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  1. 14 hours ago, freeform said:

    Another perspective regarding having a genuine teacher.

     

    You already have one... Or rather you have dozens. Hundreds maybe. These teachers are aspects of your acquired mind... they’re that anonymous dude on 4Chan... they’re the random passages you remember from Ekhart Tolle and other writers... they’re posts on this forum... they’re the countless of other people and influences you have.

     

    Whether you like it or not all these things are guiding your spiritual path.

     

    And it’s worth asking - have these people/thoughts/memories/books achieved or on the way to achieving what it is you seek?

     

    Are they heavily interested in having you achieve what you seek?

     

    Are they able to give corrections, lessons and transmissions that will guide you through subtle, confusing and difficult terrain - at the right time and at the right points in your development?

     

    Have they lead others along the path? And have the others achieved or are on the way to achieving what it is you seek?

     

    You already have teachers. Most of them should be fired :) If none of them cover the criteria above, well maybe you need to find one that does?

    That's so cool dude, because this is exactly how I think about it. I mean exactly how. So even when learning to play guitar, I would just print out tabs from the library an play along with my favorite bands and guitarists, so it became them who were teaching me. And when I'm talking to people on forums I often think of them as just different aspects of myself. I think of all people like this really, ever since I had a sudden and profound spiritual experience six years ago. And I just recently got a teacher, but she lives three time zones away and we met for the first time the other day via Skype. I worry I won't have enough money to pay her though. I'm poor, as in well below the poverty line, so I don't know what to give her for an hour of her time. I told her I'd like to give her $60 per hour, per week we meet, but this is like 20-30% of my whole paycheck. She told me to give what I could afford and what I felt the sessions were worth, also noting what the standard is for such things, but I don't know the standard. But she also said that she don't want me to go without food for the week or even something I would like to buy for myself. It's been bothering me and I don't know what to do about it. Any advice?

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  2. On 10/18/2018 at 8:51 AM, freeform said:

    Ahh Nei Dan - the pinnacle of Daoist internal arts. The practice that you reach after decades of intensive neigong and Qi gong practice. This is where you move onto once you’ve found, activated and built your Dan Tien (the real, physical thing), cleared most of your channels, built the soft tissues into the correct shape and set up a smooth, strong circulation. You’ve also cultivated the correct quality of mind and breath through thousands of hours of sitting practice and now you’re finally ready to go onto firing the furnace... few ever get to this stage...

     

    But hopefully this is an accurate picture of your current level of development! But something tells me it may not be (I’m certainly not there yet!) 

     

    Red flags for me:

    1) doing internal training with no teacher (it’s like learning surgery from medieval books written in Latin)

    2) lots of perineum squeezing in the past (Chia?)

     

    I really don’t mean to sound harsh, but it is what it is. My best guess as to what’s happening is that you’re stimulating your perineum and it’s creating internal heat. If you’ve done a lot of Chia’s stuff, you’ve probably built a connection between perineum and heart. If I’m accurate (which is not that likely to be fair) and you carry on full-force with this practice you’re most likely develop sexual deviancy and then fuel it until you go nuts :) 

     

    Or just find a good teacher and you’ll do great!

    I know I quoted and responded to you already and pointed this out, but I didn't directly ask the question, so I'm going to ask it now. How did you know about the sexual deviant behavior? Because it really did cause this and in fact, I had a friend who wanted to look up Kundalini yoga and the breath of fire (which I presume is basically what I did) and I warned him against pursuing it for exactly that reason, that I became overwhelmed with sexual and sexually deviant thoughts an they didn't go away until I actually put myself in a very risky situation as a recovering addict to have sex three times over the course of two weeks with a girl who is addicted to heroin and was shooting up right in front of me in my house, and I allowed it because I knew she couldn't have sex while she was in withdrawals, and she left a bunch of needles and some fentanyl at my house and stole some money from me, and I was 5 days in to Suboxone withdrawals because I decided it was time for me to stop taking it.

     

    So yeah, I put myself in a position to relapse jus for sex, and the sex itself was even consentually violent and degrading, but wasn't nearly as bad as what I was contemplating the night before, when I was stuck with a hard on I couldn't get rid of and watching gross pornography, which is not like me, and masturbating but not ejaculating because I was convinced I need my semen to keep pursuing this. Luckily, I had sex and my meditation went back to normal.

     

    TL;DR- How did you know about the sexual deviance? I find this pretty remarkable and is one of those things that removes doubt and skepticism in my mind when I find out how manipulating the subtle energies in my body can have real and predictable results. Thank you, I appreciate it.


  3. On 10/18/2018 at 1:30 PM, freeform said:

     

    Depends what you mean by somewhere. Depends also on the quality of sitting. Depends also on the other aspects of practice - moving, standing etc. 

     

    The ‘fastest’ way is doing all three for a total of 3 to 6hrs a day (sometimes more isn’t better, sometimes is) - it would take about 3yrs to get the foundations down. (That’s the physical structure, fully active DT, most obvious blockages and stagnation dealt with etc)

     

    At this point you can start Nei Dan which will work on the deeper aspects of your acquired mind and deeper channels and aspects of your energy body.

     

    Keeping your practice up for 10yrs would ‘build the qigong body’ almost completely. From then on qigong is mostly redundant and your practice tends to be more sitting and standing - Nei Gong and Nei Dan.

