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Ok thank you!

Hey Miffymog, thanks for your answer! I also was thinking about KAP. Which one would you recommend?

Hey guys, I have read some threads about different systems and now I am undecided. Basically I gained enough information to simply confuse myself and not being able to make a decision without doubting it. Could somebody just break it down for me so I can see more clearly plz? This is what I want to get out of it: Mental Clarity and focus would be nice, my desk is full of unfinished projects, I have cold hands and feet like most of the time, I know movement helps. After some Kundalini Yoga or whatever they are gone for some time. So healing aspect should be interesting not only in terms of feeling cold, but due to chronic stress issues and feeling exhausted all the time. When I was von vacation, I have done TaiChi and Yoga and it felt like every single thought was some sort of energy I could simply turn off like a switch, like a very subtle use of a muscle I could simply not do if I didnt want to. I would love to have this possibility in my day to day life by training anything necessary. Also sugar cravings are huge in this one… Spring Forest Qigong sounds very good, most likely this is a good start. Due to shipment costs to europe I would take the level 1-3 package but then there is still 1 $ missing for shipment meh… Also there ist his Five element healing movement course, is it better or what? Better alternatives? Also my time is limited unfortunately being a working dad with a therapyeducation going on aswell. What do you think? Thanks a lot Cheers

Hello guys, I somewhere read of this book in this forum. Do you recommend it right now? How to measure and deepen your spiritual realization by Huai-Chin Nan and William Bodri Some time ago it was still buyable for tons of money, but now it is gone. Any other sources if recommend? Thanks Cheers

Hey guys, sorry for the late respond, I am working a lot right now and also try to get more sleep than usual. thx for all of your replies! @Limahong ye I will do thanks, why so late? 4 a.m.? nightowl? @Kar3n thx @Zlogic valid points with the vegetarian diet, but I will try everything else first the burping is making me crazy because it doesnt stop, it has been like this for months now. I even wake up with nausea the last few days. I dont try to force the kundalini, I just like kundalini yoga because it feels right, I love the dynamic of it, the movement and also that I can do anything from the get go, not after 1 year of bending and strengthening bodyparts. Also it was just some observation, a feeling and other sensations, that my chakras seem to open or something, I simply felt stuff there and when I think about the chakras I can see changes in my life regarding to every single one of them in terms of the sadness and stuff, ye I try not to avoid it as much as possible, also in therapy and due to it, there is so much stuff in my life I have to deal with right now that I cannot overdo that because that process is exhausting, it literally is draining me of my little energy, I really think I have adrenal fatigue right now, trying to fix that as well. I am going to sleep soon also quite a story you have, I have gone through your thread, I see similarities between what you have written and my story, very interesting, will observe I dont want to comment much on this, because I really dont have any valueable things to say besides: cool that you are here and working on your stuff, awesome community has a new member. Cheers guys

Hey guys, thanks again for sharing! My work is consuming me and I try to get more sleep, thus the later answer btw, adreanl fatigue seems to be a good term to describe my condition, at least a huge part of it @thelerner ok I will check thanks @Limahong 1 To be the best possible father I can be 2 Therapy has invoked the wish in myself to find and live my potential, whatever that means Ye I need to chill about that, it just happens or doesnt. Right now I just to get some sleep, more than usual I had a kundalini session a few days ago which literally depleted all my energy, I was capable of doing much more than usual and now I am tired There is so much sadness in the past, how the things went, and somehow for some reason on rare ocasions this sadness comes up, right now when I am typing it is here, I try to look at it without changing it. ye of course, just a term I used, met some wonderful people there, and the answer is I dont know, right now no, in a month? maybe? lets see how things turn out. how exactly? reading? Zazen? Meditation? anything else? I will also read into the thread you mentioned. thank you! @moment I did for some time, how exactly regarding few things and stuff, any examples`? my life seems to be too full right now, I am trying to get stuff out, you are right about that, helps a lot, and thx! @Mudfoot ok I need to check that, I dont understand yet @Spotless ye but any tricks on that? This is hard, I am improving but I dont know to be honest, now and then it hits me pretty hard. Therapy seems to help as well, Sadness and stress bring me there any practice to balance out cravings or something? Thanks guys! so nr 1 priority is sleep right no nr 2 is order around me other important things are in no particular order cleaning my inner house and watch what else is there, sugar addiction because I dont know how to take it full front, exercise here and there, thanks guys! I will reread all of it as soon as possible and try to improve. all the best to you

thank you all so much for those replies, very kind of you, I really need to improve and try a lot of that! @WayofChi really interesting technique, I will give it a try, thx @thelernen ye you are right with the sleep, got to do that! about nutrition, any more specific advice? I mean easy to cook recipes or something, a site you can recommend? there are so many different systems out there, dont know which one to follow thx for the rest as well! tried apps, will try the talks, need to learn guitar too @Limahong thx for this detailed reply! nothing creative there, in hindsight I was just depressive and didn't want to see some things, now I am coming back Actually I was just doing stuff, Kundalini yoga felt right to me and now different stuff happens, but process is slow and not overwhelming right now. actually sadness I guess, I dont want to be so dependent on sex anymore. it is all so sad. I would love to be in a fullfilling relationship with sex and stuff, but somehow me and my girlfriend cannot manage to do that. dont know if this gets better. I used prostitutes and felt ashamed for that, we have a little child, I love it, there is a feeling of not being able to leave now. I am sick of how Sex is such an important part of my life, also I want to use those energies for healing purposes but probably my thinking is wrong on the lifestuff here. part of the therapy is to figure it all out i guess, walk through this hell of emotions waiting for me in this corner Thank you Lima! @Mudfoot so any further qigong recommendations? you are probably right, I need to save life energy, trained kundaliniyoga too hard today, got dizzy... Thank you all for the comments guys!

