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I recently found out that I've got nimitta, the mental sign.

During meditation, I open my eyes look over my nose for a while, I can see a ball bundle of very faint white threads. They gradually become more and more dense. The color appears to be golden.

It feels like the light come from my third eye like a mini flash light (not a powerful one). I can project the nimitta on the ground, on a wall or other place. I have to move my head slowly for the nimitta to follow my movement or it stays in the old spot.

My question is what to do with it?

Can you post your personal experiences please? I don't care much about book recommendation mainly I don't know much about Jhanas and I don't have time to go through the terminoligy of various buddhist books.

All grains, incidentally, are perceived by the body in this manner.

Are you sure about this? When I chew on grain product, a fresh loaf of bread for example, I taste sweetness. The scientific explaination is the enzyme help broke down the starch. Are you saying I have an addiction?

Have you tried to self-massage that area daily?

If you haven't read it yet, I strongly recommend this article: https://sites.google.com/site/delawareteasociety/yoked-to-earth-a-treatise-on-corpse-demons-and-bigu

I won't trust that article. It can't even get the translation of "bigu" right.

I assume you can't read Chinese. I apologize if I'm wrong.

Yes and no.

 

Bigu actually means "stop the grains" and some took it very seriously.

Not really, "Bigu" means close the "valley", not "avoid the grain".

The translation is to "close the door", no more guests. It has nothing to do with diet.

It's less about the pleasures and more about what is substantial or has substance. For me it's when i am connected to spirit. When i am in true alignment with my purpose and carrying out what the universe destined for me to do.

dude you really don't see that all this spiritual fulfillment is still just your brain giving you pleasure? everything comes down to pleasure.

Exactly. Everything is empty anyway. We assign meanings to some stuff that we make up.

There is no inherent difference between body/mind/spirit, we just organize the stuff that way for stability and convenience.

Enjoy food and sex is no different than enjoy "what the universe destined for me to do", whatever it is.

Thanks for the condolences hydrogen...it's my Uncle and Aunt and no. Why?

Sorry, you have to bear the burden at such young age. What's wrong with the relationship? Do they have other kids?

However, in the old day, a 19 years old could have seen the cruety of many battles during the wars. Everything is relative.

I'm sure you're a capable young man, you'll find happiness.

I'm certainly not opposed to the enjoyment of food as that is part of our natural emotion pertaining to any sort of consumption...enchanting music, purchasing your dream car, the sights of a curvaceous female.

 

It is only when those mundane pleasures become ones sole source of fulfillment. Thats when it becomes a problem...because physical pleasures are never truly "fulfilling."

The physical pleasures ALONE are never truly "fulfilling".

The mental pleasures ALONE are never truly "fulfilling".

The spiritual pleasures ALONE are never truly "fulfilling".

Where is the balance, the center, the one point around it everything revolves? One has to find for himself only.

An interesting note, in Chinese the "middle point" is the same pronunciation as "destiny".

So long we can eat at the same table and have fun talking with each other, I don't care whether you enjoy your food, or enjoy your will power of eating not-enjoyable food. I don't care what you eat either so long it's not overly disgusting thing like monkey brain or dog leg.

Feel being loved and accepted is a good grounding tool for me.

The theory says that you can find that inisde yourself, and that's all there is.

Before one reaches that stage, regular folks like us need more solid connection.

I'm sorry about your parents. Who's your guardian now? Do you have good relationship with your guardian?

My home is expected to last a lifetime and if it doesn't, I have insurance coverage for its destruction by fire, earthquake and flood. My bank is expected to last a lifetime and if it should go bust, I have taken care to stash enough money in other banks. My money is expected to last a lifetime and should it lose its value completely in a global economic collapse, I have other assets to keep me going.

 

How do I die?

First, you need to figure out what is "I"? If one doesn't even know who "I am", one doesn't even know who died.

I don't know who "I am", don't ask me.

Searching for past life is fun and interesting. It's a good entertainment.

However I don't know its usefulness as cultivation tool.

One can just look at his present life honestly to figure out what happend in his past life. It's a mirror image. The same pattern keeps repeatign itself until you correct your own internal thinking.

