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It hasn't just been about reptiles. Maybe I'm already on the other side of this and it's just time to go. Thank you for your concern.

Thank you Chris. A big thank you for this lovely rain. Sincerely hope all that made you feel better.

That's exactly right and that's exactly what I meant. That funky Asian place was there for me to choose from in the Kunlun Mall. It's never been part of the choice with other practices I've tried. I don't think I've blamed anyone for it, but did naively assume that there'd be some more help in regards to whether or not considering it and other things as "reality" was in my best interest.

You did help me. My sincerest thanks for illustrating the definition of EGO-PENIS.

I stand by this comment and won't apologize for stating the truth.

My comment was in reference to Satori's behavior. It hasn't happened to everyone but to enough Kunlun people that it has made me rethink this path. -O- was the first Kunlun person who posted that showed me something else, and of course Max. I always liked the way Max wrote about things too. I haven't meant to offend with my comments. If I have then I'm truly sorry about that. I won't be posting again.

Which brings us back to this: I'm out. I've had my fill and know I can do better for myself in other directions. I don't have any direction at the moment. The outdoors beckons, and that's a good start.

I agree. The Kunlun practice puts reptiles on a plate for you to sample.

Thank you. You offer me the first glimmer of positive change that's potentially possible with this practice.

Some engaged all of it and still do and not in any kind of a testing way. There's always been an arrogant attitude in regards to answers to questions regarding it, that we were too scared and would just "pee and poo our pants" and that somehow we couldn't or wouldn't be able to handle any of it. That's why I say that any fear around this wasn't created by the students but came right from those teaching it. There attitude suggested to me at least that they all knew something I didnd't and that I should indeed fear it. I consider having guidance in regards to something like this as a necessary tool and because it was missing it might possibly be the reason why so many people get so attached to the experiences, the teacher and the other students etc.

I agree with this. I've not pushed away the negative and have noted that some others haven't either. The questions have always been whether interaction with all of it was in the practicioner's best interest. You've experienced the entities then? Voices? Visions? Abilities? Corresponded and dialogued with it and used it as guidance on your path? Or have you looked at it all as illusory and said no thanks? I ask because it's really easy to write what you've written when you haven't. Genuine guidance from those who have lived it and have found a middle way would have been appreciated.

Thank you for responding to my comments.

Thank you for letting me know!

Just voicing out loud some thoughts based on TexasNative's comments. I stopped because I don't like who the Kunlun people I started out with are becoming. I don't want that to happen to me.

Thank you. Don't care to tell my story. You've heard it before on the Kunlun site anyway. I didn't talk as much as some but managed to share enough just the same. Why did I stop? I think I can do better for myself. Mind if I ask why you never committed to it 100% and keep jumping from teacher to teacher and practice to practice?

He does disappear when things get bothersome. He kept telling me that he wasn't a teacher. I thought he was being modest so didn't take him seriously but realize now he was telling the truth. He also said he wanted to be a friend but then he kept disappearing when things got bothersome. How is Yoda doing? Does anyone know? How are his kids doing?

Thank you for the welcome!

What exactly have you cleared up? You've put a halo around the practice and the teacher. How have they helped you with letting things go?

Having this setup and in place about 2 years ago when I attended my first seminar would have served me well, as would have been some help from you or Max when I I had questions about it.