Tryingtodobetter

I would just try to settle on a qigong form and call it a day, though from what I've read and observed over the years a number of its advanced practitioners appear to be still fairly entrenched in facets of ego, for lack of a better term, and that residual isn't something I want from a system I plan to put a sincere effort into

27 minutes ago, MildMouse23 said:

I know, that's why I was asking about this particular combination on a forum post and not blindly pursuing it without seeking any sort of counsel 

23 minutes ago, Earl Grey said:

It depends from system to system and you as an individual.

 

Consult Eric Isen with the systems that interest you and he can tell you how good the synergy will be between the two systems or more for you.

 

www.ayurvedicintuitive.com

I dont have much money and the money I do have I'd rather not spend towards what I perceive to be a relatively simple question to someone seasoned in energy cultivation

I dont really know anything of his legitimacy. I dont recall hearing/reading his name anywhere. I think it's fair for me to be hesitant given the aforementioned 

Is it possible to combine different methods of energetic cultivation into a workable form?

As of late I've been looking into kriya yoga and qigong in general.

I am interested in the mind purifying facets of kriya yoga and the energetic control of qigong.

Can one practice both daily without any detrimental effect?

I want to combine a mind purifying practice with qigong because recently I saw an interview with the founder of spring forest qigong and he did the cough at a point when asked a question. That cough people do when they are disturbed by what someone is saying on a deep level, whether it be triggering an old negative experience or them projecting negativity outward and it bouncing back to them, etc.

I did not expect to see this behavior in a master of qigong.

I do not wish to pursue qigong exclusively if such mental dross is still present at such a high level of attainment.

Also, an issue I'm currently facing with kriya yoga is that one must be "initiated" in order to practice within an official organization- I think it's something like being sworn in or adopting a lineage, and I am unsure of the spiritual ramifications of that so I am wary of it. Of course I would like to practice the true kriya yoga, though I fear it has been lost to time.

Last thing, I was considering adding a weekly sensory deprivation chamber visit to my practice based upon what I've read about it so far. Does anyone here have any experience with them?

Thank you for reading all of this

I know a number of people read posts like this and dont have much to offer by means of advice or personal experience and that's okay- hope you are enjoying your day so far regardless

I've thought about suicide time and time again, occasionally throughout the years and as of late I really see no point in continuing being present on this plane. I had an experience today where I really questioned my existence again, in depth. My life has no value, no meaning, no purpose. I have no substantial savings, no transportation, no relationship, no true social circle, no home of my own, no semblance of true community- really nothing of worth using a societal metric or even using a "spiritual" one. I simply have no worth or purpose. I am very tired. I had things I would've liked to accomplish, though now it's as if the larger part of those desires have been whittled down by time and things unseen, inwardly and outwardly. I have lived far too long. This world holds nothing for me and the inverse is probably true as well.

I want to commit suicide and I would like to know the actual repercussions. I dont want to be told to "hang in there". My life is over. I just want to know where my destination is once I release myself from my mortal shell. I figured this forum would be one of the spaces visited by someone with a genuine answer to this question.

3 hours ago, Aetherous said:

Synchronicity is connecting the dots, when a connection isn't really there. It's a disorder of the mind, in my view. It stops when you stop looking for it to happen.

No.

Over the last few years the phenomena commonly described as synchronicity has become more and more prevalent in my life

It went from seeing certain numerical sequences and their accompanying events and sensations, to recognizing how words spoken by myself and others manifested in near literal ways

At times it feels as though I am alone and in a sense creating my life my world, and in another sense it feels as though I'm simply eavesdropping on it

Its pattern recognition to a point where its beyond jarring and more like a fluid narrative cascading forward and backwards, if direction is something that can be truly ascribed to time

Seemingly senseless or obtuse things I have perceived others and myself saying, and maybe even thinking, have foreshadowed many things. Even patterns in the behaviors of others and the goingons in their lives have hinted at the trajectory of my own

I don't think I'm alone in having experienced this. Sometimes it makes me fearful of the future, or what may actually be the past

"Everything is connected" and any other oversimplified new-age vagueries that may apply

1 hour ago, kyoji said:

 

 

what was that jiddu krishnamurti said about it not being any sign of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society?

I didnt watch the video, though I'm aware of that lofty often misattributed quote and remember using it as something of a crutch, if only for a fleeting time. 

