MuttHero

I’ve been doing a grounding exercise called deep earth pulsin , also I’ve been doing knee smile and 5 elements movment by Mimi deemer. I think it triggered detox…back of knee a rash has opened up and small points on my leg are a lttile itchy….my lungs slid have been gettin mucous.

could this be a detox triggered by me doing qigong daily?

Hello folks! I’m back after many years of exploration and getting lost. I’m now starting over in a way with Michael Winns fundamentals.

im currently in San Juan Puerto Rico and Kansas City Missouri depending on the week.

My major goal is to ground and accept all my energy.

great to be back!

OKAY....

 

 

So...

 

 

 

'm crazy. what now?

In my Crazy situation i realized my self defeating behaviour was ultimately fueled by wrong beliefs about the world, these beleif however was only 1/2 of the puzzle, the other 1/2 was EMOTIONS, a lot of unfruitful behaviour was fueled by feelings of FEAR, ANGER and SADNESS

This book called 'THe PResence Process' Really helped me and continues to, it talks about how the patterns of addiction or 'malfunction' we have in our lives are relfections that point to areas in our emotional body where we need to become more present responsible. These feeling were formed while we were children , the our ego came along and created belife systems to rationalize and hide these feeling because they were painful, once you practice being with with the ACTUAL PAIN OR FEELING OF FEAR then you can see your false belifes and change your actions...

Observe your self and explore yourself

Take responsability for your own well being regardless of what the world does

"Maning up"

THis frustration and pain is part of the maning up process...you have to keep going and get deeper into and through it

because manhood is like that, no one will fight for you or force you, life WILL kick your a$$ and if you dont choose to conciously fight back and grow and be determined to have good thing s for yourself then... YOU WILL PERISH OR GO CRAZY OR BECOME SOMEONE's BIOTCH but all of us men are going thru or have gone through it, but your pain is not without gain, the more you work thru and with your pain and angst the more return you get...work in work out

You must be willing to change and give up things you used to value in order to gain something that is more valuable

Okay, yes, i was embellishign what you said about "The bedroom may be the last place we can still embrace (not deny) our animal natures.

So why not cherish & relish in that fact?! "

 

Over-embellishing the animal instinct aspect, and downplaying/ignoring the "civil" cultivation aspect.

 

 

But in the grand scheme of things, birth is no better and no worse than rape in this world, as it forces us to be alive weather we are willing or not.

 

 

The unborn are the most disrespected "minority" on earth.

A "minority" because they dont exist yet, so no one thinks they have to mind their future.

 

 

I'd "man up" if i had a decent example.

 

 

Reading into manhood is like reading a romance novel: you arent experiencing what you're looking at.

I have felt EXACTLY the same way stoner.....

It actually led to me sticking up strangers with a gun a few years ago

the pain and lonliness is SEEMS unbearable

and if you try to share you feeling with the world they just make it worst by laughing at you and alienating you further

There is away up bro... seriously i KNOW by experience im gettin out of my $hit but it is HARD AS HELL!!

Im learning that.our approach to getting thoses needs met needs to be shifted

because NOBODY CARES ABOUT YOUR NEEDS as much as YOU DO, SO IT IS YOURE RESPONSABILITY TO GET THEM MET as a MAN

the first step is BEING HONEST WITH YOURSELF and realizing that you are the only one that is truly 100% in your corner

The last posts from the cat and the guy who said you attract what you are not what you desire had very big impact on me.

They re affirmed some truths i have been struggling with.

My first emotional reaction was anger and then it was deep pain

anger and pain that i have felt before A LOT! That heartache that reaches out because there

is that human whole in us, some deeper than others

My mind went on telling stories if what was wrong with the world, and sucidal type thoughts

and all that general low- self esteem crap (if you ever been thru that)

The i realized that regardless of the paioon and the arguments in my ego , that ultimatley

part of me was just simply asking "Who cares about me?, Nodbody does.."

But then i started realizing that someone does! I DO!! thats why im going thru all this crap trying to fix my s**t

and thats why i spent hours brooding over the world and myself is because I CARE ABOUT ME!!!

Its just that i haven't learned to uses what what i have in a MATURE WAY

I have layers of trapped emotion and FALSE BELEFIS about the world that are just OBSOLETE

I think women reject me because I HAD A FALSE BELEIF that my caring and nuturing came from others, instead of my SELF

in a way the workld is right, nobody really CARES about you as much as YOU should care about you, and you do care about you, even if your methods are OUT DATED for your current stage of DEVELOPMENT

This message goes out to StonerWolf, Dont let this world beat you down, YOU are your own best friend and it is ROUGH out here, dont be fooled too much my 'SPIRITUALITY' into thinking its all fluffy clouds and hugs....

Thats it right there. You dont attract the woman you want. You attract the woman who compliments the man you are. If your not attracting women that means your not attractive to women. Sorry to be the bearer of bad news. Life is ultimately fair. You get it what you put out. If you want a great woman you have to be a great man. If you think your a great man and you've been single and alone for more than a year, your NOT a great man. Dont mistakenly beleive all the good ones are taken or your having a run of bad luck. Perfect 10 women are desperate for men who have their lives together and who have some direction in their lives. Seeing the "perfect red head" and thinking you would make a better boyfriend than her pockmarked ex-whatever means your missing the entire point of what women want in the first place.