     

    At this point you’d be well past the 10,000hr mark, but still only the early stages of alchemy and meditation (and intermediate stages of neigong).

     

    So yeah - it’s a long road. It also means quite difficult, focused practice every day, not just taking it easy and enjoying the floatiness. That’s why ‘gong’ is translated as ‘skill acquired through dedicated practice over time’.

     

    Saying all that, with the right school you should experience some ‘extraordinary’ effects within a few months. It just takes a long time to achieve the deeper more profound transformations we hear about. Like the De (the virtues) - which according to Chia is achieved in a few breaths by making sounds and imagining the inner smile :)

     

     

    It's interesting you mention the hours... Have you seen the studies on people with over 62,000 hours of meditation? Apparently there are no words to describe what their base experience is like, and they ask them to meditate. I'd imagine people like that don't meditate anymore, they are either think or not thinking, sitting quietly or not. Their brains are constant gamma waves.


  4. 11 hours ago, Taoist Texts said:

    The common mistake you guys make is to equate '" martial/energetic things" with "any discipline". The latter produce ordinary results, while true M/E is supposed to produce extraordinary results. One can try and study M/E without a teacher but that would be only a pretend study,  which will produce only ordinary results, or more precisely no results at all.

     

    Hence when asking

    one needs to specify the results you are expecting. If you are expecting ordinary results a teacher is not important at all. But if you want to get extraordinary results then a true teacher is a must. 

    Extraordinary. I've been gifted a masculine, energetic, sensitive body. Shouldn't I use it to defend the weak? Or at least, to be prepared to?


  5. On 10/18/2018 at 8:51 AM, freeform said:

    Ahh Nei Dan - the pinnacle of Daoist internal arts. The practice that you reach after decades of intensive neigong and Qi gong practice. This is where you move onto once you’ve found, activated and built your Dan Tien (the real, physical thing), cleared most of your channels, built the soft tissues into the correct shape and set up a smooth, strong circulation. You’ve also cultivated the correct quality of mind and breath through thousands of hours of sitting practice and now you’re finally ready to go onto firing the furnace... few ever get to this stage...

     

    But hopefully this is an accurate picture of your current level of development! But something tells me it may not be (I’m certainly not there yet!) 

     

    Red flags for me:

    1) doing internal training with no teacher (it’s like learning surgery from medieval books written in Latin)

    2) lots of perineum squeezing in the past (Chia?)

     

    I really don’t mean to sound harsh, but it is what it is. My best guess as to what’s happening is that you’re stimulating your perineum and it’s creating internal heat. If you’ve done a lot of Chia’s stuff, you’ve probably built a connection between perineum and heart. If I’m accurate (which is not that likely to be fair) and you carry on full-force with this practice you’re most likely develop sexual deviancy and then fuel it until you go nuts :) 

     

    Or just find a good teacher and you’ll do great!

    I don't know why I never said notifications for responses to this thread. But it's quite funny, you're fairly close there. Actually, Cheshire cat's question was enough to make me take a look at what I was doing. I was going to apologise for my foolishness and delete this thread.

     

    Yes, it was Chia. No, I hadn't studied anything of his. But I practiced martial arts, some sexual Qigong , Tai chi an meditation for several years at varying levels of dedication with what I could find in books. I practiced reverse breathing so much it became a habit, and I didn't like condoms, so I learned to at least delay if no stop orgasm entirely with basically breath and squeezing. My point is, years later, I'm dedicated, still no teacher, and I come across Chia's teaching actually from a student of his, so I tried it.

     

    It felt wrong, that's why I stopped. It felt unnatural in a way, I mentioned in another thread about this, it felt unearned... Just off. Which is why I stopped when the heat rose to my heart. To me, this is like trying to drive a car by cutting a hole in the floorboard and pushing with your feet. Your forcing something, and just ignoring the purpose of the entire system.

     

    So I wasn't not-humble, just not skeptical enough, hence a fool. Am I to believe that if I would have continued I'd have had a DMT trip? I doubt it.

     

    Also, the most scary thing you said was about the sexual deviancy. I actually had to call my ex GF and have her come over and fuck me and I gave her some money because my sexual appetite had become voracious. I was practicing semn retention before that. After we had sex an I relaxed, I realized what was going on, I made the connection Immediately that this behavior and the thoughts prior were so out of character for me.

     

    So I'll leave this thread here as a warning. There's another teacher too who teaches nei dan like it's just a series of mechanics and then voila. Can't remember his name. An here's a question no one has answered me yet. Why is important to have a teacher? I homeschooled myself, and have taught myself various skills over the years, like music, art, cooking. Why is a teacher so important? Genuinely asking.


  6. 29 minutes ago, Marblehead said:

    Thanks.

     

    So, yes, a lot of people will consider you a sage.  But other than stroking your ego, what value does that label have?

     

    I have lots of opinions.  I'm sure you are already aware of that.  But there are some concepts I have not yet considered so in order to be honest I must admit that I have no opinion regarding whatever concept.

     

    And it is important for us to remember that our opinion never creates a truth.  It's not always easy to find a truth but it is really rather easy to form an opinion.

