Hey xabir (and Vajra and CowTao), yesterday I was observing my thoughts trying to look for an I. Something shifted and I see the only I that ever existed was in the thoughts. There is an I because the thoughts said so.
It was so obvious there was never an I apart from the thoughts. Thing is the moment I try to describe the experience, the I has slowly crept back in and I'm back to living my thoughts again.
I've almost forgotten what the seeing is like and now all that's left is an understanding the seeing left behind.
Hearer was never there, it was only a thought that says "I am hearing." Seer was never there, it was only a thought that says "I am seeing." Thinker was never there, it was only a thought that says "I am thinking."
There was no truth to anything apart from what the thought says, if I am confused or frustrated it was because the thoughts said so. I will never know otherwise because I was never not my thoughts.
The seeing was doubtlessly real but if it can be lost, might it be a false seeing?
I'm still trying to get back into seeing as of now.