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  1. I believe that we're here on earth to change ourselves for better.

     

    I used to be a cheater. Now I'm a very faithful person. I'd rather die than cheating now.

     

    I had a death experience (not near death). I can't describe what happened. Basically I died. All my wrong doings came back to me. I was in hell for a few days.

     

    Please keep an open mind and have compassion for those who don't know.


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    In short, what you are saying is, it is selfish of me to want to evolve and enlighten myself and get myself out of this world of suffering while other people are too lazy and too addicted to their material desires/suffering/happiness to get themselves out of this world of suffering. How crazy is this statement of yours? The majority of the human race do not have the strength to pull themselves out of their own problems so I have to suffer like the rest in order to be unselfish? I have to be as stupid and weak as the rest of humanity so as to be unselfish?

     

     

    I used to have similar line of thinking until I had my first self-realization, which was accompanied by bliss and oneness. I genuiely felt every body is part of me, every animal and every thing in the universe. I kind of felt the true enlightenment was only possible if every one on earth was enlightened.

     

    It's good that you have passion and desire. Please keep an open mind. I'm sure you'll be successful.


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    Once you tasted a bit of the Sun, you will never have any desires for sparks again. I tasted a bit of the Sun a year ago, just a bit and even that bit brings me so much more happiness and bliss than any spark of happiness which has ever happened before to me in my life.

     

    No sexual orgasms which I ever had before in my life comes even remotely close to the brief moments of God realization which I experienced. As long as I can't achieve permanent God Realization now, I will always be depressed. All I seek now is endless eternal bliss. Yes this is all which I seek.

     

    My friend, I have similar prolbem. I have depression now.

     

    I have tasted the bliss. I don't what kind of bliss that you have experienced. I assume they're from the same source.

     

    However I don't know the pursuit of bliss is the correct path. It sounds like an addiction and very selfish. Shouldn't we be thinking what we can do to help others? I think every kind word and deed are manifestation of God.

     

    Be rid of one's ego is the buddhaist path. The emphasis of I want bliss may be counter productive.

     

    I'm struggle with the concept too. I hope we can help each other on the search.


  4. It's extremely hard to "let go" when dealing with feelings of sexual sensations. I would start feeling some pleasure, and no matter how much i try to be mindful of the present, i would always find myself longing and craving for the pleasure to be stronger.

     

    I think if i could successfully let go of my cravings and stay in the present despite feeling such strong sexual feelings, my mindfulness muscle would be a lot stronger and i'd be closer to true enlightenment. you guys agree?

     

    I don't think that's how Aneros works. It should help you to intensify the pleasure "feeling" and trasmit the "feeling" to every part of your body and organs until you have a whole body orgasm.

     

    It's not a tool to test your will against lust. The Aneros forum has tons of useful information about it usage. Some of the members have oneness and universal love experiences. They're a loving bunch.


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    I haven't been able to practice for the past few weeks, and I live in a constant state of severe anxiety. This is because I'm starting to hallucinate, in a sense and it won't stop.

     

    What's happening is that I very clearly hear music in my mind (not ears). I can't suppress the music. I even hear it in my sleep

     

    There is a branch of meditation method called inner sound. Their main practice is to hear the "music" inside. The theory is that soul is vibrating/singing a wonderful music. Only your heart can hear it if you open the channel. Once you hear it, you immerse your whole body to the music, so every cell inside your body sings the same "song" or vibrates in synch.

     

    My knowledge of inner sound is purely academic. You should find an inner sound practioner to figure out what to do.

     

    It's a gift that you souldn't waste. Some people spend years trying to hear the music.

     

    I don't think it presents real damage except involking your fear of unknown.

     

    Remember love conquers all. Love is the most powerful energy. With puer love in your heart, you might find it's the most beautiful music out of this world. Again, it's just a theory and stories that I've heard.


  6. Not to be rude, but are you sure that making things appear\disappear - that only you could see - wasnt your mind playing tricks on you?

     

     

    By the same definition, then whatever you see is your mind playing tricks on you. One purpose of meditation is to "view" things correctly without the "trick".

     

    One of the main theme in Buddha is emptyness. The "real" world you "see" is an illusion. That's the first step. The next is to influence other to "see" whatever you want them to "see". Jesus sure knew how to do it.


  7. Thanks.

     

    I practiced kudanlini from a book Kundalini Tantra by Swami Satyananda Saraswati.

     

    The Taoist book was Taoist Yoga: Alchemy & Immortality. It contains a very unique technique (at least to me).

     

    I was lucky to get out alive without serious damage. I don't advice anyone to practice without a true master to guide.


  8. Sorry if these questions seems stupid or something, but as my nickname imply im a total newbie and want to know what im in for.

     

     

    Be very very careful with kundalini awakening. I was hospitalled twice due to unrully kundalini awakening.

     

    The world is a like a reality TV that I can switch channel to see different view of the same thing. I could make thing appear and disapear (only I could see the result unfortunately).

     

    I'd suggest you to open your energy channel to ground you first before playing kundalini force.


  9. Hello,

     

    After a few month of practice kudanlini yoga and some taoist practice that I got from a book, I had my first self-realization.

     

    It's very obviously to me that we're programs inside "Matrix" controlled by God. I don't think there is "human" body outside of matrix as battery. We're pure programs.

     

    I hope to meet a few follow programmers to discuss the way to inspect a grogram (our true self) inside a program (our body) by a program (earth plane self).