Songtsan

Also, don't sleep with any pressure on your privates, or as little as possible. Erections happen all night long, and any excess pressure can cause ejaculation, given the increased sensitivity of the tissue during sublimatory practices. I think the supine position is the most favorable myself.

For all things must change Even the things that don't change Like laws of nature

Progressive exposure therapy? Open eye calm abiding meditation? Group meditation?

and now I am out strut and shout, celibrate some then get back to work

Is ingesting poisons, in their various forms (poison people, places, things, drugs, venoms, bad foods, etc.), the fast track? Can you learn the quickest by going through hell? I have been unconsciously doing this all my life, and now I wonder if I should step up my game....Thinking of taking in small amounts of poisons (rattlesnake venom, black widow venom, arsenic, and more - in a controlled researched fashion) to strengthen myself. Anyone here have experience with this?

Toxic people can produce the same results. When you hang out in toxic situations, or with toxic people for long periods of time, then hang out with more peaceful situations/beings, you can appreciate them better than ever before. Its playing the extreme lows to get to extreme highs. However, I mainly want to explore the healing benefits of certain substances for certain disorders....also delimit all fears. Find the beauty in the ugly to escape Samsaric delusions. I am reminded of certain yogis, who not only hang out in charnel grounds, but also garbage dumps, places of toxic environment, and transcend them. Supposedly, according to certain yogis, like Yogananda, there are avadhutas who can smear themselves with feces, and smell like roses...they transmute the substances around them through their Samadhis. Everything is made of water, for the most part. I think of 'Chi of Love' type of studies, wherein molecules are spun into different arrangements through alchemy

http://ngm.nationalgeographic.com/2013/02/125-venom/holland-text http://www.reptilegardens.com/reptiles/snakes/venomous/snake-venom.php http://www.amnh.org/explore/news-blogs/on-exhibit-posts/the-power-of-poison-poison-as-medicine http://discovermagazine.com/2015/april/00-poison-medicine

I feel like I am being fed off of. By throat chakra always feels weird, and my other bodies feel funny, and of course there are always intrusive thought insertions. Should I use mantras?

They speak of risk/benefit profiles when analyzing drugs. One of the 'poisons' I wish to try is scopalamine, of Datura/Jimsonweed fame. Has been shown to be very efficacious in the treatment of depression lately, as well as its more common medical use in motion sickness treatment. Then there is the aforementioned spider venoms, arsenic, CO2 use as hallucinogen (increase CO2 levels, while maintaining adequate O2 levels), and a few others. Die the little death, to simply live.

I've read the last one before. Can't successfully download the other ones on my phone...

I always feel the most optimistic and clear headed after having been deeply sick and feverish. I only get sick like that every few years. I once entered a baby hot pepper eating contest with a Laotian friend of mine. He won, but I swear I learned something through the experience about suffering....I am not one of those ascetics who would walk around with an arm up over my head for years until it becomes shrunken and twisted. I just like to enter smaller poisons, that resolve quickly, and always do my research. Like Wim Hoff's method, based on g'tummo, exposing yourself to hardships will help, if it is done carefully within the yellow or orange zone, not the red, with foreknowledge of how to do it, and application of tried and true systems. Not going to do anything without studying it first. One could say that exercise is a poison. Those who overdo it, overuse their bodies, and die sooner than they would have otherwise. It is important to take egoistic desires out of the equation. I aim to poison myself to extend my lifespan. But this is obviously not something I take lightly.

One thing I have been doing, to transcend form and causation, is learning to love all forms. In practicing the poison path, I learn to love poison, transcend its' label that I carry as poison, and move on....

One of these moons I will stop my entheogen use. Been fairly steady with it for a while. I am a project, but also know that my time to depend on nothing is at hand.

Any and all emotions, desire, cravings....but I know how not to be affected....just wanted to see others views....its more complex than that, but I am project oriented lately...

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I asked my old Sifu Kurtis Goodwin about the Poison Path, which he has undertaken to some extent, and he recommended speaking to a Chinese herbalogist to steer me in the right direction. I have probably been poisoning my body to a significant extent, with all my drug use anyways. However, I did run into an interesting cure regarding ingesting tarantulas and wolf spiders, which is weird because it happened randomly after I caught a huge mother wolf spider....it is supposed to help cure: restless leg syndrome, mental and physical restlessness, mood swings, heart complaints, hyperactivity, impatience, manipulative behavior, workaholicism, and vertigo.....the synchronicity of it is amazing, because I received a bunch of books from a friend, one of which just fell open to the page with the spider cure, and I just found the wolf spider about two weeks ago, and had been considering eating it to reduce my fear of spiders

Yeah, my perfectionism beats me to the ground, and is shortening my life. Its a weird addiction related to suicidal tendencies. I'm. Sorry to myself. Mamas don't let your babies grow up to be Narcissists.

Wow! great knowledge!

Although really, that's not true. I am always meditating 24/7....I have a background intent constantly running to improve improve improve. Sometimes too eagerly.

I am a Mahamudra junkie lately oi oi!

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I've started vectoring Djinn into other people and they are as wild as I am...there are many escaping thought constructs leaving me and entering people around me who are susceptible, and some of them are nasty constructs who think they are Satan's angels, or worse. Shaktipat abilities confirmed, and very uncontrolled. I didnt know what I was doing, and no master has picked me up, so now crazy things are starting to happen around me. This is my own fault, for not following the rules....for thinking I could figure it out by myself..... I think that I didnt believe I was affecting the real world. I thought it was all in my head. I didn't realize. I am sorry. I should be caged in an ashram somewhere and subsumed into a path. Otherwise, I will create misery chains....

What I want to know is how to alchemically do this: Be able to have sex and come multiple times like a rockstar and keep on going like it was nothing. Some people seem to have been born with this gift. They learned it somehow through other lives, and were born into the right families. I want to break the system into pieces.....if everything is energy, why does form matter...this is a topic for another thread of course. But it relates like this: To me, ejaculation/orgasm are poison. They seem to weaken me. I want to transmute this lead into gold so that I can be free.

Milk (whatever type you like) Oils (fish, olive, flax, or what have you) Nuts (or nut butters) Powders (protein, cayenne, ginger, spirulina, chlorella, etc. -Basically anything you want...see the list of supplements I take in my other thread, 'what supplements do you take') Fiber (I like psyllium) Chia seeds Ground flax Frozen fruit -prepare a weeks or more powders-mix and store in mason jars, determine your ideal amount of ingredients based on calories, macro nutrient ratios ahead of time...dial it all in and it is the quickest, easiest meal for those who don't like to cook...I've went months living on smoothies alone and felt great...