     

    Yes, we must speak from experience, not opinion. So, what value does the label have? Well, the same as any label. I often view "sage" as another way of saying "higher self", i.e., what would the best version of me do. So sage is a word that describes a set of behaviors which become a type of tool kit. I can't remember where I read it, I think in The Secret of the Golden Flower, but basically it says, if you take the description of the Sage from chapter 15 of Tao Te Ching, and try to emulate all of those characteristics, then you actually invoke, or embody the higher self. Basically, you are creating an environment in which the higher self would be comfortable in.

     

    So does the label serve you? No, it would only serve the ego. But we need always love and be proud of ourselves. If the last hurdle you have to jump is letting go of spiritual desire, then you've come a long way. We all have. Because of we're here, we're doing something right.

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  7. I am trying to find my way with food. Particularly, coming off Suboxone, I need energy, liver, kidneys and brain regeneration. Sleep is an issue as well. On a deeper level, I'm practicing the very, VERY beginnings of internal alchemy, and thus am interested in changing my body's pH balance. I identify as a Taoist, because it is easiest, but I'm more specifically an esoteric mystic, I guess. I want to know what everyone eats, an their experience with food, changing diets. I just stopped eating meat a few days ago. I have decided I will not eat anything I would be unwilling to procure. So, I would milk a cow, takean egg, kill a shrimp, maybe even a fish. But nothing else. This happens naturally also. I have no moral issue with killing animals, but I do have a moral issue with industry. So ANYWAY:

     

    What do you identify as? (Taoist, Buddhist, atheist, gnostic luciferian,Catholic etc.)

    What does your diet look like?

         Breakfast?

         Lunch?

         Dinner?

         Snack?

    How did you come to this diet?

    What benefits have you noticed from it?

    How have your different diets made you feel?

    Any other observations about certain foods, supplements, etc?

    Drugs/medications: side effects, benefits and food interactions?

    Any other comments or pieces of advice?

     

    SPECIFICALLY FOR TAOISTS

    Grains or no grains?

    Are whole grains okay?

    Natural sugar vs. refined sugar?

    Carbs vs no carbs?

    Cooked versus raw food?

    Vegetable/fruit juice:

         Pastuerized or unpastuerized?

         Better or worse than eating the entire fruit/vegetable?

         Smoothies?

    FASTING:

         Resources?

         How long?(min./max)

         Experiences?

     

    I really appreciate it guys. I'd like this thread to be a resource for everyone. I find it very difficult to learn what the Taoists diet looks like. I understand this is because of the individual nature of Taoism, and it's feminine and embracing nature. But still, I'd like to know how others eat and why.

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  8. On 10/16/2018 at 1:41 PM, s1va said:

     

    Hi Yonkon,

     

    Listening to music attentively or totally absorbed is a powerful spiritual practice in it's own right.  The Vijnana bhairava tantra describes several types of unconventional meditative techniques to make the mind see the reality.  One of them is to listen to music with complete attention.  

     

    You say it didn't work so far.  Are you so sure?  Maybe it worked.  Kundalini is nothing to fear as long as it was not triggered by some drug use, or any type of dumb brute force methods.

     

    Welcome to the community!  Look forward to hearing more from you in the discussions.

     

    Regards,

    S1va.

    This interests me. I'm day 85/100 of my meditation/Qigong foundation, on on about day 35, I broke through a barrier listening to Tool while meditating. I still listen to them sometimes when I meditate, though I prefer just the normal sounds of my house/neighborhood, such as horns honking and dogs barking. I used to put on singing bowls to drown out sudden sounds, but now I find they help me grow.

     

    Anyway, I like music about breathing and spiritual concepts, but I left Tool playing a few weeks ago, and a song came on, which, funnily enough, is about how pointless it is to take DMT and meet other beings who tell you secrets when you just come back and can't remember anything except that it happened. But I was like 30-40 minutes into my meditation, focusing on my breath, when I had sufficient energy, I began listening. I did not identify with the words at all. They don't conjur images or definitions or memories in my head. My body, however, seemed to remember the music, as it pulsed through my in alternating, undulating waves of chills and warmth, just continuously. We've all gotten chills from music, but this was like I could just tap in, take a breath, and experience them come on for the entire breath, in and out, an then two, and then three. 

     

    From there was like.... Like a jumping off point. I don't know how to describe it. I lept into the infinite or something. I felt cradled in the bosom of my higher power, what some call the Divine feminine. I could visually see these things and feel them, feel out hearts beat as one, feel myself shrink and expand, almost like being drawn back into her vagina and into the womb, and then all the way into myself, and then giving birth to myself again in this kind of infinite, hall of mirrors, fractal type thing.... IDK.

     

    I didn't think things like that were possible without drugs. I don't strive for them. I don't meditate to music often, but I am meditative while I play guitar. What are your personal experiences, S1va?

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  9. On 10/17/2018 at 2:58 PM, Marblehead said:

    I don't even have an opinion.

     

    I like you. You make me think of pu, or Pooh. This conversation in particular reminds me of Alan Watts talking about gurus and how they all hate each other, so one guru thinks,"well I'll outsmart them all!" And says,"I have no opinion on the other gurus. They are all equally valid." Thus still playing the game of the ego. The question is, if you had no opinion, would you have needed to write that? :)

     

    However, what is faking it? In AA, they used to say,"fake it til you make it." Now they say, "act yourself into a new way of thinking, don't try to think yourself into a new way of acting." They call the mind in AA "the circus" "the carousel" or "the squirrel cage." So, if I walk like a sage, talk like sage, and act like a sage, even if I don't think like a sage, then what am I? 

