We live in a domain, in a dimension, where other-dimensional beings, immortals, gods, goddesses, buddhas, bodhisattvas, daikinis, archangels, aliens, dragons, elves, dwarves, cosmos, stars. nymphs, fae, unicorns, pegasus live among us and yet remain hidden to our unenlightened mortal eyes.   For many years now, I didn't want to face the truth that I am blind to the existence and movements of female immortals and female goddesses and female archangels and female buddhas and female bodhisattvas and female daikinis who have always been around me screaming that I must not be involved in any relationships with any mortal women and yet I stubborn kept my lustful sexual attachments to human mortal women.   You see.. I am lonely.. I am horny.. I am desperate for love.. But I am not destined to get into a relationship with any mortal women, not even if she is an enlightened human mortal women.   Today, I have been attacked all day by unknown spiritual masters who are punishing me for trying to seduce a relatively unknown z-list actress with C cup breasts who have the hots for me because I had been lying to my conscience that I liked her and that I loved her but in reality, I am only in lust with her body and her breasts.    More importantly, I only want to make use of her body for my dual sexual cultivation. Yes I do have some feelings for her but they are more sexual lustful feelings than the pure romantic loving kindness feelings which come from looking at a beautiful face.   My Father, The Divine Creator God, The Universe Itself, Please Forgive Me For All My Sins, Especially Please Forgive Me For My Sexual Lustful Attachments Towards Human Mortal Women.   I now face the stark truth, my real destiny, that I can only wait for a Female Immortal Goddess to show herself physically in front of me.   I now face the stark truth, my real destiny, that I will never get into a relationship with any female human mortals women again.   I now face the stark truth, my real destiny, that I will always be different from all mortal human beings on this planet earth.     마음 (Big Heart) - 폴킴 (Paul Kim) | 가사 (Lyrics)   Hiding the thoughts Being accustomed to that Someone I won’t be able to share this feeling with   When darkness compared to the mornings Someone that cools and comforts me Don’t get timid from the harsh words of others It will be difficult and that is normal It’s not really anything at all   How much farther must I run To become happier That feeling you’ve enclosed in your heart I hope to cherish it together   Being alone Compared to a friend Feels more comforting to me    I can see own self falling Feels familiar no relaxing This is the place of my comfort
  How much higher must I rise To be able to smile That feeling you’ve hidden in your heart I hope it finds freedom   Within the boundless night sky Just a tiny dot Among the endless stars The heart that wasn’t seen Is more than you know