repost, sorry if im spamming. but i cant imagine the mods not seeing my post for a month. trying to see if i did something wrong that made my first post get overlooked,. i did not post it in the newcomer section because it doesnt allow me to start a topic there for some reason, only in the welcome section i have a start new topic bar available
Hi people,
i mainly came over to this forum out of desperation and worry, i dont practice qigong. But im having some issues im trying to resolve as a result of a hypnotherapy session gone bad.
and i dont really know where else to ask. il just post my question and hope somebody can provide some insight advice or help.
from what i understand daoists work with the nervous system among other things. and i think this may have meesed up my energetics or nervous system.
i went to a hypnotherapist,
i was led into trance and guided through a hypnotic timeline process, basicly in short i was asked to use a childhood memory to access a feeling state and then amplify that via techniques , and also summon an extra feeling state.
i was then asked to be transported to the moment of my birth infuse my entire timeline with those feelings.
it uses a symbolic visualisation of a timeline. to walk that state/energy forwards from the moment of birth into to the present moment.
the timeline starting at my moment of birth. has tiles on it that would represent all my life experiences and every tile i stepped on would enfuse with this energy. and run over ithe tiles all the way to the present.
the problem is the feeling / state / energy used is not a good state and my body doesnt respond well to it, . so i basicly wired in something very bad.
it kept filling my body many times a day and i couldnt stop it..
it made me sick for weeks. and its still borthering me alot. and i have no idea how to undo it, im also worying about what its doing to my body
its gotten less in intensity thankfully.
i dont know what to make of it,
im worried that i changed my nervous system somehow altered the way it normally sends electricity or something. it seems to be colliding.
normally when you access a state inside your body it just activates in your entire body. but here its different it starts and then slowly moves through my nerves. i never had an experience of something starting locally in my body and then slowly filling me up.
the energy - the state seemed to be coming from a place outside my body and entering in my body at the back of my upperlegs where it burns, and then very slowly moves downwards to my ankles, then going under my footsoles where it burns alot, and moving up again on the front of my legs, moving into my stomach era where it began filling me up making me sick and gives me stomach cramps, slowly filling my body and then basicly up towards my solar plexus.
-it may not come from outside my body at all and instead just be programmed in a certain area of my body and not the rest,.
during the hypnosis process when i was engaging with the energetic state - my back of neck era, back of spine area, and what felt like the nerves and muscles of the back of my legs were heavility tensing and deeply untensing - so permaps it got programmed in at those points because those ereas were very active and may have become the focus point.
so maybe instead of coming from outside my body it just starts somewhere there.
its gotten alot less in intensity so i cant feel it that well anymore. i just feel the cramps in my stomach, sick feeling. burning in my footsoles. cold although no longer icecube ice cold. just cold mixed with some warm sometimes. lighter left arm
i always tought energy was supposed to move upwards? this clearly moves down at the back and it seems to be fighting with how my nervous system normally would work. besides the burning i would also get twitching and spasming of muscles. all kinds of weird nerve sensations beyond the burning.
my body feels constantly cold or coldish but every now and then it temporarily stops and then the sort of bad energy i feel moving up through my stomach to my solar plexus - to my face i feel going down. warmth begins moving up the back of my body and spine again and over my scalp , and most turns really warm again.
the sensations in my back legs disappear, and the burning in my footsoles returns to normal.
it also starts when my penis get stimulated, in the beginning my orgasm was very drasticly changed by it, getting stimulated also activates it.
- it created a sense of massless ness when it just began, feeling super light weightless. but thats mostly gone now - i think that was maybe caused by me trying to block it constantly and my nervous system acting up in responce getting over stimulated, though i still feel a bit lighter. and i still get a massless left arm alot.
-i kept getting hot and icecold - in the beginning i felt my nerves get crazy burning hot for periods of times in different areas. and then it would get icecold.
sorry for the messy post t i didnt really know ehow to write this or even what to ask exactly.
is there anybody that has an idea? advice? anything really? this has been gonig on since november - and althrough not as radical as in the beginning, it doesnt seem to be stopping it impairs my functioning and quite frankly im really worried about it creating sickness in my body. and i dont know how to fix this, what if it permanently screwed up my bodys working these are the kind of things im tihnking.
thanks for your time,
