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If you say so, then its true. Fact is, you create your own reality. You are continually programming and enforcing your beliefs with your words and attitude. Try saying, "There is hope for me" or "I can do anything that I want"... and then take action. Don't "think" about it, just do it. Just because the voice of Mr. Hyde is there in your head, belittling you, doesn't mean that you have to follow its orders. You might be thinking, "That's easy for you to say, you aren't me, you don't understand". I used to say the same things too, until I got off my ass and created my own reality, becoming 100% responsible for my experience. What I say or what you say doesn't mean a whole lot when compared to with actions. Just simply act, regardless if you disagree with the actions, and your beliefs, attitudes, energy, etc. will follow those actions, even if you have to fake it until you make it. Perseverence and repetition creates change. It might take a while, but so what, that's how the game goes. Make it happen.

I didn't read every single quote in this thread so if I post some repeats consider it quotation for emphasis "I have never experienced another human being. I have experienced my impressions of them." -Robert Anton Wilson "Medicine is not only a science; it is also an art. It does not consist of compounding pills and plasters; it deals with the very processes of life, which must be understood before they may be guided." -Paracelsus "The head is the house of the tongue; our bodies affectively speak less falsely." -Austin Osman Spare "Remember, it's your own body, your own brain. You're not a victim of the universe, you are the universe." "The best thing about the past is that it's over. The best thing about the future is that it's yet to come. The best thing about the present is that it's here now." -Richard Bandler "Sometimes you just have to pee in the sink." -Charles Bukowski

Hi there & thanks for the welcomes, You may have seen that old correspondence course online, usually as a torrent, for the Chinese National Chi Kung Institute. I grabbed those a while back and have performed the recommended practices described in those daily, and as recommended (not skipping ahead or anything like that). I also do Mantak Chia's inner smile stuff in the morning and some 'active internal Qigong' methods that follow my 'passive internal' stuff (I don't know if 'passive/active internal' are commonly used designations in the Qigong arena, but that is what they are titled as in the videos included in the torrent). I also spend a good deal of time seeking to understand what I am practicing, learning what is there. Just step by step. I don't fool myself and think that I can grasp all that is there, particularly with lack of a teacher. I just assume I don't know much and things go pretty easy. I think that understanding what I can on as many levels that I can be aware of adds an 'immersion' effect and that is important for me because without that, I would just feel like I am going through some robotic motions, which isn't the case at all. And of course, much like the practices themselves, repetition of learning opens up new opportunities to see more, so I like to hit it from many perspectives for better understanding. Of equal and maybe more importance, I want to be safety conscious. I'm impressed with the vast amount of information and layers upon layers within Taosim and its various expressions.

I located this forum a few times after searching for a few Qigong topics. Decided to join, learn and contribute! I have no long-term Qigong experience to speak of, or cool credentials, but I do practice daily. I like candlelit walks on the beach and long dinners. Thanks for having me