Hello everyone, I'm experiencing some issues at the moment, so if you have familiar experiences I would be grateful for any advice.
So I'm trying to change my life for better, find a new place, new job again and again, hobbies, but I carry a bad negative energy( or aura I don't know) from the past.
I'm not an angry person, but I feel that I have a lot of bottled anger in me, my unconscious mind always starts negative thinking about particular one person which was in my life for many years, last years I just couldn't stand that person but he kept showing up in my life if I ignored him, he used my fears to get in to my life, I just didn't knew how to react then because I wasn't unware of my self.
So I'm not in touch with that person for about 2 months I gave him clear message that I don't want to be in touch with him anymore, he's not calling or texting me anymore but using other people to get to my space, still showing around the place where I live, wants my energy.
So lately I been waking up at 2AM in the morning fully awake, feeling some strong negative feelings emotions which quickly passes away. Mind racing with negative past thoughts experiences, I cant stop them just trying to stay present.
Last night before sleep I did some Meditation, did short session of Zhan Zhuang went to sleep. Had a dream for first time in my life as I can remember that I was expressing my anger to one person, physically beating him shouting on him, made sure that all others around see that and hear it. I was scaring that person made sure he knows that in the future I will do the same thing to him. After that I walked away the corner and
had a feeling that I been chased by that group of people who been there, I hide in the grass and watch who's passing by but it wasn't them.
so I woke up completely calm 2.30 am my mind was not racing, I read online that 2 AM is a liver channel, and anger is stored in liver,
all makes sense.
Wonder is there some methods like maybe shaking practise or something to release that anger energetically , because I think by being aware
and meditating helps me understand my anger issues but it doesn't release it energetically.
Thanks Peace
