Hello my name is Marcus from the U.K. I have so many questions but for the sake of brevity I'll ask only a few in my debut post!
Over the years I've had many experiences which have totally dismantled the materialist worldview I grew up with. I'm talking about OBE's, Telepathy, Law of Attraction, Chi, Kundalini and Semen Retention. It's the latter three I'm currently most interested in and a very unsettling experience I had with them. About 2 years ago I had read a book which outlined a basic Kundalini meditation to perform following a period of celibacy which I duly did.
Late at night I sat upright on my bed with my eyes closed (having retained for a good month at this point) and focused on my perineum region and imagined a ball of white light growing stronger and stronger as I was instructed by the book to do. Then I noticed it became a very real sensation, not something imagined at all. By power of thought I moved the ball of light upwards but instead of a ball of light anymore it felt like an air bubble in my spinal cord slowly rising up. Again, I stress how physically real this felt. After a few moments I felt the 'air bubble' reach the base of my skull/brain stem and instantly I felt an incredible heat flash over and through me. I was sweating from every pore immediately, my heart pounded and I became very scared. This was in stark contrast to the relaxation I felt at the start of the meditation. I couldn't believe that by power of thought and meditation alone (two things my subconscious had previously regarded as very innocuous) I could have had such a profound and REAL physiological experience. But the experience had only just begun.
Great waves of energy surged around in my skull in what seemed like a double helix pattern and my heart continued to race. After a while I somehow (and I still don't know how) managed to get to sleep. When I woke a few hours later I had FULL BODY tremors as though I was being electrocuted at random. This was totally involuntary shaking and it scared the hell out of me. I couldn't go to work that day or do anything except pace around my apartment trying to burn off all this 'Chi?' I had coursing throughout my body. I asked my wife to look up what to do in case kundalini meditation went wrong. She said that 'grounding' was a common suggestion so I got her to drive me to the local park and I walked around barefoot which really did seem to discharge most of the energy.
Ever since I've been too chicken-s*** to even meditate or begin Tai Chi or Qi-Gong (even though that's what my higher self keeps suggesting I do) because I really don't want to go through that again. Am I worrying unnecessarily? Could Tai Chi or Qi-Gong help me gain control over this powerful energy I have inside? I still practice Semen Retention and I feel the huge potential of this Chi or Jing inside me but I never try to raise it up intentionally for fear of a repeat of what happened 2 years ago.
Your thoughts would be very much appreciated.
Marcus
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