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  10. 18 hours ago, joeblast said:

     

    pedal, coast, pedal, coast

    This I understand this. I'm day 85 of my 100 dedicated twice a day meditation, once a day qigong foundation, And "pedal, coast" harkens back to when I was at day 30 something, the day I came here, and I'd had a "psychedelic" experience that startled or excited me. While I was waiting to get verified here, I went to 4chan of all places and actually got great guidance from an anonymous Qigong student of 25 years. His teacher I think has written books, and he emphasizes "dissolving", from ice to water, water to steam. He told me basically the same thing with a caveat about my posture. He told me I should do whatever I like, but it is important to stay in tune with the breath and the LDT, so to alternate, 5 minutes LDT, 5 minutes 3rd eye, or wherever.

     

    I knew I was not ready to pursue these experiences, so I went back to tuning the breath, only rising up there when it happened on it's own. Surrender has been a huge help in my practice. 

     

    In my experience,the LDT does seem to be the battery, there does seem to be something that happens in my testicles, perineum , liver, spleen, kidneys and stomach that produces energy. I don't understand it. I do know that if I pedal hard enough in the beginning, I can gently pedal downhill like you said, forsome time. Of course, the roads not always smooth, there are bumps, and sometimes hills, or rather, bumps which might seem like hills after coasting for 10 minutes, and the longer you travel, in my experience,the less motivation I have to pump, or there's an outside duty I must attend, like work. Otherwise, why not stay there forever?

     

    And since I found it extremely difficult to have someone tell me how to gauge progress, I will say this. The more objective your thoughts become, that's progress. So from," this is great!" and the realization that that is another way of saying that something else was mundane or not great or even bad, To, "this is warm and new" to, "this is." Also, another way, assuming you are practicing these principles in all of your affairs, is The space between thought and action will grow. And then the space between thoughts will grow. This is the next level of progress. 

     

    I'm curious about people's meditation. Taoist meditation obviously uses the energy of the body as the meditation object beyond the breath,and I like this. This is also what Eckhart Tolle recommends, and I believe he has had a permanent spiritual awakening. Even the Buddhists do this with vapassana, correct? Some say that this was a focal point of Gautama's original teaching, but was simplified. And what of mantra meditation? All, I suspect, are routes to the same thing, moments of nonduality, integrity.

     

    As I have vowed to no longer seek advice here, I'm not. I am curious about everyone's mehods and experiences. Please use as plain a language as you can, and always keep the newcomer in mind.


  11. 1 hour ago, freeform said:

    Sounds to me like you’ve got the right attitude to your training. I’m sure you’ll do great.

     

    I would certainly not take my post as instruction. The truth is that this sort of practice is passed on with a transmission, which allows the process to unfold along a specific path and passes on specific energetic and mental qualities.

     

    There are certainly important qualities to achieve - ‘quiet’ and ‘effortless’ are two of them. Each quality has very specific milestones.

     

    You can go very deep with the breath - moving from the manifestation all the way to the root (primordial) aspect. Which is where ‘meditation’ starts.

     

    Its a long process and unfortunately really does require a teacher to unfold properly. There’s a lot of subtlety and many errors to be corrected along the way.

     

    All the best on your cultivation path.

     

    PS - just to clarify ‘listening’ is not focusing. I know it sounds pedantic, but that’s how the internal arts are :) This is crucial.

    I understand 'listening'. Eckhart Tolle explains it very well. Listening automatically creates a space in you which will allow...Tao? It will allow integrity. Listening. The trick, for me, seems to be to listen and heat everything, which means also hearing nothing.

     

    Why is a teacher so important? This is the part I don't understand. The way is very simple. I thought that community, a teacher and a path were the three most important things when I started this. Now I have no idea. What I do know is asking questions about meditation confused me more. I think because I really wanted to know about Qigong or Nei Dan, but to me, those fall under meditation, but I guess not to others. Many people define meditation as sittings forgetting, but I think it csm he many things. There are many different ways to enter the void. There are also many ways to draw from the void. Tao is inexhaustible.


  12. So, like 54 days or so into my 100 days of twice daily, at least 20 minute meditation sessions, I can across a teaching of mantak chia's one night before bed, and the next day I tried it, believing it to be nei Dan. But half way through I stopped because it felt... Wrong somehow, maybe unearned? Just off....Anyway, in my best estimate, it was Kundalini I was doing under a different name, and I felt deceived in a way.

     

    So who is he? I was looking up six healing sounds to actually hear them, not just read them in a book, an the majority and most comprehensive videos are his. Is he just like every other human, and I should use anything useful from him an leave the rest, or is he a charlatan to be avoided? Thank you.

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  13. 20 hours ago, freeform said:

    Some good advice, some rather conflicting.

     

    Joeblast mentioned about the mechanics of breathing. This is essential, but it’s not meditation. Actually in Daoism meditation is only really happening when you’re completely still and quiet inside. The bar is set high - and that’s what you’re aiming for. You’re aiming for meditation, you’re not doing it (until you are!)

     

    You can practice the mechanics of breathing - which is listening to every little nuance of the soft tissues involved in breathing. Not trying to deepen or elongate your breath etc. This is a practice in its own right and it is not zhouwang - it’s breathing practice. Do it separately to meditation.

