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Already writing a book myself. Basically taking all scientific evidence and personal accounts of chemicals and other harmful things that occur in food i can find and putting it in one book. It will be free, and a constant work in progress that i update whenever new information is discovered. If anyone wants to get a pdf when i have finished a first draft, or compare notes shoot me a PM

Ever since the rains came this year, I have been in pain. The soles of my feet feel like someone has beaten them with a pipe. That makes it very hard for me to sink and root as I am going about my day. It makes everything rise up and tighten.

Try going barefoot more frequently than just your practice time (if you even take off your shoes for that) Some wont agree with me in terms of conserving energy but it definitely helps foot pain and dissipates stress for me.

looking over at the screen, my boyfriend read this as "importance of posture during masturbation"

lawl

i personally think its just a gateway to the spiritual aspects, and that if just the exercise part is practiced diligently the spiritual path will open on its own whether you were seeking it or not. Seeing as how that's exactly what happened to me and all

perfect example of how one person can be a dick, not how a group of people are all like that person.

There is christian death metal you know

plus more love, less porn

what if my idea of love doesn't really involve sex? i have trouble relating the two. To me, love is snuggling and being together and whatnot and sex is...a way to relieve pressure

the pit of what? being an angry person? having a life ruled by hatred? Are you saying a person can't listen to metal and laugh it off as not being serious? i think its incredibly enjoyable on the level of humor. It isn't taking my life. demons don't have my soul. i don't want to kill or hurt anybody

and lets just forget all the metal that is anti violence and talk about growing up in a violent home and how shitty it was. Its just people expressing their perfectly normal human emotions. and you are being a nazi.

actually yeh probably too personal

How's this for personal?

Last night i dreamed i was being given a tour around a brothel for old asian people

no, i meant things sort themselves out as in nothing that happens ever actually matters. Basically i'm telling you to "get over it"

lawl

I wish for goodwill to all

Goodwill has a sale at every store location, 50% off!

i wish that the next persons wish is un - corruptable

a mudra i spontaneously did that seems to help when i am trying to control my anger is extremely close to the devil horns hand sign that metalheads throw up. i like to think that things sort themselves out

well i should have added this from the beginning, but my situation is more complicated than repressing or not repressing.

since doing spiritual stuff, i have almost completely lost my sex drive. i have a partner, and he has i don't know....i want to say a more natural sex drive. if i have sex, i get tired. i definitely get a lot more tired if i j/o so i don't do that. But sometimes i have to use porn to even get me going enough to want to have sex :/ i want to be sexually active with my partner, but if the moment of intimacy just happens, i am never in the mood. If i want to be in the mood, i literally have to prepare myself for hours by looking at porn or fantasizing. When i am purely abstaining, i don't think about sex at all. But then i want to be sexual, so i encourage it and i go overboard. Don't know what to do...

cool story bro

Deer and crane spreads its wings like malik and george said. And stop lucid dreaming for now until you get a better handle on your desires. If you're practicing the kunlun stuff it has a tendency to amplify desires, so keep your awareness, if you are going to be cultivating you cant be letting your desires get the better of you.

yeah the lucid dreaming technique i was using was pushing blood into my head. sometimes increased bloodflow to my brain just happens, those nights being the ones where i have a crazy or sexual dream

i took a small amount of colloidal silver given to me by a friend who has taken it for a really long time and after a week it made my teeth hurt really bad. i think it was killing beneficial bacteria in my mouth :/

wow, so they only took it for 24 days and they died at the highest age they possibly could? i might try this stuff, especially if its only a 1 time purchase to reap the benefit

yeah not worrying about it has been the biggest aid for me already, was just wondering if there is anything else i could do

hmm, yes. it has been happening more since i have been wearing pajama pants to bed.

why does it have to be so damn cold?! i live in the desert! there are cactuses right outside!

Anyone got any advice on how to not have them? i love lucid dreaming, but whenever i get into a semi lucid one it turns to sex. i wish i could get back in control of my sleep world :/

The way we charge doesn't help, members pay £3.00 a class non-members £5.00 and only when they attend.

Were we to charge a set fee for a course along the lines of gym membership I've always suspected that might help but it's always been centre policy to charge per class for everything that happens there.

the reason i can't find an instructor in my town is because almost all of them charge a monthly fee that i can't afford. Definitely keep doing charge per class! Maybe give a discount for pay for a month, that might encourage some to commit. They might be the ones that would already commit though

Edit - Also, i practice 1-1.5 hours a day. Every day with the only exception being rare occasions where i have to get up crazy early

Yeah, when saying fuck it is important to say it in equanimity as opposed to frustration. Huge difference there. If you let the thing that's bothering you get to you in any way you are defeating the point

aww man, i was interested in this thread too

Well for starters you start closing off your chest and your breathing becomes shallow, which can lead to all sorts of bad feelings