I personally would've appreciated a larger bold font disclaimer on the path of energy cultivation etc. I've been deprived of the illusory comfort provided by a number of things, things I didnt really think I had too much invested in. More of note I've developed, or rather intuit mostly, many rather casual things in a depth that I've still yet to grow into. 

I'm appreciative of all that's been gifted to me over the years, the aforementioned and beyond, though I still have yet to find a Real application for them. Many of the ways that I consider myself to have improved in terms of my self and my relation to my surroundings could've been done on relatively mundane terms.

Sometimes I feel as though I've burdened myself with much unnecessary sorrow and built a spaceship to go up the street a few blocks, time will tell of course.

Sometimes one doesn't really take into consideration what it means to begin to free oneself from illusion, hopefully from this world, while residing in a geography built upon many illusions and driven primarily by ego/biological imperatives 

I appreciate your response

Perhaps it's the life less examined that is to be tread/envied. So far in my experience I have found little application for what I've accomplished in private and my insights have only made interfacing with western society at large all the more challenging 

47 minutes ago, rideforever said:

What are your circumstances that seem constricting for you ?

Time and transportation 

5 minutes ago, ilumairen said:

Oh, I forgot the young mother who was grateful when I suggested she step in front of me at the gas station queue. The lovely young couple who smiled when I held the door open for them upon entering, and the older lady who expressed appreciation of my manners when I held the door for her when leaving. 

 

When I use the quote, "be the change you wish to see in the world," it isn't idle chatter.

 

Maybe give it a try, and see what happens?

And also to add onto that quote, don't expect anything of anyone in terms of reciprocation or openness 

1 hour ago, rideforever said:

You would do well to get some proper instruction.   

The Haa centre is excellent, and the Satyananda / Bihar School of Yoga is the best general yoga school around that I have seen

There is a book also called "Yoga Tantra and Meditation in Daily Life" by Swami Janakananada.

 

Following such a school you will not have an big problems of the type you describe above.

As for the esoteric and devas, there are many things in the esoteric dimension, and whilst you play with that you are slowly dying and losing your opportunity of finding your true self. 

You can waste many years with the flying purple energies, and probably many people have lost their souls doing it.

Whether you have a normal false self, or an esoteric purple false self, .... well it's all false.

I would not spend much time on that stuff, although a small investigation here and there might be interesting..

 

Indian spirituality is not very concerned with the esoteric, mostly it is either bhakti or direct guru transmission of states of consciousness.   You sit with a teacher, and after some years your light is on.

 

Zen soto is another reliable tradition.  You can spend one day a month at a centre, then return home.

 

If you need to remain inside worldly life then you should not fk around.

Just get yourself properly trained and then practice morning and night, go to work and kiss the wife.

Then you'll get there.

 

I will look into that text, because none of the other options you presented are available to me at this time.

I haven't ever been that interested in the spiritual reality of other entities beyond my experience/encounter with greys. Is it really that easy to lose one's soul on what is certainly a rather isolated "self"-contained path? Or are you communicating in a manner less literal than I'm interpreting it to be?

1 hour ago, voidisyinyang said:

 

When I first did intensive training - I did organic broccoli - it promotes testosterone - and then tofu (it negates testosterone) and then organic brown rice and then organic corn chips with no salt. I used Bragg's soy sodium as a salt substitute. The thing about fruit is that potassium does increase yin qi since it's a more positive ion that activates the vagus nerve. But Fructose activates the left front vagus nerve as a brain glucose energy (so the yin qi goes UP the front). So you want to store up the qi - and a ketose energy source does this the best.

 

So for advanced qigong training - what Chunyi did is switch from a few apples a day to then Chinese dates - a few a day - to then ONE chinese date a day. Something like that - then only water. Then you fast a few days. Then the next time you fast 7 days. Then the next time you fast 14 days. And eventually they do the 49 day cave meditation fast as with http://qigongmaster.com

 

But if you consider the Shaolin diet - if you do "standing active" qigong to fully open the third eye - I think the Shaolin diet is mainly tofu and rice and veggies. And if you just do one meal or two small meals a day before noon - then you clear out the colon pretty soon - before the end of the day. Shaolin actually trains till late at night - and has minimal sleep. So most of that time the colon is gonna be empty. then I think you fast one day a week. That is the "modified bigu" diet. This is also what Wim Hof follows - he says his favorite food is noodles. Noodles are a low glycemic type of wheat - in contrast to bread.

