seby223

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  1. I think I am on the right path but just so full of expectations. For example, i've been feeling a rushing like feeling push up my spine when practicing. It feels like its having trouble passing my neck into my head, and also the initial push from the perineum up the spine. But sometimes when things line up right it seems to work, and go up. It feels like a warm sensation that fills my body when the energy reaches the third eye location, but there is never any orgasm or release. It seem it just gets good and more intense (but isnt really "pleasurable", like it doesnt feel good but it feels like a rush of something pushing through me) but then when it gets to the peak it always either ends in a quick pleasurable 2-3 second peak, or mostly (90% of the time) the energy stops flowing and I go towards ejaculation. Does my experience make sense to anybody? I think my main problem is I dont see myself having any progress (even when I am) and i get very discouraged, and sad/angry at myself for it not working.
  2. @Limahong I feel you are prejudiced against cannabis. The only reasoning you've given me to stop using it is that it's illegal in Singapore. Where I am I have a medical prescription and am allowed to use it. I don't use it every day, and I have no problem taking extended breaks of not using it. I don't think it's the issue here
  3. @dawei Is kundalini more along the lines of what I'm looking at/for? I will try and focus on connection next time I am with my girl. I can see what your saying, ive read somewhere about a tantra idea of being in a complete state of "receiving" and "giving" in sex, and have already tried to incorporate this. I feel that is along the same lines as what you are suggesting.
  4. Might I ask why cannabis is a big no no? I find it helpful to feeling my energy, and it acts as a sort of "preview" of what's to come. I find if I use it once, or twice a week, I can notice more about the nature of how the energy acts, and it gives me a better idea of what's happening that I can take into my sober meditation and yoga in the following few day's. Obviously I don't know anything about this so I may be completely wrong, and I recognize it is not "the way", but as of now I would view it as sort of like training wheels. @limahong you are completely correct. I am full of expectations. I should release those and enjoy the experienced I have. I love sex with my girlfriend, I love the connection I feel with her and the love we share. I should release my ejaculatory worries and Basque in those feelings. We are long distance at the moment, but in September we will be back together and I will be sure to try and stay in the feeling of connection. @Limahong @dawei the sad thing is I have no memory of my first ejaculation, neither of night emmisions or wet dreams. The most was I found my pijamas a little less dry than they should be! But I understand your sentiment. These events were not expected, not forced to happen. They just came, were experienced, enjoyed and then moved on from. The weird thing is I understand I am going at this all wrong full of expectations, but I feel my ego is very much in control of this area of my life. I may need to meditate on my motivations, and practices to better understand myself and why I am so worried about this.
  5. @dawei Sorry, I should explain more. I only have one girlfriend, I believe I should have written "girlfriend's" rather than "girlfriend". On the point of the jealousy, that was simply what got me started on this practice. Now I'm in it to be able to have more connected, worry free sex. I realize my original motivations were heavily ego driven. Right now during I'm constantly worrying about when I'll finish, if I last long enough... The standard stuff. I'd like to get past that and be able to fully emerse myself in the experience and feel every drop of love I have for this woman, without worrying. Also, I feel like limiting myself to the 3-5 second ejaculation is only letting myself feel 1/10th of what I am capable of, and why not enjoy everything to the fullest? I also feel that with a deeper orgasm, the connection with my girl itself will be allowed to be deeper and more powerful than if I just let myself go within 4-7 minutes with such a peripheral experience. I feel such a deep, powerful experience of energy flow would make the connection even deeper. Not that I don't feel one now, I definitely do spend time gazing in her eyes and matching her breath to mine. On a side note, I am able to feel the energy 100x better with much more control when I consume cannabis, as well as achieve multiple orgasms. I've yet to get there sober but I think I'm getting closer everyday, I feel I just need some direction, as I'm kinda shooting in the dark here. Thanks for your assistance everybody !
