending pollution so what is a winning strategy. One way is to prevent the entry of pathogens into the system : cosmetics/ shampoos, processed foods, thoughts emotions from the unhappy world. All these thing require learning new ways and change over time. Second way is strengthening your inner energy. Zhan Zhuang is extremely effective. Third way is awakening beyond the body. This is how the world is, let go of blame or hope for the future improvement of the world, and do what is necessary and possible, that's my recommendation. Then you will have "done what needs to be done".

Real effort and practice answers a thousand questions. It is the only way to be sure. If you are looking for yourself then it is very much worth it from the first hour on the first day.

Wisdom kindness and timing are also good for protecting people.

What is it that you yourself want and are looking for ?

Yesterday did 4 sessions of ZZ, about 25-35mins each. Last one I did ZZ, then silk reeling. Silk reeling for 5 minutes, clouds hands style. Then stop and stand : sink back so seeing the world from the back of the head or further back letting go. Like a great light looking through me. Then the silk reeling again. Then I switched the lights off, and continued. Silk reeling in the darkness where only feeling remains. And some music, wow pretty fing cool.

It is easy to think about prolonging one's life because it means prolonging one's ego. And when people talk of Taoism that is mostly what they talk of because they is mostly what they understand and it's mostly what they get. It doesn't involve you changing, but you change your lifespan so you can carry on for longer. I can't explain why some people understand spirituality, and others don't but that's the way it seems to be.

Coincidentatlly I saw some images last night. I had done 4 sessions of ZZ yesterday, about 100mins maybe, a lot of qi coursing through the body. But then I started seeing for instance a red wolf barking over my leg, it represents the character of an old blockage there. There were several of them very clear very vivid and deep colours unmistakeable. I can't remember if my eyes were open or closed, I was doing quite a lot of practices yesterday in the light and in the dark.

Jan 1st and it's time to break out the sneaker for a 10km to begin the year with vigour. Or is it ? My reading of things is that Jan 1st is the beginning of Winter, the nourishing cycle, when bears hibernate to be nourished by the spring of life for 3 months, and only after that will the energy be accrued to spring into the beginning of the active season. But it's not good for business. Business dictates no rest periods and ferocious new buying and selling from Jan 1st. My take on things is that Western Society is constructed to funnel all the money into the pockets of a few thousand people at the top, and all our activities direction education and habits are socially engineered to facilitate this. Of course a few middle men organise it all. I was once invited to a fancy dinner party in a mansion in Hampstead a fancy part of London, where a Singaporean banker was giving a meal ... a friend of a friend. He was making a packet in a bank in the City of London. He told us that he had just had a strange meeting with some gentlemen from Switzerland who offered him a Universal Concierge Service which would not only help you avoid tax on your earnings, but "help out" with any troublesome ex-wives or girlfriends, and also a black credit card with no marks on it. So you see how people queue up to facilitate you when you are rich. We are also told that rich people are great .... when often it seems they are not, few are really self made , many are fools with a string of silly ex-wives. The Social Engineering of our "values" meets with opposition on all sides, and to force what is unnatural down the throats of people, laws are even made to prevent their complaints. So, I think I'll have in a lie-in on New Years Day.

It seems to me that for many people they live this world with little learnt, and so if they arrive in another world why would it be different that this one? Even if you ascend to something higher it is likely to not be much higher at all, possibly even lower. Going somewhere higher you would thrown in jail for being insane. You are were you deserve to be. So ... just a little spirituality, might not be of that much use. Better to try and really progress and not waste time.

I noticed today that I began worrying about something that I had no real need to worry about. And I wonder if society is programming itself to do that - is the technology that we are making actually needed, or only needed to fix things we worry about. And why do we worry ? Isn't it a waste of time. ? Another thing is that we are meant to live and going forwards have experiences that can heal things .... but we don't go forward then we are left with no material to grow from, and so we can dig into the past and worry which is a lower way of having material to work on. So I think it is worth the LoA idea to walk into new situations that seem "exciting" as a means to live properly. It's worthy trying. Perhaps that is what happiness is ? Fixing problems involves making problems, worrying about problems and maybe this is creating the 10,000 things. Be happy instead ? It had also dawned on me that those therapies that are visible are the ones that don't work, because the one's that do work run out of customers, because the customers are fixed and go home. The ones that fail to fix things keep going on and on and on, and are a visible. So ... what about meditation then ? Or healing childhood wounds ? Were does that fit into the excitement equation ?

I have a Mathematics degree and am an Engineer and studied all the sciences. So what is it I am getting at ? I get the distinct feeling that all scientific breakthroughs are done through intuition and that's really how intelligence works intuitively. What the ordinary "science"-job people do is sort of push beans around after someone makes a breakthrough. And that's actually a kind of slavery, and a misuse of the mind. The mind should be intuitive, like a musician hearing the notes in the air and writing them down as music. "Science" is a great story on TV these days, on the news and all that. People make money from it. It's like the next episode of Dallas or something, but it's just a deceit. All true science worth the name is intuitive. The Science industry is a group of hanger-alongers who just want a steady job and the prestige of being associated with great intuitive geniuses who they have nothing whatsoever to do with. They are more like accountants. If we are to be scientific we should want to be intuitive, intuiting the truth of the world ourselves. Not keeping up with the latest episode that the accounts-who-wish-to-be-associated-with-Einstein put out. Is it possible to actually see out of your eyes when you have be so programmed and brainwashed to see atoms and molecules and godknowswhat. It's hard to actually see straight with so many idiots falling over themselves to tell you what you are seeing (in order to cover up that they are just accountants). You wanna know what I see out of my eyes ?