 

So for me - if I have ANY sugar - including even sugar in green plants - then I get an internal tingling as the yin qi or yuan qi is neutralizing the free radicals in the body (produced by the sugar). This tingling is also called Earthing from the yin qi of walking Barefoot outside. So you get yin qi from the Earth also. So that is a KEY secret of the Shaolin training - Barefeet - Chunyi would bury his feet into the earth while doing standing exercise - to make sure to get a full Yin Qi connection.

 

So also sun gazing as Shen - as the Bigu energy feast kicks in  - you are getting the "food" from higher frequency "rainbow" energy. So for me if I do sungazing then when I close my eyes I see bright blue in the center with bigger GREEN around the blue and then red-orange-yellow around the green. So it's a rainbow diet quite literally as the Third Eye literally feeds off the photons - converting the photons into electrochemical energy.

 

So in India a famous tested Breatharian says his sun gazing then produces a sticky fluid that he swallows and that has all the nutrients he needs. I call this "reverse electrolysis" - as what I experienced during my Yuan Qi "immortal breathing" experience. So the top of the skull gets soft and pulsates and the Fontanelle opens up like a baby - hence the term Foetus Breathing. So this literally converts the spacetime quantum (relativistic quantum) energy into matter. This is called the Golden Key in Zhong Gong - the yin matter created is Superluminal - from virtual photon energy from the future. So it has all the nutrients your body needs.

 

That advanced state is hard to maintain unless you're in a culture that promotes it - which obviously the West is not. Although it might be soon as civilization is collapsing fast due to abrupt global warming.

 

I should add that in Daoist Neidan (neigong) alchemy - the Black Tiger as the Po soul lung energy metal - Lead - is the deep reverse breathing that then sublimates the Red Dragon into the Green Dragon (when the red dragon is lowered as internal yang energy via meditation). So that is the secret of the Spring Forest Qigong "logo" - and so the Green is the Yuan Qi energy of the Universe as the Wisdom female energy that is the Female Dragon (that is in the yang part of the body turned internally).

I practiced spring forest for a few months and it yielded what I expected, though I wonder if there is a more compressed concise version? I know the breathing of the universe and the one where you visual a white orb and circulate it through the upper body using both hands at a fixed length , felt particularly powerful and I read a comment stating that the latter could be utilized as a standalone exercise. Also, I remember there being an internal or mental form of qigong which I ultimately became more curious of because I began to find the various poses excessive much the way I did with a lineage of yoga I had entertained.

My main takeaway is to focus on a more plant based diet, trying to abstain from legumes for reasons unknown to me though recommended by authorities on brahmacharya. While I'm a bit anxious about malnutrition with such sparse physical intake, I've found that the discipline of brahmacharya(strict celibacy) imbues me with a huge of vitality that makes me think its meeting nutritional needs I'm unaware of.

I will look into the shaolin diet.

Are there any breathing meditations that you would reccomend? I've read some of your posts over the years and know about the toaist alchemy tome though I never pursued it because of the "incompleteness" perceived by the layman(me). 

Again thank you for your contributions to this forum, of note I found your post about the mental/quantum connotations of images insightful and relatable, as well as the one where you went into depth about a certain breathing practice that yielded good results which I hope you can reiterate here as I don't remember much about the post, though there was something about doing it while sitting on a bed or something I think

I remember the one adherent of spring forest becoming a qigong master over a relatively short period, which I know I can't replicate because I'm not able to sit in lotus position. Do you find yourself on a similar path? I'm pretty sure he cultivated and still resides stateside 

7 hours ago, rideforever said:

I have been taught Tratak at the Haa centre (Satyananda style yoga), where it is done with a mirror behind the candle.   Hmm.

 

During about 1.5 years I sat in meditation in front of a mirror, it's about 50cm square, from Ikea and just sat on the floor reflecting me.  And I had no particular practice, but being very relaxed, looked into my own eyes, and eventually entered a deep state of absorption.   This is a very good practice. 

 

Staring at a candle ... can do several things.   

One is it simply occupies your mind, so that your real self can awaken and experience itself.   

Another way is if you become self-aware in the flow of perception.

These are different practices.

