Edward M

Hi CT, Thanks for the offer, it's not there, it was a live streaming video on their facebook page. The second post i made shows the video in the post-at least for me.... I think only daobums who are logged into facebook will be able to see it, unfortunately! Doesn't seem to be a download option there, or i'd download and upload to youtube myself...its a good video! I'll summarise for those who can't see it.. its saying the usual kundalini path from root to crown goes through and activates the chakra from bottom to top one by one and awakens the siddhis which reinforce the sense of self and ego. He then explains that the heart has a spirit spark atom/the lotus of the heart, that has its own kundalini energy independent of the classical kundalini path, that when awakened activates our true self, and initiates an alternative energetic circutry, that is more spiritual and attuned to our eternal selves. Apologies to those without facebook accounts! Peace

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gvwHHMEDdT0 Peace

Thanks Karen

like this:

Takes courage to accept oneself when naturally standing out from the crowd, but in the long term that's a brilliant situation for character building.... also helps if others can understand that, like you are saying, Marblehead.... I like the animal communicators calm dreamy but strong intentioned state of mind.. peace

Ah, i've forgotten how to make the video show up! anyone???

Ive had a crushing pounding headache since this morning after waking up from a dream of being attacked by a wolf. I'm getting seriously bad vibes from somewhere, can sense subtle black smog around me, my head feels like its being squeezed, and can't shift awful negative state of mind... eyes were also burning and stinging earlier, i couldn't keep them open it was so bad.. Also had burning marks appear on forehead earlier briefly, and eyes were being strange, felt like some kind of adjustment, due to internal or external reason i dont know... It feels like more than one person are united in their negative intent towards me... i don't know if this is my imagination, or its people, or dark forces... not in a state of mind to tell... Now, i've tried praying, putting up a shield, and tuning into the higher levels, but its not working! Can anyone either give suggestions for diagnosing what is happening, or suggest what i can do about it please? its been going on for about 5 or 6 hours now... Thanks, Edward

Thanks Words! i hear you... sounds like good common sense truth to me, thank you

Thanks QiCat! don't worry, had no expectation anyone would look into me.. am not dwelling on it now, i recognise his energy, and what i'm feeling is not it. Ego stuff, yeppadeeyep ya got a point there, gotta learn to let things go... yeah it may well be parts of the psyche that broke off, fears, and i'm experiencing them as external things.. recognised this happened last week and thought i'd overcome it, obviously not, its an ongoing process, thats gonna take a long long time.. Thanks Qicat, your suggestions are very helpful Take care, Edward

ZYD, thanks for the book recommendation and quote.... tosser doesn't mean thrower, it means wanker, its an abusive term. When he fired me he said to me amongst other things, that we were not friends and that he had seen me more as his work bitch and garden slave... so you are right on the money.. he still has that mindset it seems. Is crossing/uncrossing involved when you meet other people's energies in a highly receptive state through being told about the people, then you actually meet them later on in intricate threads of events? QiCat, thanks for questions, he isn't my boss anymore but he was working on my neighbours garden, and i had given him the work last year for various reasons. He just sees me as lower than him, physically and in status as a human being, he's a bully in other words. What does your intuition say about the whole thing? i keep seeing someone in m minds eye who i don't recognise, i sense their energy, he seems like a shadowy dangerous figure to me, not sure if its symbolic or an actual person. Saying all this, someone did a healing on me a few hours after your post qicat, was quite deep i can tell. So any blobs etc should be gone, he is a good healer! The energy though i can still feel, someone does have their mind on me, im certain of it! Thanks!

oh one thing, i know the thought blobs are involved, because i kept hearing the word 'tosser' in my mind, this is a word i do not use, and no one but this guy uses it that i know.. i had the headache and actually went to look out of the window to see if he was out there. So, it's 100% a vicious circle in a way, i react to his shit, which makes the whole thing worse...

ZhongYong daoist, you pretty much got a bullseye with that one!! makes 100% sense, thanks! QiCat, Thanks, i read your posts, they are really really good! will do, keep it up... thank you!

Any chance of deleting this or moving to primordial chaos please? gotten a bit personal for a public forum...

Zhongyong daoist, can this particular deviation occur when one someone is stuck in an external listening state of mind? so that one becomes more receptive than usual... i did have someone in particular in mind as fas psychic attacks go, but then it got worse and worse and thats when i considered other things.. but this person was working 2 doors down from this morning, he used to be my boss, and i know from working for him for a couple years that he is prone to poison thoughts about others, including me... i knew he was there, i guess didn't fully realise my awareness was partially set to include him. Would explain it, because when i get out of that mode after realising it, usually if i sit down and read a book or talk to someone, it goes away... so right now, my self diagnosis haha is this particualar state of mind causes a internal reaction, wether qi deviation or not, that makes these symptoms come about... ok this is good, thanks again, i can work with this.. be aware of it

Thanks again, i'll go look at that now... makes sense!

Brilliant, thanks for that!

Thanks ZhongYon daoist, I'll ask tcm doc about it i'm seeing soon.. is the gall bladder related to the stomach/bladder meridian? two days ago, i released some fear issues, and the lower abdomen and bladder suddenly relaxed and things changed quite a bit... for a few hours the right index finger was swollen with fresh blood and qi... related maybe? cheers

Thanks OldSaint, i'll look up how to do a banishing, im not familiar with it,, will check out the book..thanks!

The question is for those who pray to the source/God, and is do you ever find you get attacked by yawning fits that inhibit your prayer from being directed to the correct destination/the source, as well as cutting off any continuity of prayer? I've googled it, all i can see is a lot of christians complain about it, but no diagnosis is given. In Islam they say it is the shaytan interfering with your prayer. Can't find anything else on it from other traditions etc. Having trouble with this, and also it happens when contemplating spiritual things, it interferes with both processes. It's not due to tiredness or boredom. Any insights or sharing much appreciated! Cheers, Edward

I used to have the tears as well, not recently, but years ago.. i heard it said that if the tear rolls from the right eye, its out of joy/happiness, if its from the left eye, it is out of sadness. Peace

Cool, thanks Cheya! that also makes a lot of sense to me as well, and i think probably fits with what Jeff is saying as well.. Cheers

Thanks aetherous, I have some theories about breath and attunement, but i can't say they are anything more than that, so not worth sharing... Cheers mate!

Jeff, one question, in my case, does that mean, that the quieter the mind becomes on a regular basis, the more alert the consciousness will be during the deeper quieter stages of activities, such as prayer and meditation? Thanks, Edward