Saturday, Jan 19 2008 Tibetan Ice
I did the Kunlun practice for five days and then quit for a breather yesterday. I was also performing spinal breathing and silence mantra meditation (i am - AYP) but at different times of the day. I have been performing the spinal breathing and deep silence meditation twice a day now for 2 months. Before that, I was performing chakra meditation, sometimes with crystals.
On Friday Jan 18, 2008, during my morning meditation, the cave inside my head, where a great body of water exists, was still very dark. I noticed this cave inside my head a couple weeks ago during Samyama (an AYP practice). When I would release a sutra, a drop of something was released into a large still body of water by this large hand that appeared in there a while ago. I would watch the ripples that the sutra droplet would cause, patiently waiting until the ripples would vanish before releasing the next sutra. The cave and the body of water were somewhat small and dark, or so they seemed. After Samyama, I kept focusing on the cave and the body of water. I wanted to explore the cave. I asked the large hand to go away and it did.
I started looking around the cave and it was very dark. I could not see much. I thought that it would be nice to have more light. Suddenly, several white pulses of light appeared in the water as waves under the surface, coming towards me. The next thing I knew, the cave became brighter and a big yellow sun started to rise on the horizon. The sun slowly ascended into the sky. At first there were a few clouds but they soon disappeared. The sun rose until it was about 40 degrees in the sky and stopped there. I was not in a cave, but some mysterious 'planet' of water, sun and sky! This was inside my head? I also noticed that 'I' or at least a dark body was sitting cross-legged and floating just above the water, staring at the sun. I went and sat next to it, hovering above the water, to check it out. It seemed relatively benign, sort of like an empty shell. I then transferred my attention to the inside of the dark body and watched the sun from within. It was soothing, nice and warm. I could put myself into the dark body or fly my attention around the dark body, looking about. All I could see was the dark body, a perfectly still ocean of water with no land, the sky and the big yellow sun.
I had to end my meditation and resume my daily activities. I noticed that the sun was a persistent image; it was there in my head throughout the day and was not going away. Persistent sun!
That afternoon, after getting home from work, I meditated again. I performed the spinal breathing (AYP) and then the "i am" meditation. I performed Samyama and then I focused on the sun. It was still there, nice, warm, relaxing, not doing too much.
During the day I had been reading about Reike Tummo, about how the heart is the centre and key to everything. In Reike Tummo, the first thing you do is learn to ground yourself to the earth, then pull down divine or cosmic energy from the sky and direct it into the earth through the sushumna (central spinal nerve). Lastly, the earth responds and sends its energy back to you, which you route through your sushumna up into the sky above through your celestial chakras.
That night, I decided to incorporate the Reike Tummo ideas into a kundalini meditation which I had learned a while ago. I grounded myself to the center of the earth with my red tail. (I have this red tail that is connected to my root chakra that flops around a lot, but it goes where I tell it to go when I think of it). Next, I envisioned cosmic or divine energy coming down from the heavens through all of the celestial chakras above the head, activating my crown chakra until it turned into a pool of liquid white light. I then proceeded to slowly take the liquid white light down through all my chakras, bathing them in white light, spinning them clockwise, taking the light all the way down to the centre of the earth. I kept this up for 30 minutes. Nothing eventful happened. I ended that part of the meditation and grounded myself.
Next, I went to the water sun and sky scene in my head and sat in the dark body for a while, watching the sun. It was very nice, calm, peaceful and warm.
As I ended the meditation I noticed a small bright white light starting to shine in my head, at about a 45 degree angle up from my forehead. This light was persistent. It did not go away, even when I was lying in bed before dozing off to sleep later that night. Now I had two persistent visions to watch; the sun sea and sky, and the little white light.
This morning, Jan 19, 2008, I woke up, and meditated for an hour. However, this time I decided to modify spinal breathing and the silence meditation, which I had been doing for two months. When I sat down to meditate, the little white light was still there, so I focused on it and it got brighter, more pronounced and gradually resembled a five pointed star. A persistent star! So, I grounded my red tail into the earth and proceeded with spinal breathing but with a twist.
Instead of taking the awareness from the root chakra to the brow and back down, I took red energy from the centre of the earth and brought it up through the spinal nerve right up into the five pointed star on the in-breath. Then, on the out-breath, I brought white light from the star, down through my brow chakra and the spinal nerve, down to the centre of the earth. Cosmic spinal breathing! I performed this for 15 minutes.
