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  1. I am also very sensitive to this, especially with my business so is perhaps why it grew so fast. However i created a habit where i felt compelled to act on those opportunities and although very lucrative, it made me mildly anxious and not helpful for relaxation.
  2. Yes it can feel a bit strange sometimes but i found just starting with very small things helpful like having shelter or nice weather etc. I know what you mean though. Yesterday i was in the city and those i was with were saying this and that about the city were good but it was meaningless to me, ive always preferred natural spaces. However reflecting on it i was perhaps restisting their sharing of gratitude? Im not sure, this is all new to me
  3. I began just by using a guided meditation and found it very good, but there was no sharing involved. How do you share gratitude? With the guided meditation i was guided to be greatful for small things like my heart beat, breath, the chair holding my weight.... then on to other things and just thinking of things i was greatful for. Do you just mention to others from time to time how we are lucky to have this and that? Anything else beyond thay and just saying thankyou for other peoples help?
  4. Perspective shifting

    Also walking through nature, looking at the trees in the forest, i think there are too many things to focus on (each leaf, bark, etc) and so your brain can't cope and so the shift occurs. Also there is a psychologist approach where one shakes their head from side to side, it's called EMDR.
  5. Perspective shifting

    First thanks OP for the topic this is great and one that discusses in essence what has been going through my mind in recent times, and the NASA video is mind blowing.... I can see your point however.... This is more down my alley of how i feel, however i was forced into a perspective shift.... Can the wall or dam in the picture above not also be acting as a filter too? Keeping all the shit out so one can bring in the refined tip top golden spring water? Of course this is an assumption because i don't open up the dam, for a long time now i have used qigong to refine the water to such a high level that my life was absolutely ace. I couldn't ask for anything, it was perfect as i had refined it over many years, had the perfect busy clinic, awesome family, a pile of money only working 25-30 hrs a week, and plenty of free time to go spearfishing, go holidaying or to persue my hobbys. .... that was until disaster struck and all the water on the outside turned to shit and i was no longer able to refine gold out of it. I smashed a bone in my foot into what ended up being 15 pieces and couldn't walk or enjoy any of the gold i had refined, 6 weeks i fell over again and knocked it again. After 3 months of no weight bearing I was told it wasn't even starting to heal and i might lose my foot. At this point i realised how poor my skills in meditation was, even though i had practiced qigong daily for around 15 years and some of that time very intensely. I found it very hard to hold it together and my whole world felt like it was caving in, i didn't want to be crippled. Luckily since then I've improved dramatically and at 6 months i can walk/limp around and am working in my clinic again and i have life outside of my couch. In another 6 months i'll be alright and again i will be able to enjoy the gold i've mined, hopefully with just a bit of pain remaining, but the experience sure was an eye opener. What changed for me was a perspective shift, but i didn't want to. I read disabled people's blogs and felt doomed and the old samurai's motto of death before dishonour really rang home. I really felt for those paraplegics in some of the blogs i read and thought that living a life as those guys and gals do would be meaningless for me. I remember reading one lady who always wanted to kill herself but she wasn't even able to because she couldn't move, and she couldn't get anyone to even help her over - even over a period of years! Finally she got over that stage in her life but what a nightmare that some people live in! Where mindfulnes to me had always meant being mindful of what was happening, watching everything like a movie, qigong had trained me in terms of positives and negatives. Although i had had the oneness experience periodically it wasn't something i enjoyed and reverted back to dualism because i found it more enjoyable, it gave me something to strive for, meaning in life, and excitement. However this left me having desires, the vast majority of which required me to be able to stand/walk which made my situation difficult to accept. In my years of qigong practice i had become more and more masterful so that i could control almost everything and refine everything to my desires, however this rude awakening reminded me that no matter how good one becomes at qigong, they can't control everthing. So then having no other choice i started learning to give up desire which initially made everything feel meaningless. It didn't feel nice at all but it was either that or neverending fustration and sadness which was literally killing me. Later mindfulness changed so that when things that I didn't like arose instead of trying to fix them, i invited the shit feeling in let it stay as long as it wanted, then let it leave when it was ready. It was a bit like going to the gym and doing