Where does romantic love come from ? It comes from Hollywood movies, and we watch these emotions on the movies and recreate them, and it's actually not real emotions, they are like too bright too fluorescent. ( my understanding that it is actually the sex energy that is being redirected into emotions to give them the ultra-violet feeling of the movies ) It is exactly like sugar the supermarkets put into all the food to give it a high octane ultra-taste. It is fake, dirty, and degenerative. We are taught by some traditions to discard this rubbish, and that is correct. But underneath are real emotions, that come from inside, that are true; but how many have ever felt them ? I was just watching thich nhat hanh, but I don't like the shaving of the head, the shaving of the food, the shaving of the emotions. This is really ugly, and comes from lack of intelligence, he is a very nice man and may be enlightened but not intelligent. The Buddhists in Tibet they went into a kind of tomb and lived their being fed from the outside until they stopped eating when the next man dragged the body out and took his place. Such incredible ugliness and desperation and stupidity. It's very sad but also tells a story about the true state of human beings and their spirituality. It's just that our society is deeply corrupt so we wish to renounce it all, and we should renounce what is corrupt. And then life can live again, with all its true feelings that are barely known. Truth is not asexual or a-emotional, it is just true and all the functions and faculties exist in that truth, and the world is changed and calm.

The feelings of the crowd are fake and false, underneath the drinking and debauchery is happiness ? No. So Daotism points to the truth of the situation, the truth is that in ignorance and poor teaching they do not know themselves. Daoism points to knowing the truth of yourself inside and also of the outside. So it does not necessarily dissuade you any emotions ultimately, as long as they are real - but for the crowd knowing a true emotion is a long way away. Daoism like the story above of the Cutting Up an Ox, shows clearly that the true feelings are true and good, you are in harmony, but it is not "exciting", it is true. Daoism represents deep current at the bottom of the ocean, for those who wish to live at the bottom of the oceans depths in the fertile valley at the base of all existence. Bashar is more emotional than Daoism, but still I appreciate him, especially here.

What the people end up doing is a natural result of how they are taught, and they are taught badly .... so don't you do the same. You must understand the right way to live, if your teachers had been teaching right. Why are the rulers doing bad things .... this isn't explained. Why do people laugh and sing and drink ... when inside they are suffering, they are sad, they are tearful. Why do rulers try to do big things, to talk about big talks, always a great bold bright amazing future .... the more they say it, the more they are suffering inside, they try to carry on their distraction one more time. Such pain inside. What happens in the big people happens in the small people, we must be kind and feel their hearts though they do not feel them themselves. Will either the big or the small people remember ? The small hope for the big to remember, the big hope for the small to remember. Do you remember ? Will you live through remembrance ? The rulers are meant to teach us, and they teach us very much .... if we have eyes to see and ears to hear, they can teach us all the lessons we need to learn, and when we respond with understanding then we return to the course and we are grateful. Our oars are straight and our stroke is true, we sense dawn just beyond the horizon and steer for it.

75 Gia Fu Feng Why are the people starving? Because the rulers eat up the money in taxes. Therefore the people are starving. Why are the people rebellious? Because the rulers interfere too much. Therefore they are rebellious. Why do the people think so little of death? Because the rulers demand too much of life. Therefore the people take death lightly. Having little to live on, one knows better than to value life too much.

We are at the mercy of what we can feel to be good. If we cannot feel something to be good then how could we choose it ? For us to say something is good even Tao we must feel it as good. You talk of the crowd and their feelings, but I am not, the crowd when it feels excited is actually feeling pain, but they are not aware of it. They feel shock and terror and deep suffering, but they imagine they feel excitement and so their nightmare continues. I have spent decades in that nightmare and nobody could have convinced me otherwise. The invocation that is suggested ... its significance is to help you understand what you are feeling, so you consider if you enjoy what you are doing. Do you actually enjoy it ? What is it that you would prefer to do ? It seems so obvious. But when you begin to look inside perhaps you see that "you do what you hate" (Jesus). So, then what should I do ? How can I choose ? Try to feel what is around you, what are you "excited" (meaning naturally easily uplifted) by. The Tao is a deeper feeling, a truer realer feeling. Spiritual feelings are deep currents, deep water. But then there is another question ... if humans are actually blind to their real feelings ... perhaps it is possible to live as a human holy life ... just by recognizing what you actually like; perhaps there is not so much need to go deep under the ocean ?

“True, there are sometimes Tough joints. I feel them coming, I slow down, I watch closely, Hold back, barely move the blade, And whump! the part falls away Landing like a clod of earth. “Then I withdraw the blade, I stand still And let the joy of the work Sink in. I clean the blade And put it away.” As I have tried to understand what is meant by acting on excitement, first you have to remove all the coarse feelings; and then choose which feeling is most true-real-exciting. It is quite unfamiliar to consider as I am used to automatically engaging with things that make me feel not very happy, as I have been taught, and as most people seem to be doing. The word excitement is used to try and help people understand what to look for, but ultimately it is not meant in a coarse way.

When someone says "if that works for you" ... maybe it's not 100% sincere. And what's wrong with feeling good when you help someone ? I think mankind has become very confused about things. If it's a pain in the ass maybe you are doing it wrong; and does it help others if you hate what you are doing ? We have to return to seeing being happy as our goal, and not "helping" each other in a dependent way. If your cup spilleth over then you have some to share (after your cup is full of course) and that's just natural.