  6. Hello Everybody! A bit about me: I have always been "spiritual" lets say. Never bought into my catholic upbringing and the such. After a few experiences with psychedelic drugs I became interested in meditation, yoga and generally eastern religions and their mentalities and views on life and existence (mostly buddhism and jainism). I now have a daily yoga and meditation practice. Nothing huge, just 2 sets of sun salutations followed by 20 minutes or so of isha kriya meditation. I am posting today because I have been practicing the material from mantak chia's book on sexuality. My motivations for this in the beginning were very ego driven: i simply was jealous of the orgasms my girlfriends were having, and wanted more from my 3-5 second burst of an ejaculation. Now after 2 months or so of (not to successful) practice, I realize it is not solely about the pleasure of an orgasm, but the deeper understanding of ones of sexuality, and a more healthy control over it (eg, not ogling every nice girl that walks by). I have been doing the cool draw daily, but not too sure if I am getting anywhere. I don't really feel a tingling or energy like described, only like, a "fullness" or presence, imagine molasses travelling around the body. It seems i can kinda tell where the energy is, but its not a real sensation so I am not really sure if it is what I feel, or placebo. Im not sure what I am supposed to feel, or if what I am feeling is correct, but that's just my bodies own expression of sexual energy (were all different!). Although, on occasion I feel a distinct tingling sensation in my testicles, but I have not yet been successful on pulling it up into the perineum and rest of the body. I have also been doing the big draw, and seem to be making a little progress there. I definitely feel more when self cultivating, but when thing start feeling nice they do not really travel up the spine at all, and it crest over into ejaculation. Albeit the ejaculation is a little more pleasurable, it is just as short and underwhelming. I keep reading in many places of these incredible, energetic whole body orgasms, and would like to get there, but I seem to need a little more guidance than mantak chia's books are offering. Also I am unsure when I should put my tongue to the roof of my mouth, throughout a sexual experience (with my self or otherwise) or only afterwards to bring the energy back down from my head? I have heard some criticism on Mr. Chia;s teachings, and would be totally open to a new practice if any of you have any suggestions on how I could get this working! Have any of you achieved this? Any tips or experiences you would like to share? Anything at all is well appreciated Thanks, keep the good vibes rolling!
  7. @Hancock I forgot to mention, every now and then I get a fleeting tingling sensation in my testicles, but as I try to focus it to the perenium it seems to enter my body and dissipate, or disappear. Is this the energy I should be moving?
  8. @hancock Thanks for the response. I'm just a little confused, what are Jing and yang/yin chi? Google isn't being to helpful. Also you said the molasses is the jing, but also it's yang chi?? Can you recommend any other cultivation techniques? I am not aware of any. Have you had any success with this practice?
  9. Hello Everybody! Wow am I every glad i found this forum! from what i've read so far it is a beautiful resource filled with beautiful helpful people. Nice to see after spending a little to much time on reddit lol. A bit about me: I have always been "spiritual" lets say. Never bought into my catholic upbringing and the such. After a few experiences with psychedelic drugs I became interested in meditation, yoga and generally eastern religions and their mentalities and views on life and existence (mostly buddhism and jainism). I now have a daily yoga and meditation practice. Nothing huge, just 2 sets of sun salutations followed by 20 minutes or so of isha kriya meditation. I am posting today because I have been practicing the material from mantak chia's book on sexuality. My motivations for this in the beginning were very ego driven: i simply was jealous of the orgasms my girlfriends were having, and wanted more from my 3-5 second burst of an ejaculation. Now after 2 months or so of (not to successful) practice, I realize it is not solely about the pleasure of an orgasm, but the deeper understanding of ones of sexuality, and a more healthy control over it (eg, not ogling every nice girl that walks by). I have been doing the cool draw daily, but not too sure if I am getting anywhere. I don't really feel a tingling or energy like described, only like, a "fullness" or presence, imagine molasses travelling around the body. It seems i can kinda tell where the energy is, but its not a real sensation so I am not really sure if it is what I feel, or placebo. Im not sure what I am supposed to feel, or if what I am feeling is correct, but that's just my bodies own expression of sexual energy (were all different!). I have also been doing the big draw, and seem to be making a little progress there. I definitely feel more when self cultivating, but when thing start feeling nice they do not really travel up the spine at all, and it crest over into ejaculation. Albeit the ejaculation is a little more pleasurable, it is just as short and underwhelming. I keep reading in many places of these incredible, energetic whole body orgasms, and would like to get there, but I seem to need a little more guidance than mantak chia's books are offering. Also I am unsure when I should put my tongue to the roof of my mouth, throughout a sexual experience (with my self or otherwise) or only afterwards to bring the energy back down from my head? Have any of you achieved this? Any tips or experiences you would like to share? Anything at all is well appreciated thanks!