Hey guys, thanks for the replies! Keep it coming @Marblehead dont know, I hope to get to my inner core, release and live my potential, I try to be honest to myself and others about it, progression in therapy demands it, I am sick of myself the way I am right now, trying to integrate everything that hasn't been looked at for so long @Mudfoot which kind of standing Qigong are you thinking of? Should I try Zhan Zhuang? This is mostly standing right? usually I love the hard way but I am exhausted somehow, I also need some alternative for the weak days @Lost in Translation thx mate, I appreciate!

Hey guys, exited to be here, very interesting forum, I have been reading some threads and wanted to join because I have all sorts of questions My thread goes longer so I write different sections if you want to skip Long story short, I am looking for help regarding the process I am going through right now, not any sort of "please help me or I kill myself help" but some practical advice from experienced people to help me with the process I am going through right now personal story (past) some sort of event, read on the internet and in books many would say some spiritual awakening like 6 or 7 years ago with no preparation for that at all and not being spiritual to that time in terms of reading literature of that sort or doing any sort of spiritual practice, it just happened by reaching all my life goals and being depressed by it because I was very sad, happiness seemed not being reachable didn't matter how much I tried, I was far from home, a book I was reading at the time basically came down to the question of who am I, what is my inner core, when I was so sad because my logical thinking has let me to that point and I wasn't happy so I thought damn you logical thinking, thanks for that. I just let go and then it happened state of bliss for weeks, everything easy, I had everything I needed, it was magic, extreme knowledge and stuff after that I jumped back into my old life and somehow my old conditions came back and then I was trapped in all sorts of things. It has been for years and at some point I got really depressed, actually at several points, I couldnt get back to this feeling, sometimes I got there but it faded again. (last few months) I am going through a very hefty psych therapy right now. It is awesome and helps me on so many levels, it literally destroys all sorts of fears and stuff, feeling of I am getting free and more and more independent. In retrospect I really was depressed and adopted a lifestyle of slowly killing myself by not caring on health anymore. So basically what happens is I am exploring everything there is inside of me and go through all the emotions I can find but it can be hard sometimes, I cry and scream and stuff, all part of the therapy I am also working at home on going deeper conditions due to not enough sleep the last 18 months or so feeling tired, even got my first grey hairs, 20 or something, I am 33 Sugar addiction, very hard one, I have been eating a lot of it for the past 2 or 3 years Doctor said I am fine, only my immune system is weak, no Diabetes or something, but I feel if I wouldn't have made this therapy I would get some serious conditions in 1 or 2 years or something feeling very weak all the time in general, feeling of not being able to lift anything, it is like being separated from my strength because I feel it is there, at least more than I feel right now. bad posture lots of sadness, couldnt even watch sad movies or news or something had a ton of stress, not anymore cold hands and feet very often, improving now tons of time in front of the computer, improving now as well lots of nausea, gets stronger with burping Kundalini teacher and psych therapist both say I need more grounding super weak hara centre, I am thin and flexing my muscles I have a sixpack, not due to tons of training but vegetarian diet for 7 years and also my body doesn't accumulate much fat at all, but the point is, this area feels superweak, like a finger could pierce it through very sensitive to peoples emotions, dependency to give in to negative emotions of others fades due to therapy. developed an allergy, dry skin at the eyes, 1,5 years, we had 2 cats for almost 3 years now, my mother has a strong cat allergy, tests say I do not have any sort of allergy, doctor cannot say anything helpful here practicing nofap due to this therapy, no problem anymore with this. I had 2 orgasms in the last 60+ days, none due to masturbation. as I said I am 33 so having tons of orgasms wouldn't be a problem the psych therapy and nofap and some Kundaliniyoga push my energy through my body upwards it seems it started in the first chakra as a warm circling feeling, had some sensations at the second chakra and the third one takes some time right now. Felt increased activity there, sounds and stuff for quite some time. I have some hefty blockage in my chest area. got through it a few times now, cried a lot and stuff when it happened and then it came back I cannot take a deep breath without burping, burping like a crazy person, all the time, when doing Qigong it is extreme, at least 200 times in less than 10 minutes last time. coughing now and then, spitting slime same as with a flew, but there is none... I feel like interests change and stuff fades away less interested in reading, I have read a ton of spiritual literature since the event happened, so basically I am in the head very hard right now. I am going through all sort of layers now. So what to do now? I am to weak for Kundaliniyoga all the time. Also it drags me to "soft" stuff like Qigong, I know it can be superhard, but the movements are so soft, it just feels right. I am trying to learn Yi Jin Jing from a DVD and a book right. Also have a book on Zhan Zhuang, but not doing anything with it right now. I did yang style taichi for almost 1,5 years but never learned the whole form, but somehow I dont connect with it. any recommendations from you guys in terms of what to learn, what to do or whatever? Thank you sincerely Cheers edit1: grammar & added symptoms edit2: more symptoms