     

    For breathing practice I just listen to the tissues bit by bit, starting at all the tissues in the nose and sinuses, then little by little adding the soft pallete, the throat, upper chest etc. without dropping awareness of the earlier area you were listening to. You eventually let your listening ‘soak through’ the tissues by itself.

     

    The other important thing I wanted to mention is Observation vs Listening. In Daoism the classical instruction is to Ting (listen) not observe. And it’s ‘listen’ for a very good reason. When you observe, you ‘look for’. It’s active. Listening is receptive and passive. It also has no borders. It’s also less prone to imagination (compared to observing or feeling) You can’t help but hear the thunder many miles away or the tweeting of the birds outside - this all comes to you, you don’t go looking for it. This is a very important distinction. 

     

    In training for meditation, always focus on releasing rather than adding. Seeing is adding (the effort of looking for xxxx) Imagination is adding etc. 

     

    Release (Song) + Listen (Ting) = the basis of most of the daoist arts!

    Thank you. But this seems to conflict with yet another piece of advice I got, which was to never focus on the breath anywhere the air touches, breath silently and effortlessly, etc. But also that you must breath correctly into your LDT,and that tuning the breath with the body is key to meditation. For me, meditation is a PRACTICE. It is PRACTICE. I have learned a few skills in my life, all self taught, and one is music. I heard someone say once that good practice shouldn't sound good, but if you practice well, you can perform flawlessly, almost effortlessly. To me, this is meditation. So sometimes I meditate for 10-20 minutes, almost like a warm up, before I aim to sit quietly for another 10-40 minutes. Sometimes I go back and forth, just like with my guitar. If I see a posture issue or something, I correct it, practice for a minute, then go back. But ultimately, that is still practice. Practice for what? For the most extreme situations in life, be they success or failure, danger or promise, to be able to face them in a receptive, unattached and accepting way, THE way, maybe.

     

    Anyway, I vowed to stop asking questions about meditation here, and so I have. But I thank you. And despite previous advice, I find myself doing as you describe, only backwards. I start with a few deep breaths,clearing the lungs and drawing the LDT all the way up, contracted, including the pelvic floor, then I release and allow air in. I see it as a bellows. So then I expand from my LDT up, and eventually I come to the nose, usually, but if not,to the throat and sinus cavity. It begins to feel as though my whole body is breathing. At that point I generally let go entirely and stop focusing on the breath and sort of just exist for a bit, seeing and listening with my heart, or heart-mind. I've been doing a lot of work paying close attention to my heart, especially as feelings arise, and it would seem that the heart feels before thoughts arise, and that thoughts are a sort of reflection of reality, not reality it's self. More like adornment.


  14. On 9/16/2018 at 5:17 PM, NOONE said:

    Nungali why to get martial

    I ment you can be a master in

    Brooming ,you and the dust

    On the floor.its an art by itself

    That's funny. I just told someone the other day that if they knew the joy I got from sweeping the floor, they would stop searching for things to make them happy.

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  15. 22 hours ago, Jonesboy said:

     

    Please forgive me. I jumped in at the end and didn’t read the entire thread.

     

    I understand your frustration with all the different and often conflicting advice. There are so many different teachings and means of meditation.

     

    It does sound like you are making excellent progress. Keep doing what you are doing and please don’t give up.

     

    A suggestion, maybe just reach out to someone in PM whom you have felt has an understanding of what you are doing and you feel knows what they are talking about.

     

    Again I am sorry if I have added to your frustration.

    It's no problem. I'm just going to stop asking questions about meditation of the community. It feels like everyone wants to recits poetry or appear that they posses some secret knowledge that can't be communicated. Don't get me wrong, I love poetry, and I understand that we don't really have language to describe these experiences. But I still feel like the more I read the more confused I get. The most useful advice I got here was to breath silently and Neve focus on feeling my breath anywhere that air touches. It's something I'd already gotten to, but now I remember it as a principle.

     

    The fault is also my own for not being clear and also wanting to be encouraged in my efforts. But I don't understand. I meditate at least twice a day for 30 minutes each, but I attempt to be meditative all day long. I keep thinking there's something I'm supposed to be doing when I get to a certain point of consciousness, like reverse my breath or contract the perineum and focus on the sacrum and draw energy up the spine and all that shit, but no one can just clearly say," Once A, proceed to B, once B, proceed to C"... I guess it just doesn't work like that. I'm just going to keep doing my thing and stop making so much of an effort. I've just felt the light before and I'd really like to shed my ego. I wish I had a teacher and a community, I had come to the conclusion those were important so I sought this out. But I suppose this is a solitary path.

     

    Thanks you, an thanks to everyone. Love you all.

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  16. 8 hours ago, Jonesboy said:

     

    What I am trying to point out in your example is notice that the mind is noticing the thoughts. That the mind is now distracted with hearing the thoughts.

     

    We all notice when meditating that we are focusing let's say on the breath and the next thing we know we are aware that we are lost in some day dream or lost in some thoughts right?

     

    Once we go deeper in silence we are able to observe lets say our thoughts or even your example you notice there is some activity in the mind. Yet, there is still this mind that is drawn to the activity of whatever is arising in the mind. It pays attention to that activity, the mind is drawn to it.

     

    What is drawn to that activity that is arising?