Ouch...

IF YOU ARE A WOMAN READING WE NEED YOUR INPUT!!! SO WE WONT JUST BE TOSSING AROUND 'IDEAS'

I WANT TO HEAR ABOUT EXPERIENCES

Maybe this 'problem' is so old and over played because it is not a 'problem' , it is the nature of the dynamics between men and women, somtimes i think "Am I the one with the problem?"

The woman goes for the masculine strength because it complements here feminie qualities

If there is no 'right' and 'wrong'

Then is it is not wrong for a woman to want to be with and be with masculine power that is expressed by domination, and cohercion.

We see this senario played out so much, that it seems to me to be part of 'Nature' , is this pattern of nature soemthing that i need to learn to adapt to just like cycles of the seasons, a thunderstorm etc...?

Although the natural pattern is interupted by the likes of: Birth control and Propaganda ie; Movies, Music, Advertisment

I studied and practiced some of that 'seduction stuff'

I did improve my relations with women at one superficial level

But I think the real issue with me was not staying true to my own desires, beliefs and expression, i would change them to suit women and hide them from women, i guess i can see why women would be attracted to that!

I kinda know the answer to my own question but i get impatient! Yea so...

Love the INPUT!!! KEEP IT COMING!!!

First thing I'd say to you is getting laid purely for the sake of getting laid is, in and of itself, a rip-off for most girls so there's the first deception. For me, I go into women's lives offering what I can only offer and women respect that. I tell them what I've got, which isn't much (I can't even f*ck for more than 10 seconds cuz this retention shiet) but I make them laugh, I try to make them feel good generally and about themselves too, and I Alawys maintain some level of sexual communication with them be it flirting or joking in a sexual way -- something to let her know I want to have sex with her. I also genuinely try to understand that her pussy is valuable to her and giving sex is revealing all that she has physically leaving her open to my judgement after wards. I keep that in mind and somehow it translates from me to her that I respect her, but I'll fuck her if she gives me the chance.

 

This mentality works well for me cuz it keeps me centered.

Has this worked in the 'field' !?

thanks...

I know that i am not being fully human either i tend to bottle up or supress my truth in terms of the way i live my life, my actions and my words, i feel like as i shine my life energy out in a honest yet strong way the things will improve...

I think when they talk about 'confidence' thats what they mean

gotta switch up the social things a go to , so i can inter act with a diffrent crowd of women

To get a fun girlfriend/date: do magic - cause change in conformity with your will (to get a fun girlfriend/friend w/benefits).

 

Think of changes that will cause your will to be achieved. Think about what instruments, manners, receivers, and mediums will be required to cause these changes to get your will.

 

Pick a fruitful medium - a place where many eligible candidates (receivers) are. Choose your quality receivers you will approach. Detirmine your instrument/methods to apply th the receiver to get the will. Key instruments are friendliness, easily approached, funny, fun (does things), interested in receiver's points from receiver's point of view (not critiqued according to your own point of view). Open and honest about your own points as needed, not to win arguments or drive points home. Be generally helpful and positive in approach.

Actually the more times i read it the more it makes sense...

thnks, it give me somthing to chew on..

To get a fun girlfriend/date: do magic - cause change in conformity with your will (to get a fun girlfriend/friend w/benefits).

 

Think of changes that will cause your will to be achieved. Think about what instruments, manners, receivers, and mediums will be required to cause these changes to get your will.

 

Pick a fruitful medium - a place where many eligible candidates (receivers) are. Choose your quality receivers you will approach. Detirmine your instrument/methods to apply th the receiver to get the will. Key instruments are friendliness, easily approached, funny, fun (does things), interested in receiver's points from receiver's point of view (not critiqued according to your own point of view). Open and honest about your own points as needed, not to win arguments or drive points home. Be generally helpful and positive in approach.

Could you break that down in to laymen's terms please, i only have a novice knowledge of metaphysics!!!

lol what.

 

You're not ranting, but still complaining that you arent getting laid...? oonnnnnn account of.... your practices???

 

 

Cant meet another human girl eh?

Appreciate you reply,

Your right i am having trouble meeting women, i don tknow why your using this forum to cut me down but...ive stopped goin to bars and clubs because i figure they dont fit my personality, maybe my question was posed funny...

I have a fear that i must either be an arrogant attention hog or a crafty mind jedi to be with a woman i am attracted to, i was wanting some advice about this, if you don understand my problem or have never had this problem your self then, why not just not reply, but if you can understand me then i hope i can learn...

Im not ranting

Could i hear some testimonies of guys who got women without having to act like they were better then the were, resorting to manipulation and psychological cohercion?

I am tired of the old way and want find a way to have integrity and still get laid.

Add by gettin laid i mean an intimate relationship, i was just using slang

Im not ranting

Could i hear some testimonies of guys who got women without having to act like they were better then the were, resorting to manipulation and psychological cohercion?

I am tired of the old way and want find a way to have integrity and still get laid.