 

The way it is taught at Haa with a mirror and candle is actually two meditaitons combined.  Because, in order to feel the real self and do inner work, one must first have some concentration stability ... and so staring at the candle gives one concentration stability, then you can look into the mirror and feel / question who you are.

 

What is the entity you are aligning with ?   You are waking up, one of the parts of the soul is meant to awaken.

What is the space you will have access to ?  Well, you (the ego) will hopefully be unseated, and instead your real self will awaken in its own space, in its own world.

 

I found the bold and italicized especially interesting, as a few sites with information about Tratak also encourage performing it on a mirror as well as a flame.

When you were combining the practices, did you simply switch off between the two deviating your attention/focus, or did you pursue the flame then the mirror or vice versa?

I ask the question about which entity because of the talk of dimensions usually occult to the average person. Also, when I originally began this meditation there were a few websites with information on tratak that have since vanished from popular search engines. One of the things I remember from the aforementioned was the talk of the practitioner eventually being assigned/engaging with a deva, I'm sure it was another term, that was either light or dark depending on their character. I have also read hindu lore of yogis with high attainments being accompanied by or interacting with certain spirits, which is something I've found similar instances of across the popular eastern energy cultivation practices. All of that aside, if by dimensions that author was referring to the subtle layers of reality that are for the most part imperceptible to the average person then that makes sense and is far less intimidating than some nebulous ineffable realm of the gods 

I have a slight fear of the terms ego and real/true-self, because from what I've gathered many who shed the former become "incapacitated" in a sense that leaves them unable to truly integrate into and work "constructively" with the social whims of the material world at large. I haven't experienced that to the same degree as I've perceived other seekers to have, though I have had a period of extreme instability where my sense of self simply vanished and I had to create a caricature of one of my previous selves just to be able to "carry on" with things in a "normal" fashion. I've witnessed a number of practitioners have to revamp their approach to their interpersonal relations, to life itself, etc and many of them became hermits. I don't have the luxury of being able to adopt a hermetic lifestyle or spend most of my time unanchored abroad in various retreats or mingling with and being put up by like minded individuals and communities 

Basically, I wonder if my real-self will have any easier of a time navigating this world and finding/maintaining a general sense of purpose than the false-self I currently reside in

On 6/10/2019 at 9:58 AM, voidisyinyang said:

 

thank you for sharing. I think the Po Soul of life that is not sentient is the biophoton quantum relativistic energy of plants and fungi for example. So Gabriel Cousens of fasting and "rainbow diet" fame wrote how the secret to his yoga samadhi training in INdia was to not even eat fruit! I worked in an organic fruit job for two years and I realized I could not eat fruit without activating a sick qi reaction. Why? Fruit is mainly fructose - which is inherently toxic to our bodies and so fruit then activates the front vagus nerve - as it reverses the small universe or microcosmic heavenly orbit direction (due to the wrong chirality of the light since fructose is a left-handed sugar).  Dr. Robert Lustig is the expert on fructose as a toxic. So the yin qi is activated as an internal tinging to neutralize the free radicals created by the fructose.

 

Also Daoism is based on this deeper truth of asymmetric time-frequency energy while the fractals that you refer to still rely on symmetric Western math or commutative math systems. So that is more of a Western New Age Freemason esotericism. A lot of posters on this site do not realize this error as it is the wrong foundation of Western civilization - what I called the "rotten root" back in 2001 - based on my recent qigong enlightenment experience.

 

The "original qigong master" as I call http://springforestqigong.com states that for qigong persons - we can only eat till 75% full otherwise the "food goes to the head." What this means is that after the third eye is open then it is permanently magnetized and so the right side vagus nerve is always pulling up kundalini energy (or N/om as the original human culture calls it) - from the 2nd brain. This means that anaerobic bacteria as sick qi will then get leached out of the skull and gums. For example Sri Dhyanyogi in his book "This House on Fire" describes how he was not able to find any food in the US that was purified enough. And so the sick qi for me, from food, is always leaching out of the gums. So I always use essential oils as antiseptics and purifying antioxidants - or use ginger.

 

Yes right now I am on the "feast or famine" diet as I did too much free tantric psychic healing after opening my third eye - so I burned out my jing energy that is from the yang qi. So I have to rely on food as a yin qi source. But just as Milarepa's skin was green from living off stinging nettles while not fasting in meditation - then we can also rely on the biophoton quality of food as the most purest food sources. I have planted stinging nettles on the EcoEcho forest up north as a potential future food source that will be a perennial and spread naturally. Stinging nettles is a complete protein with lots of minerals and vitamins and healing properties.

