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Hello — and I will express now gratitude over this situation of “exchange” with this space-group.
I am filling these details and this story out in this realm so that I may more clearly get a sense of reflection and a more precise angle on viewing the source and extent of what I will loosely call “my” energies and trajectory. For those who choose to embark on any part of this written journey, I offer my blessings and a respectful nod and a warm smile. I welcome to meet with any form of interaction you may wish to contribute to this thread.
I demonstrated what I would call now “high levels” of natural presence and awareness as a child. As I grew and began developing and exploring, I consumed various “toxins” which were seemingly carried to me in such containers in my universe such as: (riding within the energies of) my parents, my younger sister, my parents cohorts...adherents of the Church of Christ movement as uniquely expressed in the Midwest USA “skin/coloring/version”, and Public Schooling. . . and when I say “toxins”, the main categories of this container are: [human-social-nettings](fear, anger, attachment, delusion, suffering, existential anxiety, survivalist-primal-level unconscious selfishness, energy vampirism, great exuberant passion and feelings of love toward abstract concepts that I couldn’t connect to, sexual guilt and shame, dread, the downcast qualities which only the thoroughly oppressed and defeated personalities would express), [environmental-toxins](Food from Walmart, fast-food, artificial food completely divorced from the vitality of life)(Polluted air...my first decade was 1990-2000...urban environment) and [Trauma] such as circumcision, etc., etc.
Well okay, 28 years in and this all feels largely flushed out of my system, some mental and emotional and energetic remnants still in there I sense...sure, but we are working on this everyday...and sure, I am not presently located in a nature sanctuary either.
One part of my journey has been ingesting plants such as cannabis, mushrooms, and some occasions with not as gentle things such as LSD, MDMA, and DMT. Okay, so those insights have been helpful but also tied into pockets of psychosis and auric tears maybe that developed during some of these experiences, and there has been a lot of uncertainty and confusion present. . . I certainly didn’t seem to have a strong enough Root to stay grounded and integrated during some of these phases...so sure, there are some knots here blocking clear presence and energy, but as before we are working on this everyday.
I have seen and felt a lot of different Realms... I have always had moments of lightly having a “mostly vague” feeling/sense/awareness that there were other beings that I could not perceive around me... I have perceived and exchanged feelings and telepathy with “angelic beings” as well as felt “pressed on”, “pulled down”, and even “penetrated” by “Shadow-Monster-influenced beings”...I have felt telepathy and full grokking empathy with other humans and animals and insects...and weather patterns and physical objects.
I am Beyond using plants (mostly)...(the desire and longing is certainly there)...
I have been exposed via a live-in situation to Tibetan Buddhism as expressed in the Shambhala Buddhism Tradition.
Different yoga forms before that. . . Hatha, Kundalini. . .different Tantric experiences...
Some of the Xientienwujimen hermit lineage qigong. Just the intro-levels.
Some different intuitive forms express themselves through my energy at times, and have taught me...but some of these experiences are also merged with different plant experiences so the integrity and validity of these movements have confusion surrounding them.
I invested in 5 of Siri Terry Dunn’s Chi Kung for health DVD’s...Flying Phoenix Tradition...practiced across the first three with varying degrees of regularity. I felt stable wellness and great things...but drifted away for some circumstance or another. It is calling me back I believe.
I recently came across the Falun Gong \ Falun Dafa movement, and was Immediately delighted to begin displaying fervent obsession and excitement over everything about it: the potency of the energy cultivation, the language and aesthetic of the View and Practice, but while reading other mentions of Falun Gong various energies of doubt and uncertainty have reached me, and so practicing feels unstable and I am not as ease with it for whatever circumstance.
And now I find myself here, feeling gratitude as I fill out these details and this story for my own self-clarification as well as for a Stylized and Graceful entry into this realm.
I largely feel more stable, sovereign, and capable than I have ever been before, and I am on this indescribable path of enlightenment. I have an inclination to stick with one path all the way, and at the same time I have an inclination and apparent aptitude toward synthesizing a unique and powerful new type of vehicle to progress down the Great Path in style (because why not?) In any case the horizon of my life in my world seems infinite and compelling, and I am allowing myself to be led by curiosity and love as I shatter beyond all limitations and illusions.
