I've accused myself and been accused by others as being a Taoist... I have a trouble with this since I usually have trouble identifying with a religion or even a philosophy. In searching for information on Taoism... in myself, or from my unsuccessful quest to consult others - all I end up with are more questions.
I've read a few translations of the Tao Te Ching a few other writings... and enjoy and identify with what I have read.
I suppose a large appeal is that in questioning most of what I have read and a propensity to take what I feel fits and discard the rest is a pretty Taoist way of looking at Taoism.
I've spent plenty of years hangin' with the Christians, esp. Catholics, have also spent some time researching Buddhism and have researched a few Western philosophers.
But... I am riddled with doubt about myself. I get it, the label doesn't really matter... but lately I've felt pretty lost - shaken in confidence after a series of unfortunate events. While the conditions under which these events have occurred have improved, diminished or been eliminated - and their effects are gone. Except I seem to lack the ability to get back to my normal, optimistic self. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. So, I guess I am looking for a label to focus on and to start moving forward from the abyss.
Here are some broadnesses about me that may shed some light:
I am obsessed with contradictions and compliments... I take great pleasure in trying to understand something by focusing on its opposite. This works for me - I am a mathematician.
While I am open-minded in most things - there are many topics that I am completely closed-minded in. This also works for me - I am an active duty member of the US military.
I like following silly maxims... at least silly to everyone else - but they really motivate me:
I don't believe in fate, fortune, luck or divine providence: I am the master of my own destiny (totally fun to say I don't believe in fate but then talk about destiny).
When doing, assure its better than if you were not doing.
I also get a thrill out of making up new words to describe ideas or using inappropriate words... it gets the grammar Nazis wound up... but heck, I can't out English them but I did trick them into thinking on my terms for a little bit.
So... I suppose I am here to look into a few topics:
Can my half-assed take on Taoism be Tao?
What are some other's views on Taoism as it relates to confidence, resilience, happiness and motivation?
Anyway - I appreciate any thoughts!