Hmm. if 90% of your thoughts are useless thoughts like worries then what knowledge are you protecting by thinking them? I mean, just because you dont think unconsiously doesnt mean you cant study and know things and think about those things with some awareness in them.
Personally, I hate when im around someone trying to chill and my mind starts worrying about stuff. It ruins the moment and the chill. I hate when im afraid to do things I want to do. Ect. So i meditate.
For example I used to be on the subway and sometimes freak out if I had no choice but to stare at the persons face infront of me. It would be the freakyest situation ever. That or awkward silences. But after observing people and after practicing and studying my mind now I just kind of go blank. Like ill sit there blank but feel my suroundings and just not care if the person is feeling weird because of awkward silence because im fine. Ill also notice the silence and watch my breath.
But sometimes people are like, hey whats with the blank stare? (not so much recently) OR or, I also feel like, dumber. My mind feels like its lagging, not as sharp as it used to be (im 23 years old not an old man) Yet I think that im still smart. Its just a feeling of lag, like before I had a feeling of sharpness and I was thinking all the time yet my sense of self was 100% invested in my thoughts, now I have a feeling of lag yet im like usually knowing that im not my thoughts.
Ive had a few breakthrew moments, feeling like your not your mind really puts all your problems in the garbage can. But can anyone help me get rid of this sense of lag in my mind? Should I continue the path which made me feel lag, yet also study math for an hour a day or something to counter its negative effects? (I should note that when it comes to solving problems my mind still works and works fast, its just a feeling of lag, it might not actually be my mind getting dumber its just a lag feeling instead of a sharp/smart feeling)
Also even though I admit that, its obvious that meditating gives you ALOT of focus power. What do your brain scans say about focus and thats effect on synapses and nerve gaps? I mean if you think about it, if you concentrate all that focus you obtain threw meditating on learning something your going to learn it SUPER fast.
What thoughts are being effected here? Thoughts you need or thoughts you dont need? It wouldnt be thoughts you need ofcoarse. Its not like the worries that are 90% of your thoughts are math equations that you need to know how to do. So the thoughts you dont need fade away, and the ones that are usefull probably get stronger just because you can think them with focus. Focus > everything. Focus is way more powerfull then any thought you could forget. (except e= mc squared)