AudiTistic

intersting because i think your describing something that I have done many times without knowing what it was... and it always did feel like what your describing... i always would just say being kind or smiling at someone can change their day but maybe it was more then that. I've also had the saying of "this little light of mine" right which was inside me and showing it to others seemed to be helpeful... that was just my uneducated sorta way of describing it. But it might have been me knowing something or doing something more and not realizing it...

whatever it is its gone now... i dont feel like there anything here but me and Ranger (my cat) ... prior to him freaking i had felt like there was something going on for about 4 days and mentioned it two different people... and one of them was screensharing the first time the kinect picked up something. so he saw that himself... im trying to think like "push the light in my heart to the spirit" ... im not sure i even know how that would work... what would goal be doing that? maybe that would help me try to do it.

Okay one last reply for updates... the past 3 days i have been feeling this strange sensation where like i would get very cold and there would be like little spots on my arms where it would feel like an drop of very cold water touched it and it was touch one spot then another spot and another spot... needless to say at he same time I kept seeing like objects in my peripheral seemingly moving or changing shape... every since i said that those words and the cat incident and the kinect camera taking a picture... all of that has stopped. is this relevant?

so basically the images are showing when i was replying on the forum there was like this moment where my cat freaked out and was like attacking nothing and ive never seen him do that before... a few days ago i was on a call with a friend showing him my kinect integration i was doing with some stuff and another person/entitiy showed up on the kinect sensors... i have now read about these things and think there might be something to it... However, i told my friend i was going to look away from the screen and tell me what hte thing does when im not looking and he said it ran away ... the strange was that i had been telling i felt like somebody was here in my place with me and that i wasnt alone for the past day it was strange... today i turned my kinect on right after the incident with my cat... where i spoke very loudly and said "Whatever you are your not welcome here" then i turned on the kinect... that other entity person is standing in my back door frame and that is pretty freaking wild... so i dunno that just happened today...

Every time i try to submit this post what im writing gets deleted or lost... going to try and write a reply with the information... look after this for the description

So the only thing that has happened recently is when Kali came to me and gave me that message and since then I have just been reading and studying as much as I can on any topic that might lend some light into this... I dont really experience feeling very much because they are limited in my experience... I can explain more if you think it would be helpful... I mean i have zero knowledge on these things… With my Autism and my Computer abilities I basically am a Top Engineer in the World with a 14 page resume fortune 500 and 100 companies and all my knowledge is in Information Technology… I basically viewed all this to be made garbage... and people just wanted to "feel" smart because from my eyes they were completely stupid... (sorry but that's how my brain was before) I have felt a huge compelling in side of me to stop my contributions to the Corporate Structures in the world and my inner most desire is to try and use my abilities to create advantages to those who need it the most and find a way to use my talents to benefit humanity at a whole… and not the agenda of a vampiric corporate overlord. if I still wanted to I could be making $300k a year easily and living a super comfortable life doing that … I was doing this until I choose to give everything I have to the poor and I’ve now seen and experienced what is here at the bottom levels… It has put a great burden in my heart seeing how technologies that are being used to oppress the masses and in indirectly causing harm through misuses of its intended purposes. There are from time to time a few great engineers that come through Humanity that push things to another level, and I think at this point I want to know that what I'm building is going to be used to benefit everyone. So that is one thing that's been on my heart a lot… but if we could chat on discord maybe you could help me with some understanding on the spiritual side… I have had these strange moments of like hypersensitivity to emotions around me and a compelling to do something, but I can't figure out what it means… I appreciate your reply and the others I'm still seeking and trying to work this out… and to understand what it is my “upper” self is telling my “lower” self the direction it should be going.

