Living in perpetual hell due premature awakening in Newcomer Corner Posted January 6, 2019 1 hour ago, Sora said: Hi uselis, this brought tears to my eyes for something similar happened to me years ago and I do understand how you feel in this whole situation. I talked concisely to some folks about my spiritual deviation in another post yesterday and ran into your post by chance. → I'm going to put together what I posted in that post and start a new one as well as extend further regarding details of that incident of mine. I'll update the link to my new post here. Let's see if my experience and any replies from other friends in TDB can hopefully help with your situation. Stay strong and calm and remember you are not alone. 🙏🏻❤️ Thank you for support! I get small relief from comunicating with people who understands this. Yesterday I tried to explain my mom that even though I feel suicadal (not going to do this) it's something else then mere deprression. On evenings I hold my head by two hands and can't stand discomfort while my mom asks "what's exactly wrong" yet I can only answer that I feel my brain hot and not feeling well.