seasideshaman
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Hi everybody, im a twenty-something from England who had a kundalini experience a couple of years ago and i'm looking to get into qi gong to learn how to start up and manage the energy .
I wouldn't say I'm new but in this field would regard myself as completely inexperienced. Any good ideas on where to start?
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Sure. It all started back in 2006, I was at uni helping out some friends over the summer with a few film-making projects, stuntman, runner and driver. At this time I was smoking a lot of weed and had just been introduced to MDMA. I remember my first trip being rather introspective, whereas everybody else was very outwardly manifested, I was very quiet and for some reason began to focus my attention on how I had reached this point in life, and how I felt greatfull for all the bad things in the past that had happened to me. Had they not happened, I would not be here and my path would have been different. At that moment, something changed, snapped, twigged. I was free. I don't know if I would describe the sensation as lighter, looking back now it was so intangible but I just knew it. I discovered an interest in meditation and would sit down and be absorbed for hours, my libido was there but I felt no desire to use it. No porn, no sex, no masturbating, I just did not feel the need. I was truly happy.
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One day I was smoking some pot and I felt a massive heat stirring in mah loins, I laid down on the bed quite curiously, and the next thing I knew a bolt of lightning went straight up into my brain and I exploded into an infinity of light. After coming down I knew I was different, I felt like Jesus or Buddha in some kind of emancipation. Bliss.
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However it was not to last, I tried recreating the feeling (lord knows why, couldnt I just be happy?) and masturbated. As I ejaculated, I saw what looked like golden sparks coming off my aura, and that was it. Gone. I remember watching some tv with friends, a huge eye came out of the set and looked at me, and then the yin/yang symbol came up and was ripped apart. That night I was in bed, and heard voices coming from behind me. It announced its name as Satan here for my soul, at which point I just... fucking lost it you know. I thought I was going insane, but not really having time to reflect on it as now I was fighting a red mist that was enveloping my consciousness. I eventually grew so tired I just gave up, at that point I found myself floating in a pool of some description, with a female voice and a flower over me telling other beings to back off.
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Since then its been a weird ride, I'm kind of just at the point now where I feel I've grounded myself enough and stabilised enough to go about searching for the truth of what happened.
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So, anybody have any tips?
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Obviously the number one is... lay off the drugs. And I have done. Very very very occasionally (once every 6 months) I'll have a tiny zoot on a toot but thats it.