aiyo everyone, after reading the initial post and responses I feel a lot of anxiety coming at this topic. I am new to posting and learning from this forum, just as I am new to the practices and ideas of Taoism. However I have felt in my own life a definite sense of depletion after any sort of ejaculation. What really turned me onto this forum was the positive and realistic approach taoism and many of the posting members have towards this issue. The person who said "You are as powerful as you give yourself permission to be." is for sure right in my mind. You just gotta realize that just like everything, every ejaculation can be perceived as a positive experience launching you along into the future. You just have to decide where you will focus your eyes, on the dark or the light of the experience. When I ejaculate, either on purpose, accident, or nocturnally, I just smile upon the experience knowing there is something to learn from it.
Thought I would chime in cause this issue makes its way into my thoughts quite often now.