weights, yet with my emotional self, building up my resilience to feeling like shit. While i felt the importance of this mindfulness practice, and the freedom of being less affected by different emotions or situations, through my own lense it was akin to learning to be happy living in shit (of which my perspective didn't have the same appeal as a book i once saw called 'being happy for no good reason' haha). I suddenly saw the christian point of view (or as i understand it) that the world is shit and we need salvation. It was work to keep constantly propping myself up, keeping myself happy and working at being happy for no reason. Now i have to conceed that as my situation has changed, the moment i have been able to walk/limp 2kms again my desires are returning once again with increadable strength, my spirit is lifted on it's own by the pure wonderfulness of being able to enjoy and actively participate in my life once again. I am however aware that in the future, as i age more (currently 36) i will be forced to give up more and more and i will need to shift my perspective more and more frequently, and therefore i expect it will become easier and easier with age. I realise the need for balance for both dualism and from the one.... to cope with the joys of getting old as so many of my clients call it. But even after all that i could not see any reason to live consistantly 'on the high road' as somebody put it? Why would one want to give up giving their life a meaning, or letting the opportunity to have and furfill their own desires pass them by? We all have a chance to grow old and have this forced apon us, and in death it's likely that the situation will be inescapable. What leads some of us to want to chose the high road? Certainly that rough period is something i would take in my stride again if it meant i could once again strive, compete and experience within the increased intensity and wildness of physical sensations once again. That is to say i wouldn't give up the bad if it meant giving up the good too, unless forced to, and even then only as much as i had to
  6. The majority of my experiences with qigong have been with working with an energy in different ways to derive different results (ie. different orbits or working with different channels, or directing the chi to different areas), but it is only more recently that i have spent time working with different energy. Recently i have spent more time trying to be greatful and and have found it good for my heart. It brings feelings of calmness and helps with being in the moment and an increased sense of awareness. Previously I have spent alot of time cultivating what i would have considered happyness and joy or love. I've cultivated this with mental images of what I thought had previously brought me joy and happiness. The feelings associated with achieving a goal or hugging my young kids, my wife, or even the feeling that came as a child by hugging my mother when i was feeling upset and that hug just made me feel better. These emotions however tend to draw me in to working to increasing their intensity because they are pleasurable and perk me up more, I have recently been questioning whether what i believed was love was less love in a meditative sense than the feeling of gratitude. But my skill in this area of working with gratitude is as a beginner and i'm not sure where i'm supposed to be going with it. Doing qigong with what i called the happiness feeling gave me a sense of power, especially when working with it through the body in different ways it gave me a sense of control. Not of being able to control everything but at least a portion of it, and when unsure of how to reach a desired result the energy would show me. For example compressed chi in the dantien would rush to a sick area when i 'let it go' so to speak, or my intention was no longer to gather the energy in the dantien. This type of qigong i grew very passionate about, however the deeper i went with it the more difficult it became to relax. I feel that was not love after all despite what i learned to be the definition of love through healing tao fusion practice. The feelings were primarily linked with that feeling of satisfaction, of having achieved a goal, with what i now would associated with a dopamine type sensation. Although admitedly it did draw an expansive type experience, however that was a byproduct of the practice. So then what is the energy work associated with gratitude? Where do I go from here? I found the happiness type of energy is very easy to compress into the dantien, and very easy to get a hold on with the mind and to work with. I've found the feeling of gratitude or of being greatful or thankful is not so easy to work with.... Like trying to gather gratitude into the lower dantien, i don't think i can? It feels expansive. Previously using the happiness type qi, it had it's own mind, and it was easier to read the mind of, and learn from a compressed energy version of it. However with gratitude energy, trying to direct it to the dantien, it is like it is in opposition.... it's like trying to control the 'giving up' feeling that is associated with gratitude, and the feeling of gratitude is lost with the work. How to develop this type of practice further or deeper? What are the benefits of deeper work? Are there any offshoots to this style of practice you could recommend? Thanks in advance! Louis
  7. Pyramid Power!