     

    When we start meditation it is easy to notice that it is hard to keep the mind focused on the breath for instance. We are on focusing on the breath, get lost in thoughts, notice it and return back to the breath. The same thing is happening when one is in silence but the mind is being drawn to some activity that is arising. Just like with breath meditation you have no control of the mind focusing on that activity. It is a deeper thought that you are getting lost in. You may be at a level of silence but the mind then takes over to notice the activity that is arising in the silence.

     

    The next step is to get to the stage where whatever arises within the silence, it arises without you having any focus of it. It arises and passes through without the mind going there is a thought, there is a sound, there is a vision or some activity. You are pure awareness without attaching to whatever arises in the mind. 

    I very rarely get distracted from the breath. TBH, I understand what you're saying about looking for the observer, but I also find the more questions I ask, everyone tells me I'm doing it wrong, everyone gives me conflicting suggestions. Focus on the breath, don't focus on the breath, count, don't count, notice the sounds around you, don't notice anything... I'm going to stop asking for any advice or bother trying to do anything at all.  Thanks. I give up.

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  17. 5 hours ago, Jonesboy said:

    One point on Obsevering thoughts.

     

    I really liked the analogy of the mountain and the clouds. The Tibetans will often say be like the sky.

     

    With meditation and mindfulness the point is to get to the point of being able to observe your thoughts. Once you get to that point what one should notice is now at a deeper level the observing of the thought is a thought itself. Your mind focuses on the creation of a new thought.

     

    The sky doesn’t focus on the clouds passing by. The mountain cares not about the clouds around it.

     

    Try to get to the point where you are like the sky with thoughts. Let go of noticing the creation of thoughts, that your attention is drawn to one as it is passing by.

     

    Just be like the Sky.

     

     

    Is this what happens after say 20-30 minutes, when breathing is deep and natural and my mind moves from LDT back up to my head-sort-of, and I can still hear thoughts, but almost in the distance and I don't always notice what they say?

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  18. Let me talk about the story of Jesus Christ, obviously from a more objective or esoteric, not religious perspective.

     

    Jesus was the Truth, the Logos, The Word. "In the beginning was the word, and the word was with God, and the word was God." You could translate this to "mystery within mystery" or "being and non-being". The Word is Tao. The Word is the Truth. There is only one truth. It is why all men of God speak the same language. Chuang Tzu describes the fall of man exactly as Genesis does.

     

    Second, Jesus said, "He who drinks from my mouth shall become as me, and I shall be he." This is the essence of following the path of returning to Tao, God, Source, emptiness; whatever you choose to call it. Caught up in being, you see only the manifestations. Yet being and non-being create and support each other. Like all opposites, they are the same thing. They both come from source. Mystery within mystery as the gate to Tao, but also Tao itself. Tao is truth. 

     

    Also, Jesus had doubt. Doubt is normal. You are stripping away all material things, all conditioning and returning to the source of all consciousness, expressed as Christ's willing crucifixion and bearing of the cross, laboring for his own death. But it represents the death o the ego, you see?

     

    We have all had moments of truth. Maybe playing a sport, video game or music, when you enter no-mind and are able to perform flawlessly, if only for a few minutes. Watch a pitcher in baseball throws perfect game. This requires basically two hours of being in that state. Other players don't even speak to him, because they understand he is in harmony with the Tao, he has become the truth of how to pitch a baseball game. I hope this makes sense.

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  19. 1 hour ago, Small Fur said:

     

     

     

     

    AugustGrieg, these are excellent questions and yes, there is a difference between all of the conditions you named:

     

    Thought is an intellectual production of the mind and originates from the collective consciousness of the universe. Thought prior to form is energy. So part of learning to control thought, is learning how to direct energy.

     

    Intention is the product of Yi, the spirit of the spleen, and what one intends to beyond the intellect. At its lowest form of consciousness it is the psyche and its desires, but at the level of spirit, it is the conscious concentration of energetic movements into a specified form.

     

    Observation is the process of witness, which at its lowest form is intellectual-sensory cognition, but in higher meditative conditions is the process of awareness which is beyond self.

     

    Awareness at the mundane level is intellectual consciousness. As intellect dissolves and the system becomes an unobstructed vessel for transmission, then awareness becomes the action of one’s own shen or spirit; then as shen returns to its origin, awareness becomes the state of witness from the Yuan Shen or Original spirit. And finally, when one’s Original Spirit unites with Source, then it is your enlightened consciousness as the Unnamable Tao that bears witness to all.

     

     

    As to your question about whether your is experience is part of a natural progression- yes, often it is. But coming into total quietude is not necessarily the same as being conscious in true silence. To  come into the depth of silence where wisdom and consciousness resides, requires awareness, not just stillness. There is a difference between falling into a void and actually consciously entering through the passage that resides in the dark stillness of your system. Whether the chatter you experience has to do with supression, versus disassociation, versus a true refinement and discipline of the mind and its energies; depends a lot your method of practice, your ability to grounded the whole of your system, and your level of consciousness through all its processes.

     

    As for breath, breath is merely a guide into body- albeit a foundational one, but is itself not the consciousness you are seeking, though it contains within it the capacity to refine your system to more subtle levels of awareness and does also contain within it a form of awareness itself. Breath then, is a form of shen (-and I am so glad that you had that beautiful experience of health and consciousness through the shen of your breath!).