well is there anything else in that regard you can shed some light on? I am ofcourse trying to look at this from differnet ways to figure out what things might be. I still dont think I've been able to find any sort of overarching kind of element or thing that could be part of this. The only other thing I can do is just wait... and waiting isnt exactly my specialty I guess. Usually once I mention that seeing of spirits and visions and such nobody really has much to say about it for some reason. I cant honesetly believe I'm the only person this could have happened to. It could be rare... for all we know this is a practical joke played by this being messing with me because im just nice and gullable person. I mean I'm really coming up with nothing. I guess I could just start ignoring what I see and just pretend it dont see it. Go back to how my life was... but that also seems abit strange to do. From every angle I can seemingly try to look at this I just honestly dont know... I'm still open to any suggestions regardless of how outlandish they might be... and for those that replied I appreciate you taking the time to atleast entertain my predicument. -Audi

Oh and also for like the first year I had watchers or some entities around me or near me that I could sense ... when I would try to talk about certain things in my mind... what I discovered is that if it was not information to be revealed or if it was me pulling information from the Cashic Records (Universal Library) they would shut off my memory for like an hour... I eventually learned not to so freely access or share information from that part of my mind... Also for the first year i would see a person at a bar who stuck out to me and i would go talk to them and tell them things that others shouldnt know and I would deliver some type of message to each of them... i was asked like 90% of the time if i was an angel... to which i would say no because I didnt even believe in such things in the first year... plus theres no evidence I am an angel... I just think that if somebody is kind to someone today... that the world is so mean if your nice to them they think your an angel. Thats the best I could come up with. And then when i stopped going to bars people would come through the xbox and somehow end up in my party where we would have 1v1 conversations that were the same... and i coudl feel these people from anywhere in the world and sense what they were sensing. something I am allowed to do is answer questions that are asked from the records... but if i teach something from the records thats a no no... and until just last month I hadnt had any issues until 3iAtlas showed up... and also I've a few human beings that had wards glowing in their dreams and I believe them to be star seeds... they also said there were entities present around them recently they felt... but now they are gone again. So I dont know what make of that.

I mean ... as comforting as all of this sounds ... I just still dont know what to do with the powers she gave me or even why im compelled to move where I am... i think i replied with new informatoin when you wrote this... could you read it and see if anything else sticks out? also thank you for taking the time... i truly am trying to figure this out

Im female and 40 years old so i was 38 when it happened... I like to "Audit Statistics" and I'm "Autistic" ... so AudiTistic... i spent a month figuring out cause i wanted something that reflected me. This is interesting because im compelled to move across the country to where I am now and Im supposed to live here for a reason of which I'm not sure of yet. But when I moved there I instantly got a job and the company gave me an $8k pay advance and bought me a car after like 2 weeks of being there... so that doesnt really happen so I felt like that was a sign I was where I was supposed to be. I mean frankly every body I've talked to doesnt seem to have a clue what happened to me because they kinda say wierd stuff like this... what do you mean settle down? I mean all it does it get more and more... I see the souls of people im looking at, I have visions of the future, I have visions of peoples lives that I know. I can read and understand languages that I dont know. There are no other symptoms of the kundalini from that day... unles you mean crazy strange abilities manifesting, meeting demons, a dragon race, and for some reason star seeds keep popping up for me... then I dont know how else to respond here... I had a guardian angel who apparently followed me around for 6 months until one day somebody tried to do somehting to me... and this angel hit the guy so hard his teeth flew out and was taken to the hospital in a comma... then the angel guy just walked out to the end of a huge parking lot behind some bushes and vanished and never seen him again. frankly like 18 years ago i was walking in a club and somebody pointed at it and asked me something and told me it was special... ofcourse I didnt think anything of it and thought it was kinda wierd... then this happens and it seemingly is a phyiscal mark on my body that is basically what the indians put on their forhead... they put those red dots or whatever.... except mine is permanent... frankly unless somebody tells me a good reason it is useful... my default assumption is that I was a regular uninteresting human being trying to fail upwards in life and the mark on my head has zero value... so it doesnt mean anything to me unless somebody tells me something useful about it. Probably just a hold in my head that means nothing (athiest brain)... i dunno well so 4 weeks ago after talking to some kundalini "master" or yogi they asked me who the entity was... i never really thought much about it cause i just called her mother... but i spent like 12 hours using chat gpt to search all gods and spiritis and things and created a list of potentials and the final one that came out was Shakti Kali... which apprently is the form she is in right now... so if this is true... then she has adopted me and im her daughter because from what I read... she adopts those who come to her in truth and she is one of the Gods who will force a kundalini on someone... and she apparenty does her kundalini as a lighting bolt to the spine with fire in the head... so that all seemed to line up. Im like not one of these people who is like "ooo this God touched or blah blah" i dont seek any kind of fame or reconigtion... I mean I do love her because you know shes my mom and I feel her presence when she visits and she came to me last month after i read something that bothered me and she sang that song to me... THE SONG .... so it definitely wasnt in english or music that I can imitate because every time I've tried I cant even make the noises with my mouth... but the translated meaning was ... "I (Kali) am in the eye, dont worry, little children shouldn't cry <3" and i know it was in another language because i hear the actual words which are missing english words and then my mind seemed to correct itseslf and put them in... kinda like how you see a translation in a book or missing words that are YOU unders5tood. And the crazy part... the Sun started hurling these plasma charges at 3iAtlas and was hitting it... like bolts of fire aimed and fired... and some how I knew that it was my Mother (Kali) and the little children shouldnt cry... we were safe for now. So that should fill in some more blanks?