Next, I altered the "i am" meditation and instead of mentally repeating the mantra in my head, I felt it as spurts of love and desire to know god from my heart. I smiled a lot too. So, instead of repeating "i am", I felt "I send my love to God through my heart and would like to know God" and repeated the feeling over and over like a mantra from my heart. I was getting a lot of goose bumps and energy flows happening. I also felt pain at various locations in and around my heart like something was clearing. At one point, Jesus asked me what I was doing and I told him that I wanted to know God. (Jesus often appears to me in as an animated vision, I usually ask him questions and he shows me pictures of his hands performing actions or creating visions). Gradually, I could see what appeared to be massive amounts of scenes objects and things, in yellowish light but I couldn't make out much. It was just too compressed and packed. This meditation lasted 30 minutes. I ended the meditation and then focused on the sea, sky and sun scene.
The dark body was still there, floating above the water, facing the sun. However!!! The sun now had long rays coming out from it; long narrow petals of streaming yellow light. It almost looked like a sunflower with very skinny petals. One large ray of yellow light came out from the sun and pulled a white light body out of the hovering dark body and started swinging it back and forth, like a pendulum or a kite. So, I transferred my consciousness to the white light body and felt the motions swaying back and forth. Eventually, the beam of yellow light from the sun was drawing circle eights as a flight path for the white light body. It was a very nice feeling.
I finally closed the session down and grounded myself.
As the day progressed, I noticed that I had heat in my head and that I didn't feel normal. There was a pressure in my head. I was very spacey and felt very light and tingly. The sun sky water scene was still there along with the other scene with the star. I decided to do some banking and then bring a book to a female reiki healer that I had met several months ago who works in a crystal store.
As I was driving to the place where she worked I noticed that I could look at the street through my mind's eye! It looked very hazy, like flames of color! There was no detail, just wavy patterns that resembled fields of energy, sort of like the aura on a candle flame or infra red video. I parked the car and went in to talk to Jane (that's not her real name).
After recounting my experiences meditating to her, I looked at her through my mind's eye or rather, I could see the whole store through my mind's eye. Everything was glowing, shimmering bright colors, no details; it was like looking through heat sensitive vision. Shapes were no longer shapes but flowing energy patterns of light surrounding the objects. People appeared brighter and looked like layers of glimmering colors radiating outwards.
I looked at Jane and she had a large purple-red-yellow flame-like protrusion coming out of her neck radiating upwards for about 2 feet. She had an aura of bluish green with some orange on the outer edges and a patch of red on her right side below her ribs. I told her about the red patch and she proceeded to sense it with her right hand. She said that she was sore from doing Yoga yesterday. I could see yellow light streaming out from her right arm, surrounding it for a distance of about 6 inches as she moved her arm about exploring her sore side reiki style. She told me that eventually my psychic sight would become even clearer. We discussed the importance of grounding and then I left.
I think I've awakened my third eye! I think the Kunlun along with the variations in my meditation routine have seriously accelerated my growth. Right now it seems redundant to keep up the same old routines for fear that those routines, even though they had their purpose, would only serve as a kind of cage from which there is no growth. If the match catches fire, you stop striking it on the cover, don't you? And next time, don't you need another match? I might feel differently tomorrow. Right now I'm kind of in shock, in awe and sort of happy about all of this.
These are the symptoms that I am experiencing now:
- a single bell dinging in my right ear at various times throughout the day, more so during meditation. The bell dinging started about two weeks ago during deep silence meditation.
- tingling on the top of my head like an insect is crawling on my scalp. This too started about two weeks ago and happens two or three times a day.
- heat and slight pressure throughout the whole head.
- persistent sun sky water dark body scene in my head.
- persistent star scene in my head.
- I can visualize what I'm looking at and see it as an energy scene similar to flames of light or infra red video (third eye sight?).
- I feel tingles through my whole body.
- I sporadically experience waves of tingling pleasurable energy coming either from my head, heart or butt throughout the day depending on what I'm thinking about or rather, what I'm feeling at the time. They come as waves of bliss (for lack of a better term). I have experienced this bliss before so this is nothing new except now the occurrences flow very easily and more frequently.
If anyone has some experience with third eye opening, it would be very interesting to hear about it..
Thanks.
TI