     

    There are methods of meditation and self-cultivation that provide direct access to such profound awareness completely free of the residual murmurs you are experiencing in your system. If you should ever have sincere interest in such meditative cultivation, you are welcome to consider sessions with together with me. :) In session, I can help you clarify various forms of instruction you have received such as “how to meditate without thinking” and to go beyond the pondering into silent witness and experience. While there are some common generic answers to these kinds of questions, in session I can help you discern and recognize what are your unique patterns and habits that prevent you from recognizing complete stillness; teach you how to ground not only the body but root the mind and anchor the spirit; as well as how to further refine and hone your system for more advance forms of meditative cultivation and wisdom. 

     

    My best to you and thank you for the dedication you have given to meditation, which is not only a path towards greater health and wisdom for yourself but ultimately a gift to all.

     

    Yes, I am interested in having a teacher. I consider it of Paramount importance. That's why I joined this community, because I think a community of like minded seekers is just as important. How do we proceed? Also, I read your other post on turning the light around and liked what you said about descriptions of phenomena turning into obstacles. I also liked what you said here about the breath. At first it helped, but now taking the advice on just focusing on the natural breath is holding back, because something happens at a certain point where I follow the breath until it takes me somewhere else... It's very hard to put into words, but it is like I'm in my head, but also outside of it a few inches, and also I can feel my entire body at once, buzzing and tingling, and sometimes I hear almost like a silent hum, and sounds such as crickets seem bright and clear and almost indistinguishable from myself. That's when I sometimes hear chatter, often it's not even my voice, it's not my normal inner voice, it's something else and sounds far away. But then I'll be like, "oh, I'm supposed to be focusing on the breath". But it feels more natural to just focus and let go completely an just be absorbed.

     

    Anyway, yes I want a teacher. Tell me how to proceed please and thank you for you very much. 


  20. OP I completely understand where you are coming from, at least from my own perspective. I am very high in trait openness, and thus don't care for structure. Nothing will ever change this. But as much as I'd like to drift in the æther, I still live in a house, work in a building and exist with a body.

     

    Allow me to talk about Bruce Lee and the Tao of Jeet Kun Do. Bruce felt the same way you do, and wanted liberation. He said,"Until a man has four arms and three legs, there can be only one martial art." However, to arrive at that point, Bruce studied many forms and styles, including wing Chun. But eventually he settled on a combination of boxing, fencing, savate, with a touch of wing Chun and a fundamental understanding of wrestling and grappling. He used systems to achieve liberation from systems, the way we use body and mind to achieve liberation from body and mind.

     

    I'll put it a simpler way. John Coltrane was an amazing improviser. Freedom. However, that freedom came from a fundamental understanding of music theory, and a practice in the style of the blues. Only when you learn the rules can you begin to transcend them or use the to your advantage, almost like a fulcrum. The chances of a person, including Coltrane himself, being able to pick up an instrument and just play it freely to that transcendant state that can elevate an entire generation of people with you, is extremely unlikely.

     

    Structure protects us. That is it's purpose.


  21. Everyone I've ever enjoyed. I've seen 2001 over 100 times. I watched The Shining 40+ times in the autumn/winter one year. I could watch Aranofsky's "The Fountain" any time. Groundhog Day, Shawshank Redemption, Pull Fiction are movies I never seek to watch, but will always set and enjoy if they're on. Natural Born Killers, A Clockwork Orange and Taxi Driver, there were times in my life I watched those movies everyday. 

     

    Books too. I've read Clive Barker's "Imajica" four times, no small feat lol considering it's 900 page length. Art is art. Books and films created by a true auteur take a long time to create, so if you enjoy them, thinking you can experience all the have to offer in one observation is almost vulgar to me. I look at them like albums. I prefer to listen to an album from start to finish, not piecemeal. And everyone listens to songs over and over. Watching movies is no different. I used to just keep my favorites running always on a TV, no matter what else I was doing, and some part might catch my attention and I'd watch for a bit, then get back to it, just like with an album.

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  22. I just tried this today and was finally able to duplicate results I'd had in the past naturally. I had to go against some useful meditation suggestions I'd been given, which I suppose is why some say this shouldn't be introduced to people as meditation or they will get the wrong idea.

     

    Anyway, I just want to check with my favorite community to make sure I'm on the right track, as I have no teacher, and the problem with looking something up online, especially something as esoteric and hidden as Taoism still manages to be is that you get a lot of different sources from a lot of different perspectives, difficult to discern. So I fall back on you guys.

     

    All I did differently from regular meditation was clear my breath out of my lungs first, and start stoking my belly like a bellows, first shallow and fast, but then longer and still fast, focusing on pushing out and letting it draw in naturally. Then after I felt some heat there, I settled into stillness and observed for a moment. Once I was able to focus on the LDT and let the thoughts drift away, I began to observe how the breath in expanded the perineum and the breath out let it contract. Building from this, I started to squeeze it in with the exhale and let it expand with the inhale. This was extremely clumsy at first, but I have practiced squeezing the perineum quite a bit in my life for sexual reasons, so it came quite easily to me I think.

     

    Anyway, basically this: fire, pull water in, steam fills the body,keep pumping, more heat, more steam, fire grows. When it got to the heart I panicked and stopped, but continued back on for a bit before sitting back and just observing how I felt, which was warm, pain free without medication (a miracle) happy and...whole I guess, like I was my whole body and not my thoughts, and at moments the sound of falling rain became indestinguishable from the "sound" of my own body buzzing, both in distance and as an object apart from my self.