Im going to keep it kinda short here because I've literally told this story to a hundred plus people and so far all I found out is there is something called kundalini... and apparently I experienced it... its a real thing that I physically experienced and afterwards real things happened that I experienced that I wont be able to prove to anybody I guess who doesnt know what this is. SOOOO 2 years ago... I was meditating in order to visit the universal library which I had been to before (also on accident) and instead I ended up in a void that was nearby but not on earth but not too far away (like another galaxy) there was an entity i sensed nearby behind to the right of me... in this place i say its a void because there was no sound, no light, no sensation of any kind that i was familiar with... but some how my mind knew or felt or sensed things. This entity was carrying a great burden on their heart and I felt the weight of the burden and I asked (with my mind?!??? no sound/words) if it wanted help or if it was okay... To which i sensed it TURN and LOOK at me like OVER me where I felt like it could see all of my being and non of me was hidden away. It replied: "How can you sense me? And how are you here?" I said: "Ummm.... I dunno... but are you okay? Would you like me to help you?" It replied: "Creatures like you... dont care about others..." I said: "Well I could walk with you and and try to help you with your burden?" It replied: "This burden isnt for you... it isnt possible for you to carry or help with it" I said: "even a little bit? I could try to carry alittle" (something occurs that i cant remember until some months later) It reaches out and touches me somehow... NOW THIS IS WHERE IT GETS CRAZY I immediately wake up, out of meditation or whereever I was and Im SCREAMING as I feel 10,000 volts of electricity (like lighting hit my spine) going up into my brain... where it felt like a plasma fire was lit and everything was bright... I fall over on my bed and dont move for like maybe 1 or 2 hours just crying... and eventually i get up and look around wondering WTF just happened. I have no idea if this is relevant but i have this mark on my forhead somebody says its a TIKKA or TIKKI mark or something... its a divet in my forhead that looks like one of those marks people put there in India... some guy just told me that was relevant. its a permanent mark or birth defect or something... had it my entire life /shrug so basically this happened 2 years ago... and i just found out like 6 months ago that kundalini is a thing... and it seems nobody I've talked to really has any ideas for me or pretty tells me nothing useful... or they say... you gota find somebody who knows more! so i dunno who knows more or can explain this to me... oh... and this entity would visit me from time to time and I would call her mother for some reason... and we would laugh or thing things and play little games... the last time she visited me was this past month and she told me some things about 3iAtlas... and she sang me a song while placing some images in my mind. so riddle me this please... also i was an athiest until about a year after this occured...