    It's funny you should say this. Often when i treat clients they have areas where they are ticklish and guard because they dont' want to be worked on there. Once i release the area the following week the tickelishness is much less and their symptoms much less. This is very common
  8. Bone Healing

    What is the old method of bone healing?
  9. Bone Healing

    Hi Ya Mu, I am very interested to know what sort of accelleration of healing are you talking about? Like how much faster are people's fractures typically getting better? 4 weeks ago i shattered my Navicular into at least 9 pieces .....they can't operate on it because there is nothing to screw into, the bone is all in pieces. Where the navicular joins to the the talis looks all spikey from the MRI where the articulating surface should be smooth. There is very little blood supply to this bone and from reading around this is going to be many months before i can even start to hobble around putting any weight on this for short periods. The doctor said if i can walk in 1 year and it gets sore at the end of the day that would be a good outcome. Talking to more people and reading around the net there are some real horror storys so I really need to get this right... i'm only 36 with a young family. I've been meditating for years, healing tao style, and i read your book some 10 years ago. If you had any advice for me of what to do specifically for fracture healing and the type of energy to do it with it would be fantastic. I've been drinking bone broths and raw vegetable juices to try to give it all the nutrtion i can, and having my wife do Bowen therapy treatments on me. I have practically no pain which i guess is one good thing but i am no weight bearing in a cast still. Do you think it's good to continually direct energy to the area frequently, or do it for a period only once per day or once every few days or what have you found to work well? What type of energy? Like kundalini sexual / earth type energy or heavenly heat type energy? or a mixture of both, or how should it be structured? Or should i forget about the energy and just be? What do you think of magnets? have you tried them? Im still able to work in clinic a couple of hours a day from a wheely chair before i get a sore hip / back from just standing up on one leg from time to time when it's needed but this really does suck and i want it to get better asap. I want to be able to walk properly again and if i could run i would be over the moon. Thankyou in advance, Louis.
  10. Microcosmic Orbit Questions

    I think this is sound advice. I think it's not that what you're doing in your practice is wrong, it's just that it's not right for your body right now. Something else i could recommend is to ignore the energy and concentrate on the physical. You can do that by feeling the weight of your body, or the weight of different organs, or even just like your arms, feeling the meat hanging off your bones etc. This feeling the weight of my body helps me feel relaxed and stop thinking about the chi. Mantak chia's healing sounds, they're great and fix a huge amount of issues. Don't smile or concentrate on the energy at any time, just do the sounds and feel the weight of an organ during the breathing break time. I also find having an external focus is calming. Feel your clothes touching your skin and the wind, sun etc around you, and your weight. I have a thought that when people concentrate on gods etc, they are all external and make one feel more relaxed. Awareness outside is more calming, but when there is desire to change any sensation then stress kicks in. Awareness is more relaxing, focusing creates more tension. Through bodywork i have found alot of tension is held in the neck / jaw area or around the pelvis. Try stretch your neck, jaw by putting a cork inbetween your teeth to stretch your jaw muscles for a few minutes, stretch your shoulders, spine and hips. Long stretches 60seconds + are the best for reducing tension. There are screening tests that i do by looking at leg length. Likely you have tension causing one leg to be longer than the other, you could have somebody check for you while you lay on your belly with your feet hanging over the edge of the bed. If you turn your head either side and leg length changes so that the short leg changes to the long leg, then you have a problem in your neck. If it changes when you turn your head both sides, you have a problem in your jaw / or sphenoid bone alignment which runs through your skull. If you flex your knees and the short leg switches over you have a problem around your pelvis. If it doesn't change over you have a problem somwhere but the screening isn't showing you where, but it is likely around the coccyx or jaw. People tend to have one major muscle spasm, this is in osteopathic, chiropractic and other bodywork theory that influences the nervous system. Once you unlock that sustatining muscle spasm every other tension in your body will relax and you will have balance within the nervous system. Thats to say you have one major blockage and other blockages will all release from that one. There can be other layers, and as you remove one layer, another can present it's self but this will show in the screening tests i mentioned above. Once leg length is even, and there is tonal symetry of the body this indicates that your nervous system is balanced and you will feel the results via your awareness easily. Its taken me 3-4 years to become OK at using this method, but it definately is a great addition or test to use along with qigong practice to help you know you are going the right way. Hope it helps.
  11. The paradoxial nature of philosophicalising about these types of questions makes it difficult in the discussion. For me, being very spiritual, expanded out, seeing the larger picture gives me the calmness and emptiness i need to see clearly, along with the greatly expanded insight i need to know what needs to be done to achieve my souls destiny. This view alows changes on the macro level to be acieved very quickley and create huge external material changes, like business profits, creating health and wellbeing in the community, or spreading the good word. These destinys can be achieved with great speed and with great power, however this can leave me feeling empty inside, instead i get propped up by my community that i help improve. Yet alas its not enough, and none the less it becomes meaningless internally, so much so that if i continue along this path i would give it all away and have nothing.... The light side. Then on the other hand, contracting, attention to detail, and the feeling of inner power while losing the strength of that spiritual connection gives me the desire and the drive to put plans in motion that came to me through realizations while being in an expanded spiritual state. This is how i can create heaven on earth. The joys and the thrills of achieving and self fulfillment feels glorious and tremendus as each next milestone is reached.... until the attention to detail changes to perfectionism. Relaxant type drugs create the space to allow more of this joy, and drive further to bring this heaven to earth in a percieved even greater, yet forceful way, the thirst for more becomes insatiable... destroying ones self in the process, the dark side. The joy is perhaps what i began to develop first in my practice some 15 years ago when i became sick, it drew me to the practice of qigong and the pleasure gave me the patience to practice for hours on end, yet it fell to the wayside as it felt meaningless to be estatically happy without reason, and of percieving there to be more power in both the yin and the yang, or the heavens and earth. The joy is now my least developed power and having a job and business i love where i make great money doing few hours, helping alot of people, an awesome family, yet all the work to get to here has the pleasure associated with having such treasures fade. I need now work on my practice of joys again, whilst i know that during this process i will lose some of my treasure, and so the cycle will continue. The stars in the sky that catch my eye twinkle red green blue and white. That is what i think we need to be like. Sometimes the proton, sometimes the electron, and sometimes the neutron. Transitioning between the spiritual, the physical and the joy isnt easy, each gains momentum and the power lies in that momentum, but it is a contantly changing path we need to take to keep happy in our lives and maintain them.
  12. Will Power vs. Intent