 

So to store up the qi requires that the qi be "hidden" and in fact one of the top Yan Xin students told me to keep the meditation secret to store up the qi. So then I try to keep the location of the ecoecho forest secret so I can practice meditation there privately.

 

Thanks again for your interest.

 

 

Thank you for the contributions you have made to this forum

Concerning the toxicity of fruit to spiritual advancement, what diet do you find to be conducive to spiritual progress for one residing in the western sphere?

I ask this because as of late I have felt ill after consuming what is for me a normal amount of fruit, my diet being primarily vegetarian. It seems that the more meditative my general mode of thinking and operating in the world has become, the less I desire food. 

I am by no means a qigong master or even a novice, though I have practiced meditation devoutly. That said the information you have shared strikes a chord with me and I'm considering whether I should take up a qigong practice.

While I know that diet is only a small part of the discipline, I would appreciate your insight on the matter 

I have a question regarding candle-gazing meditation, specifically that of Tratak.

I have practiced this meditation in the past, at times with diligence and at others inconsistently, overall the discipline yielded very tangible results. The times of inconsistency and general faltering in the required self-conduct are what caused me to distance myself from the practice, yet in all the time that I have left it alone I've felt a strange compulsion to begin again anew.

While I do not recommend this form of meditation, it has been deemed to be easy, direct and powerful by many internet users and I personally agree with the sentiment. This meditation is seen by a number of people as a sort of straight-shot to self-actualization, a path with "less fluff" if you will. 

My question is, is the end of this particular path indeed self-realization, "enlightenment", or something maybe more nebulous and ineffable?

There isn't much writing on the internet to be found in regards to this particular form of meditation, and the information available tends to be copy-and-pasted from site-to-site ad infinitum, with little in the ways of variance beyond the occasional vague, brief and largely positive testimonials of experience. However, this particular passage kept coming up and really caught my eye:

"The human body is made of five elements: ether, earth, air, water and fire. The Fire Tratak removes from it two constituent elements. Viz. earth and water. By virtue of the Fire Tratak the practitioner brings about a blending of the remaining elements and enters the universe of the three elements. All gods are made of only three elements. One has to leave behind the to elements named above. It is only then can one reach supreme godhead.

The principal use of the Fire Tratak is that one gets endowed with power to enter such realms which are generally obscure and forbidden. The human being who is made of five elements will not be able to reach the universe made of only three elements. He may be the greatest yogi belonging to the highest order.

Dropping two elements is central to the job of acquiring power to enter all realms of the universe. Until the process of elimination is consummated, one has to remain confined to the mundane framework. One can achieve this only through the Fire Tratak."

If someone has had any prior experience with tratak or is able to translate the above into more accessible terms it would be greatly appreciated, because as of now what I've interpreted from the above passage has instilled fear in me much more than curiosity.

Anyways.

I also recently happened into Zoroastrianism where fire is largely revered as a symbol of god and purity. While there are other things/ideals I find to be of interest in that particular religion, the whole fire worship thing is very synchronistic.

For me personally, it just raises a question of what space is it that tratak will eventually grant me access to? Also, what exactly is the force or entity that I'm aligning myself with by continuing to entertain and engage with the practice of tratak?

After all, if one truly does dedicate themselves to this discipline for the long run they would essentially spend a number of days, months, possibly even years, staring into the depths of a flame.

13 hours ago, Fa Xin said:

Let it happen naturally.  Try to accept it, rather than run from the connection. 

 

We all go thru crappy breakups and it would be wonderful to just forget about the people. But there’s important lessons to learn, and stuff to heal that comes with it. There’s no easy fix, unfortunately. 

 

Most energetic links are kept alive through our own thoughts/habits/inner stuff... so short of learning and healing through it, anything else would be a temporary fix. 

 

 

I see and hear what you are saying. Though surely there is some rite I can perform that will disconnect me from this person's sphere of influence entirely.

You seem to be a sentimental person, as am I for the most part. However, I want to no longer have this person be a part of my reality.

I have recently distanced myself from an intimate relationship that I needed to distance myself from. What are the best methods to go about completely cleansing myself of this person's energetic bond with me?