     

    TL;DR- pumped my LDT and squeezed my perineum, felt with everywhere. Just looking for guidance and thoughts, or encouragement if it's due. Practical advice basically.

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  23. 6 hours ago, Walker said:

     

    Umm humm. Reminds me of the famous koan, "what is the sound of one hair splitting?"

     

    To the OP:

     

    The definitions of the words you mention are all worth contemplating. Many Daoist and Buddhist texts, including those aimed at beginners, both make use of these words as well as devote time to trying to clarify their implications. 

     

    Thought: This might be a translation of 念/nian, 心念/xin'nian, or 念頭/niantou. Roughly speaking, that refers to the verbalized "voice in the head" and various images that pop into the mind. 

    Intention: This may be a translation of 意/yi. In the context of some Daoist meditation techniques, it is very close in meaning to "attention," or even, "where you happen to place your mind." If you were instructed to pay attention to your breath, a Chinese teacher might say, "注意你的呼吸." The first two characters, 注意/zhuyi, are a word which would be translated for meaning as "pay attention." However, it literally means to "pour your thinking into," or something along those lines. There's no need to try and figure out what the hell it means to pour your attention somewhere; the point of this hyper literal translation isn't to enforce a hyper literal meaning--rather it's to try and soften the effect of the words and reveal the meaning. 

    Observation: This may be much the same as 注意/zhuyi. It could also be the character 觀/guan, or any of several others that are used in meditation texts and oral teachings. Sometimes 觀 means to see things in a certain way, as in when Avalokiteshvara (觀音/Guanyin) "looks upon the five aggregates as all being empty" in the opening lines of the Heart Sutra, which is a text that influenced countless Daoist writings over the last 1,000+ years.

    Awareness: Likely refers to 覺/jue. We might call this "awareness in the raw." Awareness is what underlies all of the sensory faculties (hearing, seeing, smelling, tasting, feeling, knowing the contents of one's own mind), but it is not those faculties, nor is it the sensory data they are associated with. Losing a sense faculty--e.g., becoming blind--would not lessen your awareness. Gaining a new sense faculty--your third eye opens--would not increase it. Awareness cannot be added to nor subtracted from. It has no beginning and no end. From the standpoint of we mortal humans in the world, however, it is often or usually "invisible" to us, seems to have beginnings and end, and seems to be able to be covered up or occluded. Therefore, to "become aware of awareness" is a step one finds in the teachings of many traditions, not just Daoism.

     

    These ideas can be (and in some circumstances should be) discussed at great length and in great detail, but all of that grinding of mental gears must be balanced out by actual practice if it is to be anything more than a grey hair inducing hobby. I defer to Joe Blast's posts here when it comes to actual meditation instructions. He has offered valuable insights. 

    Good stuff. I find it very difficult to balance intention and awareness though. I'm doing better, but that the issue. When I have a session where I have a breakthrough, I want it every time and so I'm missing out on other thing by cutting off my awareness as that intention turns into desire. Still, this was all extremely helpful. You get the idea from some people that youre supposed to be in a blissful trance during meditation, among other fallacies. I just wanted to be clear about things. I understand language better than anything, so thank you.


  24. 7 hours ago, Walker said:

     

    It's true that it is generally accepted in Chinese medicine for the last many centuries that there are six yang organs, called the 府/腑/fu in Chinese.

     

    However, Daoist alchemy texts like Secret of the Golden Flower rarely place heavy importance on discussions of the fu organs, and I don't remember there being any in there at all (though it's been a few years since I read it).

     

    Although I haven't seen the lines from the book that s/he is talking about, the OP gave us an important clue by mentioning that this was discussed alongside the hexagrams (卦). 

     

    When Yijing hexagrams are being discussed in the context of Daoist internal alchemy, what is being mentioned is the way in which a person who is past his or her youthful prime in terms of primordial qi (元氣/yuanqi; this prime age for qi is placed sometime during the teenage years, different for males and females), there is a gradual diminishing of primordial qi that occurs while the person ages. Full depletion of this vital energy is usually said to have occurred sometime in middle age--again, different for men and women. The depletion of this qi means the depletion of one's ming (命). However, the teaching does not seem to be that you die directly as a result of this process--obviously people live past middle age. Rather, you continue to live, but sapped of the vitality that lends itself to excellent physical and mental health and which is also recognized by Daoists as being requisite for serious spiritual practice.

     

    The presence of yuanqi in the body can be represented by unbroken yang lines (陽爻) in a hexagram. After they are "full" (the character for this is six yang lines, called 乾/Qian/Heaven), yin lines (陰爻) are depicted replacing yang lines, growing up from the bottom of the hexagram, one by one. When all of the yuan qi is gone, then you have a hexagram comprising six broken lines--it is 坤/Kun/Earth. 

     

    Restoring all of the lines in the hexagram that represents you relative level of primordial qi happens in Daoist alchemy through the practice of ming gong (命功), those practices which don't simply promote "good health," but which actually allow you to "return to spring" in terms of your qi. To have accomplished this in ming gong can be represented by an all-yang "Heaven" hexagram. 

    This is correct. I don't know what Ming gong was. Thank you. That little book is taking me forever with all of the other research I have to do. Plus, I'm going through it slowly because I get the idea it isn't for the novice to understand.