Daniel

that's the left hand path

Love bound with respect is one the most powerful motivating forces in creation.

God is complete, that's one version of perfection.

What did you learn from researching the Golden Dawn?

Some aspects of creation are unintended. When good was created, it automatically creates evil. When truth was created falsehood was automatically created. With mercy comes vengeance, etc. The intention was to create good, truth, and mercy not evil, falsehood and vengeance. Therefore God prefers good, truth, and mercy. The others are unintended side effects. So God is non-dual, but creation isn't.

Yes, but it's not full non-duality. There still exists good and evil, right and wrong, true and false, etc. Even if all is God, not all is preferred by God.

The sephirot are attributes. The Zohar is clear on this. "Woe to anyone who compares Him to any attribute, even to one of His own attributes, " https://www.zohar.com/zohar/Bo/chapters/14 A voice claiming "I am the Sephirot, I am all that is" is comparing God to the Attribute. It's false, not authentic Kabbalah.

Well, the angel was either misinformed or a liar.

The emanation is ohr-ein-sof, never-ending-light. "Ohr ("Light" Hebrew: אור; plural: Ohros/Ohrot "Lights" אורות‎) is a central Kabbalistic term in the Jewish mystical tradition. The analogy of physical light is used as a way of describing metaphysical Divine emanations. " https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ohr Edit to add: One way to confirm that the event is a hallucination is if the being's knowledge of the occult matches yours. If you both were misinformed about the sephirot, then the being is likely a manifestion of your own mind.

The sephirot are vessels, nothing more nothing less. Whatever it is that said this is misinformed or a liar.

Could this be a side effect of medication?

Not me... Genesis 1:28 "And God blessed them, and God said to them, "Be fruitful and multiply and fill the earth and subdue it, and rule over the fish of the sea and over the fowl of the sky and over all the beasts that tread upon the earth. "

consent can always be revoked

Maybe it's all about #11: bringing order, which requires interference.

I hear you, I'm sorry that this happened to you. In my experience it's not uncommon for someone to descend like this after achieving a spiritual breakthrough. From our previous conversations, It sounds like you had accomplished a lot before your ordeal. When these things happen, it's as if the boundaries both ascending and descending expand and the individual finds themself at the bottom of a pit. In order to return to normal they need to climb up and out of a pit of despair in order to continue making progress. I wouldn't be surprised if this can happen repeatedly as a person progresses. Each time a breakthrough occurs, they descend lower and lower needing to work harder and harder to climb out of the pit. The first time it happens is probably the hardest because it feels like losing ground instead of gaining. But after climbing out of it, a person can hopefully see the progress more clearly. Their world has opened up in all directions. The depths of their descent is reflected in the other direction as well. The depth signifies an equal and opposite potential for ascent. I see that potential for you, it's why I'm hopeful. It may take a very long time, but, the potential still exists.