One morning, shortly after my realization, an "entity" who looked exactly like me told me that he's my twin, and there were just him and me. Without him, I'd be utterly alone by myself.

I told him to go away and I'd take my chance. I haven't seen him since.

When the tongue is resting behind the lower teeth and you smile the tip of the tongue comes to rest in a relaxed way behind the sinus at the upper teeth. Smiling with the chin tucked increases this and stretch muscles that open the back of the head, crown and even forehead. Blood flow to those areas has to increase as muscles develope? If so, then blood carrying enzymes can disolve adhesions in the places where water is moving? If the ideal is to open the skull and unenlightenment means that light is not getting in then the places where blood, air or water travel might be blocked. If light is channeled thru the movement of water, then maybe articulation of the skull by muscles is important? I read the constituants of spinal water and see that one of them is phosphorus that absorbs black light? The tongue articulates the tail bone.. I mean if smiling bridges the gap and developes muscles that are under used, then the skull would articluate properly with the tailbone and set free the serpent energy. I wonder how much of the musculature of the skull is active in a full smile? Maybe enlightenment is somthing so very simple it is easy to overlook ..like forgetting to :-)

Yep. The mystery of mona lisa smile. Mabye it's really a alchemy secret. Just keep smiling, eventually you're be enlighted.

Something tells me you're not referring to the type of girls/women of the American Dove Bar ad capaign.

I don't know what body type of girls that TI saw during his meditation. TI can answer the question better.

My guess they were not t Dove bar Ad girls for TI saw NAKED girls while the dvoe girls have thong and bra on.

You are on the right track. Vajrayana sexual practices are better than meditation.

 

http://www.dharmawheel.net/viewtopic.php?f=40&t=4704&sid=9170ac65f35ea34dd1e72f1cc7d92061

I appreciate TI's effort to write down his personal expereiences. I think I should do that more.

I'll check into Vajrayana sexual practice. Thanks for the link.

Would you like to share your personal meditation experiences as well?

All parents are witches of a sort and, for the most part unknowingly, curse their children. It's just the nature of having kids when you're not yourself a fully conscious, realized human being. All the unworked through issues and unconscious complexes of the parents inevitably and automatically get dumped in the lap of the unsuspecting offspring.

Very ture. It's in the DNA that we get from our parents and their parents..... It's not their fault either. We have to forgive and help them.

Every curse is a blessing and v.s.

It seems that speaking in tongue help invoking kundalini energy. The tongue stimulates the palate.

The whole mystery of universe is inside human body.

Well, Sifu Jenny has confirmed that I do indeed have an entity that needs to be removed.

 

I'm so torn right now, because I cannot afford to fly down and have it removed.

 

At the same time, I was advised not to do any qigong or energy work, as it will simply feed the entity.

If the only tool you have is a hammer, then every problem is a nail.

That's why I don't like the "entity" model.

CC555, you don't have an entity regardless what Sufi Jenny told you what she believed was "true".

I am not sure I can help but just want to point out that with normal individuals, dreams are very, very symbolic. If you have certain high degree of cultivation as well as psychic ability, dreams can be both symbolic and per-cognitive. Unfortunately, it is very hard to distinguish them. I say start by the "feeling" you get from your dreams first and to work from there.

Isn't our "real" life very, very symbolic as well?

I did lucid dream for a while. I abused my ability there. I hope the dreamland will give me another chance soon.

An interesting story to share, V.

Is your mind clinging to this accomplishment? The mind has a tendency to do this, that's its nature.

 

I would just keep practicing and ignore this experience.

Some people just like to play the grand master.

TI, nice experience!!! But I still like your naked girls experience better.

I hope rebellion teenagers would out grow "hate-everything-in-existence" phase soon.

Cover up. I don't want to see your body.

There are those who live very well by intuition. They escape the mental clutter of- what should I do now, what is all the evidence?. They trust their gut, live in peace and make smart decisions. Its a good trick, not every can do it. Some fool themselves, live by intuition and repeatedly have bad outcomes.

I hate arguement like that. Have they learnd any language? Then they don't live by intuition ONLY?

Lets be "real" here.

We are all Slaves to our Minds, Egos and The System.

How could I know that this above statement was not a "slaved" statement under the control of your "mind, ego and system"?