That sounds as if you actually desire a partner, it just didn't work out so far. In that case, going celibate may seem to be 'the easy way out', but actually be tantamount to an act of repression that could indeed mess you up quite badly eventually.
How about first exploring why it's so difficult for you to find someone? You may discover that you have some blockades to resolve - and doing so could take you to a whole new level of personality unfoldment.
But if you eventually conclude that you are simply not interested in having relationships, then it will be a decision based on deep introspection and you will be able to follow that path with confidence, no matter what others may say or think.
Either way - best of luck to you!
You are certainly right. I do still desire companionship but at times I connect that to my lack of practice. I tend to desire having someone fill up my empty space with me when I don't stick to my internal practices. But maybe even that is suppression.
To be honest I just don't think I deserve a relationship. I don't feel the most attractive. Am pretty skinny with out much ability to change it (very difficult to gain weight ). And I don't think I can offer much sexually in a relationship which I tend to assume is pretty important for most girls.
So I tend to find more relief in just letting go of the idea of partnership or finding one. I just haven't been able to stick to letting go of it. That might be another sign of more repression. If that's the case I'm not sure where to go from there.