    So how then do most people of recent times have more willpower to eat than their spirit power that they repeately express that leads them to want to lose weight.... it seems the result of their actions shows they have more power leading away from the direction of their spiritual direction of wanting to lose weight. I don't think you can say one experiences less power when they go against the will of their spirit. It takes alot of spirit power to overcome the momentum power of consiousness repetition.... that momentum becomes very strong.... spirit takes constant consious effort, and dare i say it, desire for change, to make that change. All animals walk the same way in a forest, thats why there are tracks. Consiousness, regardless of what type repeats the same thing over and over, it's hard for the spirit to overcome this. One way it can do it is by constantly changing the path so as to not develop a momentum of a partiucular path. But like i said, that is constant sustained consiousness.
  13. Will Power vs. Intent

    Whaaa? Do you mean to do something that goes against the will of your spirit? Do you have an example of this point? I'm not sure what you're trying to say...
  14. Will Power vs. Intent

    I always thought of it as, intent is what your spirit intends to do. I intend to get fit and lose weight. My willpower is weak so i give up after a few days, my intent is still there but my willpower is weak. Weakness in willpower is due to weakened kidneys, exhaustion. The stronger your kidneys, the less intent you need, because you intent lightly and the willpower carries you through. If your willpower is weak, your spirit needs to be strong - there at work constantly reminding you of your direction.
  15. UFC Fighter Says He Will Defend Tai Chi

    Mmmmm. I think it's important to consider that these MMA fighters are Professional Fighters. That's what they do for a living. It's their full time job to train, fight and win money. They put their bodies through tremendous strain and most compete for a short period of time (Like professional football players) then retire. I'm not sure Tai Chi masters these days are the same. Perhaps in the warring states periods of China Tai Chi practitioners in the Army may be on the same sort of practice routine but i doubt so these days. Tai chi prepares the practitioner to always be switched on and ready for defense if somebody attacks. It's a lifelong journey. I remember my dad saying that back in the 70s and earlier there were many competitions between the eastern martial artists and western boxers, and the western boxers usually won. I think there are several factors contributing to this. Although it's true that most real Tai Chi masters have no pride and wouldn't fight in a competition. They probably pick rice in some tiny village or something and wouldn't put themselves in that type of danger just for money. But even still, these MMA guys are usually bigger, heavier and stronger than your typical tai chi guy. People may say size doesn't matter, it's agility and timing that makes tai chi so powerful, but regardless, weight does matter. They wouldn't have weight classes in martial art competitions if weight was meaningless. I've seen a pack of 4 - 6 tigers struggle and unable to beat an full sized elephant on David Attenborough.