suninmyeyes

lets talk about when your heart last time soared ,when all boundaries broke loose and your whole being opens up in so much sweetnes and gratitude.

any story ,poem ,idea ,thought ,anything that does it for you?

this is me:

today as i cycled to park i was feeling so much gratitude to life and thinking:" there is no need to hold on to some sadness/resenment .its not me .its fooling me ,its a wrong shape,it doesent fit right and its becoming unberably BORING."

at this moment opening was created

and i let love in.

nothing beats this feeling!

very beutiful.

lots of love from my heart to all !!!!!!!!!!!

what is "real time" ?where does concept come from?

this one is sri lanka.very nice,in mountains and you can do your own practise.i dont know what they say at the site but after a chat with center leader they took me in and im not a budhist.clean ,simple and good local food.

http://www.nilambe.org/,and check the retreat bit in this link

http://www.dhamma.ru/sadhu/modules/mylinks...wcat.php?cid=69

india you can find so many places. good place to start is rishikesh,you just have to look around .in himalayas too .there are even some sadhus that RENT caves .nice cave i saw it,very comfy with floor and small window .not too many insects

this is in europe in case u suddenlly decide to come over here it looks nice ,i think they accept solitary retreteans regardless of faith/practises

http://amidatrust.typepad.com/france/

there is nice one in spain

http://amidatrust.typepad.com/france/

some good western budhist order solitary options too.

in thailand it easy to rent nice and quiet ,decent beach hut and do your practise and surf too.also easy to find once you are there.

have a good one!

I never usually get back pain.. But anyway I've been getting on my back! who would've guessed? lol

 

It basically curves counter clockwise and isen't to deep of a pain.. Anyway a post on Left leg being over right in Full lotus brought attention to me that its done that way to purify the liver/spleen.. I haden't known that before.. But its always been the easiest to do it that way.

 

The pain is sometimes during full lotus.. It can be pretty annoying.. I figure there linked lol.

 

Any thoughts?

check out deeply if you are relaxed in lower abdomen area,are you clenching muscels somwhere whilst in lotus.and how is your alighment.introspect deeply.

if you feel ipain whilst in lotus dont push yourself too much,be gentle and slow.

i meditated in louts on and off some years.and its super beneficial and most helpful.

but last year one day i wasnt paying too much attention and was sitting in full lotus,but little off centre becouse of some pain( also near ribcage) ,feeling very nice and blissful,when energy came down so strong,and my body sort of collapsed.there was a intense jolt as some bones disslocatedand some inner organes damage.

after more then year passed, lots of sufferning and healing and inner work im almost back in shape.

this is not to scare you or anyone else and put you off the practise of full lotus,just to be aware.

i feel its important to acknowledge pains they are signposts.

in my understanding to be grounded means having clear sensible mind,purposful actions and generous,compassionate heart .

now this can be tried to be achived through different ways .and i suppose if one is doing martial arts or chi kung ,then it would be by applying practises thought.plus lots of introspection and honesty and forgivness within yourself.

by the way DE PARADISE i love your aliens farting in the face

It is death that dies completely, thus there is a deeper joy that is not touched by a deeper sorrow.

this was my trail of thought too in a way.but here im again existing as deeper joy,in order for joy to be her joyfull self she has to be put up against something ,so there is some creation involved here.

which means the death will have to be reborn ,not dead completley.

i am also sure that ill survive physical death ,totally certain too.

Songs,ive had a surgery as a child with strong knock off anesthetic.i disliked the idea of operation and wanted to be awake by all means so that i couldnt be operated upon.what happend body couldnt resist and fell asleep and my awarness stayed fully counciess of surrounding and what doctors were disscusing.

I know this is a touchy subject and I believe it is important to know if one is involved in one or not. Cults are about personality worship and I believe that one does not need to live in a community or close to the cult leader in order to be manipulated.

 

There is a lot of discussion on TTB about various teachers, practices and lineages. Are any of these cult like?

ralis

in india for example there is sooooooo many cults and a lot of schools,orphaneges and medical help is run by these cults,which is great otherwise many people would not have help.whole system is still quite old school .

also i belive they are good becouse they might spread some basic awarness ,thats how i found out about meditation etc.but beyond that its up to us what to take and learn to take what we really need,that way manipulation is not possible.

not my cup of tea though.

thanks for the replies.

im struggling for words actually as im pondering on them.like i wanna say something but it cant be said exactly.

something is happening.

so...are we going to dissaper completey TOTALLY?or do you actually exist at all?

is this all one big con?whats going on?

ok i should find these things out ,but any universal views ?

There is only one way that I know of to make an attempt to answer such questions.

That is to ask both you and myself - "who is it that wants to know?"

Good luck

what about complete cessation on all levels physical,astral ,causal?thats it. no more.is it possible?

is there really me?

anyway let you know after evening meditation ,if i dont dissolve forever

im wondering what you think if there is a total rest ,COMPLETE death,cessation on all levels of existance?is it a point of view only,or point of no view that lives in silence ?

or are we ever new and everdying with every thought?is the real rest in acceptance of whatever is happening?

what is your understanding or opinion?

would you like to die completley really?

sorry english is not my first language,hope i made myself understood.

well...i don't drink coffee ... I have caffinated tea only on weekends...i don't take any herbal stimulants. i already take zinc and magnesium. i take 3-5 gms of vit c a day (when I remember to take it)..i take a dose of about 70+mg a day of iron (anemic)

 

i got the dark chocolate thing down real good

 

i dont smoke

 

no transfats or polyunsaturated fats

 

no birth control pills or anti depressants

 

i don't do anything but keigels/ pc pumping without an exercise device. it probably would help i am sure but I have never had kids. I have a good "grip" i am told.

 

visual stim using porn never really works for me... ...i love the feel of male energy cause it is very sweet and sensual to me...the more yang the better because my energy is so polarized yin...so i tend to hang out with younger men and often they are martial artists...thats not the only reason the men in my life tend to be younger but its a good one. And younger men like to hang out with me cause my energy is intense and it makes them feel good. they get the buzz back. Men tend to get more yin as they grow older unless they have some kind of internal development program in place.

 

men who are older but who have a kick ass internal energy cultivation and/or are masters of esoteric martial arts give me quite a buzz too. yoga guys tend to be too "soft" in their energy

 

the whole universe~world feels bliss/orgasmic to me 24/7. I have to dial it down to function in this 3D reality or it would be pelvic rocking and moaning all the time. So to be having multiple orgasms throughout the day is not for me anymore. I did have a period where I would have such strong physical orgasms 24/7 that it would drop me to my feet in stores and other public places.

 

What I want to point out is the reason I do the things above is because that is what makes the kundalini in my body "happiest". I think it is interesting to point out that your program is facilitatory to the kundalini process and would be a good thing to prescribe for awakening kundalites.

 

I think the fatty acids are a great addition to anyone who wants to work on their k development just because they help with maintaining the myelin sheath on nerves which facilitate communication in the body. Kundalites go through a "rewiring" of their nervous system so this supplement helps. It is like the nerves are being upgraded to carry more the more refined energy and the higher voltage of k.

hi,

thanks for this thread witch.its interesting to read what works well for you women.im totally amazed by your dietary choices and practises.so nice to meet you.

my (any)apetite is incredibley low and am so boring comparing to you and diet is different,i could not imagine taking any food mentioned.

could someone please describe me term orgasmic ,as is saw it used on this site in different ways than purley having a what is commonly known as orgasam.or am i misunderstanding?

im feeling blissful a lot of time ,very nice feeling that comes on its own for no reason and everything seems nice then,is this the same?