I'm aware that the cessation of thoughts towards them is of benefit, though I know of little beyond that. I would really appreciate any and all input concerning how to begin excising this person's energy and influence from my personal sphere. Please and thank you 

I view particular circumstances in my life to be unfavorable and some unknowable.

I contemplated suicide in earnest.

I saw a method yesterday that illustrated how to change timelines and it seemed a better option that suicide, though is it really? Is the question

I'm wondering about the variables like the people known, places visited, employment, etc are effected by sudden shifts in timelines/subconscious structures

Is it a matter of belief?

What happens 

If there was a possibility of an unfortunate event could one do anything meditatively/spiritually to offset it?

My left eye has been twitching an unusual amount the last few days and I'm wondering if it is due to an energetic imbalance. At certain times when I look at people they turn and look around immediately or just notice me in general, at this point I think it's safe to say far more than usual

I've been trying to correct my mind and body after an emergency situation a couple months ago

This

I practiced strict celibacy for a time before returning to marijuana use and now I'm in the midst of having a relationship with a woman.

The celibacy lead to sexual deviance at times, I fear that it corrupted me energy or worse and I'm unsure

Women react to my thoughts more so than men, almost immediately. It's like my thoughts are loud sometimes 

I notice acute numerical patterns amongst people sometimes and it seems that things I do reveal themselves in conversation with others, especially certain women

I feel like people lie to me sometimes, I think I pick up on things and oftentimesim right, it's lead to a lot of paranoid with the woman I'm seeing

I've gone through a deep depression for years and at times feel like I've lost my personality and sometimes creativity,  though the creativity seems to come back in spurts and I'm not too sure of the cause. I've noticed it happens sometimes when I have an extreme emotional state

I'm trying to get back my life and sometimes it feels as though I'm operating on another level that I'm trying to come down from

I spent a while in isolation while celibate

I want my life back or at least a fulfilling life and even though I've taken steps it's hard to fully believe in at the moment

Sometimes it's like people are telling me about themselves through conversation/metaphor and sometimes I have flashbacks paranoid and anxious of feeling like my experience and those within it revolve around me

Ravens follow me, vultures occassionaly

4s have been a theme as of recent, 7s occassionally 

Are there any realized persons making art?

Given what I perceive to be the dissolution of what entices many artists to create their works, do people make art beyond the point of realization?

With an awakening one is more privy to how their thoughts affect things, so with this hypersensitivity and detachment is one still able to engage in creating such emotive and meaningful pieces authentically?

Much of art throughout time stems from the very neuroses that practitioners seek to uproot

19 hours ago, Gerard said:

Do Internal Martial Arts appeal to you? They are very good at dealing with the root (emotions and yin-yang imbalances), especially Xingyi and Bagua. If so, ask here:

 

http://rumsoakedfist.org/viewforum.php?f=4

 

Also seek TCM herbal treatment to purge that fire and get better sleep. One example of a heat-clearing formula:

 

http://www.americandragon.com/Herb Formulas copy/HuangLianJieDuTang.html

 

Treats > insomnia.

 

Herbalists usually mix herbal formulas, 2-3 at a time and as soon as the healing progresses then different conditions will appear and new formulas are used...and so on. Taking Chinese medicinals is like eating food and drinking water, you never really stop taking them, only take breaks from time to time to let the system adjust itself. For instance, there are longevity formulas once people go past the age of 40-50, they will be taken regularly until physical death arrives.

 

One sample formula:

 

Qi Ju Di Huang Wan (check the formula actions)

 

Treats > senility

 

You may or may not have Heart Fire but as we are about to exit the Fire Rooster year and knowing the Yang nature of our world it is not surprising that you may have excess heat in the Heart channel. Let a doctor look after you. This is only a hint of what you should do, not a full diagnosis done in a professional setting. Good luck

Martial arts appealed to me in the past, though not so much in the present

An acupuncture professional I've been seeing was kind enough to offer his expertise and has filled an order for traditional Chinese herbs to help me treat my ailment. Are there any steps I could take to prevent it from being an indefinite need of herbs? Would a form of qigong or something similar work to balance things in a way where I wouldn't always be dependent upon a supplement?

I'm planning on attending a vipassana course relatively soon, though I'm worried about how I will fare given the phenomena I've experienced and healing from This event